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So i had a major binge.. im gonna do a 3 day fast as a self punishment.

at least i have marlboros :)

still makes me feel shit i binged..

i just have to remind myself that i can and will be able to do this. they will know im sick soon enough.

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i need a cigarette

ill just roll one since i got tobacco n rolling papers

but i dont wannaaa...

-unmotivated ed day

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edtwt memes😈

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Things to distract yourself from eating:

1. watch grosspo

2. Watch Mukbangs

3. Drink tea

4. Smoke cigarettes ( suppresses appetite )

5. Phantasize about all the clothes you will fit in

6. Buy beautiful clothes that are too small so you

will fit in them one day

7. go for a walk

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My mom made some traditional dish I really like and it smells so good

Am I a fucking pig why do I even think of eating this fat fucking food. I know I’m gonna break my fast if I eat and I still fucking think about eating those disgusting things. ARE YOU DUMB?!

I felt the urge to eat but I just drank something and walked away

Grosspo:

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tw/cw dead rodent thing in food, rlly icky and can be upsetting so just scroll!!

saw this on reddit, am literally gagging. free grosspo 🤮

(someone opened a tin of green beans and this.. thing came out as well)

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craving something?

let me help you!♡︎

tw:grosspo

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mmm very good

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BAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

thanks for the motivation ed😍😍😍😩

cr:@toothisgoingmental @toothsheeran

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time 2 rot

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he cheated on me. he really did cheat on me man. i'm just gonna rot in bed like i deserve. no food no water. i just hope i suffer.

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my boyfriend trying to go after my aunt then breaking up with me after calling me a million disgusting things really is such fasting inspo😍

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man i'm taking my weight loss very seriously since last night.

i drank so much and munched and now today im doing a water only cleanse. possibly tomorrow too

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kinda just found out my bf only wanted me 4 s3x. and that is the reason he is being distant because i wasn't good in bed. i'm heartbroken. but hey, at least that is inspo for me not to eat so... i say keep going man.

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i hung out with my 2 buddies yesterday. and they both are fit athletic guys yk? the whole time we hung out i'm just seeing them get 2 free personal pizzas and they kept offering me slices. and my one friend (M20) asked why i wasn't eating, and i just had to respond with "oh i've been nauseated lately idk" bc a few days before that i took a bunch of magic mushrooms😍 and had a really bad trip. extremely bad and now it's to the point where i relapsed on my ed and now i'm here! when i said i wasn't hungry or anything my other friend (M21) offered to buy me a pack of cigs and a couple drinks. of course i decided to drink but it doesn't change the fact that i need to be more accountable for myself. no more heavy alcoholic drinks. no more carbs or added sugars. no more man no more. i wanna be skinny like them. i want them to see that i'm actually trying to be pretty. yk?

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i don't wanna look "normal". why they can not understand?? i wanna be skinny. normal isn't enough for me

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honestly this post isn't gonna be an "uwu here's my cals for the day" post. i just really need someone to write some awful, disgusting, really vile and horrible m3ansp0 for me. for context rn i am obese n shit. no matter how much i work and starve it never helps. but i need to focus on my goals. if anyone can write some in the comments that would tbh be helpful.