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i'm rewatching s1 in preparation for the last season and GUYS gi-hun wears 001's jacket during the game of marbles - the game gi-hun cheats at to live... only to find out 001 was never going to die.

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067 (0+6+7 = 13 -> death)

has a very transformative experience while playing the games especially when playing marbles. unfortunate for her, she has an unforgettable death moment where she's dying from her internal wounds only for 218 to "unexpectedly" kill her before she could succumb to the wound. like the mourners in the card, 456 is so devastated by her death that it changes his outlook on the final game.

218 (2+1+8 = 11 -> justice)

is the first person to mention the voting process to leave the game on the show. also kindly let ali borrow money and his phone... despite the final rounds, he began the games with a level of fairness kept in mind.

101 (1+0+1 = 2 -> high priestess)

perfect definition of reversed high priestess energy, he shows time and time again that his is disconnected from his own intuition - he doesn't know who to trust outside or even inside the games. he also relies too heavily on others when it comes down to it...

456 (4+5+6 = 15 -> devil)

gi-hun is like the terminator he just keeps coming back for more - but seriously homeslice literally comes back to the worst place he has ever been and where he has faced his own addiction with games... also he tends to make the same mistakes over and over like trusting people he thinks he knows...

333 (3+3+3 = 9 -> hermit)

myung-gi is a cryptocurrency influencer... its virgo male coded... but also i would like to predict him dying in darkness or being alone in some fashion during the final season's games. if not that then, i believe 222 is going to leave him in the dust.

388 (3+8+8 = 19 -> sun)

tell me dae-ho doesn't have hella youngful energy? also of naivety??? the sun is explorer so either he is a VIP or he could escape (by mere luck)... OR, which i think is most likely, he will end up being somewhere he shouldn't be and be killed for it.

246 (2+4+6 = 12 -> hanged man)

martyr coded... we just knew he was gonna die... and it's a horribly sad story because his sick daughter is all alone now...

120 (1+2+0 = 3 -> empress)

GET IT GET IT GET IT!!! i am sorry WHAT that is so on the nose. a trans woman as the empress is crazy spot on. i love it!! i saw that and was like *GASP*!!! also *gasp* because its park sung-hoon

007 (0+0+7 = 7 -> chariot)

oof more reversal energy... that man hesitated so hard when it came to getting his mother in my opinion and he hesitated when voting too... not to mention the lack of impulse control that he has...

149 (1+4+9 = 14 -> temperance)

i have seen a lot of people saying that she is a VIP and i disagree especially if this matrix numerology is still spot in s3. she is definitely a "friend" and not a foe.

390 (3+9+0 = 12 -> hanged man)

another martyr coded person. he was set up so the audience would love him and feel like he was a good person only for him to get swept away by someone who he just knew too much about.

222 (2+2+2 = 6 -> lovers)

bro please hear me out... front man's wife died carrying their baby - what if his empathy and projection of his history on to her is what ends up saving her life?? he did make a few comments (no i don't think he just has human decency lol) about taking it easy and to be careful because she is pregnant...

044 (0+4+4 = 8 -> strength)

when i was watching the show i was like i don't see it - i get moon (18) energy vibes but not strength (8) then she had her mini meltdown and i was like there it is... there is the vulnerability under that mask of "faith" in fate.

125 (1+2+5 = 8 -> strength)

then on the other hand... this is an extremely vulnerable character with zero back bone seriously reversed energy...

230 (2+3+0 = 5 -> heirophant)

thanos - tell me that man's ritual was not popping a pill and getting out there in the game.

001 (0+0+1 = 1 -> magician)

OBVIOUSLY no one can trust anyone what equals 1. its a duh moment (even in the 8 show - which i may do next if this does well) - the magician is a creator when upright and a manipulator when reversed...

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pac/pap: what slasher summer has in store for you

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THE LURKER –> a reflection of karmic debt, subconscious guilt, and/or ancestral energy.

THE NIGHTCRAWLER -> a past version of you that you thought was gone…

THE VANISHED -> something lost or stolen (could be an object, concept, memory, or person) returning.

THE WOUNDED -> the part of you that's stuck, still at the scene of the "crime." the wound you thought you healed...

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THE LURKER → something - no someone - had been tracking your patterns... your self-justifications, your delusions, your avoidance... and they are about to blow your narrative wide open. you’re not being “punished.” but you are being confronted with truths you’ve dodged for too long. expect a conversation, a message, and/or an insight that will make you flinch.

THE NIGHTCRAWLER → emotional over-functioning, caretaking, psychic sponge. you told yourself you healed. but some part of you is still clingy, manipulative, and just a bit volatile. you feel it in the moments you spiral over something minor or when you crave someone who left. you not asking for help. instead you are demanding what you feel you are owed.

THE VANISHED → a piece of you went cold in order to survive. once upon a time, you made the decision to cut something off - emotion, softness, vulnerability, etc. that version of yourself became efficient, strategic, and maybe even a bit cruel. that edgy energy is returning. not to ruin your life but to save it. you’ll need it this summer - the version of you that gets shit done and doesn’t explain themselves.

THE WOUNDED → there's a part of you who "took space to process" and never left the bunker. you're still stuck in the that moment that the wound happened - you are reliving the situation on a loop. you don’t need more alone/hiding time - you need a flashlight and a fucking exit plan. you’re not lost in the woods. you’re refusing to leave.

movie: midsommar

song: "drop dead" by omenxiii

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THE LURKER -> you thought ignoring the signs the universe has been sending you was a good idea... perhaps if you just “waited it out,” it would be okay? wrong. the killer steps out from behind the curtain. BOO - it’s your boredom, apathy, and/or own disengagement from life. you were never avoiding danger - you were avoiding choice.

THE NIGHTCRAWLER → you loosened your grip not from healing… but from exhaustion... now, the version of you who clung on too tight is clawing your way back with pure panic and trust issues. desperate to rebuild the fortress. don't do it though because that castle was a coffin all along. control wasn’t protecting you - it was suffocating you.

THE VANISHED -> you used to shine. you used to feel seen. somewhere in all the applause, something inside you went quiet - wishing to retreat into the shadows. the version of you who was bold, brave, a little cocky? they are back. so stop ghosting your own success.

THE WOUNDED -> the trap was mental but the escape was real. you’re finally seeing that no one is holding you hostage - it's just you - the cage is made of “what-ifs” and shame. your wounded self that stayed stuck in fear? they still whispering that you can’t trust yourself out there. know that you were never helpless - just convinced you were.

movie: final destination 3

song: "flesh" by ghostemane

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THE LURKER -> part of you has been lingering in between - half-decided, half-alive, half-done - that part of you is no longer welcome. your slasher doesn’t chase - they waits, because they already knows: you’re not coming back from this version of yourself. something is being fully buried within you with or without their help.

THE NIGHTCRAWLER -> there is the fantasy you clung to - picture-perfect shit - love, family, peace, happily ever after, etc. but what happens when you realize that fantasy was either never yours… or never real? you have to choose: rebuild the illusion or finally tell yourself the truth.

THE VANISHED -> what was hidden is disgusting but it is familiar. secrets, delusions, and things you didn’t want to see, are now being fully unmasked. it is the body you found in your own basement. it’s not shocking - it’s messy. you’re about to confront a truth you hoped would stay buried. clarity is cruel but necessary.

THE WOUNDED -> you keep giving - your time, energy, second chances, etc. almost as if you’re a saint. but there’s a version of you still crouched behind the door, wondering who is coming to save you. who are you trying to save now that you feel "safe"? "survivor’s guilt" isn’t the same as generosity.

movie: us

song: "liar" by bigklit

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This blog was one of the deepest loves of my creative life.

I came into the Astrology community with my heart open. No agenda, no performance. Just a desire to build something real.

Slowly, deliberately, I poured myself into every word, every post, every interaction. I gave my time, my consistency, my care. Nothing was done without intention.

What I wanted, what I tried to create, was more than content. I wanted beauty. I wanted truth. I wanted connection. And above all, I wanted it to mean something.

There was vulnerability in that. I let my heart be seen here. Sometimes that choice was met with grace. Sometimes it wasn’t.

I won’t pretend I wasn’t hurt. I won’t pretend I didn’t cry. The impact, both the light and the shadow, has been profound. I’m not ashamed of my feelings. I’m not embarrassed to say this mattered deeply to me.

To those who caused harm, or those who watched in silence - I hope, one day, you truly understand the weight of what you participated in and allowed.

To those who offered love, kindness, or even just a moment of genuine presence, thank you. You were felt. You still are. I will carry you into the next garden I build.

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what your tarot deck thinks about the place you are living

grab your tarot deck! ask your deck "what do i need to know about my home?" below are some ideas of what the cards you get could mean.

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the fool

first time home owner and/or going without an inspection or walkthrough (site-unseen buying)

the magician

fixer-upper and/or in need of repair

the empress

fertile ground and/or having a good foundation

the emperor

you definitely need to get an inspection and/or a picky/tricky seller (needing to be aggressive with bidding)

the hierophant

seek financial counseling, to seek with your realtor more seriously, and/or needing to call in a specialist

the chariot

get ready to move

the hermit

the house is older; you might want to look at foundation, electrical, and/or insulation

death

remodeling

the devil

definitely look at electrical and ac/heating elements (duct cleaning may be needed) - or even the dryer vent

the tower

this is a tear down and start from scratch project

the star

PLEASE look into your plumbing...

judgment

you might be in over your head with the cost of where you live; its time to move to somewhere a bit more sustainable

3 of cups

house warming

3 of cups rx

a controlling HOA and/or noisy/gossipy neighbors

4 of cups

having a lot of big ideas for what you want your house to be and look like, but not taking the action needed for it to get to that vision

5 of cup

money pit house that makes you feel disappointed/depressed

2 of pentacles rx

not having enough time for everything you want to accomplish with the house between life, job, and house renovations

3 of pentacles

talking with architects, someone who does custom building, and/or who an interior designer

4 of pentacles

having a lot of clutter and/or hoarding that damages the house

5 of pentacles

needing better insulation and/or to upgrade windows (plastic wrap in winter or something)

7 of pentacles rx

not working towards your vision in terms of housing expectations

ace of swords

making an offer on a house

2 of swords

having to make a difficult decision about what project to focus on

5 of swords

disagreeing with your family about what should happen with a project and having an argument

6 of swords

needing flood insurance

7 of swords

taking pieces from old projects or from what already exists

2 of wands

putting in an add-on

7 of wands

the place as a lot of unforeseen issues

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what your tarot deck thinks about how you spend your time

grab your tarot deck, a piece of paper, and a pen! make a list of everything you do that takes up a majority of your time - number these tasks (this is the number that corresponds to the task AND how many cards you need). ask your deck "what do you think about the time i spend on my tasks?" while looking at your list. below are some ideas of what the cards you get could mean.

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fool

upright: it's new to you but totally worth the risk OR you could delve deeper into it

reversed: you should spend your time doing something else

empress

upright: you are in your element

reversed: take a break OR try approaching this activity from a different perspective

emperor

upright: this activity makes you stronger and is well worth its time

reversed: reallocate your energy

hierophant

upright: time to take some classes OR to start offering your own courses to others

reversed: take a break, you'll come back to it

lovers

reversed: you and this activity are co-dependent (this is really unhealthy, if it has to do with social media), consider setting boundaries or managing the time you spend on the task

chariot / strength

upright: take this activity to the next level

reversed: practice makes proficiency - keep trying, you'll get there

wheel of fortune

reversed: time to let this activity go

justice

reversed: have you considered that this might be a case of "square peg, round hole"?

hanged man

take a step back; there is something you aren't seeing that will help you to make your activity even easier or more fun for you

death/tower/judgment

something about this activity has changed and you have to let it (this is very important, if it has to do with socializing)

temperance

upright: don't do this activity alone, if you can help it

reversed: stop forcing the situation - take a break

devil

upright: this activity is not good for you physically, emotionally, and/or mentally

star

upright: this activity is perfect for you and it will likely inspire you in other areas of your life

reversed: don't lose hope - give it some time

world

upright: time to wrap up this activity OR you might win/gain something by doing this activity

ace of cups

upright: it's perfect for you

reversed: it's exhausting you - spend your time doing something else

2 of cups

reversed: you might be using too much of your time doing this activity - make space for other things in your life

3 of cups

upright: do this activity with others

4 of cups

you should should spend your time doing things you love, not things that make you feel disappointed

6 of cups

upright: prefect activity

reversed: it's time for you to move on

8 of cups

move on

9 of cups

upright: you are working hard to be good at this activity; keep it up

reversed: you need to not be so cocky about how good you are at this activity, and practice moderation when doing this activity too

10 of cups

upright: perfect and fulfilling activity

page of cups

upright: love this card, especially for creative activities

2 of pentacles

upright: you need to find balance, you are spending too much of your time doing this activity

reversed: you are being irresponsible with your time and your money - you really should reevaluate how you are spending your time

3 of pentacles

upright: this is a great sign that you might make this activity a side hustle

reversed: its okay to take a break

5 of pentacles

upright: i don't believe this activity is good for your mental health

7 of pentacles

upright: you are getting there, you are almost at your goal with this activity - but if you feel like the juice is not worth the squeeze, you can and should stop

8 of pentacles

upright: this activity is well worth it

reversed: you are likely feeling burnt out, so take a break

ace of swords

upright: side hustle potential, for sure

4 of swords

take a break

6 of swords

upright: explore new activities

7 of swords

reversed: try a new approach when it comes to this activity

10 of swords

move on to something else; abandon this activity

3 of wands

upright: delegate other tasks and activities, so you can do this one

5 of wands

reversed: the devils in the details; stop debating what to do with this task, and how to approach it - just jump in and start ("start by starting")

6 of wands

you are going to win something for this activity, keep working on it

8 of wands

do this activity when the mood strikes

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what spiritual gift / tool should you be using based on tarot cards

grab your tarot deck! ask it "what spiritual gifts or tools should i be using?" below are some ideas of what the cards you get could mean.

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advanced astrology

empress, chariot, star, and/or 9 of swords

astral projection

hermit and/or 4 of swords

crystal ball

2 of wands

crystal tumbling

8 of pentacles

deity work

lovers, devil, and/or judgment

dowsing rods

2 of swords

familiar or spirit animal work

fool, strength, 9 of pentacles, queen of wands, and/or king of wands

herbology

magician, empress, sun, 6 of cups, and/or queen of wands

manifestation

magician, 7 of cups, 9 of cups, ace of pentacles, page of pentacles, ace of wands, and/or 8 of wands

mediumship

judgment, 6 of cups, and/or 10 of pentacles

metaphysical protection

emperor, chariot, hermit, tower, 3 of swords, 4 of swords, 5 of wands, and/or 7 of wands

past life regression

death and/or judgment

poppets

magician and/or 5 of swords

spell work

magician, high priestess, wheel of fortune, temperance, and/or 3 of pentacles

water scrying

star and/or page of cups

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advice

advice from the universe regarding the next month

how can i present myself in the best way possible?

rainbow road - where are you on your journey? what must you overcome? what's the final destination?

what awaits you at the end of the rainbow and how can you follow the path to abundance?

what energy should you bring with you into the new year?

what to release and what to retain this month

your 2026 self's advice for 2025

your greatest asset and your greatest hindrance: advice on how you can master what's holding you back

healing

how can you grow/blossom?

how can you rejuvenate yourself this spring

how do you shine? what encourages your brilliance?

what is the energy that surrounds you and how can you best protect your energy

romance

a letter from your future spouse

be my valentine: a message from your future spouse/partner

be my valentine: a message from your past lover/crush

be my valentine: a message from your secret admirer

love life check-up

self-love and confidence building

be my valentine: how to promote self-love going forward

how can you be more honest with yourself

what happens when you take action on your dreams

self-reflection

creature feature: banshee - what are the unresolved sorrows/losses in your life that continue to affect you deeply? how do you express your intense feelings, and what impact does this have on you and those around you?

creature feature: beholder - what do you see that no one else does? what aren't you hearing?

creature feature: dragon - what areas of life do you try to exert the most control over? why? how do you handle your power? do you wield it responsibly, or do you fear it? what are you holding onto too tightly? when have you allowed others to take your power? how did that affect you?

creature feature: ghost - what aspects of yourself do you wish you could leave behind? what past decisions/experiences still linger in your thoughts as if they were haunting you?

creature feature: mermaid - what are you clinging to that must run free? are you fighting the tide or moving with it?

creature feature: mindflayer - what thoughts/beliefs are feeding off your energy and are affecting your mood? when do you find yourself dwelling on ideas/feelings that seem to take on a life of their own, as if they’re not truly yours? how can you address the mental “tadpoles” that grow within?

creature feature: succubus - what do you desire but can't express?

creature feature: vampire - what is draining the life out of you? what feeds your strength?

creature feature: werewolf - what hidden truth does the moonlight illuminate? where do you lack control? where are you in transition?

mid-year reflection - what have you accomplished and what should you be working on for the rest of the year?

what bad habit(s) are you struggling with? what happens when you drop your bad habit(s)? what to keep in mind as you break your bad habit(s)?

what's changing in your life this season?

what exists before you that you can't see?

what's grounding you and what's growing?

what kind of easter eggs is the universe leaving for you?

what should you be grateful for this harvest season?

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pac/pap: what should you be grateful for this harvest season?

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this month it is important that you are grateful for your present situation and that you know what it is to feel safe. you work hard and now is the time to be generous and share what you have - abundance breeds abundance. worry less about scarcity and more about what you have in this moment. i sense you might have your eye on something in particular, something that you may have been saving up for it - go ahead now is the time to get it, you've earned it.

you are a very mysterious person - it is always a pleasure to find someone who doesn't constantly tell people what they are up to and what they are thinking. you leave a bit to the imagination and that is admirable. you know how to have open and honest conversations despite this. you have a mind for strategy and that too is something to be grateful for - as someone who listens more than they talk, you know when the writing is on the wall and you are constantly one step ahead.

be grateful for the time you have to spend with others. i sense that you and these people you will be around this holiday season have busy schedules and it isn't always easy to connect - be grateful for being able to do so. the ones that actively want to connect with you and are trying to figure out when they can find time to see/talk to you... well they are just another thing to be grateful for. also be glad that you made the decisions that you did; you are right where you belong at this moment in time.

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your intuition and emotional intelligence is something everyone, including yourself should be grateful for. you have a gift in the world of the occult - be thankful that you receive signs from the universe that help you to understand who you are and where you are going. be grateful that this month you are likely to find yourself surrounded by people that inspire you most.

you are very grateful for what you have but be aware of sounding too overly materialist this holiday season. there are other things to be grateful for like your mental health, how emotionally abundant you are, etc. - not everything is tangible.

it is time that you are grateful for the opportunities to try again. i feel like you may get quite a few second chances, so don't be afraid to show your gratitude for these chances. be grateful that you are being given the opportunities to continue to grow and change.

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you know how to not settle for less than you deserve and that is something worth feeling thankful for - so many people don't know their worth but you know yours. you know how to listen to your heart and to your gut - a talent not everyone has. remember this holiday season to reflect on where you came from, who helped you along, who you used to be, etc. it is a wonderful time to reflect / remind yourself just how appreciative you should be for your present.

be grateful for the holiday season in general - you deserve a break and to have a bit of fun. so do so. celebrate the year you had - you surely accomplished more than you had in mind last year at this time. you didn't foresee all the wins that you would have, so live it up by celebrating. by doing so you are likely allowing positive opportunities to continue to flow towards you.

be grateful for your resilience and your strength. life may be full of challenges but you handle them with grace. you are wonderfully capable of overcoming things both internal and external.

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pac/pap: what’s grounding you and what’s growing?

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ground: you may be finding yourself grounded in a process of emotional transformation. what’s keeping you rooted may be a need to leave behind something that once provided comfort or security but has since become stagnant/unsatisfying. you may have a desire to pursue a more authentic path, whether that’s within relationships, career, and/or spiritual growth. you may be finding stability by embracing change and allowing yourself to release the old to make space for something more fulfilling.

growth: something new is beginning to take shape, whether it’s a spark of inspiration, a fresh project, and/or an adventurous new phase in life. embrace this growing energy with excitement and optimism. there may be a sense of eagerness to explore and express themselves in new ways, and the cards suggest that you are in the early stages of something that could lead to great personal development.

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ground: you are anchored in a sense of faith and trust, either in yourself or in the universe. it could also indicate that you are in a phase of emotional or spiritual recovery, allowing you to heal from past wounds. what grounds them now is a deeper sense of purpose or hope, which helps you stay centered and calm. there is a quiet, internal knowing / intuition that provides stability, reminding you that your higher self or divine guidance is always with you, helping you to stay aligned.

growth: you are on the verge of a breakthrough or are about to embark on a more determined/focused journey. what’s growing in your life is the drive and momentum to move forward with purpose. whether it’s your personal goals, a new project, or a journey of self-discovery, you are gaining the courage and strength to overcome any challenges ahead. what’s growing is the ability to focus your energy and make progress toward your ambitions, no matter the obstacles.

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ground: you may be grounding yourself by opening up to new experiences and perspectives. you are moving away from a place of emotional apathy or discontent and beginning to engage more fully with life. the grounding energy is a renewed interest in the present moment, seeing things with fresh eyes, and accepting new emotional/spiritual offerings. you may be overcoming a period of emotional withdrawal or resistance to change, which is allowing you to embrace what’s now available to you - new emotional growth and opportunities for connection.

growth: the ability to gradual overcome your fears and anxieties. you may be starting to find peace after a period of intense mental turmoil. it’s a positive sign that you’re moving away from the grip of worry and embracing a more peaceful state of mind. what’s growing is a healthier, more balanced mindset, and you are beginning to take control of your thoughts rather than allowing them to control you.

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pac/pap: what exists before you that you can't see?

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there is disharmony/imbalance within a relationship of yours. this could lead to a new/potential strain/breakup. there will be pain for you - to get the relationship back on track promote an equal give-and-take. you both require mutual support and emotional fulfillment. even if that means you have to say no to certain relationships or aspects of the relationship.

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you are connected more with who you are than you know - you are aligning with your true self. your emotional intelligence is on the rise - keep expressing your true feelings and you will find yourself in better relationships, new opportunities, and generally gaining more satisfaction in life. keep using your intuition and being open to new ideas/thoughts.

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subconsciously you are doubting yourself - what is stopping you? YOU - you are getting in your own way. is something not going your way - not getting where you want to be? it's you - i know that's a hard pill to swallow, but either reevaluate and try again OR have some patience. quitting isn't an option. you quit trying - you'll be quitting on yourself.

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pac/pap: what is changing in your life this season?

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you might be meeting someone new who brings a fresh perspective or emotional depth into your life; it could be a friend, partner, and/or mentor. this is also a great time to start a new artistic endeavor; painting, writing, or crafting, which will allow you to express yourself in unexpected ways. personal growth can occur through these activities as well as they aid with introspection or therapy, leading to a better understanding of your own feelings and needs. engaging in and/or receiving unexpected acts of kindness that uplift your spirits and encourage you to connect more deeply with others will greatly benefit you this season. receiving and/or giving thoughtful and heartfelt gestures in a romantic relationship will deepen emotional bonds. that being said addressing and healing past emotional wounds is critical, this will lead to a renewed sense of peace and emotional clarity.

there might be a new opportunity for growth in your career/investments. prioritize your self-care and personal well-being this season; perhaps through adopting healthier habits and/or finding more balance in your life. don't shy away from practical advice that will help you manage everyday responsibilities more effectively. you could experience increased productivity in your work and/or personal life; which could be supported by your increased organization and focus this season.

you are likely to find yourself making quick decisions and/or decisively acting to pursue your goals, even if it means facing challenges head-on. make sure you are engaging in stimulating conversations or debates, where sharp thinking and clear communication are crucial. this will help you make the correct decision for you long term. also make sure you are using your logic and analytical skills to cut through confusion and to help you solve problems efficiently. it is time to address conflicts or misunderstandings directly.

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you may experience unexpected expenses, find it hard to save money, and/or face a temporary loss of income. make budgeting and financial planning your focus starting now. as there could be delays or obstacles in your career, such as a promotion being postponed, a job offer falling through, or feeling unmotivated/uninspired at work. minor health issues or feeling physically drained could arise; you need to pay more attention to your well-being, diet, and/or exercise routines. you may find it difficult to concentrate on tasks which leads to unfinished work and/or feeling scattered. your investments (financial or otherwise) may not yield the expected returns, causing you to rethink where you’re putting your resources (and time) in to. you could be questioning what’s truly important to you, leading to a shift in how you view success, happiness, and/or stability.

you may feel trapped in a situation (relationship and/or job) without a clear way out. which could lead to frustration or a sense of helplessness because you’re unsure how to move forward. is it the universe or you? it might just be you who is resisting necessary changes; holding onto the familiar out of fear of the unknown (even if it’s not in your best interest). otherwise, instead of taking the time to think things through, you might make hasty decisions that lead to you feeling as sense of regret. you could find yourself holding onto past hurts, grudges, and/or regrets, which prevent you from moving forward with a clear and open mind.

you might feel like you’re not making progress, even though you’ve put in a lot of effort. there’s a sense of being stuck or not being able to move on to the next phase of your life. i feel like it is unresolved issues or "loose ends" that need your attention before you can truly move forward. this could involve past relationships, projects, and/or personal matters that require closure. it may be a struggle to find closure in certain situations, whether it’s ending a relationship, leaving a job, and/or moving on from a past experience. this lack of closure can prevent you from fully embracing new opportunities. there is a sense of disconnection from others and/or from your sense of purpose. there could be a feeling of isolation / lack of harmony in your relationships or within yourself. the time is now to wrap things up or learn better coping mechanisms.

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you may find yourself managing multiple priorities or projects - prepare yourself mentally for taking more on. life may throw some curveballs your way; you will be required to adapt quickly. go with the flow and handle changes with grace - this will be essential. budgeting and/or managing money might be a key focus for you this season as well. you need to organize your time better to accommodate all of your commitments, both personal and professional.

projects and/or plans that you hoped would move forward might encounter unexpected setbacks. which could lead to frustration and/or a feeling that things are not progressing as you thought they would. you might struggle to see the bigger picture, causing you to hyper-focus on immediate problems and not the long-term. which could pigeon hole you or decrease your opportunities upcoming. now is a good time to re-evaluate your current goals and/or strategies. rethink which direction you want to head to ensure it aligns with your true desires and capabilities. also this season there may be issues with teamwork and/or "your cooperation". misunderstandings and/or a lack of support from others is likely.

otherwise, there is something worth celebration happening for you this season; whether it’s a party, a reunion, or any event that brings your people together. enjoy the company of friends and loved ones - celebrate your achievements and/or special occasions this season. your social circle and friendships are going to be more important than ever this season. you might find yourself relying on your friends for support or just enjoying each others company. reminder: you don’t have to go through things alone; there are people who care about you and are willing to help.

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pac/pap: what kind of easter eggs is the universe leaving for you?

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last pac/pap: rainbow road - where are you on your journey? what must you overcome? what's the final destination?

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the universe is leaving you easter eggs related to nurturing and/or creativity - you may be overlooking or suppressing these traits. it might also be indicating hidden or neglected parts of your life where you need to focus on self-care and/or reconnect with your creativity. look for signs or synchronicities - like an opportunity to express yourself, or a call to nourish something you’ve been neglecting (whether that’s your health (emails or calls regarding your last visit), relationships (people trying to get you to come see them), etc).

the other easter egg here could be in messages or signs that require you to be observant. pay attention to little pieces of information and/or conversations around you, especially ones that seem small or out of place - they may hold hidden knowledge or clues for future growth. look for moments where your intuition gets a spark or your curiosity is piqued; these could be the universe offering you breadcrumbs to follow.

the final easter egg is related is found in wisdom from an unexpected source, whether that’s a tradition you’ve strayed from or a lesson hidden within your community/family. the universe might be encouraging you to seek guidance from a trusted source or uncover deeper meanings in pre-established structures around you. you might find answers in books and/or spiritual practices you’ve been drawn to, or from people you consider to by your mentors.

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the universe’s easter egg for you could be pointing toward a hidden opportunity during times of struggle. while you may feel isolated or that resources are scarce, there may be a subtle or even unexpected support system available to you that might be taking for granted or have not noticed. the universe might be nudging you to look beyond your immediate challenge - notice help or resources that are within your reach, even if they are not immediately obvious. opportunities for support, recovery, and growth could be hiding in plain sight - whether through people, lessons, or even just a change in mindset.

the easter egg here suggests that the key to your current challenges lies in how you’re seeing situations. you may need to step back and view things from a new perspective. the universe might be leaving you subtle clues to encourage you to pause, reflect, and reconsider - whether that’s a belief, approach, or something you’ve taken for granted i don't know it depends on what resonates for you. it could be a sign that your patience and perspective will unlock deeper wisdom or solutions to current dilemmas. pay attention to moments where you feel “stuck” or frustrated, as they could be guiding you to shift your viewpoint in a way that leads to growth.

the final easter egg suggests that the universe is offering clues about your long-term stability and prosperity. whether it’s financial security, relationships, or your overall life path, there may be a hidden opportunity to build something very stabilizing. it might show up in your interactions with family or community, or even in small decisions that accumulate over time. the universe could be offering you the foundations for creating a legacy, it's urging you to notice how your current actions might create long-term rewards or the support you will need for future growth.

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your first easter egg might be urging you to notice where you’ve been out of sync in your life, particularly when it comes to emotional, spiritual, and/or physical (im)balance. these are signs for you to restore equilibrium - whether that means taking time for self-care, setting boundaries, and/or integrating opposing forces (like work vs. rest or head vs. heart). the clue is hidden in the areas where you feel either overly stretched or disconnected (think of the time blocks you might have on a daily calendar); your path to balance lies in finding your middle ground.

the universe’s easter egg here could be showing you places where you’re not being entirely honest with yourself or where you’re allowing negative thought patterns and/or emotional baggage to cloud your judgment. there’s wisdom hidden in your vulnerability and/or indicators that you need to clear out mental clutter to regain your clarity. letting go of any emotional baggage, being more honest, or cutting through illusions in your life could greatly benefit you. in other words, the universe could be encouraging you to examine where your mental and emotional states may be blocked you and how releasing them could open new doors.

the final easter egg might be related to rediscovering your own personal power. the universe could be nudging you to realize that there are hidden resources, talents, and/or opportunities you may not be fully using (or even know exist). it could be a sign to stop doubting your abilities or take action to harness these tools you already possess. the universe might also be pointing out areas where you are not fully aligned with your authentic self, asking you to question whether you’re holding back or procrastinating, and to trust in your abilities to manifest and create.

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pac/pap: what bad habit(s) are you struggling with? what happens when you drop your bad habit(s)? what to keep in mind as you break your bad habit(s)?

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procrastination. i have the feeling that you have a lot of goals and hopes that end up being "broken" or "abandoned" dreams. you likely try to take on too much all at once - you likely have the bad habit of start a lot of tasks but then not finishing anything. this likely causes you frustration because of the lack of progress you see leads to you feeling uninspired. then you start procrastinating on your goals and hopes - its a vicious cycle that you are in.

when you free yourself from procrastination, you will have hope once more. you'll turn a corner and start making dreams into reality - you'll stop mourning what could have been and instead see the possibility of what could be. right now you seem to be focusing on projects that are only half finished - if you focus on one project, determine how you can finish it, and then finish it - you will gain your momentum back.

as you face your procrastination know that you are intelligent and wise. you can make decisions and plans that will make these projects worthwhile. use logic instead of emotions you are likely thinking too much about what others will think/feel and no enough about the logistics of how you can get the project done.

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projection, double-standards, and self-deception. i get the sense that you are struggling to see things as they truly are. you likely are in a holding pattern - it all feels the same because you aren't doing anything different. you must do internal work and break cycles in order to see progress. you have the ability to adapt and evolve, you simply need to allow yourself to do so. i sense there is some self-deception going on as well - i have a feeling that you are judging others inconsistencies and irregularities without evaluating your own. it's scary to confront the lies you tell yourself, the fear you feel, and what you feel ashamed of in your life at this moment in time - but it is time you do so. its time to reconnect with your inner self and be vulnerable. you aren't perfect and that is okay but it is not okay to not evolve and expect others to be perfect and change for you.

when you stop struggling with these inconsistencies between wanting others to be perfect and being unwilling to grow and change yourself, you will see that the universe is presenting you with new opportunities. in relationships, you won't be worrying that you can't find a romance like the one you perviously experienced, instead you will be looking forward to the possibilities of the future. you also won't be as afraid to share who you truly are with others. you could get a new job because you won't be as afraid to admit that the one you are currently in is not for you - you'll be more willing to take a risk and do things you perviously feared others would judge you for.

as you work on limiting behaviors and high expectations without the willingness to change yourself, remember that you to have the power to change. you can't expect others to change for you without being willing to change yourself. take risks you wouldn't normally take - stand up for what you believe in without worrying what others will think. don't be afraid to seek advice from others as you work on this aspect of your life.

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accepting/making false-promises. i have a feeling that you have a bad habit of making promises/deals with strings attached. look at your own intentions as well as those you are involved with - i have a feeling you don't do that often and it only leads you or others getting hurt. if you only do things because it is to your benefit, it is time you self evaluate. you might be a bit too greedy and you might need to be more willing to give your time, money, and/or energy without expecting something in return. or you might be too giving - evaluate why you feel the need to give knowingly to those who wouldn't do the same for you.

when you stop making promises and deals with strings attached, you can start focusing on what you can control in this chaotic world. you have the tendency of thinking that you can control everything and everyone around you and that just is not true - no one has to do what they promise and when you realize that, you will be better in control of your life situation because you will be taking attention in your own life instead of waiting for others to help you or you doing things for others instead of doing things for yourself.

keep in mind while you stop waiting for others to keep there false-promises, that you have yet to make your dreams reality. i sense you are the trickiest of the piles - you are set in your belief that you need others or even the universe to bring you what you want instead of going after it yourself. you might need to take a minute and think about what you truly want but then you certainly have the ability to go after it - so do it.

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pac: mid-year reflection - what have you accomplished and what should you be working on for the rest of the year?

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accomplished: you have fought past a hard time within your family. you broke free from the expectations and control you felt from them - good for you paving your own path!! you are now ready for the next level. continue to recharge and heal mentally as you prepare yourself for what is next. have faith you did the right thing - there is no going back now. continue to seek out inspiration for actions - and acting accordingly to your inspiration. you are steadily working towards achieving something just for yourself. just remember to remain flexible and have some patience for yourself.

still working on: you still have to work on your authority and stability - its not so improved that you can just move on. it's a process. practice being calm despite the chaos - manage your anxiety/stress. trust that you are mature enough to handle yourself and your situation. it's all about confidence, so get in touch with yours. don't be afraid to kick things up a notch. you have to practice stepping outside your comfort zone if you want to see some serious growth. at the same time, it wouldn't hurt you to take a break and take a step back from time to time (don't push yourself - you'll find yourself burnt out). you also have to work on not feeling so stuck - the past is in the past, nothing is guaranteed, fitting in is overrated, you aren't competing with anyone - that is all in your mind, and (this one you might not be ready for) your loneliness is likely self imposed (put yourself out there). take back your power in that regard! take some small steps towards what you truly want and you will feel a whole lot better before 2025.

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accomplished: you have finally stopped putting so much pressure on yourself. it's such a relief! i know you are a perfectionist but it gets exhausting, no? but now you can see it's just not productive to continually compare yourself to others and now you are free. keep happily say "no" while focusing on what truly brings you joy. i feel like it's also a good thing you have lower your bar for yourself. high hopes are good but not to the detriment of your mental health and self-image. delays are okay - it's okay if you're vision is not true to reality; its probably healthier this way so keep reminding yourself that. just keep working and you will get what you need and where you need to be.

still working on: keep working on connecting with your intuition. start reconnecting with your gut - stop relying on others and allowing them to influence you. also it is imperative that you let go of whatever it is that you are clinging to. change only comes when you accept endings. surrendering what is leaving or has left allows for peace and gratitude for what still remains - so stop clinging, surrender, and create space in your life for new things. embrace some spontaneity in your life - something is about to happen and you just need to say "yes" (which sounds crazy when you read the accomplished section but you will know your say "yes" opportunity when you work past your disconnect with your gut). maybe it's travel, maybe a person, etc. say yes, take a chance. ride a wave.

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accomplished: i am very proud of you. i feel like you're saving for something and are being proactive with your finances instead of spending unnecessarily. that or you are feeling a bit more stabilized and secure in a situation that was bothering you earlier in the year. you just have to keep trusting that you have what you need. give some credit to yourself for your hard work. i also feel like you learned something extremely important that really had a profound influence/impact on you these last 6 months. maybe you met someone who is helping you to be wiser about how you live life and appreciate life too. you could also be moving past something that really disappointed you or hurt your feelings. you aren't too hurt by the past to not try again - you have hope once more. your emotions are no longer stagnant or restricted as they once were. keep up the good work!

still working on: you haven't been working on something that you have been planning to - it's time you stop pushing it off and get to work. stop being so frustrated and impatient with yourself due to the lack of progress you are making. be real with yourself and stop procrastinating then you will have no reason to be frustrated. otherwise, it might be time you adjust your expectations. start doing what you love again. hard work, no matter daunting it may be, will pay off when it's something you believe in. hell even if its small bits of progress, it's better than nothing. some progress will improve your spirits. life will get in your way to test how badly you really want something oftentimes. there is something to gain in breaks and stillness - start waiting around when you finally realize what it is.

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pac/pap (creature feature: werewolf): what hidden truth does the moonlight illuminate? where do you lack control? where are you in transition?

welcome to my october pac/pap creature feature series - instead of having a single pac/ pap this month, there will be five! every monday (at 5p / 17:00 EST) this october, a new creature will be coming out to play as the sun begins to set earlier and earlier... keep an out; you never know what is lurking in the darkness..

today's creature is the werewolf: song queued: "she wolf" by shakira! when was the next full moon again? phew a few weeks to go... half man, half beast, the werewolf is - according to lore - forced to transform on every full moon. the once civilized man loses control of his body and senses.

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last pac/pap: creature feature: the beholder - what do you see that no else does? what aren't you hearing?

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the truth is that you must share your ideas more actively - you need confidence that matches your passion. you can trust that you will be accepted for your ideas - and if not where you first attempt to be so, you will find yourself in a more accepting place the next attempt. if you keep doubting your abilities, you might just find that you can't grow like you hope/dream to. so the spotlight (moonlight) is on you - share what you want to / are passionate about right now.

oof you are really trying to control a lot right now. things aren't going as you expected, huh? you can't control that something is close to the end of its cycle. it's okay that you are going to miss that something - know that you should be celebrating instead. celebrate your wins. you have done so much! new things are just around the corner.

a power transition in your life is underway. you are being given a chance to lead and prove your strength. make sure that you are leading from a place of wanting to see others succeed instead of one where you are asserting your power over others. you can't just be thinking about yourself right now, remember that "with power comes responsibility" - it's not just about you anymore it's about those around you too.

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your disconnection for others and your beliefs seems to be in the spotlight right now. you might be feeling hopeless and alone in your situation right now - it's time to reconnect and recharge. a cleansing is needed - do not lose faith, you are right were you are supposed to be, despite how painful this moment may be. let the glimmering moonlight be a sign that healing is ahead - better days are coming.

i feel like your schedule right now is unsustainable - you are stretched too thin and juggling too much all at once. you might have too many school/work responsibilities considering your personal ones. this is all making you feel emotionally drained (have you stress cried recently - i feel like you might have). you should know that you are currently "leveling up"; anytime you level up in life, this type of challenge to your routine occurs. do things in moderation and ask for help if you need it (there is no shame in reaching out for help).

an opportunity has arisen recently that is going to change your world - likely in a monetary way. there is a new beginning on the horizon. you are getting even closer to the life that you have been dreaming of - prosperity is in your future, it is written in the stars. you are cultivating abundance for yourself and i couldn't be more proud. you have unlimited potential - keep it up.

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new moon energy. there are a lot of things that you are hiding, you are also likely refusing to acknowledge the truth, and you are refusing to look at things deeply (which can be good (you're not reading too heavily into things) and it can be bad (you might not be "reading the fine print")). you aren't listening to your intuition like you should be - stop deceiving yourself. trust that you are capable and you are worthy of so much more than you are currently doing / have.

right now a relationship of yours is extremely out of balance (someone is doing all the work in the relationship or someone is extremely co-dependent in the relationship). it is not good to rely too heavily on a partner to fulfill your needs. your expectations might be unrealistic which causes you to feel even more out of control. look inward so you can better find the source of your disharmony.

i feel like you reading that last paragraph has your wheels turning - the transition ahead of you has to do with your relationships. you are noticing that there is a imbalance in what you are giving versus what you are receiving. i know that receiving things makes you feel weird (you feel unworthy/undeserving), but get use to it - haha! stop feeling obligated to give back equal to what you have received - things are being given of their own volition, no one expects you to give back what you were gifted. simply remember that kindness breeds kindness - the more comfortable you become with receiving, the more you will gain.

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pac/pap (creature feature: vampire): what is draining the life out of you? what feeds your strength?

welcome to my october pac/pap creature feature series - instead of having a single pac/ pap this month, there were five! every monday (at 5p / 17:00 EST) this october, a new creature will be came out to play as the sun began to set earlier and earlier... the final creature is lurking in the darkness tonight...

today's creature is the vampire: song queued: "bloody mary" by lady gaga! the folklore of vampires is one of the longest held monstrous beliefs. once like us, the vampire was once living and now is forced to subsist on blood. the vampire has very few weakness aside from sunlight... beware of the thing that feed in the darkness...

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last pac/pap: mermaid: what are you clinging to that must run free? are you fighting the tide or moving with it?

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you may not realize it but clinging to what you have is draining the life out of you. you likely have recently gained or earned something that you have never had - it's easy to get caught up in holding on and wanting to keep something forever, but clingy to one thing often stops us from potentially growing in new and exciting ways. you might also be draining your energy by constantly living life on edge (in a constant state of paranoia/anxiety) - trust me: you are safe. the universe will always provide you with what you need.

your spiritual practice is what brings you strength. no one's beliefs are quite as strong as yours. your mindset has the strength to manifest anything that you need. if you believe in something, you can defy all the odds that are set against you. but you are focused on what you can control instead of what you can not - by finding peace in uncertainty: you will feel even stronger.

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i sense that you are aggressively perusing something right now. i thinking it is time for you to take a break, lest you wish to drain your energy completely. having confidence in yourself. i believe that what you are doing is good - just know that when you start pursuing something - at this moment - there is no stopping. by taking a break, you will come back and feel reborn with renewed energy.

your loving, nurturing, and protective instincts are what make you strong. your presence in general seems to be intense - you have the emotional intensity and powers similar to Jasper Cullen. you likely can persuade others to do what you want them to or feel how you want them to feel. continue to nurture yourself in order to feel your power and to become even stronger.

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it's time that you relax - you work very hard, down play your achievements, and don't appreciate all that you have done. take some time to do so. you've come a long way from where you started so appreciate the view. savor the moment. i do warn you about sharing though - sometimes sharing the moment with others will lead to you investing your emotional energy or will case you to be swayed by their emotional discontent or contentment instead of investing in your own (this is extremely draining for you).

you are unbelievably strong. you stay in situations longer than you need too - that doesn't make you weak, that makes you resilient. you are strong enough to walk away whenever you feel ready. do so. if you feel it is time for a change - you are 100% right. there is better for you and i know you can trust in the unknown better than anyone.

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