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Yeah now we've entered the back pain stage

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Seriously considering rereading and writing a 2 page essay about the disappearance of draco malfoy. They put crack in the ff or something, I'm going to writing on thesis on it I'm going to use it as an example at work I'm going to freaking loose my mind. Hello artist please, yall need to illustrate it

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I would rather never me able to put thoughts into words and get my writing disires back than wite pages on pages about payno, about crystal clear pre adolescent memories about videos I would watch after getting home from 4 freaking grade,about how this is one of the many reasons I chose psychology, about how infuriating so many things are including the fact that this industry does this to ppl so many times and no seems to do anything about it?? I would rather never write a story again I would rather never journal again I would rather never read a book for plesure in my life ever again than having to put all these things in words on a paper beacuse what the actual hell. This is not how it was meant to be.

It literally, not over using this word, but it literally feels like my pre adolescent island like in inside out is crumbling, I feel physically sick. How do I just work and study and go about my day when constantly my mind keeps replaying him over and over and over again?

This was supposed to be a quick little comment but I just.. Idk I have a lot to say idk if I'll ever post it here, I know I'm going to spend my day Tom writing letters about this because I just can't.. It's just so....

So much grief for some one I never even got to see, never talked to, never met..

I never thought it was possible for me to feel like this about an artist I can comprehend any of this

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Draco: Bloody hell shut up

Hermione: *scoffs* make me

Harry: guys this is debate club...

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You know the line "I'll call your mom" in noah kahans song could mean that the care and worry for the person on the other end is more important than having to talk to the parents, the need to save them out ranks all judgment and bad blood between the speaker and parents.

You know who would say this? Hermione to dracos parents.

Yes all this to talk about dramoinie, thank you.

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to love someone is firstly to confess: i'm prepared to be devastated by you. by A History of My Brief Body by Billy-Ray Belcourt

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In another world you'll live in a dorm

or a house with a roommate

you'll only worry about uni

and reading

and learning

and growing

Every hour of you day with be filled with literature and cold coffees

Gut Turning songs like gigi perez, hoizer and Noah kahan

Not worrying about work

or about rent

not having to choose to sleep or study just to pass.

In another world you'll get to live in academic bliss

and vigor

not wondering if tomorrow is the day the world goes up in flames

or if it's the end on the horizon

In another world you'll be given a chance

in a another world you have a choice

in a another in a another

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Hermione: I think I lost my hair brush I can't find it anywhere

Harry in deathly hallows: I lost something once

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No matter how many Dramione stories I read, the shift from 'Granger' to 'Hermione' and from 'Malfoy' to 'Draco' does inexplicable things to my heart. every. fucking. time.

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"you keep trying to turn me into the perfect version you made up of me!"

"I try to change you? Me? Draco I didn't tell you to change I didn't tell you to leave the death eaters that was all you, you chose that yourself"

It didn't have to be like this, there was no geninue reason for a simple comment to turn into a heated screaming argument. Although if you'd have had the pleasure to ever being involved, truly involved with draco malfoy you would know these are regular occurrences.

"yeah great than if you don't care, why do you keep correcting me, your not my mom Stacy so stop acting like it" even during fights he never called her Anastasia, it's a common nickname but somewhere in first year peers jointly decided to call her Ana, all except one that is.

"you think it's okay to just say stuff like that about someone, who the hell are you to talk about someones appearance? I'll not allow it"

"ha! You do realize you're just proving my point don't you?" a sly smirk was starting to form on the corners of his mouth, Ana could see it.

"pqp que merda como que..que raiva como q alguém pode ser tão.. Pqp"

This made him drop the smile, a raised eyebrow instead falling into place and silence. Ana had her back turned to him, standing there for a few minutes taking this opportunity to breathe, to think again, calmy, about the reasons this mattered to her, why she didn't just let it go, why she stayed, why she believes it's a talk worth having. But when she turned dracos inquestive expression had felt and instead was replaced by something near to awe.

"stace I don't think I'll ever get over how amazing you are" draco could feel the air change back to how it always was it her. Life becomes petrichor.

Anger was gone with it the sense of justice and defense. it was never out of lust or anything similar, whenever draco praised her it truly was what he was seeing. This discussion would have to be finished on another day.

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Authors comment

I absolutely hate it but I'm trying to get back into writing so here is something terrible but at least it's something

Rough Translation: fricking hell, how can.. Ugh how can someone be so... "

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Nothin' happened in the way I wanted

Every corner of this house is haunted

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"What you're supposed to do when you don't like a thing is change it. If you can't change it, change the way you think about it."

Maya Angelou "Wouldn't Take Nothing for My Journey Now"