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not that anyone cares but im back rn until I lose a little weight. My mom is watching me like a hawk since im supposed to be recovering but I literally hate my body (especially my legs) so I gotta do what I gotta do

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I’m leaving, I want to recover.

I want to do it for my relationship, my friends my family. For me and my health. I’m so sick of feeling like I’m constantly dying.

I hope I won’t come back to this blog. But if I relapse then I might. So bye for now and hopefully forever.

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Gotta lose the 3 pounds I gained from my binge to get back to my lw :/

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I really need to stop using laxatives

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After my binge last night I finally shit for the first time in like a week. After calculating I binged about 1600 cals (give it take) but I woke up appreciating my thin body.

I tried on a shirt that I haven’t worn in a while and it looks so good now that I’m a bit thinner. So I’m going to continue on to keep my body rn.

So from this binge I learned:

A) it’s ok and you can move on

B) it doesn’t change all your progress

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Did I just binge?

Yes :(

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Literally all the signs in my life have been pointing to recovery

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Please please please just t let me lose 3 pounds

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Hopefully I shit tomorrow because if I don’t I stg I’m going to cry

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My ass is so flat now I’m literally crying :’(

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Anything with oats are my ultimate safe foods

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Me saying I’m gonna maintain my weight then acting surprised when the scale hasn’t gone down.

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Had a metabolism day ig :(

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Just went to the movies with my bf and ate pizza, popcorn and chocolate im literally gonna kms

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Why do I hate my body no matter what??

I hated myself at 115, I hated myself at 110 and I hate my self now at 102. I look at myself and think “oh my god I’m so skinny” and sometimes it’s not in a good way. But at the same time I want to lose more. At the same time I want to get thinner.

I’ve been contemplating trying to recover again but it’s really hard because I’m scared. I’m scared of giving up my body right now. I’m scared of losing control. I’m scared of gaining weight.

I don’t even know what I want anymore

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I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this help help help help help help help help

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I’m so constipated I’m literally in pain

Ate some fibre rich foods so hopefully it’ll help