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I feel like im losing myself

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Every time i see one of these opal coraline a couple other movies as well like over the garden wall i feel a gnawing i guess guess tingling feeling in my chest and just sadness i dont know what it is i just feel sad wishful i wish i could read this as a comic i guess i wish i could get closure i wish i were a kid i wish i wish i wish i loved this animation the style bring a wierd melancholy the song a hopeful but dead tune and the expressions stress anxiety and something i dont know the the feeling is like the end of summer break the end of a weekend the end of my childhood i feel as though i lost something i dont know im sorry for whoever reads this i just feel dead

Thats what my comment is i think i might be depressed idk maybe cause im now 18 or just cause thats a part of a childhood i lost i loved living in westpoint i felt accepted i moved every two years my entire life ive move more then every two years actually 11-13 times jesus i lost every person i trusted there every friend cause none had cellphone and everyone of them were also used to losing everyone they knew so why try ya know i guess what i have say is i dont think i wanna try to live anymore i feel empty fuck me

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Im 18 life is i dont know ok getting healthier at least ive been losing weight 20-30 pounds i was 220 but im on a cut im going to the gym not super actively but hey im going at least and thats better then nothing i got on here to see the old comics i used to follow steven universe and undertale do i still think they are perfect no but thats not the reason i loved steven universe anyway it was the one time i spent time with my sister and brother together and that was what made it great and i miss it my sister is 23 and my brother is 24 they are older then me so i dont see them even more even though i rarely saw them when they were 16 or younger and i do miss them its just i dont know how to reconnect i just feel like they forgot me my brother checks in but my sister who i used to hang out with all the time play games she practically raised me just left i never see her without her boyfriend each time i just feel like she doesnt care anymore i dont know it just feel trivial to try anymore she didnt even come to my 18th birthday because she wanted to hang out with her boyfriend which hurt but i wont say anything cause i dont wanna be a bother you know it just feels like i lost a part of my family

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Im now 17 been for a day im feeling better just less stressed and depressed still not as many friends as id like makes sense me living now finally permanently finally sense my mom retired dont know if i said that already just the main reasons for all this is that my dad hates how i dress makes sense since he thinks of me ad a wierdo bi and autistic with adhd and so im like wearing darker stuff like leather jackets and such goth punk ya know but he said if only i acted normal id have normal friends not friends who wanna kill them selves and i get it ,it just hurts for my parent to say it so i guess im just gonna change myself not cause of bulling at school but from my own parent yay

Im gonna be 17 in four days i dont know if i should kill myself or not i have tried to find love for years but my mom was in the military and i dated did everything you should but once you move they are gone specially when you only know em for two years now i barely have any friends i just moved here because my mom wanted to be closer to family and i have no one i really wanna kill myself but i know if i do either i wont exist anymore i wont even comprehend existence i will go to hell cause i know im shitty person or the other ending where you exist but dont i hate myself i hate who ive become i hate what ive done i wanna die for it but no one know anything of what ive done how ive acted how i am who i am im just a husk a lier a non empathetic bastard i hate myself i hate everything i am id take pretty much anyone to date anyone to help me have a single reason not to die but that isnt happening because people who are easy to date quick to break even easier so im here alone in my room unable to sleep permanently thinking wanting to die unable to pick up the rope unable to pick up my knifes unable to change what i did in the past i wanna die because of that i dont know how long im gonna last maybe ill get past college realize my dream job was a sham work as a firewatch realize i cant be alone work as some stripper just for money realize im ugly fat a loser work my quote un quote dream job and wish i was dead everyday unable to find someone to love someone to care for someone who i can hug kiss anything and ill commit truly finally free from the stresses of life i wish i could do that now but i cant im unable to i cant risk it i have two more good years then im dead because after that ill be throw out like my brother hated silently people worried about but not caring enough to check until its too late i know I’m an idiot for writing this but im screaming into a relentless void which no one will ever see so i will use this to post pone my demise a day a year a decade who know next time i write one of these thats how you'll know after im privileged i got hit by two cars can walk im alive my mom is well off so i shouldnt be depressed why should on the surface i have great parents not many family members have died not many direct family have died either so why am i sad i dont know im unable to say when insay i wanna die i dont know why its a mixture my body my social life my hatred towards me not studying and playings game that help short term but long term no i hate that i waste my time doing this i hate my self because all im doing is screaming and accusing and being stupid and annoying angry all i do is complain while i should just accept my death or just keep going till i do

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Im gonna be 17 in four days i dont know if i should kill myself or not i have tried to find love for years but my mom was in the military and i dated did everything you should but once you move they are gone specially when you only know em for two years now i barely have any friends i just moved here because my mom wanted to be closer to family and i have no one i really wanna kill myself but i know if i do either i wont exist anymore i wont even comprehend existence i will go to hell cause i know im shitty person or the other ending where you exist but dont i hate myself i hate who ive become i hate what ive done i wanna die for it but no one know anything of what ive done how ive acted how i am who i am im just a husk a lier a non empathetic bastard i hate myself i hate everything i am id take pretty much anyone to date anyone to help me have a single reason not to die but that isnt happening because people who are easy to date quick to break even easier so im here alone in my room unable to sleep permanently thinking wanting to die unable to pick up the rope unable to pick up my knifes unable to change what i did in the past i wanna die because of that i dont know how long im gonna last maybe ill get past college realize my dream job was a sham work as a firewatch realize i cant be alone work as some stripper just for money realize im ugly fat a loser work my quote un quote dream job and wish i was dead everyday unable to find someone to love someone to care for someone who i can hug kiss anything and ill commit truly finally free from the stresses of life i wish i could do that now but i cant im unable to i cant risk it i have two more good years then im dead because after that ill be throw out like my brother hated silently people worried about but not caring enough to check until its too late i know I’m an idiot for writing this but im screaming into a relentless void which no one will ever see so i will use this to post pone my demise a day a year a decade who know next time i write one of these thats how you'll know after im privileged i got hit by two cars can walk im alive my mom is well off so i shouldnt be depressed why should on the surface i have great parents not many family members have died not many direct family have died either so why am i sad i dont know im unable to say when insay i wanna die i dont know why its a mixture my body my social life my hatred towards me not studying and playings game that help short term but long term no i hate that i waste my time doing this i hate my self because all im doing is screaming and accusing and being stupid and annoying angry all i do is complain while i should just accept my death or just keep going till i do

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Oof poor tommy

This probably happened I think

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I love this series on youtube

Had Gordon just saved Benrey instead of him dying for the first time I think it would’ve made ol’ Bennyboy a little gayer

Part 2!!

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Pfft jesus HARRY DID YOU PUT YOUR NAME IN THE GOBLET OF FIRE dumbledore said calmly

Hmm

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EVIL PENIS BLAST

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Shoot been a year since i read this i hope i have time to catch up sadly i dont have enough time in my life anymore and my depression has been hitting so much harder to focus and try to live

It's here! The Cluster Arc! >:)

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Wish i was better at this all i can do is landscapes and some animals and people but i still have to improve and make my own artstyle

Some foliage/plant etc studies I’ve been doing recently 

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I love portal wish they made a third

i decided to make a spiderman version of chell inspired by my last art heheh

feel free to use the design if you like!! (also does it mean that glados is this universe's miguel..)

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Just putting it out there but I am available for commissions if anyone is interested! I’m currently trying to save up for a new chair as my current one is broken. Every little helps and I would greatly appreciate it ^-^

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Hot just hot sorry its just big man middys

WAAAH ALL YALLS REPLIES ON THE DIRTY PAWS REDRAWS ARE SO SWEET AND FUNNY i offer a couple more quick doodles as thanks

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Hopefully i get to see it all its quite beautifully drawn

Second part of my little comic! There's no way he didn't realize the world he knew was gone when he got to the Human Realm... The denial is strong in this one

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I just like it idk

so who else saw the new spiderverse movie? we're bringing back spidersonas, boys!