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Count the blessings. 

Whenever I feel stuck/less motivated/bad/empty, I used to count my blessing. 

I have my special books, to keep me write on my daily. Ya call it a diary book. Sometimes I fill it everyday, sometimes I fill it once a week, sometimes twice a day. Depends on my mood.

A simple phrase that can boost my mood in sudden :

What do I have till today, What kind of feeling I felt to have it all, Why I blessed to have it, What things I able to do from having all those things. What dream can I get of from having it.

When I was too weak to write, I know the simplest thing, having a pair of hand to write and pray is a big blessing.

[angelinewilliany]

8 April 2022. 

Whatever I did today, I didn’t proud of it. I’m not sure if I can promise some bad things would never be repeated again by me. Nor the world can promise me that it would always show the bright side. 

Well, the sight whether its dark or bright, is always depends on our perspective. So the responsibility is on me. 100% on me. 

Maybe I just need to be fully me, again. Give me some time, give me some space. I’m a good girl overall. I know I finish it very well at the end. 

[angelinewilliany]

Tangan Baik!

It’s been almost 2 weeks, I feel like the whole my right hand is getting a bit swollen.. swollen atau berotot.. ga paham 😂

Ya, basically, it feels so sore for days, and perhaps making balado could be one of the reason. Tapi, ternyata, secara tidak sadar pun, gw memperlakukan my right hand truely being the right hand, semacem “tangan kepercayaan”.

Mulai dari ambil tissue, nyalain lampu, nyapu, tarik kursi, ambil sabun, pencet botol sabun, motong2, bedakan, tuang air minum, bawa belanjaan, dll, almost evrything. Yang mungkin beban si tangan kanan jadi 2-3x lipat setelah gw mulai ngbalado.

Sedangkan, tadi, gw mendapati diri gw sendiri, secara tidak sadar mengoper segala macam barang yang ada ditangan kiri ke tangan kanan, untuk dieksekusi.

Kalo tangan kanan bisa ngomong mgkn dia uda bilang ke tangan kiri, “kan bisa lu kerjain sendiri, anj”. Dan pada akhirnya, gw merasa sebel sendiri atas tindakan ituu karena… zzz koq hodob ya, uda tau lagi pegel masih ngoper2 ke tangan kanan.

Entah ini sebenernya preferensi, karena dari dulu selalu diminta untuk pakai tangan kanan si tangan baik hingga jadi terbiasa dipakai, yang kemudian jadi melemahkan si tangan kiri.. atau hanya keluhan sementara aja krn sedang pegal2nya.

Tapi sempat kepikiran, tangan kanan = tangan baik, adalah culture yang gak akan gw turunkan ke anak cucu.

[angelinewilliany]

I remember when I was 20’s, I talk to my self,

“In my early 30s, I should have had at least 1 thing I take seriously and I develop it on my own, for my whole life”.

I really desire something I can do for a longer period. No retirement. No matter how small it is. At least, it is mine, it is able to keep me productive at my older age.

Voillaa! Im immediately 30yo in 2020. And still nothing I’ve done by my own 🥲🤣.

In a rush, Im looking for something I love. It turns out that I love spicy food. Gratefully, my best boyfriend loves it too. I even have no idea that he knows how to cook it better than me. He teach me how to cook it good. I made this trial spicy food maybe around 7-8 months..

Theen, it becomes like this

Now, it’s been 6 months running, ‘Balado Jelin’.

It may not perfect right now. But I know, I still can develop it. I can make it better day by day. I can make it well known someday. And my friends already know me as Jelin, maybe until forever.

However, Im proud of it. No matter how small, no matter how un-well-known, at least I started it, at least I still able to do it as long as I live.

Next Ramadan will be my fisrt Ramadan with Balado Jelin. I hope this could be a good moment 😁

Anyway, there’s a lesson I should always remember for my whole life from Balado Jelin.

One day when I was cooking, my parents yelling each others for a very small reason. Then my father complained almost everything I did in the kitchen. So annoying. Me, of course getting emotional as well. I started to feel tired, angry, wanna yelling back to them. I was doing a cook with not happy feeling. Although I had measurement for all the ingredients, for all spices, The result gone wrong. It still taste good but something’s missing. I didnt know what spices to add so that the food can be good. I really have no idea. That moment really slap me in the face. Bener kata orang2, klo masak tu ya harus happy 😅

But I think, it’s not only “klo masak”.

Justru harusnya “ini cuma prihal masak lho!”

Unhappiness, negative mindset, badmood, could ruin the result. Can you imagine if I bring the negative mind to my life like everyday.? To everything? How bad my life would be. Jelin relly should take a note on this till Jelin die.

I believe God and His Universe have an unexplicable way to perfect something. We can do measurement, we can learn hard to make something, we can pay someone who skilled on something, but I believe, perfection is on His hand. He see us not only how hard we tried, but also how excited I walk in the process. Am I grumpy? Am I always complaining? If yes, then He will pull me back from the track, to try again.

So by today, whoever read my story, please put your positive mindset and sincere heart in everything, no matter how hard it is. We can only do that, so God can do His job to make perfection on us. 🌻

[angelinewilliany]

Can’t Get Enough !

Have you ever addicted to something and feels like you can’t stop? All the vibes, the high, the goodness feeling fulfilled your brain and it moves the body even makes the fullest satisfy.

This !

Yaaaa… tell me im a die-hard-fans, but to be honest, HE IS JUST THAT GREAT! HE ALWAYS BE THAT GREAT!

All his exotism, his vibes, his moves, his voice, the way he brought out this song in live performance was 10000 times better than any mankind could imagine. He has that 10000% life with all those perfection. He got it! Always be my inspiration, Bruno. Even through the screen I felt that vibes, felt those positive energy. Thiss move me hard. Never say enough to Bruno. Can not. Never ever in my life I could act standard evertime I heard his song. NEVER. I would be moved. Its natural. I enjoy it hard!

Come on MEE, You are young! Be like Bruno Mars!

[angelinewilliany]

Today, I watched a very good seminar. It’s a webinar actually. It’s livestreamed on youtube. The theme is so attractive! About wirausaha, about how to be businessman, what to do with our environment, commodities, how to access our government to bring it international, how to scale up the quality, and many more.

It is fantastic for me, and in this livestreamed were filled with trusted resources person who are profesional in their field. Like minister of trade, CEO of komunitas bisa ekspor, the owner of gula semut. They all said something i can’t be more agreed. “Millenials, should be proud of local products!”. Bum! I just tooo agreeed with this. Indonesia is very wealthy, we are wealthy. The world need our commodities. How come they are not?? All the spices, herbs, coconut products, the handcrafts, the crops, the live inside the ocean, we are just too rich! We really need to be proud of us, Indonesian!

I decided to post such a photo competition with local products. Mine is Kain Baduy. I hope I made it a good photo, hehee… The rewards would be HP, drone, or camera .. well, they are not bad. Hope got one 😉

[angelinewilliany]

Really miss a moment like this, where we can gathered, sing, laugh, without afraid of bad covid.

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[A white fortune cookie paper with black text on the front and an icon of a bee. It reads: Someone new is coming into your life to the benefit of you both.]

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My first hike was so smooothhh! I went to Mt. Prau in Dieng, Central Java. How can I describe it? I can see the ocean of cloud from up here, with a green savana, sweet colourful flowers, cold air, bright and warm sun, dramatical sky colour while sunrise..

Yass! I got the golden sunrise.

I hike at 2AM, and arrived at the top at 4.30AM. It was so tiring hike experience for me, but also the easiest and the smoothest track, our guide said.

Together with my 2 friends, Aksa n Zarra. I wore the very slippery shoes, but we made it anyway 😉

I never expect that hiking could be so dope! Really wait for the other hike time! What a delightful fact that God put me right here, where I could really love really enjoy the ride He provides. 🥳

[angelinewilliany]

Sejauh Teri Memandang

Here in Indonesia, Teri or Anchovy is the easiest popular food ingredients to find. Yesterday I bought 0,25 kgs Teri Medan for IDR 50rb. Surprisingly it’s expensive!

Yap, popular food doesn’t mean it is cheap or unhealthy! It is expensive if I could say it. With IDR 50rb, actually worth for 0,25kg meat I think. Which means they have almost the same rate 🥲

But well, anchovy or what I bought was Teri Medan, has a wonderfulll salty taste and it is goooddd! Luckily, I live here in Indonesia where rempah2 is easy to find as well. Teri medan is great to cook sweety spicy, with some sliced lime leaf.

Beautiful, isn’it it??

With some ginger, lengkuas, chilli, red garlic, salt, lot of sugar, sereh.. All this ingridients turn like this ! Eat this with warm rice, heavenly taste 🤤

I mean, see… this is why I always said, Im lucky to be here in Indonesia. This food for the happy belly happy life, how can my sister cook it in New Zealand?? Or how can my causin cook it in America?

They are indeed need Indonesian spices!

[angelinewilliany]

Keti 5th birthday parteehh ! 🥳🥳🥳

28Dec2020

[angelinewilliany]

Love of my life, Keti !

This post is dedicated to my cutie_meonk, my lover, my faithfull friend no matter what as long as she got whiskas, my mood booster, my everything. 

She is such my daughter though we are indeed a different species. 

Her name is Keti. Here is some photos I took from the very little her. 

It is her. From baby to almost 2 yo. She was born in dormitory’s kitchen. Lucky for Keti, the kitchen is mine with 2 other friends of mine : Evia (Epi) & Elfi (Cabe). 

Me, of course a cat lover. Epi and Cabe, they are respecting animal. 

No doubt, I take care of Keti with her siblings, and mom too. But, one day, long story short, Keti were left alone. No body knew where her mom and her sibling were. Keti was trembling and insecure, she was not even 3 months old back then. It was hard to get close to her, even to feed her. 

Day by day, she put trust on me. The reason is simply because of food. I have a lot of cat foods. Why should she doubt me? wkk. 

Month turns to year. I found out Keti loved to be rolled up :))

Again, years goes by. Now, I don’t live in dormitory but moved to my own home. Keti is with me, in this home. She was insecure at the beginning, She had gone for almost 3 months since we moved. But, I found her. I brought her back home. 

Thanks to pandemic, that I could work from home, Keti is no more insecure because she has me everyday. December 2020, Keti celebrated her 5th yo

Check Keti birthday party video above this post !

Aaaandd… yaaa.. we live happily ever after. Keti is getting fat, means she is superr happy!

[angelinewilliany]

Burung Pipit yang Kecil

Yesterday, out of no where, I was strike by a not so childhood memories. I was in high school back then. Doing my exam. I finished it already, and there was a lot of time left. then, of course, I had have to wait in class till the bell rang.

Ya, you know me. There’s always a song singing in my head. I was thinking to write it down in my exam paper, to kill the time, with thin ink, so it won’t be a problem for my test. 

Here is the song :

Burung pipit yang kecil, dikasihi Tuhan. Terlebih diriku, dikasihi Tuhan. 

Bunga bakung dipadang, diberi keindahan. Terlebih diriku, dikasihi Tuhan.

By the next day, the teacher asked the other class to check our exam paper. fortunately, mine was checked by my very close friend. She laughed hard at me. That’s so understood-able. 

This happened when I was 15 yo. 15 years ago. Now I am 30. And this song still singing in my head sometimes. 

Out of my consciousness, this song give me so much strength in the middle of this pandemic (COVID-19, if 45yo me read this again). Where my job looks not so promising but however I enjoy it still wkwkk… and my side job singing are so empty these day. Where my parents are no more able to do any kind of job. This song is soooo true.

Burung Pipit yang kecil saja dikasihi. Apalagi akuhh, cantik, baik, penurut, happy, dan pekerja keras. Im definitely loved by my God, by this universe. 

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“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?”

— Matthew 6 : 25-26

[angelinewilliany]

Above all.. it burdens me hard enough to know someone out there who was (pretty sure) smart, gorgeous, calm, and good one, is fighting for her life.

I was slapped so hard by the unknown girl, by the girl who is much younger. I know she will go through this very good, i wish the world doesnt joke so hard to her. Cause she is the one who can give sweetness in someone’s life. The one who will bring goodness and happiness to the world who let her in, she supposed to be sunshine by her smart and beautiful mind.. i know she deserves it, all the good and the best thing in this world.

I was so thankful that praying is free and God let everyone do it, whatever the problem, whatever they need to share. And if there’s a major case to bring on, she would be the one. May God dont let the world be cruel to her. If it’s not for her, do this for her family, for anyone who love her so much. This girl would make her life and arround better. Please make her better..