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i don’t know

so i was in the hospital for 2 days over my spring break to get help with my mental health. with that i am now monitored closer when i go on line. so i don’t know how much i will be posting any more. or what kind of things i could post ill do my best to post still but i don’t know

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i honestly can’t do this any more i just want to be happy again 

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i think i have a problem

i have been listening to sex with a ghost by teddy hyde on repeat for the past hour

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so this person and i were talking about mantle heath and she went “you know i can’t tell if your being genuinely serous or just looking for attention. cuz like it sounds like you bragging about your unhealthy coping skills.” i would like to say i yelled at her and told her off for pretty much saying i’m faking it, but, in all honesty i just sat there and stayed quite and apologised for it all.

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god my lags are so fat

someone please send meanspo 

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i can so see this happening  😂

Jonah: I completely stand by what I said when I was drunk.

Daniel: You were yelling at me about how we don’t deserve kittens.

Jonah: Listen. We live in a cruel, disgusting world that is dark and angry. Have you seen a kitten, Daniel? They’re soft, fluffy and pure.

Daniel: …Are you crying?

Jonah [drying is tears]: They are entirely too pure for this ugly world! We must protect them!

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its getting hard

to keep up this facade of me being happy. 

to find a spot on my wrist that haven't  be cut.

to be leave that i am really depressed and not faking it for attention like some people say.

to take care of my health

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i never thought the day would come when i look at a candle and as i wish i looked like that

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*not mine*

i just wanna be thinner i hate my body all my friends tell me i’m perfect the way i am but god i’m so fat that i just wanna curl up and die

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just a thought

some times i wonder if it would have been better if i just wasn’t around to fuck things up so bad

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god no wonder i don’t have a relations ship. i mean who wants to date a fat ugly cow?

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i binged again today 

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i can’t wait

till i’m in collage and i don’t have people on me about eating every 5 fucking minutes 

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ugh

I’m fasting today i binged really bad yesterday but do the calories in my coffee count?