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Melodical Dreams

There’s an anger growing more awake as time passes.

I thought I was past it.

But the city is not good for my health it seems.

In this never ending pursuit of my melodical dreams.

I long for ocean air and lungs filled with forest

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Thin lines

But it’s not as if I can tell you

Ironic how words were my remedy

Now I hold them back like sobs

Running down my throat

Chocking till the breath runs out

Who will I become after us?

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Is this not what you prayed for?

fought

cried

begged

held your breath for?

no.

not even close.

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I’ve got a friend

She rests on my chest and sings my songs back to me

She cramps up my hands, I can’t find the right position

She’s in my pocket bumping along as we walk

She’s the only lover I’ve ever had

Reaching out as soon as my eyes open

Searching the bed, stretching till we make contact

She gets my pulse going like no human ever could

No human ever will cause I no longer speak to them

Me and my screen we keep eye contact

For hours on end

I don’t know where I end and where she begins

I’m in love with my phone

I’m in love with poison

The symptoms are so severe I no longer feel them

But she died for a while and I remembered to breathe again

Now back in my grasp I type words I hardly know how to form

Someone save me

I’m held captive by a phone

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I Want

I want that head on the pillow close my eyes for a second and it’s morning sleep

I want to forget I’ve got a phone and start moving

I want to tire the hours out instead of chasing them

I want to feel like every person I talk to is just a friend

I want to not miss my loved ones cause they’re always in my space

I want to be younger so I can set my life out for success

I want to be a man exploring the world at night

I want so much I don’t want anything if I can’t have it all

I want to wake up with no pain in my body

I want to lie in whichever position I desire

I want to not feel guilty for wanting more

I want to believe in people I want love

I want to want myself like I want others

I want to forget people can only see me

I want to fold myself inside out

I want to blind the people with my light

I want to fly I want to scream

I want so much I don’t want anything

I want to jump I want to skip

I want to never feel sad again

But all I do is want for what I can’t have

And so I’ll want a little more until there’s no days left

And when I’m one with the earth maybe I’ll stop wanting

But I can guarantee anything

Cause that’s not who I was born to be

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Lights

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malls

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my deepest obsession for the color dark blue

#2014 #videography #oldcamera #tumblrvibes #darkblue #bluehour

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walking backwards

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Neighborhood

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night lights

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inside the bus

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Icy winter waves

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Birthdays

The finish line from one age to the other has become a painful blink. And the celebration of a birthday has evolved into a day of grief. One of confusion and sadness. Of wondering if it will ever feel like you are holding hands with the present ever again. If you will ever catch up to your current self. Or if age is simply a human made concept that we must break out of. In moments of meditation I think I get a glimpse of clarity on the horizon. But then it disappears again. As it always does.

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I’ve put something in me on pause with the intention of returning. But now it’s sunk, disappeared, gone. How do I go home? How do I put the pieces together without the button? A veil has fallen like stress on a mind. What used to hold wonder now only thinks of time.

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cold midnight winds