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[averagebitch]

If he wants to, he will

[averagebitch]

I spent ten years, yes TEN YEARS, being mentally and emotionally abused. With a touch of physical abuse.

My husband asked me to call him to tell me about Easter plans and if that was okay with me. But for the first two minutes he put me on hold and my heart was racing, I was thinking of anything I could have said or did that was wrong, curious if someone was lying to him and he would believe them over me. But no, it was none of that, just wanted to confirm our Easter plans with his family. He heard the anxiety and put me at ease before we hung up. Reminding me, I’m his Queen and that I am loved.

But my ex, if I had to call him in the middle of the day, I did something wrong. He always believed the worse about me. He is the reason I can’t trust a simple phone call.

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Today was a bad day. I just wanted to cry. I miss my sister and what hurts the most is I don’t think she misses me

[averagebitch]

Before you make me the villain, have you even heard my side of the story?

[averagebitch]

Enough!

No longer keeping my abuse to myself. If you care you can tag along but this is my journey of letting go. Being me.

[averagebitch]

I’ve had stuff thrown at me, degraded, pushed, knocked down, gun pointed in my face (twice), called names, threatened, been made fun of all in front of people and no one helped me.

Most of these happened at my old fire station. Yet, I am forgotten by all. And gets treated like a plague.

[averagebitch]

PCOS sucks.

Today is a bad day.

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[averagebitch]

I never thought I would ever get married again. He truly destroyed me when he left. But my now-husband I know will never have to worry.

[averagebitch]

Finding someone who loves you no matter how damaged you are, priceless.