alwaysleftbehindandforgotten

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reblog if you’re a little lost in life rn

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It’s been 4 years since I self harmed and I did it now and wow. I forgot how good it feels. The relief feels...so good

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I am in love with the boy who r*ped me. He broke the promise he made to use protection then shoved it all the way in without care.

We ended things a month ago. I feel this aching that goes away during the day but when I stop the motions of living, I feel the emptiness he’s left inside me. Why do I feel like this? Why won’t it go away?

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i am terrified by how quickly people change their minds. it fucking terrifies me to think about letting someone in and trusting them and then them just changing their mind about me. and it terrifies me because it’s happened too many times

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This was three years ago and I don’t even remember who I was writing about. I still don’t have sexual attraction for people and I’ve fully accepted that alongside boys, I like girls and non binary people. Life happens. Things change. The me three years ago is not the me now.

I think I’m starting to form feelings for a boy? Which rarely happens. Because usually I like boys romantically and never sexually but wowza. I’m screwed. Real bad. Someone send help.

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“I am homesick for a place I am not sure even exists: one where my heart is full, my body is loved, and my soul is understood.”

— Melissa Cox (via purplebuddhaquotes)

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The reason I’m failing my classes is because I’m so fucking depressed. You try studying for calc when you disassociate everyday. You try getting up every morning when what you really want is to never wake up.

I’m sorry I disappointed you. It’s not the first time and I’m sure it won’t be the last. But I can’t breathe sometimes. I can’t have a conversation without wanting to burst into tears. And if I don’t want to cry I don’t feel anything at all.

There’s: No hope No point No value

And I can’t tell you any of this because I know you’ll leave.

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I’m falling back into selfdestructive habits, like never eating, slicing my skin or not staying sober for more than some hours and I know I should care and stop myself but there’s nothing left anymore that doesn’t drag me down and I’m really tired of fighting a battle I don’t even want to win.

I give in, I will let it kill me // 22.12.16 - 11:27 (via somnabulxst)

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She doesn't love me anymore

She used to smile with her eyes when she saw me She used to kiss me on the cheek She used to hold my hand She used to laugh Now... She moves away when I sit close She doesn't hug me anymore She only wants me when she's lonely She smiles at me but her eyes are blank It's an end of an era. An end of a friendship. It's an end of a love But I don't want to say goodbye Not yet. Please God. Not yet. I have nothing else to hold on to.

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