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love how s1-2 jon was just like ‘oh i’ll have a word with elias about this’ 

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get to know my d&d characters!

(or: an ask meme made to supplement a lack of new ask memes)

why did they choose their class(es)? their subclass(es)?

before they met their party, what was their main goal?

what is their goal right now?

if they could learn one spell that isn’t available to them at present, which spell would it be?

do they follow a higher power? what are their thoughts on divinity?

which party member do they relate to the most?

which party member do they understand the least?

what are three songs that suit them?

do they care about their appearance? how much effort do they put into presentation?

how often do they lie? what situations cause them to be dishonest?

what skills are they proficient in? why?

have they ever been in love?

what do they dislike about themself? why?

what is something they love about themself?

do they trust their party? why or why not?

what are their feelings on the people who raised them?

what do they dream about, when their dreams are their own?

do they see themself as a leader or a follower?

what haunts them? what doesn’t?

which of the five senses do they rely the most on?

do they follow their head, their heart, or their body?

what is a promise they’ve broken?

how do they feel about nicknames, titles, or labels that have been given to them? how do they feel about their name?

which of the four elements speaks to them the most?

what stories do they like to tell? what stories do they like to hear?

who do they miss?

how do they mourn?

who would they kill? who would they kill for?

who would they save? who would they be saved by?

what do they seek out from others?

they’re given a blank piece of paper–what do they do with it?

do they seek control, or do they want less of it?

what makes them cry?

which party member do they go to in a crisis?

which party member do they worry for?

what’s a secret they’ve kept?

what is their favorite thing to hold?

what do they smell like?

are their hands calloused, soft, or something else entirely?

do they enjoy poetry?

what are they attracted to in other people?

what are three words they would use to describe themself?

why do they fight?

what do they need to learn?

how do they hug people?

what do they deprive themself of?

when they meet someone, what is the first thing they notice?

what do they see in their future?

what makes them smile?

can they sing? can they dance?

what is the most beautiful thing in the world, for them?

from whom do they seek validation?

which is more frightening to them: day or night?

what was their education like?

whose hand do they reach out for?

what animal do they most relate to?

what makes them angry?

what do they think their role in the party is? what is their role in actuality?

what is a quiet passion of theirs?

do they whisper or yell more often?

what kind of flower would they choose to pick from a meadow?

outside of otherworldly forces, what do they believe in?

what fight has scared them the most?

do they value mercy or justice more?

what is holding them back?

who makes them feel warm?

what makes them laugh?

what was the best moment of their life?

how would they describe their party members?

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I know the show probably meant Annabelle’s assessment of Martin being manipulative to be taken at face value, but I have Very Strong Feelings about that kind of interpretation so am still clinging to my own.

Annabelle:  You always managed to get what you wanted through shrugs and stammerings that weren’t nearly as awkward as they seemed.

But when did Martin “always get what he wanted”?  Did he get the love of his mother, who never wanted to see his face even as she was dying?  Did he get the respect of Jon (or any of the assistants, for that matter) in season 1 by playing up an awkward, stammering persona?  Did he want Basira to write him off as “just uselessly standing around making tea”?  

It’s kind of like Melanie’s “everyone keeps telling me I need to sympathize with Jon!!” rant–who is telling you that?  Where are the examples?

What Martin did get was simply….not being noticed.  A survival tactic.  A very common survival tactic of chronic abuse victims like Martin.  His s1-4 writing is some of my favorite of any character I’ve ever come across because of how precisely it mirrors someone who’s been raised in an abusive household and knows to avoid notice and keep his head down.  

It’s a survival tactic that helped him with his mother, with Elias, and with Peter, but that worked against him in his interpersonal relationships.  Jon started to notice Martin when Martin asserted himself and stopped taking Jon’s bullshit.  People mainly took Martin seriously during his “go off” moments (for example, Tim following him into the tunnels).  Every example we have of Martin actually getting something he wants with the people he actually likes involves him being blunt and direct.   As the show continues and his character develops, he begins to assert himself more with those he cares about as a natural result of his growth.

But know what else is common for survivors of chronic abuse like Martin?  The fear that your survival tactics make you manipulative, underhanded, and deceitful.  This is an established psychological effect.  You might grow up in a household where you don’t have the freedom to simply ask for something you need without being yelled at for being selfish, entitled, demanding.  You come up with ways to hint at it, make the other person think it’s their idea to offer it.  Then you head out into the world and interact with people who had the freedom to just say what they think, and realize they see you as passive-aggressive and sneaky.  “Why don’t you just say what you think?  Why don’t you just say what you need?”  Because you’ve never had that luxury before, and it’s terrifying to try.

I choose to believe that it’s Martin’s fear of being manipulative towards people he cares about makes him appealing to the Web.  We saw a glimpse of this fear in TMA 170, when confessing that he lied on his CV: “I mean I tried to be a good person, but we’re really up against it.”  He feels like having to lie to survive makes him a bad person.  

I would have loved if Annabelle had just flat-out said it was that fear that made Martin appealing, because the actual dialogue was frankly triggering, but why would she soothe a fear she finds so tasty?  And of course Martin agrees, because it’s his fear in the first place.  And then of course Elias had pulled the hackneyed old “you tricking me makes you the same as me” villain argument.

Unfortunately I feel it’s a bit too late for the show to contradict Annabelle on this, as much as I want it to.  Maybe it was meant as a nod to the Web Martin theory without actually taking that direction, without considering the implications or build-up.  Maybe it just has faith that we’ll read the three of them as unreliable narrators, not knowing how much of a long-running trope this is.  I’m not holding my breath, but they can pry this interpretation from my cold dead hands.

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Some long overdue Angos (plus proud papa Taako!)

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y'all i had top surgery today and im feeling chatty on my meds!!! ask me anything, message me abt whatever i have lots to say abt things incl OCs and whateverrr

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in the latest Blue Checkmark news some guy made a long ass thread about forcing his nine year old to figure out how to open a can by herself instead of showing her how, despite the fact that it took her Six Hours

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gonna be stitching this, will decide on a final color for the font once I get there because i’m an indecisive fool, but i think it’ll turn out pretty fun! my initial goal was to use some Fluorescent Green floss we got a while ago but idk man... idk.

Resources used (all free to use online, this pattern will always remain free): Top border: edited this free DMC pattern Font 1 | Font 2 | Font 3 Bottom border: edited from this free DMC spread

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So I listened to The Magnus Archives

Patterns are all here 

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I’ve been going a little stir-crazy waiting for season 5 of The Magnus Archives, so I made a map of every location where a statement took place/something ~spooky~ happened. You can toggle by season, and each location is color-coded by entity. Some of them are approximate locations (Point Nemo) or just cities (Toulouse), but I’ve been as accurate as possible. Please let me know if there’s anything I’ve missed. Peruse at your leisure and enjoy!

https://t.co/LqqlzRzqBq?amp=1

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ugughhguguhughghug this better look nice as a sticker... pink son

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i made a quiz to tell you which of smirke’s 14 entities you’re aligned with… will reblog with the link

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May I Offer You Another TMA Leyendecker Study In These Trying Times

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Travis McElroy is really gonna make me cry in the last few hours of Christmas, huh?

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✨💕✨yeehaw ✨💕✨

An amazing outfit for Olivier for @caspersgay, this was a blast to work on!!

 ✨i do commissions!| If you fancy tipping✨

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math help bc i can’t watch ya’ll suffer anymore

I’m in my fourth year of engineering school and I didn’t get here without lots of outside help bc assigned math textbooks are lame and confusing and professors/teachers are more worried about feeling superior to bunch of groggy teenagers than actually teaching.

I have personally used all of these websites without receiving any security warnings from Bitdefender TrafficLight or AdGuard AdBlocker. They are all either completely free or have a free version that isn’t shit.

Wolfram Demonstrations (animated graphics)

Khan Academy (arithmetic through differential equations)

She Loves Math (arithmetic through differential equations)

math24 (calculus & differential equations)

Paul’s Online Math Notes (algebra through differential equations)

MIT OpenCourseWare (calculus through graduate-level mathmatics)

OpenStax Math (precalculus, trigonometry, & calculus)

Wolfram Alpha Examples

Desmos (online calculators)

GeoGebra (online calculators)

SparkNotes Math Study Guides (pre-algebra through calculus)

eMathHelp (calculators, but more specific)

Software for your TI calculator

ticalc (programs for your TI calculator)

Wikibooks Math Department (all the math)

Andy’s Cheat Sheets (calculus)

Cheatography (find free cheat sheets)

Open Access Math Textbooks

Engineer4Free (Calc, DiffyQ, & Linear Algebra tutorials)

Flammable Maths on YouTube (general high school/college level problems and derivations)

3Blue1Brown on Youtube (very, very good for understanding spacial concepts in calculus and beyond)

Vihart on Youtube (explaining math with doodles)

Bonus: Stay hydrated, take vitamin c, study next to a window during the day if possible, and remember not to let people base your worth on your aptitude for math.