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Fitzsimmons through the seasons (Spoilers)

season one - Friend Zone. They’re just. Friends. Until they’re miles under the ocean, and a confession is made.

season two - Fitz is broken, Jemma is gone. She’s back! will they? won’t they? they will!!! wait never mind… Jemma is gone… again.

season three - Fitz ‘jumps through a hole in the universe for her’. desperate reunions, another man in Jemma’s life. Fitz sets this man on fire. They officially get together.

season four - cute couple moments, until Fitz is replaced. There’s another woman in Fitz’s life. Jemma shoots this woman full of bullets and helps to drag her to h*ll. Finally! We can have some well earned Fitzsimmons- well they’re separated again.

season five - reunited after five episodes, immediately propose to each other. They get married! Nothing bad could possibly happen now! Oh wait Fitz’s mind split. Oh wait they’re being held captive by psychopaths. Oh wait Fitz is… dead???

season six - reverse of season three premiere. Now it’s Jemma’s turn to ‘jump through a hole in the universe’ for Fitz. Reunion in the mind scape, they face their literal demons. All is well in Fitzsimmons world. But wait, Enoch has a mission for them…

Between six and seven - five years. They finally get a break. Fitzsimmons heaven with a mini Fitzsimmons running around. Until it inevitably must end…

season seven - where is Fitz? What happened to him? Will we ever know? Why can’t Jemma remember? Finally he’s here! But Jemma doesn’t remember him… ‘they’re your everything… stars in your skies…’

‘Fitz I remember what we’re fighting for’

Happy Ending that we all deserve

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leopold fitz in agents of shield — 3.01: laws of nature

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MARVEL'S AGENTS OF S.H.I.E.L.D. (2013) 0-8-4 - 1.02 dir. David Straiton.

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No one did it like AOS did it. Three disabled people on the team. Two Asian woman. One Latina woman. Two black men. (RIP Trip 😢) Men who talk about their feelings. War veteran on the team. Openly gay Latino character. Friends to lovers. Anti-AI. Established Father figure. Established Mother figure. Girlboss/Malewife. Another awesome Asian powerhouse at the end. Lovers to Enemies to Lovers again cycle. Cursed love. Time travel and space. We love our found family.

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Recently did this Fitzsimmons Downton Abbey-inspired commission for my wonderful patron of the arts @ritalara! I had a lot of fun doing this and hope the rest of you enjoy it too! Commission info in pinned post.

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Watching the bus kids grow up will forever make me emotional because look at how little they were during season one I’m sobbing

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Fitz: My favorite outdoor activity is going back inside.

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happy father’s day !🥺

(images aren’t mine, credits to owners)

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Happy Father's Day to the Agents of Shield dads!

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I know Dark Winds has gotten a lot of mixed reviews, but I really enjoy the series. Zahn McClarnon is a phenomenal actor, but Kiowa Gordon, Jessica Matten, and Deanna Allison really round out the cast.

I also enjoyed A Martinez guest starring in Season 2, as I enjoyed his portrayal of Jacob Nighthorse in Longmire.

If you haven't given Dark Winds a watch yet, you should. It's coming back for a third season, which I'm stoked about.

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DARK WINDS Monster Slayer

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"AoS s1 is so boring, half the episodes are bad--" TALK TO THE FUCKING DATA

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HBO deactivating comments on the cast announcements for TERF Just a fucKing idiot R*wling’s cash-grab Harry Potter remake but not deleting or deactivating hateful comments on Bella Ramsey’s appearance is…absolutely disgusting

HBO should be ashamed for letting the nonbinary lead of one of their most popular shows ever get bullied like that while protecting the waste of air THAT woman is

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Deke Shaw 🍋 text posts pt. 23

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I’m so interested to know how other people perceive the team and Daisy’s arc in the beginning of season 4. I feel like I’ve seen a lot more of the “I’ll never forgive the team for how they treated her in S4” sentiment recently, which is interesting because I’ve never taken that perception away from that storyline at all.

Did the team say or do hurtful things? Yes, for sure. (I usually see the aforementioned comment on videos on that one scene with Daisy, Mack and Fitz)

But does Daisy also do and say hurtful things? I honestly think so.

That’s what makes that part of the season so phenomenal to watch, story wise. There is not black and white, good or bad, there just is. That is the reality of grief, that is the reality of mental health struggles, that is life.

There are no “right” answers when coping with the impossible, honestly. I think there are healthy and unhealthy ways to handle things, sure, but it’s not really a moral issue, on its face.

I mean, between the team and Daisy there are some rough interactions. Fitz is certainly a little hypocritical when he’s criticizing how Daisy handles things, given that he wouldn’t have reacted well if it had been Jemma. But He has been there for Daisy, up until this point at least, with Ward, her powers, they’ve been through a tremendous amount together. He feels abandoned and, yeah, he’s expressing it in a less than ideal way. But he cares. You know he cares about her. He and Mack wouldn’t be so angry if they didn’t care.

Mack is upset when he finds out Yo-Yo’s stealing the bone pills for her because 1) he’s been lied to for months, and 2) more importantly, it makes it seem that Daisy doesn’t trust him enough to directly come to him for help. That’s the thing. He would’ve helped her, probably given her anything she needed medically. She never needed to get Yo-Yo to steal any of it. It’s frustrating, it hurts. Mack is genuinely a deeply loving person, you know it’s killing him to not be able to get through to her.

Everyone on that team wants to help her, more than anything. They are begging her to let them in. I mean, lest we forget Coulson gave up his fucking job, in part, to keep chasing any lead he has on her.

When blaming the team for the rockiness at the beginning of season 4, you’re completely ignoring the fact that Daisy is actively running from them the entire time. She doesn’t want them to find her, and I really get it, honestly I do. I deal with things the way she does, radio silence, isolation, running away, being avoidant, self destruction, etc, etc.

Who could blame her, honestly? The anger and the self hatred and the guilt and the grief. Lord knows I’d take off, shut myself out. How do you even begin to manage that kind of pain, especially when it’s still fresh?

Well, you manage it any way that you can. For Daisy that means trying to atone for all of the pain she caused, which, are also things that caused her pain. Especially at the beginning of the season, it doesn’t matter how much she’s told that she is forgiven. Lincoln was at peace with his decision to sacrifice himself, Mack forgave her for hurting him while she was under the influence of Hive. Nobody is directly blaming her, except for herself. To try to heal from the pain she is in, would mean being able to extend herself grace, mercy. The only person who needs to forgive her, is herself. And she just- can’t.

She believes that all she does is hurt the people around her, which is what she is grasping onto to justify hurting herself. The hard truth of living that way is that when you’re stuck in your own, self harm, self hatred, shame-spiral is that you are the only person who can break out of it.

That’s a huge part about what I love about the storytelling of this arc. It’s genuinely some of the best mental health representation I’ve seen in a show like this.

Obviously, mental illness is not your fault. Being stuck in a bad place is not your fault. Daisy is not at fault for her grief. Her descent into isolation and a self-hatred, suicidal, shame-spiral does not in any way mean that she is a bad person. But there’s only so much another person can do when it comes to a battle that is completely contained within your own brain.

The team never stopped caring about her. Coulson, May, and Yo-Yo, specifically, never gave up on her. That’s important. She would’ve most likely been dead if they had stopped giving a shit about her. That’s significant.

But they’re not mind readers.

To go back to the scene with Mack and Fitz too. I think that scene is really important because it’s Daisy being confronted with the reality that her actions, her running away, isolating herself, really is hurting the people that love and care about her. She runs away to protect them from that very reality, of course, but how could they know that?

She doesn’t want them to care, and she hopes that if she just pushes them hard enough, if she bares her metaphorical fangs, they’ll stop. She’s accepted being alone, she’s accepted her own self destruction, because even if it hurts them at first, even if she’s absolutely miserable, they’ll be safe. Inside, she’s unwilling to admit that she needs them, and she’s acting in a way that allows her to avoid the cognitive dissonance of her actions (i.e. yo-yo stealing the pills they’d willingly give her if she asked).

But the fact that she’s hurting them doesn’t push them away. It just makes everything hurt more for everyone. She wants to embody that hurt, she’s cannibalizing her self to try to take on that pain but it doesn’t make anything better.

This storyline is not a case of right and wrong, if anything it’s an antithesis to it. It’s about how the ambiguity of life and grief and mental health are like tangled strings, messy and knotted, it’s about the love and effort and dedication it takes to hang on to/fight your way back to the people that love you, it’s about the strength it takes to carry on and forgive yourself, and, as May tells Daisy once she comes back, it’s about that: “you can’t choose who cares about you”.

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Part 6!

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MISS SCARLET AND THE DUKE (2020-)

S4E3: Origins