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holding my boob for emotional support

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Russian Doll (2019 -) // What Do We Know: Poems and Prose Poems by Mary Oliver

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is it bad that i don’t want to get better?

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ritika jyala // claude monet // ivan slavinsky // wendy cope

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i just think that maybe someone should lay their head on my chest and then we can just talk for a little while. i just think that might be nice

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if you have time, please watch the japanese drama 恋せぬふたり (koisenu futari; the two people who can’t fall in love) which focuses on two aroace characters

Sakuko finds it difficult to live in a society which operates under the assumption that people will fall in love with each other. She meets supermarket employee Takahashi when she goes to support a "fall-in-love" campaign by her junior at work. She is startled when she hears him say that there are people who don't fall in love. As Sakuko's mother keeps hurrying her to get married, she decides to move out and rent an apartment with her friend but her friend backs out at the last minute after reconciling with her ex-boyfriend. Just when Sakuko is about to give up, she ends up living with Takahashi under one roof because of their similar values towards romance.

(how to watch)

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This genre of Minho lives in my mind rent free

Random Minho gifsets (5/?)

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A lot of times when I see ace or aro stuff people talk about how they don't want any of the sex or romance stuff in a relationship but they do like to cuddle and hold hands and sometimes even kiss, and it's frustrating to me how often I see that portrayed as like, a universal experience or ace/aro folk when it's absolutely not. So the purpose of this post is to give a massive shout-out to all the other ace and/or aro people out there who are touch repulsed or touch averse and still want a relationship without a focus on sensual touching.

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K-Pop Spotlight: Stray Kids

Masks off everyone—Stray Kids’ newest mini-album ODDINARY is finally out and it’s time to embrace the maniac within. To celebrate the new release and their upcoming fourth anniversary, we caught up with the group to talk about their new album and single, MANIAC, and the challenges and fulfillment that come with accepting your most authentic self. As a little bonus, we also asked the members to design their own Tumblr blogs (just in case you needed some inspiration). Check out our full interview below!

Tell us about your new mini-album ODDINARY in three words or less, but there’s a catch—you can’t use the words odd or ordinary. 

Bang Chan: MANIACS ARE BACK!

Lee Know: Cool.

Changbin: Inner side, volcano, control.

Hyunjin: Super Power song.

HAN: Abnormal, freaky, potential are the three words that I think describe it best. We tried to describe the energy that explodes from our music in a different way this time, by slowly showing control over this energy. 

Felix: Maniac, unique, and dark.

Seungmin: Interesting, fascinating, capturing hearts.

I.N: Mania, abnormal, conceptual. 

Stray Kids’ music and concepts often encourage young people to be their most authentic selves regardless of other people’s opinions. How does ODDINARY fit into that narrative, and what do you hope your fans take away from it? 

Bang Chan: This might not apply to everyone, but I feel like many people have experienced moments where they’re told to act normal (yep, I’ve been through that). We wanted to emphasize that “standards” don’t matter and that you have the authority to let out the “oddness” that’s been sealed inside you all this time.

Changbin: ODDINARY is a compound word that combines “ordinary” and “odd,” meaning that everyone has a normal and slightly weird side. Listeners will be able to experience the everlasting honesty and truthfulness that Stray Kids’ music has always displayed, with the more crazy side that Stray Kids have. 

HAN: I hope that STAY and all listeners will be able to follow their hearts, rather than being confined by the judgment of others. I hope everyone also looks forward to the upgraded version of us. 

Seungmin: Whatever situation may come, I hope that everyone is able to live in their most honest, unique way with versatility while never forgetting who they truly are. I hope our music can become a small strength. 

Lightning round! You’re customizing your own Tumblr blog. Pick an aesthetic and a personal tag!

Bang Chan: Ooft… it’s hard to pick just one because my preferred aesthetics change depending on my mood. But if I had to pick one, it would be cyberpunk. The lights got me, and I’m a fanatic for futuristic stuff.

Lee Know: I want to decorate it using a clean, white tone.

Changbin: I want to use the tags #straykids, #stay, #stage, #music, which all mean a lot to Stray Kids.

Hyunjin: Vintage Tumblr, with #lovestay

HAN: I would like to decorate it like #black #chic to show a lot of calm yet cool atmosphere! I want to use the tags #black #chic #skz #loveyou #STAY.

Felix: #행복이 #felix 🐈‍⬛💛

Seungmin: #Seungtage. I really like vintage furniture and aesthetics, so I would like to decorate it using an organized brown tone.

I.N: I’m into vintage aesthetics these days, so I think I’ll go with vintage.

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copyrighting neon dream as we speak

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Two Truths and a Lie!

Rules: Share two truths and one lie about yourself, tag five people to guess your lie and to share their own, make sure to guess the lie of the person who tagged you!

and 🤔 mmm I wanna guess that 3, you never went to music festivals, is your lie? I’m real tempted to say 2, but even smart people can repeat grades for one reason or another. Ohh I love this game, though I’m pretty bad at guessing games. I got tagged by@de-sire-blog

Now mine, which I had a lot of trouble coming up with xD

1. I used to get into lots of trouble for fighting and what not in school because anger issues~

2. I was basically raised at renaissance fair for how often my parents and I attended from my birth until I was about 6-7.

3. I once had plans to become a musician and/or actor until I realized my social anxiety was way too terrible, so I settled for doing art instead.

Tagging, but no pressure ~ @thebattlehamster @miss-bibbles @jegulus-trash @clifford-thebigreddog

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me staring at my calculator app for 45 seconds before i remember i was trying to open my clock app to set an alarm

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stares at ceiling

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hey fellow arospec people! we are fucking awesome, here, have a frog for all Your arospec needs

happy arospec awarness week

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me, at the start of my practice: i don’t think i am inclined towards deity work? which is okay, and i love hearing about others experiences with it but i don’t think it’s for me.

me, two years later: so that was a lie

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sometimes i question and analyze my feelings so much to the point where i’m sick with anxiety but eventually arrive to the same conclusions i had when i started and that i’m aro and i don’t want a romantic relationship with her and i don’t want to be like … so fixated on her and it brings me so much relief bc it feels like i can breathe but then inevitably i start feeling anxious again and i think i’m lying and it all just comes back and ahhhhhhhh 😭😭😭😭

i am once again questioning and i was wondering if lesbians could help me out…

i currently identify as aroace. now, given my track record, this is something that’s not surprising. i’ve literally never dated anyone. ever. i identified as bi for like 6 years before entering my first year of uni (i’m in my last year currently, 22 y/o) and being like ??? there’s so many women and men here and yet the thought of a relationship with any of them is terrifying and so uncomfortable. for a while i forced myself to be attracted to women to satisfy that ‘bi’ part of me. after reading about being aroace i realized that sounded a lot like me. but for some reason, even after a year, i’m still so confused. i know i don’t feel anything towards men. but i have no idea where i stand with women. when i think about it in a general sense, having a romantic relationship with women where i am out & openly sharing my relationship gives me discomfort. sometimes it’s a lot of discomfort and sometimes i’m like ‘hey, maybe this isn’t so bad’.

the reason i’m extra confused is because of how i feel towards a certain online friend of mine. she’s aro, and i love talking about being aromantic with her. but sometimes i feel so much for her that it confuses me, mostly because she’s the first person i’ve ever been able to open up to without feeling like … it’s a chore? talking to her emotionally feels so easy. i love it that she trusts me, and that she loves that i trust her too. i think about dating her and like it doesn’t seem terrible, it would make sense given how much she supports me. but at the same time, what i feel, feels like it’s not being captured by the word romantic. like it feels too big for the word romantic. idek if that makes sense. i want us to be together , without having to explicitly state it. but even if we did get together i’m not sure if what we have would change by much? it’s just the name of our relationship wojld change. i don’t mind the thought of kissing her, but again, i’ve never met her irl so idk how well that’s translate to real life. i’m not opposed to the thought of her being my ‘girlfriend’ if we got into a relationship, as the term to me is more for convenience than anything else.

i also feel like i should mention i’ve never felt this way about anyone in my immediate vicinity, ever. sometimes i think this is just a hyper fixation because she cares about me and i’m scared of my future, being alone and how that would look. also, i am so mentally ill. like 💀 so very lonely and sad all the time, and i have OCD with sexual orientation obsessions thag probably interferes with my questioning. and i only started questioning / feeling like this when the pandemic hit. if i had found out i was aroace pre pandemic, i would’ve thought there’s no other way i can be anything else, but now i just feel like i’m faking it.

i know this is super long i’m so sorry, but i’m just so tired of feeling confused and anxious all the time. i would like nothing more than to go back to feeling how i did pre-pandemic; not caring about relationships, happy to be by myself & single in the future. now i feel like that’s not possible for me at all, given how bad my mental illness is & how confused i am. if anyone has any help, i’d love to hear it :(