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We loved. But somehow, it ended when I thought we were solid. I wished so much for him to be my person, but it just didn't work out.

Been on hiatus for God knows how long and randomly remembered about this forsaken tumblr account. So now that I've decided to pass by, here's a news flash. I'm happier than I was last year because I finally found my person. For a long time I've been terrified that maybe I was unlovable. He proved one of my darkest thoughts wrong.

And oh, how I love him so.

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Been on hiatus for God knows how long and randomly remembered about this forsaken tumblr account. So now that I've decided to pass by, here's a news flash. I'm happier than I was last year because I finally found my person. For a long time I've been terrified that maybe I was unlovable. He proved one of my darkest thoughts wrong.

And oh, how I love him so.

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We all can relate to Deok Sun at one point. Or not.

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The line between sensitivity and rationality has become quite blurred. My mind and heart is in a constant and subdued battle. No set of ears are able to hear it, mine included. And maybe I'm thankful for the lack in intensity... But it is felt. Damn, it is felt. And my soul is absolutely torn. But I choose not to numb myself for the sake of living without worries. And since pain has demanded to be felt, then so be it.

So be it.

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Melissa De la Cruz, Van Alen Legacy

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Like an empty bottle takes the rain. And heal, heal, heal, heal.

— Heal by Tom Odell

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“Paradoxically, the ability to be alone is the condition for the ability to love.”

— Erich Fromm

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I don't like celebrating my birthday on the exact date. Mababaw man ang rason, pero totoo (next time ko na lang ibabahagi kung bakit). Baka mag-disconnect ako ng wifi pagdating ng 14. Or maybe not. Bahala na.

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Pakatatag tayo, self.

That's the only thing you can do right now.

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wheeeee

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not to be over dramatic or anything but the decline in popularity of hand written letters is one of the most disappointing decisions we’ve made as a modern society

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Cat People (Jacques Tourneur, 1942)

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You can only reblog this today.

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~Personal bullets from 2018~

I played an online game called Lords Mobile where I got to meet new friends! Sadly, I wasn’t able to keep in touch after parting ways and getting tired of playing.

I had deep conversations with a stranger online which went on for 3 months or so. We sought comfort by asking about each other’s day, dreams, regrets, and sending photos or memes on a daily basis. But we stopped talking on the morning of his flight back to the Philippines. I never tried to reach out again after that, and so did he. Parang soulmates lang na saglit na pinagtagpo (online pa) nagkaroon ng mutual agreement na tumigil na dahil nalaman naming hindi kami meant to be friends in real life. Boom.

Amang and Cloud died months apart. It still breaks my heart to think about this huge loss. I loved them dearly and I miss them so much. Sobra talaga.

I resigned from my job in Pangasinan and moved back to Manila this December. Why? Because I FINALLY got hired by the hospital I applied to. Hello again, Manila! I’ll be in your care again.

But I miss my best friends and fam already. And driving my mom to the nutrition club. :(

I’ve got the BEST workmates ever. Shall I say it again? BEST WORKMATES. E-V-E-R. They make my work less stressful and more fulfilling. Gotta thank Nikki, my bestie from college, who informed me about the job opening and supported me in the employment process. Love you, dear.

I finally began practicing calligraphy after being inspired by my new friend Doms. She even gave me a water brush pen & a handful of tips. I’m still working on improving this new skill.

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Upcoming...

...recap of important events from the past couple of months when I stayed away from tumblr. Hmm. Baka next weekend ko na lang pala i-post. Wala lang, share ko lang kasi who knows? Baka may mag-abang next weekend tungkol sa mga pangyayari sa buhay ko hahahaha

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Kaya siguro sila umaalis nang walang paalam sa buhay natin dahil inakala nilang masakit, pero hindi ba’t mas masakit ang paglisan nang walang tugon sa mga bakit?