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I’m a 5’10” guy and I recently found out I way less than a 5’1” girl friend and I’ve never felt better about myself

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My toxic trait is thinking I can go on pro a4a and not get launched into a relapse

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Every time I think I’m going to recover, I buy myself some food, then I don’t recover and now I have a bunch of expired food

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i love it when my stomach rumbles 🤭🤭

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I’ve gotten really good at nodding and laughing when the other person laughs while understanding just enough to answer a basic questions following a conversation

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I kinda wish someone would body shame me so I had more motivation to restrict. I am living off of tumblr meanspo rn…

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the disordered urge to replace all of your meals with shaved ice

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How am I mentally ill but not skinny

where is the justice

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Me: *loses weight eating on a calorie deficit*

My ED: Now do it

✨Faster✨

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The truth is yeah I will “recover”, I will gain weight and not be at risk of dying anymore. But I will never look at food the same way. Bc the truth is I don’t know who I’m without my ed. i don’t know how to eat food without counting the calories, I don’t know how to live without counting calories. And the sad thing is I don’t need to anymore I have them all memorised and I can’t look at a peace of food without adding the calories in my head. I will never truly recover

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when u realize the reason u trigger urself is probably bcuz u want to be in control- even of ur triggers

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Okay so Ik no one asked and wtv but here are some of the wl tips that got me from 200 to 154.

1- set a certain time window where you can eat and also set a time where you have to stop eating. like for example I can have my first meal of the day at 3:00 SHARP and last meal of the day at 10:00. I find that setting time windows makes it easier to restrict.

2- I don’t eat meals because I feel if I do I’ll binge. So instead I eat food. let me explain. so like instead of eating a whole bunch of low calorie things at once and calling it a meal, I’d eat an apple at 4:00, 10 grapes at 6:00, and so on. That makes it so much more easier to not binge because I feel like having a plate full of food in front of me is just going to make me hungrier no matter how much I eat.

3- eat to stay alive don’t eat to satisfy your hunger. I mean like eat so you have enough energy to stand up and take a shower. Not because you’re “hungry”. Remember, hunger=weight loss!

4- I’ve seen people say that “you can eat whatever you want but just in small portions”. No. Don’t listen to them. If you eat 5 chips and put the rest of the bag away you’ll just end up binging the rest of the chips later. That saying is so fucking stupid. They’re just setting you up for a binge. Instead, avoid all junk food altogether. Like none.

5- related to number 5 (and is a sorta obvious one) AVOID JUNK FOODS AT ALL COSTS. That includes, sodas (not the 0 cal ones), chips, fries, burgers, candy, EVERYTHING. anything that labeled “unhealthy” drop it. I also don’t eat meat because I’ve found that it causes you to gain weight. And all in all it’s disgusting. But STAY AWAY FROM JUNK FOODS. THEY’RE CALLED JUNK FOODS FOR A REASON. it doesn’t matter If you only have a bag of chips today and nothing else. You could’ve had 5 apples with the calories you just wasted on that junk.

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Being fat shamed is just helpful fast motivation.