aroyalfuckup

[aroyalfuckup]

Dear Diary...

This was a satire assignment for my AP class and I personally loved it. 

TW for mentions of Suicide, Homophobia, Death and Radical Christianity.

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Thursday, Jun 11th, 2020

Hey there, diary. It’s been a while since I wrote in here. I’ve been going to therapy more and she told me to start writing in here a lot more. So, Here goes nothing..

Things with mom has gotten more complicated. She thinks that there is something wrong with me. I don’t think that kissing a girl and liking it is wrong. She has been forcing me to write out Bible passages and go to church with her on Sundays. It’s really suffocating. I hate all of this crap.

Dad leaving hasn’t helped much. I don’t have anyone to back me up. He understood me. I wish he was still around. 

Mom is calling so, I’m gonna finish this entry here. 

-Rebecca Free

Monday, Jun 15th, 2020

Hey there, diary. It’s been a few days since I was last here. Mom was at my throat for the incident that happened at school on Friday so I didn’t couldn’t find a good time to write. That incident was blown so far out of proportion.

So, I was on the bus with my girlfriend, Evelyn, and we were holding hands on the seat, talking quietly about our date on Saturday (I was so excited!!) and this stupid guy leaned over the seat to say something and saw us holding hands. He started shouting about how we were going to hell and how we were gross and it started to get blown so out of order that soon, everyone was yelling at us. We got off a stop early because it was horrible. Stupid Arizona. I hate this stupid state. But anyways, Mom freaked and I had to go to confession and confess a sin that shouldn’t have even been one. Screw this, I’m going to bed.

-Rebecca Free

Saturday, Jun 20th, 2020

Hey diary. Mom is finally letting me go to a summer camp this year! I leave to go on the last day of school. It’s a month long camp so I’m excited. Sure, it’s Bible Camp and it’s governmental funded by President Pence but I’m getting out of Arizona for a month and away for my mom! This is gonna be so much fun!  Apparently, Evelyn is going too and this girl from school. I hope that this is going to be the best summer of my highschool career. 

Mom has been laying off on the Bible passages and going to Sunday church. I like that I’m finally getting all this freedom. I’m so excited for this summer. Anyways, I’ve gotta go. 

-Rebecca Free.

Monday, Jun 22nd, 2020

Hey diary… So, I looked up the summer camp that Mom is having me go to and I can’t find it. It was kinda weird but I guess it’s not the end of the world. Maybe they just haven’t advertised it online yet. I mean, Mom did say that the pastor only gave her a brochure. It’s whatever. 

Evelyn seems a bit scared to go to this camp but I reassured her that nothing bad was going to happen. I’m going to be there to protect her. I would never let anything bad happen to her. This is gonna be a good summer. I swear.

-Rebecca Free

Friday, Jun 26th, 2020

Hey diary! Today is the day that we head to the summer camp. I was told that I shouldn’t bring a lot of clothes since they are giving us ‘camp clothes.’ I’m only bringing my books and my camera as well as you! I thought that writing at camp will be good for me!

Evelyn is traveling with her mom. I’m jealous. My mom put me on a bus with other kids heading to this camp. Everyone looks so scared and sad. I wonder why? Isn’t camp supposed to be exciting? 

It’s cool though to meet other people like me! Almost everyone I’ve talked to are gay, bisexual, pansexual, etc! Maybe this is a camp for gays to meet and enjoy each others company? Well, I’m gonna go for now.

-Rebecca Free

Sunday, Jun 28th, 2020

They burned our stuff. I watched them burn my books and pictures, my camera. They gave me grey scrubs and burned my clothes. Why was I sent here? The only reason I have you is because I managed to hide it in the bushes when I changed.  My roommate is Reuben. They want us to fall in love but we’re gay. Nothing makes sense. Why did my mom send me here?

I saw Evelyn for a few minutes this morning in the church�� I hate church. They preached that being gay is a sin and that changing yourself from how God made you is a sin. 

I hate this. I have to go to bed now, They have things tomorrow.

-Rebecca

Tuesday, Jun 30th, 2020

I want to go home. The shock chair has been a big favourite to the guards. I can’t stop shaking. Why are they doing this…? I caught a glimpse of Evelyn at dinner. We are being kept apart to ‘stop our sinful desires from growing.’ I hate this. I need Dad. Mom hates me. She sent me here because she hates me. She has to.

I watched a kid get whipped in the yard for claiming that their name was Felix and not Fiona. I was forced to watch because if I looked away, I was next. I hate this place.

-Rebecca

Thursday, July 2nd, 2020

I saw Evelyn last night. I was going out for a walk with Reuben (to just get out of the cabin) and i managed to bump into her with Matthew, her roommate. I cried and hugged her tighter than I ever did before. The boys kept watch as we quickly spoke. I told her that I would get her out of here. I promised her. 

They said that if we fell in love with our roommates and confessed to never fall in love with the same sex ever again, we could leave. I  know I could get out of here but I just can’t without Evelyn.

Friday, July 3rd, 2020

They killed her… I watched her fucking die! They demanded that she gives up her ‘sinful desires’ and her being so stubborn, she kept saying no, even when she couldn’t lift her head up! I watched her get shocked to death. How could this happen? I told her that we were getting out of here. I told her that I would protect her! How could this happen…

Sunday, July 26th, 2020

I’m going home. I confessed. I’m never going to love again.

Saturday, August 1st, 2020

It’s been a week. I can’t do this anymore. I’m sorry, Dad. I have to be with her. I’m so done…. Don’t miss me too much. Go to hell, Janet. I hope you realize what you did. You’re not my mother and you never will be.