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I love cherries they take me longer to eat cuz of the pit and I can just eat them till I'm not hungry and it's only like 45 c@l unlike stupid bananas 🙄

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I can't tell my family and friends so I'ma tell you 🤭

🩷🧟TW❗$H, drug love (id never abuse it) all over depressive crash out ❗,🧟🩷

Idk WTF is with me but like I can't think straight and I'm anxious and have been overthinking and can't explain it right. I've used weed for the past at least 4 (my memory isn't that good) years. I feel like it's really affecting my memory and now my anxiety but I can't stop using it. I've been struggling with stress and sleep and today I was going to sleep but I got stressed and now my head is finally clear I feel better. (I DON'T ENFORCE IT ! DON'T DO IT IF YOU HAVE) This isn't a permanent solution I just can't get anxiety meds rn so posting helps.

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I hate anxiety

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I need weed.

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I feel disgusted with myself

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I hate this fucking house

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Please don't make me eat

Please don't make me eat

Please don't make me eat

Please don't make me eat

Please don't make me eat

Please don't make me eat

Please don't make me eat

Please don't make me eat

Please don't make me eat

Please don't make me eat

Please don't make me eat

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I'm going to hit my gw before school

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I hate myself for moving here I should have sucked it up and stayed with my mom. I never should have put my grandma in this position stuck with a moody bipolar teen. She would be so much better off without me. I shouldn't be here. I need to leave.

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I miss him

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eating anything feels like a b1nge at this point.

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I just want him back

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I just want to go home

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I'm so hungry but I'm so f@t

It hasn't even been that long I'm going to cry

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GUYS I JUST WENT ON THE SCALE IT WENT DOWN WAY MORE THAN I EXPECTED I'M GOING TO DOUBLE CHECK WHEN MY GUARDIANS GO TO BED

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I'm so fucking high

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I started talking to this guy I really like him and I think he likes me two but I'm so f@t how could he call me handsome. I feel like I'm tricking him I have to get to my gw before I visit him I don't care if it means I have to rot in bed to keep me from b1nnging, I don't care if my head starts hurting, I don't care that my mouth always feels dry, I don't care that I feel like I'm going to fall and never get up, I don't care. I have to do it for him.