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hello earth, it’s me, an alien!!!!!

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Fellow Systems!

I am currently questioning if I’m a system. This may be kind of hard to understand, but I’m going to try my best to explain.

So I think I was not the original host, I’m not fully educated on the terminology, I promise I’m trying. I truly believe I just came into existence maybe a decade ago. In reference, I am 22 years old, so that would be around 12-ish. I’ve been already diagnosed with DP/DR, which isn’t necessarily meaning anything, but I am dissociative.

While I speak about the younger original person in the body, it’s simultaneously me, but not me at the same time. I do not remember anything from my childhood, except for what she allows me to remember.

But at the same time, I believe I was there as well during that vital age, but not completely. so like I said, didn’t really come in until like about the body was 12/13 years old.

As far as I’m aware, it’s just me and her and I would say I’m the protector. I am the provider I am the one who’s fronting 100% of the time for at least I’m what I’m aware of. I also hold a lot of anger and I feel like I’m only here to protect her.

There may be others, but I am only aware of her. I don’t hear her, I can see her, as because we have photos of the body being a youngling, so it could be just photographic memory. Anyway, I was just wondering if there is any tips to really narrow down if I’m a system or not. I know it’s a hard thing to figure out, but I’ll take anything I can get.

It could easily be just a trauma separation like from BPD, because at least from what I can remember, she’s never fronted 100% except when the body was in the first 10-11 years of life. Just in the last year, I started gaining memories from when I or we were young.

I tried journaling, writing but it seems like she’s mute especially since we didn’t talk much when we were young, so she never responds and I’m sure she age slides, so I don’t know if she has the skills of writing or not. I just see her in flashes, but she’s so far away & it’s hard to reach her.

We had a lot of trauma in early childhood & later, and I actually remember majority of the trauma. So I would say my system would be Traumagenic. I’m just wondering if I am a system, and what kind? Any terms? So I could focus more on certain terms to research & see if I am a system or just faking?

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Be proud of who you are.

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the forest.

…no place i’d rather be.

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I hope this isn’t a silly question, but any coyote & wolf therians, if you questioned being either one before, how did you figure out which one you are? I’ve researched a bit, but they seem similar except for appearance & some habitat & eating prey differences.

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You know how I said I was Wolfhearted….well ya girl might actually be a wolf…lol off to do more research!

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🍁.⋆｡⋆ autumn leaves kitty stimboard ⋆｡⋆.🍁

i wanted to make a lil comfort stimboard for autumn! ^_^ ✧ credit below ✧ 🍂 | 🍂 | 🍂 🍂 | 🍂 | 🍂 🍂 | 🍂 | 🍂

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pumpkinpatchtakeover 🎃🕸️

> credit: pumpkin!

> design: moodboard!

“here’s a little spooky moodboard for cuteober take over! 🍂”

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Katy Lipscomb on Instagram

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Gender Positivity ☀️

Although, I use Genderqueer as my overall umbrella gender term. I adore my other labels such as: Genderfae, Neutrois, Gendervoid & Agender. All of my flags are so pretty!

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pov: you're a fairy

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Another Chicken Smoothie inspired moodboard! This is definitely one of my fav moodboards I've ever made <3 💐 🔮 💐 🔮 💐 🔮 💐 🔮 💐