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My favorite lyrics in each next to normal song because I’m very normal about this show

Just another day - cause what doesn’t kill me doesn’t kill me so fill me up for just another day

Everything else - you don’t hear his doubts or his debts or disease

Who’s crazy - and I was so young and so dumb and now I am old

Perfect for you - you’ve got some nerve Henry and I’m just all nerves

I miss the mountains - I miss the mountains, I miss the pain

It’s gonna be good - it’s gonna be fucking great!

Honorable mention- rabies

He’s not here - do you dream or do you grieve

You don’t know - if it gets me it will kill me but I don’t know what I’ve done

I am the one - are you hurting are you healing are you hoping for a life to live well so am I

Superboy and the invisible girl - I wish I could fly, I’d fly far away from here

I’m alive - I’m a perfect stranger who knows you too well

Make up your mind - at times it does hurt to be healed

I dreamed a dance - the dancers may disappear still the dance goes on

There’s a world - come with me there’s a world where we can be free

I’ve been - and every day this act we act gets more and more absurd

Didn’t I see this movie - what makes you think I’d lose my mind for you

A light in the dark - keep it far from what keeps us apart

Wish I were here - I feel the burn but I don’t feel the pain

Song of forgetting - what a lovely cure, it’s a medical miracle

Hey 1 - Henry don’t, don’t do this to me

Seconds and years - I don’t give a flying fuck what’s normal

Better than before - and if memory makes things better well memory always does

Aftershocks - you wonder which is worse the symptom or the cure OR your heart is in your chest again not hanging from your sleeve

Hey 2 - you remind me of me and how fucked up I can be

You don’t know rep - i don’t know I don’t know where the fucking pieces go

How could I ever forget - they said to wait, they never said we were too late

It’s gonna be good rep - good good good good name name name name overlap

Why stay - enduring and coping and hurting and hoping for day after fucking day OR to the girl who was burning so brightly like the light from Orion above

I’m alive rep - this is one old game that I can play so well

The break - what happens if the cut the burn the break was never in my brain or in my blood but in my soul

Make up your mind rep - the one thing that’s sure is that there is no cure but that doesn’t mean we don’t fight

Maybe - things will get better you’ll see not for me overlap

Hey 3 - cause crazy is perfect and fucked up is perfect

So anyway - rather than let chance take me I’ll take a chance

I am the one rep - why didn’t you go with her.. cause I’m holding on. Let me go (this whole song lives in my head rent free)

Light - the wasted world we thought we knew the light will make it look brand new

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I am my father's mother's lost son

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Natalies ‘what a lovely cure! It's a MEDICAL MIRACLE’ scratches an itch in my brain

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goodman siblings my beloved <3

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my boy doesn't haunt the narrative he HUNTS it

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Jack Wolfe knows he has a wide-eyed & innocent face and he WEAPONISES IT

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So-called "free thinkers" when their friend has to pee

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Thinking about how unfair Gabe's death was, both within and outside of the narrative. It had no implicit literary significance, no symbolism or parallels to it. It also wasn't caused by anyone in the sense that they had to learn from it, and didn't help them grow or change for the better (trauma itself doesn't make you a better person). In fact, Dan and Diana did everything they could to prevent it, but the doctors still missed his intestinal obstruction, and he died (which happens a lot in real life, giving the story a terrifying sense of closeness to the audience). His death made no sense, and that's the point.

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moments that i find interesting in next to normal

the chaoticness of the choreography matching to the lyrics the cast sings here really speaks to the dancer part of my brain

gabe touches diana's hand up to her wrist because he's offering her a way to join him (by having her cut her wrists)

dan repeatedly tapping his phone at the tap to pay device while singing "and me, i'm just tired, tired, tired, tired" is such a unique modern detail that i really like

gabe's silhouette lingers behind this screen until im alive reprise to show that he's always in the back of diana's mind even if he's not present which is such a good blocking decision

dan reaching for diana while diana reaches for gabe will never not hurt

the emotional difference between henry smoking his apple while the whole goodman family goes through it downstairs during superboy and the invisible girl will always make me giggle a bit

i just love the counterbalancing diana and gabe do here. they are both on the edge and only holding on because they need each other to survive

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Their POVs seemed too funny to me so I drew it.

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Headcanon/Theory: I'm Alive (Reprise) isn't a song from Diana's Gabe, but from Dan's. The song isn't just angry, Gabe feels malicious, because that's how Dan views him. Not getting rid of him means the treatment failed and the doctors lied to him about them having normality. Gabe always comes back despite his efforts, and 'enjoys' tearing their lives apart like a game. To Dan, the return of grief is a threat

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Opening tumblr when you aren’t horny is like

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can I come over and look at you like this

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sure i understand from a casting viewpoint it makes sense for doctors madden and fine to be played by the same person but its just hilarious to me the idea that you finally switch your therapist and go to a new office only to be introduced to the same man wearing a different hat