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that ‘pakige?’ post but me, a couple hours after posting a fic, like ‘comints?’

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fanfic writers who write for rare pair ships are treasures and I hope they all know about the impact they have on fandoms. like… they’re the ones bringing these ships to lives, they’re one of the few people who saw the potential between two characters whose dynamics, whether or not they interact in canon, were overlooked by most fans, and they created something beautiful out of these potential dynamics. like??? hello???? that is pure genius.

not to mention how they’re the lifelines for other people who enjoy these ships but didn’t have any fics to consume until these tireless writers spent hours or days or weeks or months or years writing about these characters and their relationships, and just shared the worlds they created with their audiences for free.

or how they singlehandedly introduced the ships to new people who would’ve otherwise never thought about these ships before.

how they could just make people fall in love with the dynamics between characters who have little to no canon screentime together.

how they could just make people fall in love with the dynamics between characters who aren’t lovers in canon, characters who don’t indicate any clear hint of romance in canon.

how they see what most fans don’t and how they create such beautiful worlds for these characters are simply insane.

fanfic writers who write for rare pair ships are treasures.

shoutout to every fanfic writer who writes for rare pair ships.

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The most frustrating experience as a writer is having a clear vision in your mind of the story you want to tell but being too afraid to put pen to paper for fear of failing to do the story justice. I’m so scared that my actual execution will fail to meet my expectations that I’m paralysed to even start.

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Owen has felt helplessness before, and falling back on anger has always been his go-to

The sobs now, wracking through him, he could hear them, no more white noise, no more distraction, he could hear his voice echo in the silence under the bridge and she pushed him to sit, and he did.

Angry had gotten him this far, angry was so easy, angry could last. Up until he tried to close his eyes.

Season 1 Episode 3: Ghost Machine

So I started Torchwood again. I have never finished it, and the last time I watched it I hated half the main characters. This time I feel that I’m better at liking intentionally shitty-but-sympathetic characters, so good evening my fellow Owen Harper enjoyers.

All the usual tags, angst, hurt no comfort, mostly canon compliant. And all for my own enjoyment, of course.

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Mums are brilliant. Nothing else ever quite matches up.

When Arthur was really young, and when he was just a bit older, when dad wasn’t home at all, and when mum made sure he’d never be home again, bedtimes were his favourite. Because mum was brilliant at singing.

Good evening July! And good morning Cabin Pressure.

A very depressing one here, so I’m certain it’s not exactly to taste for a comedy show, but here we are regardless with MCD and Heavy Angst.

I have loved this show since Timbuktu, if you see this and you have no clue what I’m on about LISTEN. TO. IT. PLEASE! (It’s on Internet Archive, so give it some time <3)

In other words, I listened again to a childhood favourite, Leaving on a Jet Plane, very late at night. It gave me feelings

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No, no, no, NO

I CAN'T look at tma fanart it'll spoilt EVERYTHING.

I HAVEN'T EVEN MADE TO EP 70 I CAN'T LOOK AT FANART

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It’s a very niche fandom, so I wasn’t exactly hopeful. In fact it got way more love than I’d hoped (marry me Guest Commenter Leanne C). But it is my favourite story and possibly my favourite show, so.

It’s Chekhov’s Uncle Vanya, specifically the one-man Andrew Scott adaptation (it is amazing), and it doesn’t have an online fandom whatsoever.

The Shadow of Your Shadows was my literal love-letter for it. Mostly for Sonya, who I loved more every time. She’s so wet cat it’s NUTS.

Uh yea! Hope you get something out of it (: tysm for this post ❤️ /gen

All of you fanfic authors out there have THAT fic.

one you spent ages on

that you put everything into

that you are so fucking proud of

and….

definitely didn’t get as much love as you hoped. Whether it didn’t find the right audience, or found no audience at all.

We all have one.

Repost this with the name of the fic, fandom, and what it’s on (and a link if u want) for people to see.

And I will read and aggressively hype the shit out of all of them. Idgaf if im in the fandom or not. I might not understand shit because who tf are those goobers but ffs you will get support from me.

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Some new ao3 author: Idk, I’m nervous about posting fics, especially without a beta, plus they’re pretty short…

Me, sitting atop my pile of 20+ mini fics, 90% of them unbetad and cringe: DO IT!

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rest assured that if u comment on one of my ao3 fics, im giggling and kicking my feet screaming into the void and ripping my hair out 🫶

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There's just something about receiving long comments on my fanfictions...

They make me giddy.

They make me kick my feet in the air.

They make me ugly cry, happy tears.

I love them. That's what I'm trying to say! 🤭

And when the reader details every single aspect that they loved? Every thing that made them gasp, cry, laugh or smile?

I melt.

I instantly fall in love.

I want to be their BFF.

That doesn't mean that I don't love one word commenters or emoji commenters! I do!

But I'll leave that for another post. 😏😜

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Pippin returns to the Shire with loneliness and handwriting he can no longer read- Merry translates his journals for him.

The littlens have been keen enough listeners, but they do not hear the tragedy in hero’s tales, and they believe in ours as much as they believe the monster hidden beneath them at night.

And for my latest fic. Lotr binge on my birthday, and I am VIBRATING. Pippin and Merry are even more gorgeous somehow (in all the ways). They all go through a lot, but I feel I’m so intrigued by these two sillies.

Pip and Mer are pretty background main characters, and since they don’t bring in any information we don’t know (other cultures a la Gimli + Legolas), there’s not a lot of fics around them.

(Just a quick thing. Do what you want. Obv. For anyone who doesn’t really like incest or incest adjacent

They are cousins.

Ship what you want, just have that knowledge.)

Also the way Pippin was used irks me to my core, He. Is. Not. Stupid. He’s incredibly impulsive, yes, but he’s incredibly clever and focused and the WAY the NARRATIVE (and Gandalf) TREATS him. And don’t get me started on Gimli. I will boil you alive.

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Vanya struggles after missing twice, but Sonya is used to struggling.

Sonya sets up shop behind her Uncle Ivan’s door at night when he shuffles wearily to bed in the wee hours, and listens for his slowing breaths and tries not to disturb his crying.

I absolutely ADORED writing this. It took a few tries but I LOVE how this turned out. She looks so pretty (and really depressing) in the sun. Sonya deserves so much more, but like… stay there and sad asf for a while girl cuz I am ENJOYING it sm.

I’m imagining confused TUA viewers right about now. Look there’s so much TUA content when I look up Vanya, may as well do it to them.

So I missed out a few fics, because I don’t really like them anymore. There’s a Stranger Things one and a Dear Evan Hansen one idkkkk, other people seem to like them so I’m keeping them up on ao3, but not promoting them elsewhere

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Nothing is known about Max’s death. I don’t like that. I DO like Max x Endeavour.

Max was too tired to fight it, to push him away to get him to sleep ‘for once in your life Morse’, to hold him and look into his eyes and say that he was ‘worrying me Endeavour’, like it was a secret. As if, for the first time in most of his life he had followed his mother’s advice, and prayed.

It happens during the 80s I’m just saying. Lmk if I misrepresent ANYTHING. I have google and Falsettos/Rent.

I never watched any Morse until I watched Endeavour, and when I got to s3 and Max was just shoved unceremoniously into the void I got piiiiissed. I get the logistics but like… just ‘yea he had a stroke once’ and he was NEVER MENTIONED AGAIN?? Girl-

And since I was already a fan of max x morse??

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What if he didn’t miss?

My only 100 word challenge. Might do more at some point, it felt weirdly like slam poetry. Anyway 4 showings of Andrew Scott’s Vanya (ik he didn’t make it but y’all know what I’m on about) later, and yup still obsessed. I made this after the 1st, and the other after the 4th. God I love it so much.

Yknow what I really love though? Sonya. With my full chest. Her, Maureen and Liam are doing the gods work rn y’all need a raise

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Julian gets a little TOO introspective. Miles has to stretch his caretaking wings.

He'd dropped the name as soon as he knew who it belonged to, and he would not, could not pick it back up. Because god! How could he take that from Jules too? How could he steal another part of that poor. Dead. Child.

This is STILL a wip I’LL FINISH IT ONE DAY! Mainly posting writings BECAUSE I need to finish it ngl. But I am SO proud of this. My only multi-chaptered fic of my only Star Trek show (I am not sorry simply because it’s way too good. Like if it had to only be one of them…)

Anyway. Julian. Needs suffering. And I feel like it didn’t dwell on the suffering enough yknow? Also can we get more Autistic Miles up in here?? Ffs it’s not CLEAR, but I feel it deep in my bones.