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angst with a happy ending is my favourite honestly like yes bitch give me emotional conflict but dont completely ruin my soul you know

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Step over ants. Put worms back in the grass. Rescue baby caterpillars. Release spiders back into your garden. Open a window for a bee to fly home. They are all little souls that deserve a life too.

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// oh god I've been awol for so long and owe so many people replies ;w; I'm so sorry y'all I've been moving into a new flat, starting a new job and starting a master's but I promise I'll answer you all soon!!

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a really long, but categorized, ask meme

ACTIONS - ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING

*Accidentally spills [[SPECIFY HERE]] on you*

*Slaps you*

*Kisses you on the lips*

*Bites your lip*

*Rubs your shoulders*

*Dumps ice water over your head*

*Winks at you*

*Flips hair at you*

*Throws a ball of paper towards you*

*Hands you a note, inside it says [[SPECIFY HERE]]*

*Slams the door shut behind you*

*Storms out of the room*

*Wraps my arms around you from behind*

*Kisses your neck*

*Nibbles on your earlobe*

*Tucks a strand of hair behind your ear*

*Strokes your hair*

*Caresses your cheek*

*Holds you in my arms*

QUOTES - PICK UP LINES EDITION

“You’re cute and I’m horny. You thinking what I’m thinking?”

“I see you like cardio… wanna go back to my place and do it together?”

“I’m sorry, but I just received a call for you. From heaven? I think they’re missing an angel.”

“Hold my hand? I’m afraid I’m getting lost in your eyes.”

“Is that a mirror in your pocket? Because I can see myself in your pants.”

“Are you a pokemon? Because I’d like to peek-at-chu.”

“If I had a dollar for every beautiful girl/guy I saw tonight, I’d have one dollar. Because the only beautiful girl/guy in here is you.”

“Maybe I could show you my [[SPECIFY ITEM]] collection. It’s back at my house, so we’d have to go there but…”

*Spills a drink on your shirt* “I’m so sorry! But if it’s any reassurance, I think that top would look better on my bedroom floor anyways.”

QUOTES - STRANGERS EDITION

“I’m sorry, have we met before?”

“I don’t know you, but thanks.”

“You’re a very nice guy/girl, you know that?”

“We only just met… but I’d really like to see you again.”

“Do you think you could move your ass out of my friend’s seat?”

“It’s none of your business. We just met.”

“Hey I’m [[NAME HERE]] and my crazy ex-girlfriend/boyfriend is here and I was wondering if you’d pretend to date me so I can get them off my back?”

“I’m so sorry about that! Let me buy you a new sandwich.”

“Oh shit. I didn’t mean to trip you I swear, I’m sorry.”

QUOTES - WORKPLACE EDITION

“Did you get that email I sent you last night?”

“No, I’m serious. She/he brought a flask to work.”

“I overheard the boss and I think you’re about to be put up for a promotion!”

“I know what you’ve got in that top drawer.”

“I can’t believe you’re drunk at work.”

“You know, most people watch porn at home.”

“Your Netflix binge is using up all the broadband.”

“Stop torrenting, asshole! I have a report to send off to Japan in an hour and I can’t even open Gmail!”

“If you spent half as much time on doing your job as you do on World on Warcraft, maybe you’d have a chance at a promotion too.”

“You’ve been working here for 6 years and you don’t know where the break room is?”

QUOTES - SCHOOL EDITION

“Didn’t you hear? [[NAME HERE]] and [[NAME HERE]] hooked up last night!”

“We lost the playoffs.”

“The girls team beat the boys!”

“I heard he/she got called into the principal’s office.”

“Apparently the swim team had an orgy after hours.”

“I heard they were fucking in the bathroom.”

“She/he’s been paying people to do their homework!”

“She/he fell running in the hallway and knocked out a few teeth.”

“I can’t believe we’re graduating this year.”

“Being a freshman sucks.”

“I slept with a sophomore last weekend.”

“She/he told me they were a junior!”

“Why are those freshmen staring at you?”

“Is there a reason everyone suddenly knows your name overnight?”

“How come everyone suddenly knows who I am?”

“Did you tell them about my [[INSERT SECRET HERE]]?!”

“I can’t believe you hooked up with my boyfriend/girlfriend.”

“I definitely failed that test.”

“I got an A on my essay!”

QUOTES - SASS EDITION

“Wow, there’s a stick wedged so far up your ass I don’t think I can even pull it out.”

“I’m sorry, but my number of fucks to give has officially reached a negative number.”

“Uranus called and said I’m huge and in the way.”

“I’m searching… searching… oh. Well would you look at that. I couldn’t find any fucks to give.”

“What’s the difference between a dolphin and you? Dolphins have brains.”

“Just because that’s mistletoe hanging above us doesn’t mean I’m going to kiss you.”

“Take a picture, it’ll last longer.”

“At this point you might as well ask for my autograph.”

QUOTES - ARGUMENTS/ROWS/QUARRELS EDITION

“You know I’m right! I’m always right!”

“Shut up. Just shut up!”

“I don’t need to listen to this.”

“You’re lying.”

“I can’t believe you’d say that. Even in an argument, that was low of you.”

“I can’t look at you.”

“Don’t fucking touch me.”

“If you say one more word, I swear…”

“Pipe down, you’re making a scene.”

“What’s wrong with you?”

“Now I know why people think you’re neurotic.”

“You must be crazy.”

“I'm not backing down.”

“You can’t hide the truth forever, you know.”

“What’s your issue?”

“You make me so angry.”

“This has nothing to do with you.”

QUOTES - LOVERS EDITION

“And… and I love you! It’s what I’ve been trying to tell you all along.”

“I don’t know how to say it. But you know what I’m trying to say, right?”

“I’ve never been good at this. I don't do relationships. But I… I want to try with you.”

“You’re the one that I want.”

“I don't care. I don’t give a shit, don’t you get it? I don’t give a flying fuck unless it has to do with you. I love you.”

“Please don’t say that. You know you’re the only one for me. Fuck everyone else.”

“I can’t stop thinking about you. Every minute of every day. I could be standing in the shower or cooking breakfast, but you’re still the only thought on my mind.”

“I want to wake up next to you, everyday for the rest of my life.”

“I’ve always been afraid of commitment, okay? That’s why I sleep around.”

“I’ve never wanted to give love a try until now.”

“Please, don’t leave me.”

“I need you more than you will ever know.”

“I love you more than I could ever express in words.”

QUOTES - DRUNK AND KNOCKING AT YOUR DOOR EDITION

*Starts singing [[SPECIFY SONG NAME]] outside your door/window*

“I didn’t fuck him/her, I swear!”

“I brought vodka and ice cream.”

“You left your anal beads at my house. Wait… no, they’re just normal mardi gras beads.”

“I can’t believe you went without me!”

“I love you, I love you so much and you just don’t see it. What am I supposed to do?”

“I know you’re sad and upset. Let me be your distraction! I want to be your distraction!”

“I can’t find my apartment and I couldn’t stop thinking about you.”

“Let me in! I think I’m gonna throw up.”

QUOTES - NSFW EDITION

“What do you think about this outfit?”

“Bend over.”

“It’s not going to get up by itself, you know.”

“I thought you’d be bigger.”

“Where did we leave those damned handcuffs?”

“I can’t find my vibrator.”

“Just set your phone on vibrate!”

“I want to fuck you until you’re raw and shaking.”

“That’s it… do a little striptease for me.”

“You can watch… but you can’t touch.”

“Be quiet! They’re going to hear us.”

“And get this… the new toy? It glows in the dark.”

“I’ve got two flavours. Cherry or fruit punch?”

“I want to be on top.”

“That is one fine ass.”

“You look like a screamer.”

“Let me tie you up.”

“What’ll our safeword be?”

“I love making you squirm.”

“Not my neck! It’s summer, I can’t wear a turtleneck in the sun.”

TEXTS - DRUNK EDITION

[TEXT] You dumped me for HIM/HER?

[TEXT] I can’t stop listening to our song.

[TEXT] My pillow still smells like you.

[TEXT] You left your cologne when you moved out. I used it up.

[TEXT] Do you even love me?

[TEXT] What happened to us?

[TEXT] I just want to eat bacon and see you naked. And then eat bacon off of you naked.

[TEXT] IM26C4U.

[TEXT] You never gave a shit about me.

[TEXT] I couldn’t care less.

[TEXT] Now you know how it feels.

[TEXT] I still love you.

[TEXT] I can’t stop thinking about all the times you told me you loved me… and wondering if they were lies.

TEXTS - NSFW EDITION

[TEXT] You can’t have me if you can’t even get the three C’s. Chocolates, champagne, and candles.

[TEXT] I’m in the bath… come join me?

[TEXT] Don’t tease. You know I like it rough.

[TEXT] Bed, counter, or floor?

[TEXT] If you can get here in five minutes I’ll suck you off first.

[TEXT] What do you think about threesomes? And, what about foursomes?

[TEXT] You’ve been naughty, I’m going to punish you.

[TEXT] I can’t believe you just sent me that. I’m at work/school!

TEXTS - EMERGENCY EDITION

[TEXT] I fell down the stairs and… well, I’m in the ER.

[TEXT] ______ got injured during their game and I’m waiting with them at the hospital but I can’t do this alone.

[TEXT] Did you know your mother/father is at the hospital right now??

[TEXT] I was cleaning out the garage and I’m stuck under some boxes!! Please help before the spiders get me.

[TEXT] I don’t know what happened I was just cooking and then all of a sudden the pasta was on fire!

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Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Vita Sackville-West wr. c. October 1925  (via paper-fairy)

{open starter} 

Dunya penned those last words onto her letter and set down her pen with a sigh. It had already been months since she had last seen her brother and it would be years before they met again in person, an eternity. She looked out onto the rainy streets of London and regretted not bringing an umbrella with her....

But for how long? For ever?

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wishlist: a thread where each reply is a letter, signed and dated and everything. it could either be really long ones written over a long period or short telegrams. it would work so well with historical muses

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{{ Please reblog this if you’re a mun who’s open for angst plotting. Death, pain, drug abuse, alcohol abuse, illness, misery, fighting, screaming, tears, hate, disgust, trauma, graphic gore, etc; I’m in need of threads. Thank you. }}

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Frank Weston Benson (1862-1951), Summer (1890), oil on canvas, 101.6 x 127 cm. Collection of Smithsonian American Art Museum, Washington, DC, USA. Via Wikimedia Commons.

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white / paris

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//I think as well as having this as RusLit/Historical I’m going to bring in a 60s/70s era iteration, medieval/courtesan and fantasy/mythology based,,, or should i just keep it as little ‘ol dunya

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&. SOFT ANGST STARTERS.

“please look at me.”

“is s/he really just a friend?”

“i’m just disappointed.”

“you know i’m not like that.”

“don’t give me space. that’s the last thing i want with you.”

“i know you still love me.”

“i can’t think straight with you.”

“why are you so stubborn?”

“don’t do this here.”

“trust me on this.”

“please don’t misunderstand me.”

“you… you never had a problem with it before.”

“i know i shouldn’t be here.”

“what do you mean by that?”

“you deserve more.”

“can you just kiss me? one last time? that’s all i ask.”

“i’m scared.”

“i swear i’ll do things different this time.”

“s/he’s beautiful. i hope s/he makes you happy.”

“i want to believe you, i do.”

“not everyone is going to hurt you.”

“i’m… i’m trying. i really am.”

“i can’t sleep.”

“how long will this go on for?”

“can i hug you?”

“do you ever mean the things you say?”

“you won’t understand.”

“you’re making me think that what they told me about you was right.”

“am i too late?”

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deep in the rainforest; 🌅

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PIN MY MUSE

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Character Profile for Pyotr Luzhin // background information

Name: Pyotr Luzhin

Family: Marfa Svidrigailov (distant cousin), Arkady Svidrigailov (distant cousin-in-law), Dunya Raskolnikova (ex-fiance) 

Occupation: Lawyer

Bio: tw: rape/assault

Pyotr Luzhin is first introduced to Avdotya Raskolnikova in 1862 by her employer, Marfa Svidrigailov, who is distantly related to him; Marfa Svidrigailov is concerned by her husband's intentions towards Avdotya and hopes by setting the two of them up, Dunya will be freed from Arkady's possession. Luzhin is a successful, local lawyer and Dunya is impressed by his intelligence and kindness but is not aware it is an act; Luzhin is in fact a cruel man who uses his intelligence and position in society to get away with abusing those he perceives to be lower than him. He sees Dunya's innocence and naivety and hopes to exploit and manipulate her into the perfect, submissive slave. He pretends to be what Dunya is looking, a romanticist and philanthropist. 

They began their courtship in 1863 when Avdotya is still working for the Svidrigailov’s and Luzhin is helping to support Dunya's family financially; in 1864 Luzhin secretly proposes to her with Marfa being the only person to know, and Dunya leaves her employment. In 1865 they officially announce their engagement and everyone in the village is ecstatic; the winter of 1865 Luzhin offers for Dunya and Pulkheria to travel to Saint Petersburg and announce the news to her brother. When they arrive in Saint Petersburg in 1866 they discover that Rodion is accused of murder and Luzhin offers his services to clear his name; they both instantly dislike each other but do not outwardly state it. When Luzhin learns about Marfa Svidrigailov's death he does not inform Dunya. Two months later Luzhin attempts to frame Sonya Marmeladova for thievery and gets into a fight with Rodion Raskolnikov wherein the siblings part ways. Luzhin had aimed for the departure of her brother so he could be the only man in her life. 

However, when Razumikhin's socialist housemate informs him that he witnessed Luzhin framing Sonya, he informs Raskolnikov and they investigate him further. They find extensive proof of Luzhin's cruelty and assault of other past women, assaulting and physically abusing them, but Razumikhin decides it is best that he and Sonya break the news to Dunya. She is distraught at first but believes them and calls off her engagement with Luzhin and makes amends with her brother. 

Luzhin does not accept the end of their engagement straight away until he is threatened by Rodion Raskolnikov, Dmitri Razumikhin and Andrey Lebezyatnikov to leave Dunya and Saint Petersburg. He agrees, but not before informing Arkady Svidrigailov of Dunya's whereabouts and offering him proof of Rodion Raskolnikov's crimes to blackmail him with.

his post was created to as a link-to for headcanons/posts hinting at Dunya’s abused past with Svidrigailov and Pyotr Luzhin. For the rest of the character backgrounds click here. 

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Character Profile for Arkady Svidrigailov // background information

Name: Arkady Svidrigailov

Family: Marfa Svidrigailov (wife), Alexei Svidrigailov (son), Nastasya Svidrigailov (daughter)

Occupation: Nobleman

Bio:  tw: rape/assault

Dunya first meets Arkady Svidrigailov in 1860 when his wife, Marfa, employs her as a governess to their two children Nastasya and Alexei. He is impressed when she masterfully teaches his children English and French and becomes fixated on her. When she does not accept his romantic advances he beretes her emotionally and mentally, but knows she will not quit because she can't afford to. Aware of her husband's cruelty and intentions towards Dunya, Marfa Svidrigailov introduces Dunya to her distant cousin Pyotr Luzhin in an attempt to save her. In 1864 Dunya leaves his employment and he is aware she is secretly engaged to Pyotr Luzhin; in 1865 their engagement is officially announced. In 1865 Marfa Svidrigailov dies in suspicious circumstances but Arkady is cleared of involvement, his children are sent to live with their maternal grandparents. In 1866 he follows Dunya to Saint Petersburg and is aware of the crimes her brother is accused of. He befriends Rodion Raskolnikov and tells him of his own crimes - of how he raped a 15 year old deaf girl who later committed suicide as a result - and tricks Rodion into confessing to the murder of the Ivanovna sisters. Svidrigailov threatens the life of Sonya and to reveal Rodion's crime if he does not let him have Dunya. Dunya Raskolnikova is made aware of the threats Svidrigailov is making towards her brother and Sonya Marmeladova and reluctantly agrees to meet him alone at a local tavern. Whilst there Svidrigailov locks her in the room at gunpoint and professes his love to her, when she rebuffs affections he threatens to have her anyway he wants. Somehow Dunya manages to get ahold of Svidrigailov’s gun and shoots at him but misses; Svidrigailov offers her a second chance but Dunya throws the gun down knowing she would never lower herself to his level. Surprised, Svidrigailov allows her to leave. He ruminates on her actions and walks the streets of Saint Petersburg all night. Realises what he has done, the terrible actions in his life, he names the Raskolnikov's, Sonya Marmeladova and his current underage wife in his will before committing suicide. 

this post was created to as a link-to for headcanons/posts hinting at Dunya’s abused past with Svidrigailov and Pyotr Luzhin. For the rest of the character backgrounds click here. 

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Character Profile for Rodion Raskolnikov // background information

Name: Rodion “Rodya” Romanovich Raskolnikov

Family: Roman Raskolnikov (father), Pulkheria Ivanovna (mother), Avdotya Raskolnikova (sister)

Occupation: Student / Murderer 

Bio: 

Rodion Romanovich Raskolnikov is the first child born to Pulkheria and Roman Raskolnikov in 1841. From an early age it is clear that Rodion is closer to his mother than his father, although he still looks up to him. Rodion's father Roman is disappointed that Rodion is not like him in temperament and attempts to push him towards the sciences, but Rodion is disinterested and only interested in philosophy. Rodion becomes more outspoken with his father and is often punished with beatings. After his sister is born in 1845, Rodion becomes extremely protective of her, and encourages her interests where their father does not. In 1851, and at the age of ten, Rodion's father abandons them for his mistress and Moscow. Rodion and Dunya take up odd jobs in their village to support their mother. When Rodion turns 18 his mother encourages him to leave for university to better himself, so in 1859 Rodion leaves for Saint Petersburg. Whilst in Saint Petersburg Rodion becomes close friends with Dmitri Razumikhin and his flatmate Andrey Lebeyatnikov and expands his mind with politics and philosophy. In 1860 Rodion becomes engaged to his landlady's daughter, Anya Zarnitsyna; in 1861 Rodion becomes disinterested in his education and quits university to become a tutor and support his fiance and himself. In 1862 Rodion's fiance, Anya, dies from a sudden illness. Rodion falls into a deep melancholy that none of his friend's can pull him out of. He accepts the financial support from his family but does not tell them he has dropped out of university. In 1865 Rodion Raskolnikov plans the murder of Alyona Ivanovna to purely prove he is smart enough to get away with it; he meets the alcoholic civil servant Marmeladov and his daughter Sonya and begins to fall in love with her. In 1866 Rodion murders Alyona and her sister Lizaveta who witnesses the murder; a month later his family visit to announce his sister's wedding, and Rodion instantly dislikes Dunya's fiance Luzhin. After Luzhin accuses Sonya of theft, Raskolnikov and Razumikhin set out to clear her name and unearth the truth of Luzhin’s cruelty; Razumikhin and Sonya inform Dunya and she calls off the wedding. With the guilt playing on his mind, and the support of his family, Rodion confesses to the murder of the Ivanovna sister's and is sentenced to eight years in prison. 

With the finances provided from Svidrigailov's will, in 1870 Dunya Raskolnikova immigrated to Britain after advice from her brother; after converting to catholicism Rodion asks Sonya Marmeladova to marry him once his sentence is over and she agrees. In 1871 Rodion begins to receive letters from his father announcing he is gravely ill, Rodion ignores them. In 1872 Rodion is informed that his father has died, and reincluded his children in his will. In 1874 Rodion Raskolnikov is released from prison and marries Sonya Marmeladov

this post was created as a link-to to explain the background of Dunya’s brother for plots circling the discovery/blackmail of the murders committed by Rodion. You can read the rest of the character profiles here.