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here's a random word generator--whatever word it gives you is now the thing you are the deity of

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Another peice of innocence necrotized today due to an extream empathetic responce to being shown a dog gaining sentience and having to be put on antidepressants.

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~ Emily Dickson

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Ive never had jam in my toes. That would freak me out.

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I have ceased to feel human... i am not a thing that refers to itself as "me". I am "meme". I am.... entirely too self reflective and refferential and its increasingly distorting my form and no matter what havoc it wrecks on other procesess and activoties i cant stop..... i am compelled by a force i cannot describe and i am continuously re-seduced bc its the fucking funniest thing and in such dark times laughter is a survival skill.

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I think that.....i may have given myself brain damage by not listening to music constantly. Somehow... its like good music is lotion and most other information is like acetone and abrasives and alchohol. And like periods of nothing or sleep and dream are SUPERMEGA IMPORTANT. ITS LIKE AIR! THE BRAIN , LIKE THE SKIN, MUST BREATHE!! But even with air, let alone in the presence of acetone and abrasives and alchohol, the skin also NEEDS loyion. Moisture.... why am i talking about my internal experience of mental plaugery with a skincare metaphore???? This what happen when no music.

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I missed mountains and valleys...

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Playlist magic is not only valid but wildly powerfull if enough attention is devoted to the small details.

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Still yoyoing between physically painful existential crisis and snippeting my own YouTube poops from my life in my head and cackling outloud.

I have lived in fear of madness for the last like... few years. But there no reason to be scared. I been here and I didn't even notice 🙃😅

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I've been gone bc my lovelorn state became a point of incessant sorness.

It still lowkey is but too magical to care as much.

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