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Challenge level: impossible

Find a shounen anime where I'm not zoning out during the protagonist bits, waiting for us to get to the edgier, cooler rival

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"the wrong way to put out a fire" was the most disturbing part of the entire series so far, tbh. "Rei could have refused me" bro you just said her family was financially struggling and pressuring her into it. And then Rei saying what happened is HER fault. Ma'am you were in a domestic violence crisis situation and on the verge of a psychotic break. 0/10, would rather go back to the body horror

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BOKU NO HERO ACADEMIA ダビダンス  DABI’S DANCE 

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Me @ Best Jeanist:

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Back in the 2010s on my old tumblr I would have reblogged and disagreed. But after a popular blog in a fandom screamed at me and called me names for *agreeing with the actual author* on something that's genuinely really obvious in the books and then continued to insult me even years later, I have zero desire to get involved in arguments on here and honestly tend to avoid engaging in fandom stuff. So if it was something egregiously wrong, I would send it to a friend and vent.

i actually need to know people's thoughts on this because at least in my experience the answer to this has drastically changed since i was on tumblr in the 2010s and its driving me fucking insane

*im talking about fandom takes specifically. not someone being horribly evil about a real-life issue or or blatantly factually incorrect. literally just harmless fandom disagreements or differing interpretations of a text/character/etc.

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nothing more stressful than your first ever IEP meeting

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i went grocery shopping and didn't even need to look at my list except for one item I don't usually need???? (paper plates for end of year troop party). I even remembered a bunch of things it would be good to get that i didn't put on the list. I'm in disbelief. It's like I've switched from Impossible Mode to Easy Mode

first day on Vyvanse and I feel like I can conquer the world and discover the meaning of life and also I cleaned the entire apartment. Is this what neurotypicals feel like all the time???

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felt slightly less manic today but still reorganized more stuff

first day on Vyvanse and I feel like I can conquer the world and discover the meaning of life and also I cleaned the entire apartment. Is this what neurotypicals feel like all the time???

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first day on Vyvanse and I feel like I can conquer the world and discover the meaning of life and also I cleaned the entire apartment. Is this what neurotypicals feel like all the time???

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tfw after a lot of online assessments, you realize it's not just ADHD 🫠

didn't realize how much ADHD affects me on a sensory level until I had to attend this conference with blaring speakers in a room full of echoes. I felt like I was losing my mind until someone gave me earplugs. And I've been digging my fingernails into my hands over and over all day.

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didn't realize how much ADHD affects me on a sensory level until I had to attend this conference with blaring speakers in a room full of echoes. I felt like I was losing my mind until someone gave me earplugs. And I've been digging my fingernails into my hands over and over all day.

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had some sort of existential crisis late last night because the "girl behavior agreement" our troop sent out for the girls to sign before the camping trip is *that* unhinged. my 9yo has no idea what most of these prohibited behaviors even are. luckily they told me I could just explain the age-appropriate ones and skip the rest but I was about to rip them a new one and then resign

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you ever get assigned something as a project in school and for the rest of your life you have a strange attachment to the subject. in like seventh grade i had an assignment to make a poster about the elemental propoerties of osmium and to this day everytime someone mentions it im like 'YEAAAAAAH OSMIUM MENTIONED!!!!!!!!'

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how is it already almost time for me to go to Boston for the inclusion/accessibility conference? I'm excited to return to the New England homeland but a bit disappointed I won't really have time to do anything BUT the conference since it's until 9pm each day but the last and I can't linger.

And honestly the prospect of implementing this program is scary because I can already hear the boomers saying "neurodivergent kids just need to suck it up and behave" and I myself have ADHD and am horrible at organization so 🫠. And I have to run a book club as part of it but our place is too small to host so I have to figure out a different location and what if no one comes 😭. And also our building is so crowded that I'm not sure how we're going to manage some of the ideas that require us to set rooms/space aside.

On the other hand i am super riled up because someone scolded my daughter last week that she needs to "pay attention and be responsible" as if she's not desperately trying her best already. So I'm ready to fistfight everyone rn

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𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑢𝑙𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑒: 𝑔𝑜 𝑡𝑜 𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡, 𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑐ℎ "𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑒 + 𝑐𝑜𝑟𝑒," 𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑖𝑥 𝑝𝑖𝑐𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑒𝑠. 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑡𝑎𝑔 𝑠𝑖𝑥 𝑝𝑒𝑜𝑝𝑙𝑒.

thanks @ghosts-and-blue-sweaters and @cbuttonduo for the tag!! <3

wow i’m obsessed with this and i feel it’s fairly accurate!!

tags (no pressure): @thewildballyntynesgrow @bronzetomatoes @cloverstellar @clingyduoapologist @seeking-elsewhither @thoughts-of-caly

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One of the most frustrating things about being ADHD is the way hyperfixations and skill levels work.

So I, an ADHD person, will get obsessed with A Thing. I will research, I will practice. I'll check out library books, watch YouTube videos, seek out podcasts, all to learn everything I can about The Thing.

Thiat Thing is often a skill or hobby. Painting, writing, candlemaking, baking, mixology, tea blending.

But the thing with ADHD is that you'll be obsessed with it only to a certain skill level. Something where all the mystery is gone. It's not as fun once the learning part is over and it's just boring practice to get better.

Then abruptly, you'll lose interest and move to another fixation.

That skill level you've earned may be higher than your average person with a passing interest. But it's also lower than someone who specializes in said thing, who has put in those hard hours of practice and work.

So you start just forming this miscellaneous collection of things that you're good enough at to earn some praise, but still leave you feeling like you're just never *quite* good enough at anything because you can't just choose anything.

And you want to pick a Thing. To find Your Thing. The thing that fits, that you can finally excel at. But you just can't seem to.

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ADHD at night: I could write a book. I could get my Master’s Degree. I could go to the club and come home with 12 new friends. I could get a job at that club and meet the mother of my children. I could cure every disease and use my wealth to bring world peace.

ADHD during the day: Fold laundry too hard :( Come back next week