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The last sentence kills my soul

i need a some angst for just a moment

armin grieving for his family? and i dont mean in little ways, i mean like he has a full on breakdown because he was never in a situation where he could safely go through the grief and emotions fully

Ooouuughhh T^T

Tbh the topic of Armin and his parents is one that's very close to my heart, because it is just... so... terrible and painful to think about. Though Isayama never showed him grieving, I think he tried to deal with it as maturely as possible, given he may not have wanted to worry his grandfather more than necessary. Furthermore, I like to think he wasn't able to talk about it with Eren or Mikasa, since he might've felt it too insignificant, especially when those two's lives seemed more tumultuous and Armin was already highly conscious of appearing as a crybaby/weakling. He just held it all in.

Still, being left behind at that age by his very own (and I hc, loving) parents, because they chose to go on a dangerous adventure the outcome of which they weren't certain, leaving him in the end without parents must've been... a HUGE trauma. To me this is his primary source of the fear of abandonment. The reason I hc his parents were loving (even if undeniably a bit neglectful) is that it's so much harder to reconcile with the fact that that love can never be felt again. At such a young age, when love is an essential part of growth, to be "abandoned" the way he was because he "wasn't a priority enough", would've been incredibly damaging.

Armin grieving for his parents is a very very slow process - it takes years and years for him to understand what the loss really DID to him, even at his level of emotional intelligence. The effect of parental neglect is something even we as adults struggle to come to terms with.

And he's just 19.

It takes years, and it takes a great deal of painful tears. He misses them.

He doesn't even know what it's like to be a son.

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Stars

Armin x reader

Pure fluff

✧─── ･ ｡ﾟ★: *.✦ .* :★. ───✧

Armin and I have always been together. In any form. In any relationship. We love each other, no matter in what way. Armin’s always been part of my life and I will forever be part of he’s. Or at least that’s how I want things to go.

Time feels infinite in moments like this. One of those moments when everything feels like it stops, and everything passes so slow, until it’s over and you realize It was actually fleeting. Were under the uncountable stars, admiring the vast universe while we rest upon he’s ceiling. The sight is beautiful, but I can’t help to look at him all the time; the way he’s eyes reflect the sparkles above us. How he’s hair uncovers he’s, not often at sight, neck. He’s soft hand intertwined with mine, The way I want to hug him and cuddle with him so bad.

While I was so distracted, he looked at me and smiled fondly, laid on he’s side and cupped my cheek with one hand. I could tell he’s eyes were full of love. He analyzed my face. He’s eyes locked in mine and made me feel special. He lined forward — Can I kiss you? — He’s gaze fixated in my lips. I didn’t respond and just closed the space between us, touching softly he’s lips with mine. I felt my heart twinkle; that’s the best way to describe it.

I’m so glad he was my first kiss.

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stupid erwin for once

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tiny guy

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Watched SNK with my girlfriend last year so here's my favorite duo and my favorite girl~ <3

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Annie x Thom Browne

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i just wanted to say you are an INCREDIBLE writer, im obsessed with your armin fic and how you characterize him!! i look forward to more of your fics :))

Omg, stfu, ur so sweet 😭😭😭 I haven’t been able to come up with anything to write and I was thinking to just let that fic there and disappear, but just for you I won’t

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commanders

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Armin is the type of boyfriend…

That info dumps every time you ask about what he’s reading.

That kisses you suddenly, no matter what you’re doing, because he gets the courage to in very random moments.

That makes you playlists.

That gives the most beautifully written love letters.

That stares at you, ‘cause he likes to learn your features and appreciate them.

That’s really good at comforting, but really bad at receiving comfort.

That likes to kiss your hands and forehead.

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Smoking by the window

Armin x reader

Disclaimer: reader smokes, actually don’t know if vaping is considered smoking, but you get what I mean. modern au, idk

I wanted to portrait how Armin doesn’t want people to kind of idealize him as this pure boy, who is not able to even kill a mosquito. Who doesn’t ever do bad things on purpose. And how he wants to be abke to be the protector and not the protected.

This is my first post. English is not my first language, so I apologize in advance if there’s any misspelling. Hope you enjoy!

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

The universe is so big. We’re basically nothing. Little stupid things. Minuscule. It’s kind of a triggering thought, to know you don’t really matter, and that it doesn’t really matter what you do in this world. But then, you can use it as an excuse to do whatever you want, right?

Smoking by the window is a thing now. A thing that I do when I’m overwhelmed, or numb, or bored, or… existing. Even now, that Armin is asleep beside me, I couldn’t help the desire of taking out my vape and use it. It’s two in the morning, the perfect hour. That feeling of nothingness emerged so suddenly, I’m starting to like it at this point. The vapor coming out of my lips is pretty. I look down my side, Armin’s prettier. He looks so peaceful, relaxed. I can’t believe he ended up with someone like me. Someone with a lost future, when he has such a bright one. I inhale, again and again, till getting a little dizzy. I actually have grown really fond of the feeling.

— Honey…? — I hear Armin say, sleepy. He’s trying to open his eyes. — What time is it? —

He sited on the bed, with his beautiful eyes not fully open, tired back, looking at me with a confused face, trying to figure out what was happening. He looked really cute.

— Oh, shit, sorry. Did I wake you up? — I said in a low voice.

— Not exactly… — He made a pause. — What are you doing? —

—Just vaping a little bit, I was about to go back to sleep, anyway. —

He giggled, more awake. — We both know that’s not true. — he said, with that expression he made when he was saying something ‘obvious’. I just smiled at him. — Can I try? —

— What? — I said a little shoked.

He let out a little, soft laugh. — Can I try? — He repeat it, slowly, pointing at the vape in my hands.

— Are you sure? I don’t really want you to, I got to be honest. What if you like it? — I said with a worried tone.

— What if I like it? — He thought there was really nothing totally wrong. Well, maybe he did, I can’t speak for him.

— I don’t want you to like it. —

He didn’t reply, he just left silence. I could tell he was thinking. I get why he would want to try, but no. He can’t go down that path.

— You treat me like I’m a fragile… pure thing. I’m not. I’m a person. — The golden like hair boy said.

— Yeah, and as a person, I don’t want to fuck up yourself. You know I’m not the best influence. —

— Fine. But really, don’t treat me like I don’t do anything wrong, and like you’re gonna spoil me. —

— But, what if I do? — I really resented having such a screwed life.

— Honey…— He got closer to me, taking me in he’s arms. — You won’t, I promise. I love you. —

— I love you more. — I said, looking at him.

We just stayed like that a little longer. I was falling asleep, when he realized and laid my head down, still hugging me. He took the vape from my hands and put it in the nightstand. He was so warm and comfortable to hug. He moved me closer to him, while resting his head, softly, on top of mine. He was holding me like a porcelain doll, with al the caring and welcomeness of the world. Like I was he’s most precious treasure, but still a person to care about.

— You are the one who deserves to be treated like a fragile, not thing. I want to be the one that looks after you and protects you. Please let me. — He said, softly and loving. I just hugged him tighter and, indeed, let him. And for a moment. For that moment, everything stopped feeling so meaningless. Instead of knowing we were all stupid nothings, I genuinely believed that it was just Armin and me in all universe. And that I wasn’t that meaningless either. I was something in Armin’s life, apparently. So I’m gonna make sure I’m a good something for him.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

A really short thingy, but I guess is not that bad for being the first one shot. Anyway, hope you liked it :)