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Me after holding my blorbos accountable for their multitude of crimes (I wrote a whump fic of them for being slightly mean)

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So I've been reflecting on my writing recently.

And honestly, I'm really happy with how much I've grown as a writer. (And as a person, obviously.)

Like, in the span of three years, I've gone from:

"Why do you ONLY have animal OCs? Do you know how cringey that is?! Can you even fathom how awkward it's gonna be when you write smut with those animal characters? No one's gonna ENJOY reading something like that. Everyone's gonna think you're weird. And not in a good way."

To:

"Hey, you've loved animals since you were four years old. Think of this as your way of conveying your love of animals. You wouldn't write stories about animals if you didn't love animals."

It may tarnish my search history sometimes (then again, what writer hasn't tarnished their search history), but yeah.

Having all animal characters IS my way of conveying my love of animals. And I think THAT'S admirable, at least.

I know it's a cliché saying, but what's inside matters more than having feathers, fur, scales, and/or skin, right?

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This is prime material for an imperfect whumpee/victim imho. Like they might become angry and resentful towards Caretaker for wanting to give them up. Or maybe they become extremely reckless as the condition took away their ability to move (if that’s believable?) Maybe having extreme PTSD from hospital environments, they refuse to go to the hospital even though they need to, and when they do they become resentful towards Caretaker again >:D

underrated prompt for writers who are into medical whump: I present to you locked-in syndrome!

"a rare neurological condition characterized by complete paralysis of all voluntary muscles, except for those controlling eye movements and blinking — typically caused by any lesion affecting the ventral pons and midbrain; this includes vascular lesions, masses, infections, traumas, and demyelinating disorders. the most common cause is a vascular complication in the form of a hemorrhagic or ischemic stroke"

your character will be aware of what's going on around them, only that they are literally "trapped in their body" in the sense that they can't talk or move.

you may add spice to your story by having caretaker believe whumpee is braindead (when they're in fact not, they just can't tell caretaker that).

what will caretaker do when they believe their loved one is legally dead?

will they pull the plug?

will they give consent for whumpee's organs to be donated?

will they realize the truth in time?

will they give whumpee up?

so many terrible, terrible things could happen...

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reblog to say fuck canon. this is the space where we all collectively say fuck canon

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I know there’s other reasons,

So what’s the point of trusting?

You’re gonna leave me here with nothing,

Oh, everybody wants something.

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Angst fics can help people come to terms with their own grief, begin healing, or give people that good cry that they need.

Smut fics can help people affirm and accept their sexuality. It can help them explore their sexuality in a safe way. They can also just be fun, and having fun is a drastically undervalued way to improve your mental health.

Dark fics can help people face their fears or process their trauma. It can make them feel safer and more secure. It can help them find their courage.

Fluff fics can give people rest and respite and comfort. It can give them hope that soft places exist and that maybe there is one out there for them. It can bring up their mood, which, if they have depression, can be a life saver.

And every fic people write makes someone feel less alone.

Point being, just because a particular thing doesn’t serve you, doesn’t mean it lacks value.

This is not to say that we have to consume all fic uncritically. Of course not. It is just to say that entire “genres” aren’t trash or lacking value just because they don’t serve you.

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*feeds chicken nuggets*

They’re hungry ,,, feed them

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Here is my player OC Moriah in the bloodmoney art style

Background images belong to Shroomychrist

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Harvey the cat

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you’re as much of a fan of your comfort show / movie / blorbo as any other fan, even if you don’t have a “big and popular account” or if you’ve never written a fic or made a fan art about the fandom you’re in.

you’re as much of a fan of your comfort show / movie / blorbo as any other fan, even if you don’t talk about said comfort show / movie / blorbo online or to anybody and just quietly take comfort from them in private.

don’t let today’s popularity contest make you feel less valid than other people in the fandom. because fandom is never about “popularity” or “going viral”. it’s about the comfort and joy you get from enjoying what brings you comfort and joy.

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Dozens of sheep spent 12 days in a row walking in a nearly perfect circle on a farm in China’s Inner Mongolia region.

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As an abuse survivor, you are just fetishizing child abuse. Plain and simple. Call it a coping mechanism or a power take-back all you want, but it's just an excuse to write porn about child abuse. I pity people like you, truly, I do. I can only pray that you eventually see a therapist about your internalized pedo behavior.

Cw: RANCID ask ⬆️

I'm so glad you brought this up because I don't like to speak for people like you--I'd rather combat these opinions directly.

Since you're praying, I'll feel free to make biblical allusions. (Tw)

First, the word "fetish". My opinion: I don't find fetishes or porn too helpful for processing trauma--it's more like exposure therapy. At some point you do need to actually grieve and process what happened. I don't judge those who do that (you're not hurting anybody♥️), but that's not what Survivor Fiction is for.

When you're judging whether something is bad or good, you can use the "tree by its fruits" concept. Basically, if a tree produces good fruit, it's a good tree. If it produces bad fruit, it's a diseased/bad tree.

So let's look at what Survivor Fiction does for survivors specifically.

It brings healing. I (a new author!) have already received five testimonies that have said how much my writing helped them move through some of their trauma and see things in a different, calmer way.

Survivor Fiction brings peace. A surprising amount of the community--90.5% in a poll involving 1,543 voters--use whump stories to go to sleep at night. (Many trauma survivors have difficulty sleeping from flashbacks. Fiction along the same lines can offer an appropriate sense of distance from the fear.)

It helps disabled people. It appears that a strong majority of our community is autistic. Part of the diagnosis is emotional dysregulation. We need to be walked through how to do things in great detail. Survivor Fiction often walks the reader through the process of trauma, reaction, ptsd, and recovery.

It spreads awareness. Survivor fiction is often more accurate to real-life abusive situations instead of glossing it over--in other words, LYING--about what goes on. This can bring a 3rd party perspective to a current victim too, giving them the understanding that they are being abused and need to escape if possible.

For a more thorough explanation of why fiction about survivors is good and necessary, see this post.

Okay, so would "bad fruit" look like? Do you see any of the following from our community? ↙️

Doing these things in real life

Being generally hurtful of others

Hurting children in real life

Harming emotions by pushing unwanted content to people who would be triggered by it? (Quite the opposite, we tend to post exhaustive content warnings before the content.)

Something else that's actually wrong and not just a thought crime?

And here's the fruit of your words, which I'm sure we all heard the jist of many times before:

You encourage covering up evil. Trying to hide fiction that more accurately describes pain, abuse, and PTSD means hiding the truth. Stifling the exposure of just how evil it is to abuse someone like this. The righteous walk in the light, but the wicked hide their deeds in the darkness.

Your words are shaming. Shame causes pain to fester and act out in harmful ways, such as repeating abuse cycles, self-harm, and dangerous overreactions. Christian ideology here--shame is what caused Adam and Eve to hide from God.

You are lying. You implied that we harm people in real life without any reason to think so. And also implied that we want to be in the aggressor's position. Generally speaking we identify most with the victim.

Referencing Christianity here, if you're christian--Your words condemn the Bible. The bible is full of stories much darker than most of what is written here. You'll read about rape, and the cannibalism of one's own children in Lamentations, among other things.

You're hurting yourself. You will be judged with the measure you judge others with. This is because if you judge others harshly for their thoughts, you'll instinctively judge yourself just as harshly. You end up hurting yourself and others over something that wasn't even doing any harm in the first place.

Causing confusion. What you said was illogical. If it's fiction where the damage occurs, we should be blaming the fictional aggressor--not the writer reporting it. If it's reality where the damage occurs, we should be blaming real criminals--not the journalist. The truth is that writing about survivors isn't generally harmful.

In short, you're creating a lot of problems and not helping. Did this ask come from a loving place?

This answer I'm giving, does.

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the idea that “you’re disrespecting the creators of your favorite characters if you—quote unquote—mischaracterize these characters in your fics or if you reduce them to horny sluts just for ship and smut” is so funny to me because

1. some canon creators made it explicitly clear that they can’t read fanfics people wrote about the characters they created, because, according to their own words, if they ever accidentally or subconsciously used anything from people’s fanfics in the source material of their works, then there might be a risk of them getting sued (yes, the characters are theirs and fans cannot monetize any works that have their characters in them, but fanfics—aka something fans created—belong to those fans, so if canon creators ended up making money off of those fanfics, then they could get into legal battles too).

2. fans don’t write fanfics to “honor or please” canon creators. there are other ways for them to do that if they want to. but fanfics have never been about “honoring or pleasing” canon creators. fanfics aren’t even about respecting canon creators or canon events, and I say this with respect. (what do you think tags like “alternate universe - canon divergence”, “fix-it”, “crack”, “porn without plot” on archive of our own stand for?)

fanfics are like this; imagine yourself as a raccoon and you see this delicious food people left on their porch for you. you look at it and think hmmm yummy. so you grab that food and then you run away with it to enjoy it in some comfort corner. you may choose to enjoy the food alone, or you may choose to share that food with your friends (but you cannot sell that food, because it’s originally someone else’s and you’re just eating/having fun with it). you may choose to dip that food in some spicy sauces that may or may not be suitable for that food and how it’s originally intended to be eaten. but hey! who cares if it’s suitable or not. if you like it then that’s all that matters.

3. canon—when it comes to fanfics—are not rules. as @allthingswhumpyandangsty has said before, canon are only suggestions. whether or not a fanfic writer will follow these suggestions is entirely up to them. because they write for fun. and it’s okay if they want to say “you know what? fuck canon”.

4. the concept of “mischaracterizing a character” overall is, in my personal opinion, not valid. because movies, books, tv shows, etc. are mainly about the interpretation of each viewer. you can interpret this character this way. other people can also interpret the same character differently. and there’s no “right or wrong” way to interpret a character when they’re all fiction and fantasies.

“you can write whatever you want, but people are free to find you weird, childish or disgusting” okay? I’ve never seen any writer say “you cannot find me weird, childish or disgusting🤬” because humans are gonna have thoughts and opinions about anything and everything, no matter how subconsciously those thoughts are.

I personally don’t believe art (be it fanfics or fan art) reflect artists’ moral compass or who they are in real life, but just like any other humans, I do have thoughts and I do find some things weird, childish or disgusting. instead of voicing my thoughts out loud, though, I choose to mute, block or ignore these things and focus my time and energy on things I like.

and it’s literally not an issue at all if some strangers on the internet, whose existence I don’t know about, find me weird, childish or disgusting. as long as they keep those thoughts to themselves, it’s totally fine. thought crimes are never real. it only becomes an issue when you start harassing people.

fandom is not about trying to police others.

fandom is about fun and knowing how to mute/block things you dislike instead of harassing others (and no, finding someone or something weird, childish or disgusting is not harassment as long as you keep those thoughts to yourself).

overall I love and respect every fanfic writer, no matter if the things they write is my cup of tea or not, because I think it’s beautiful how they love these characters and how they’re so passionate about these characters that they decide to make something for and from these characters. and as long as it makes them happy, they’re doing it right.

*this is a response to a funny ask that made me giggle today. also funny how anon chose not to show their face, because if they really believe they are right then surely there’s no need for them to hide behind anon.

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Like to charge reblog to cast

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Sunflowers of rebirth 🌼☀️

A rare non fanart of mine

Some sketches of it under the cut

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