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A thought to end this year and to welcome 2024.

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I'm in the phase in my life where I would just risk it all.

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Ich war letztes Wochenende hier 😌

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Life update for the last day of the semester: I'm still alive. It's a good thing.

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Yesterday and today are some of the reasons why I would like to quit. Nobody's perfect, but the little mistakes hurt so bad when it hit you as a one giant punch.

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My first out of the country trip after pandemic. Ang mahal pooo, pero uulit pa 😆

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Thirty since yesterday! Alles Gute für mich.

I don't write long stuff nowadays. It's just that I'm slowly losing grip of the things I've been holding to for the last couple of years. I'm never the same, but I'm not sure if it's for the better.

But, i'm always thankful for the small things, the big things and everything in between.

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Wo ich heute sein möchte 🧡

#ruheundfrieden

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29 and still stuck somewhere I know I'm not supposed to be.

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Back after more than a year, this time with different group of people.

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Do you ever get a little bit tired of life? Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die. Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive

'Cause you gotta survive

Like your body's in the room but you're not really there. Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care. Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air

Am I past repair

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2020 was a year of challenges and struggles.

2021 was a year of realizations.

2022 will be a year of changes, of embracing who I am, of working my mission, and of living my vision.

The experiences from the past two years pushed me to make two life-changing decisions: to quit my job and to pursue the dream I have since I was young. The strength I gathered from the past years will help me move forward and set a foothold on what I wanted to do. I’m still scared and bothered, but I see myself in a more terrible situation in the future if I stick to where I am and don’t change my direction now.

So let's just go ahead with it. If it turned out to be a mistake, then learn from it. If not, then i just saved myself from a lifetime of suffering.

Happy New Year, everyone! Cheers to a new hope that this beginning brings.

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I tried preparing soba noodles in dipping sauce today. It was so good that I started reminiscing about good foods I tried and on top of that are Japanese food. Then I realized it was almost two years ago when I went to Japan. I missed those days. Autumn is starting there right now, surely a lot of orange sceneries especially in Kyoto 🧡 I wish I could go back there, and preferrably for leisure purposes.

Ah, this pandemic has taken away precious memories we could have made. But it also made us appreciate the things we used to ignore.

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Me to myself: You're pushing yourself too hard. Stop for a while.

Myself replying to me: Just a little bit more.

This conscience will bring me harm someday. I can only blame myself.

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Lately, I've been preoccupied with work on weekdays and trying to escape from reality on weekends. I think I became more reliable at work, but I'm stuck in terms of personal development. I became more impatient. And maybe a little horrible to others. I can also feel the changes in my disposition in life. And it's been a while since the last time I wrote something that interest me. I'm not sure what kind of person am I anymore.

But I'm trying to get out of that hollow. And I'm back in Tumblr. Writing my thoughts is beneficial in a lot of ways, and I'm hoping I'll have a sense of something going on from now on.

I started learning German at the start of the year, but I barely made progress and still on basic introduction stuff. So I'm getting back on it. And I'm also picking up a book I started reading around 2 years ago but could not finish.

Well, that's a start, I guess?

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Wildflowers in Fog, Mount Rainier by Lazgrapher