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I’m losing myself...

My name is Adrian Daniel, and I'm suffering from depression, social anxiety and suicidal thoughts and attempts for 3 years. It started when my uncle (who I was close to) passed away on April 21, 2020. He was the greatest uncle I ever knew and it was the first time I've ever experienced loss in a loved one. It sent me into a spiral of depression that lasted for months. I even tried to kill myself numerous times, either by knife or by thinking of suicidal thoughts. I even had to go into my local hospital so that they can check me and make sure that I didn't have suicidal thoughts. The next 2 years became brutal for me. I was having numerous amounts of depression. I couldn't even sleep at all. I even had multiple of thoughts of "everyone hates me" and "why am I such a loser" and "I'm nothing".

This is my time to be open and honest to everyone. I am now admitting to myself and to everyone that knows the real me that I have a mental illness and I'm suffering in silence. If you are reading this post, please know that I'm suffering real bad and I will need all the help and support... because sooner or later, I might be thinking of taking my own life. It may or may not happen, but if it does, please do not forget the suffering that I've went through and please do not forget that I've been using every ounce of my strength to get up and keep going.

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For 2 years, I’ve been suffering from depression and suicidal thoughts. It’s finally time for me to open up to everyone and share my story of struggle. Please read with an open heart and an open mind.