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[amerterros]

RANT

well I have a lot on my mind this morning and I thought I would try and spill it all out onto this post because its bothering me. And a lot of doesnt have to do with anyone but myself and thats good and bad. Its good because im focusing more on myself and really theres no one else to focus on which is quite awesome but it is also making me scrutnize on the things that bother me about myself and what I have to work on.

I dont even feel like writing this. A part of me is thinking who cares but I care. I just have soo soo much on my mind its hard to start. I think way too much and I skipped the gym today because I thought my body could use another rest day. However now the demons are well rested and do not have a remedy to silence them so theyre coming out. 

I suppose the main issue is that I still feel lost. Im not quite sure what I am doing in life and I dont know what I want to do exactly. I just know I dont want to work for anyone else. That is huge realization in itself. I thought I could before but now I know that I can’t. I just hate having people telling me what to do. Specially those people that just like telling me what to do because they can. There is no real reason to why they are telling me to do something they are simply telling me to do something just because they can. You know? 

I hate it. I can tell when someone is doing so as well. Its a feeling they put out a type of energy. The tone a voice they do it in. The body language all of it. 

So yeah I just dont know what to do to become my own boss. I defintely am going to start a youtube channel and begin with bass covers and see how I like that. 

I just feel like damn im so late to the party. I should have tried doing this like years ago. I spent four years going to university to do something I know I am not going to enjoy but here I am doing it and I just question it so much. Then I just shut up and think “Trust the universe. Trust God. They’re guiding you.” I truly belive that I just feel like my journey has been filled with more failures than accomplishments. Which is bad but also good. I look at my peers and theyre accomplishing more and thats good I am happy for them I truly am. However it makes me look at myself and think like “fuck what do i got?” I got a lot but its just in those moments that I feel bad. I am aware that I should not be comparing myself to others but its what we do as humans. 

All in all its good that my peers are successful because they spark that uncomfortable feelin that I need to do more. I need to look inward more. This is good. 

I know i can do whatever I put my mind to. I can do anything I just need to choose. I just have too many things that I am interesed in doing. I need to pick one thing and do it for 10 years and master my craft. I think that has always been music. That has always flowed to me naturally with little to no resistance. So I have been focusing more on bass. I played guitar for a long time and I strayed from that path because I was fixed to playing a certain style that just made me not want to play guitar anymore. However, bass is cool because its familiar but still has that nuance to it. So its a new thing and I discovering myself through it. 

Its just difficult sometimes because I am getting older and time is finite and I feel like I have wasted a lot of time, but this realization is gold. This is the time to act and I am excited to start recording bass and  just see where this takes me. 

[amerterros]

Send me a letter to my inbox

A- are you single? B- birthday? C- crush? D- did u get ur first kiss? E- easiest person to talk to? F- favorite song? G- good at? H- hair color? I- in love? J- jealous of? K- known as? L- longest relationship? M- middle name? N- number? O- one wish? P- person last texted? Q- question always asked? R- reason to smile? S- song last listened to T- time you woke up? U- 3 biggest wishes? V- violent moment? W- worst fear? X- ex you still liked after it was ended? Y- your last hug? Z- zodiac sign?

[amerterros]

Dang

Sorry I have been absent. I literally just got a new computer and will begin writing and blogging more regularly. I apologize to my one follower haha but uh yeah thanks for understanding. 

[amerterros]

In case you’re wondering.

So the name of my blog is titled 2:22 and the reason is because I didnt know what to title my blog. 

I was trying to think of a name, and when I was trying to come up with something I looked at the clock and it was 2:22. So I said lets go with that. 

Funny enough, I looked up what the meaning of this three number combination is. 

The short version of it is. It means new begginings. I created a new blog, with the intetion of sharing my life and feelings with others online, maybe create an online community and make new friends. 

Cheers to new beginnings and expanding with the universe. 

[amerterros]

Day 1 of blog

Hi my name is Omar but my alias is Amer Terros so I’ll go by Amer. I started a blog because I want to begin writing regularly. Its supposed to be my destiny or something like that. I am 3-0 years old. Three and O like a MMA record. I dont know the number thirty seems taboo to say when people ask my age. I am thrity. What ever. I wanted to keep a blog just simple, but its crazy how complicated websites make it. I wanted to orginally make one on Wordpress.org but it got complicated. I used to have a Tumblr by the same name Amerterros so I said hey lets run it back. Anyway lets see what happens. I will make regular posts about life and journey every week. Thanks for having me. Even though I am only talking to the void since I have no followers. Hello!