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I physically lost my mom when I was 21. When I was 16 she was diagnosed with cancer, I was a senior in high school. I watched her fight for years. Somewhere along the way we watched her begin to slip away. In the end she was just a shell. She went through the motions of being a human but she mentally was checked out. The cancer had destroyed her brain. She was not the woman who brushed my hair, who had read me bed time stories, who taught me to do makeup, who taught me what love was. She was a complete stranger. Watching a person who love become someone you don't know is a hard thing, because you still know who they are. Now I am 23 and I still don't know how to live with this large hole in myself. I miss you every day, mom.

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That moment when you realize.....

My children when I have them will never meet their grandmother. They will only ever know her by pictures and by my memories.

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I'm little but I'm loud Just wanna make my mama proud And you can tell without a doubt that I'm her daughter She raised me to believe That I can be anything So when you push me I'll just push back harder

Fight Like A Girl - Kalie Shorr

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Your wings were ready, but my heart was not.