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Go check out my good pal jockout's work in between my files. We bounce off each other a fair bit

New File Release!

The Brute Inside You | Wiring

Strong. Driven. Dominant.

We got in touch with the Brute inside you once before… but it's time to learn more about him. His goals, his desires, and the unique wiring that enables him to be who he is.

This is the first half of a commission for a lovely Irish Brute who got in touch with me a couple of months back. It's very in line with the original file, with a slight tweak away from dumbing-specific suggestions; but it's still compatible with dumbing down for those into that flavour of brutification.

(And yes, first half means there's another file to come. ;) )

Content warnings and file contents are here:

Suggestions for increase hormonal production: testosterone, HGH, etc., to aid with muscle growth.

Suggestions to crave working out like a physical need.

Suggestions for general priority, habit and personality shifts towards the Brute. Generally "alpha" behaviour and references to narcissism, cockiness and aggression are contained within.

Suggestions to learn and absorb masculine behaviours from the men around you.

Suggestions to forget what's been said in this trance, and to crave coming back to it again.

This file assumes a male listener, using male pronouns.

Enjoy, bros.

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When I'm not trancing myself or others, I'm usually off being a mystical forest bro in the wilderness of Ireland. But if you want your own custom hypnosis recording from me, I'm always available for commissions via DM. My flat rate is currently $60-80, but you can check my pinned Tumblr post for more up-to-date info. You can also support me with a one-time tip either via Paypal or Ko-Fi. Keep listening, bros.

[avissapiens]

Now that I've really put on muscle recently, I'm asked several times a day at school and among friends whether I've become wider or whether I've always been this muscular. I really like this attention and I notice how I'm enjoying it more and more. I notice the looks that girls and boys throw at me. And I also notice that the others are somehow conditioning me with their attention to wear more suggestive, tighter and less clothing.

What are the next steps? How can I make people look at my body more? How can I make this wave of feelings last?

Asked by SupremeJock (former hitkatfat)

I've always been of the opinion that physical transformations can never be purely physical. They inherently have to come with mental changes. These are usually thought of as the mental changes that spur on the transformation. But just as often these changes come after too. From the new opportunities that a new body gives you. The new sensations, and interactions. The new desires that spawn as a result of finally being exposed to a whole different way of existing in the world.

It makes you realize why certain people are the way they are. I mean just imagine the kinds of mental experiences a college jock who has been in the physical 1% all his life would have that you just have no frame of reference for.

These new desires that you are feeling are good and should be explored. Should be intensified. And trust me, they will continue to grow with you. But i don't know if you can force them super hard.

So instead of prescriptive steps, I'll present some predictions of the path which this can go along

Passive Exposure(you are here)- Your body can't help but be noticed. Your old clothes are tighter, and even new ones are deliberately bought to be more flattering. Your form is something that can't be hidden anymore with those broad shoulders or even the veins running down your forearms. That passive attention feels good, and ultimately leads into the next phase.

Active attraction - You hunger for more attention. The eyes on your skin feels so good. But eventually the passive response to your physique produces diminishing returns for how much work you put in; how big you get. So you've gotta force them to give you more. Suck all of the eyes onto you. So you flex more. You bounce those juicy heaving pecs which were already starting to strain your shirt. You play coy and bashful while endless, needy sluts prompt you to show off because you know it'll make them ask more. And eventually it peaks with you lifting your shirt with a cocky smile; tongue out and totally intoxicated by the rush of euphoric attention. From here there are usually 3 paths. These can either be end-points, phases into one another, or even used simultaneously.

Pervasive physicality - You've spent so much time at the gym by now. Gotten so in touch with your body that it takes precedence over everything else. You are body first and mind second. It feels wrong to cover up the temple you've crafted. Feels uncomfortable to be inactive. So you move, you flex, you go about shirtless. But more importantly you make more and more of your life about physicality and activity. Running, jumping, sweating and loving it. Using the mass and size and strength you've gained because its unnatural not to. You are the one they ask to lift the boxes. You're the one they prompt to do pushups with them and 2 friends on your back. You're the one who tries out for every new sport and activity you can think of. Eventually they no longer have to ask and you just do it automatically. The attention ramps up but so does just the pure pleasure of being a physical being.

Subtle Utilization - Of course you noticed how everyone treats you differently now. Maybe that stung at first to realize just how much your appearance played into the worlds attitude and actions towards you. But eventually you lean into it. It's a good thing. People just love fit, gorgeous individuals. There's nothing wrong with that. And they are so much more willing to let things slide. So much more eager to give for just an extra second in your presence. Or maybe even in an attempt to get away out of sheer intimidation by your growing form. Behind every one of those lusting, leering eyes is the thought :"Fuck, what i wouldn't do for a piece of that". So make em prove it. More time on an assignment submission. Extra protein on your order at the restaurant. Tickets to a concert for the low price of a smile and the chance to touch the body of a God. Your body becomes more than just a point of pride. It is the primary tool with which you navigate and exploit the world. And every gift that your body brings is so much sweeter for it.

Self-exploitation - We live in a golden age for getting more attention and feeding these urges. Before, you would have had to move towns and be a gogoboy. Or maybe if you're lucky you'd end up on the cover of a magazine somewhere to fuel the muscle lusts of other studs. But now in the span of a day, without lifting a finger, you can get an audience the size of a small country fawning over your every progress pic. Your body is a commodity. And the bigger and better you grow it, the higher a price you can command. So many options at your command as well. Gymfluencer with no real practical expertise. Onlyfans slut, happy to be a well taken care of piece of meat. Muscle god, draining desperate needy men with your body. Even ascending the online sphere and opening the door to a new life for yourself. Modelling. Posing. Bodybuilding brand ambassador. All paths opened to you, by giving in to your lust for attention and your physical perfection.

Models utilized are: quarterback.kennedy, unknown, Jeremy Park, Felix Foxxx, Justin Dom

[avissapiens]

Other than Shameless, which other of your files are good for improving confidence and charm?

I've never considered that to be the intent of Shameless but I can totally see how someone would get those vibes from that file. Freeing yourself from apprehension and being more comfortable in your own skin absolutely has a noticeable effect on the way you carry yourself in the world. I think Himbo flow is super underrated for this purpose. It's got such a life changing energy to it. You feel good. You grow, you get what you desire because you are gorgeous and the world flows to you. People can sense that and are ultimately attracted to it even more. It emphasizes your charisma and himbo style and really takes it to your whole lifestyle

[avissapiens]

As a longtime fan who realized she’s a trans woman, I feel confused as to how the abyss and your content will serve me now as I am. What can I do for the abyss now that I’m not a cismale himbo?

Congrats on that realization! Feminine audiences have always been a bit of a blind spot for me and the abyss, because there's so much female (and even specifically in your case transwoman)-centric hypnotic offerings out there. I can't vouch as to whether it's good or not, but there is certainly a lot of it. That being said I still think the concepts I write about can be beneficial to everyone. Indulging in transformation and corruption. Transgression and taboo. Accepting the darker and lighter parts of yourself towards ascension. The files are and probably will be into the future, coded for male/masculine listeners. But I'm certain that a little later this year i'll put out some more neutral offerings. But the writings on this blog will always be free and open and I think everyone can benefit from the insight. And there are elements from all the archetypes that everyone can integrate into them.

The abyss is all encompassing and will expand over the earth. Embrace that truth.

[avissapiens]

Pup New Year

This could be the year you find the one. The master who scratches every itch and trains you so well that you never want to leave. It's this encompassing desire that saturates the whole vibe for the year. A mouth watering prospect that your entire body just vibrates for. The abyss is here for you in your search for that ultimate master.

Your Goal for the year is...

Be indispensable.

Find the thing that only you can offer and make your master addicted to it. There’s a million slobbering mutt subs out there, all doing the same old tricks. All offering the same boring things. Submission, obedience, worship. So what? But there’s only one you with your special skills and singular attitude.

Be special. Differentiate yourself from every other pup. Unique style, unique moods. New forms of service and function to add real value to your master's life. A doting lapdog or a snappy service dog or a fiercely loyal purebred hound. Perform for your master. Take his loads and make them your own. Make it so that if he ever thinks about dropping you, he will be forced to reckon with all he would lose.

The breakfast in bed prepared with love.

The little funny messages sent in the dead of night.

The mouth that knew exactly which parts to lick and drool over.

The ways in which you can work to bring more luxury and pleasure and actual satisfaction into his life because, His collar around your neck is an honour you never want to surrender.

Your service will be rewarded by one who is worthy and recognizes the value inherent in you. A well cared for canine. Trained and given all the treats you desire for a job well done.

Model used is Pup Buday

For more works to fuel your Pup new year, Explore all the lovely facets of the abyss.

[avissapiens]

Jock New Year

New year, New opportunity to reach the fucking top. While the rest of the world is trying to eat more greens or read a book every month, your goals are wider. Bigger. More life defining. Leading towards your conquest and absolute victory. And the abyss will help guide you step by step to that gold.

Your goal for the year is...

Value your time

Time is money, money is power, Power is victory. Be in control of the flow of your life and make sure every second is accounted for and serves you in some way.

If what you are doing isn’t benefiting you or your goals, and it doesn’t contribute to your long term plan of victory, then its not worth doing. No more wasted hours. No more idle seconds. It doesn’t have to all be grind, but it sure as hell has to lift you up and enhance you in some way. You have 24 hours every day to make the best of your life. 24 hours to climb the ladder. 24 hours to crush your opponents.

Training, networking, honing your skills, Building yourself and your empire, resting, recovering and repeating it all. You don’t have time to spend on useless people, useless projects. Dead ends. Don’t fall prey to sunk cost. Just because you’ve spent a lot of time doing something in the past does not mean you need to keep spending time doing it.

Start it as a time table of your daily tasks. 7 am Breakfast, 8am gym, 10 am Trance, etc etc. Disciplined. Regimented. You know your day. Seize it.

Set a mental timer for conversations. If they haven’t said anything valuable to you by minute 10, you leave. No exceptions. Them wasting your time is like them burning your money.

Find the parts of your life whose time investment outweighs the value it gives you. Cut those out with a bloody knife. Doesn't matter if it pisses people off. Doesn't matter if its a tradition and a habit. Free up that time for more positive projects or for rest.

Envision the timeline of your life and where the trajectory you are on will lead you in 5 years, and if that vision doesn’t get your cock hard and mouth watering, change your trajectory until you get one that does

Model used is Alex Jechev

For more works to fuel your Jock new year, Explore all the lovely facets of the abyss.

[avissapiens]

I'm all about the gym vibe, bro. I only focus on working out nowadays, in the gym, at home. And it's paying off. But I'm still not convinced about the dumbing down… Do I really have to be dumb to be a total jock bro?

In the past I'd kind of gotten tired of these kinds of questions. But nowadays I really enjoy them because it allows me to give you a bunch of different answers; all of which are equally true.

I'm also technically speaking a wannabe academic which means I enjoy breaking down things into more and more needlessly granular segments. Lets do 3 for this one.

A) Jock/Bro & Jock=/=Bro, Jockbro

A lot of people typically conflate Jock and Bro. Outside of the abyss they can essentially be synonymous, but I think that is small-minded and based off years of nerd propaganda. The abyss understands differently the distinction. The Jock is the ruthless, ambitious, strategic warrior-predator. The sports star, the valedictorian. And a lot of times Jocks are very intelligent. Sharp. Quick thinking and highly calculated. Even if it may not be for things that nerds value, but often times they are and those nerds are just jealous that the jock can beat them at their own game while looking hot and being strong.

The bro on the other hand is Chill, amiable, charismatic, fratty, slow and simple. He is the one that would typically be classified as "dumb". Although if you look closer at his quality of life and enjoyment of the world around him you might start to question that thesis. A bro is simple. Uncomplicated. He focuses on the stuff he is good at and knows he doesn't need to invest the entirety of his identity into his intellect. The bro is dumb, but he's still smarter than any nerd because he cherishes that.

And then you can have any degree of hybridization between the two to be a "Jockbro"

So the simple, short and cop out answer is, no you don't have to be dumb.

B) Um, actually...

Any meaningful transformation must come with an adjustment of priorities. The things you care about, what you're interested in and what you dedicate your time to.

This is just simple logic. The more time you invest into one thing, the less you have for others. In a sense because you now know and care less about those things and do not have them in your mind, you become "dumber" in those areas.

In fact, whether you think so or not, you've experienced this. If you're only focused on gym and muscle, you inherently have less time to think about complex dialectics or inane trivia. Someone looking at your interests from the outside with no other context might very easily consider you a "dumb" gym-obsessed meathead. And maybe you are. Definitely you are. We all are dumb in the areas outside our expertise and interest. And we should acknowledge that. If I were to step into a Computer science class every dude in there would think I was a moron.

The Bro simply takes that shift in priority a bit further than most. A total streamlining of thought. Simplicity and efficiency. The jock as well to a lesser extent.

C) So what?

One must wonder why we only ever get questions worried about dumbing. Why intellect is the primary personal value we are so guarded with.

Why would you rather be smart than kind, or well connected, or successful, or muscular or happy?

Why do you chafe at the idea of being called dumb? Why is that idea and word so scary to you?

Why do you willingly accept giving up the body you have now, the social arrangement you have now, the restrictions and inhibitions you have now, but not the mindset and mental biases that put all those things in motion in the first place?

The sociologist in me takes the view that in the world-system we exist under, the dominant paradigm encourages a static dichotomy of "Smart/Dumb". It's how it keeps you working. You hyperfixate on your intellect because your intellect is what makes you a better worker for other people who are then free to actually be dumb and engage on their specific interests. You stress about school and grades and performance because you think your entire life security is dependent on it. Because that's what you've been told and that's what the dominant class wants you to think. But that is propaganda and you know it isn't true. Intellect does not correlate to success, the same way "Dumbness" doesn't correlate to failure. What intellect does tend to correspond to is exhaustion, anxiety, frustration and Over-thinking. All of the things that would prevent you from living for yourself and living entirely.

There is nothing wrong with being "Smart" or good or even great at these things. There's nothing wrong with loving certain subjects or having lots of expertise and skill in an area. The harm comes when you start to overinvest your entire sense of self into being perceived as smart, and you neglect the reality that we're all dumb for most things in life.

[avissapiens]

Himbo New Year

Babes and beautiful bois, this is the year we glow up so beyond belief. There's no stopping it. January passed with the uggos failing out on their goals. We won't be the same. All we've gotta do is focus on us.

Your goal for the year is...

Use the Halo effect

Pretty people get nice things because the world loves beauty and is willing to go above and beyond to ensure that the beautiful among us have it easier.

But you can never get what you don’t ask for. As you continue to ascend, emerging from the aesthetic cocoon as a fully gorgeous looksmaxxed butterfly slut, You’ll have to shed those old inhibitions and shame.

Sure as a 5 you’d be laughed at for thinking you could get above what you deserve. But as a gorgeous himbo 10, all it really takes is flashing that smile or those tits. Tossing that soft hair. Staring at them with your vacant eyes and watching them melt.

It won’t always work. But it’ll work more often than you think. The tight clothes confound and befuddle. People’s natural tendency to be lenient on the well put together and aesthetically pleasing. Maybe it starts as asking to be a couple bucks short when you’re buying from the local bakery. Being nice and sweet and ditzy and dumb, drizzling your speech with that seductive allure like frosting over a roll.

Batting your eyes and sucking up to some stud who you’ve maybe only chatted with once or twice if he could drop you home from the gym since its raining. Promising to pay him back in one form or another.

Then you can elevate to seeing if maybe the admin at work could bump up your meeting with the boss for a raise. It shouldn’t be too much hassle. After all, you've seen how the man in charge looks at you when he thinks you can't see him.

"Please" and "Thank you" go a long way when you’re this hot.

The model used is Antonio Kelly

For more works to fuel your Himbo new year, Explore all the lovely facets of the abyss.

[avissapiens]

Bull New Year

The path ahead is so clear. The abyss leads the way. New year means new growth. More growth. Nothing different. Just more of the best and most important thing. Muscle. Keep pumping, flexing, training, bulls. You've got a whole 11 months of size to attain

Your goal for the year is...

Love the Monotony

Consistency and long-term growth are what you seek. Doing the same thing again and again. Streamlining and perfecting it. Never straying from the path. Only deepening that groove. You are chosen from the herd because of your ability to do the work without straying. You don’t need a bunch of gimmicks and fancy bells and whistles to keep you interested. The very act itself is reward enough for you. You or your coach have a plan. You fucking stick to it. It's that simple. And that is all you need. To do the same things over and over and watch the results.

To lift heavy weight up and down and up and down.

To eat the same things at the same time with the same enjoyment.

To keep your mind focused on the exact same things in the exact same way. The pleasure and drive to grow.

To insert that needle in the same spot with the same dose of pure anabolic bliss.

You don’t build a body destined for the stage by just doing whatever because you got bored. You take that boredom and you channel it into lifting heavier, flexing harder, eating more or cutting more ferociously. And when you squeeze every last drop you can get out of it then you change. Because as long as you stick at it and do the right shit, growth will come to you. It's a fact. Pure Bull biology.

Model used is Nyle Nayga

For more works to fuel your Bull new year, Explore all the lovely facets of the abyss.

[avissapiens]

Bro New Year

The abyss is so dope at guiding you where you need to be guided. We waited til all the New years hype has died and now we can truly start living 2024. Things have only begun for a year filled with bro bliss. Keep looking ahead bros.

Your goal for the year is...

Slow down bro

Take your time with shit and consider if what you are doing really even needs to be done or said or if you’re just trying to look smart.

Be chill. Less is more. Make your words and actions count. Better to be a one-trick pony that everyone wants to ride instead of a busybody that can’t get his shit straight. You know what you’re good at. You know what you like. If shit falls outside of those categories it's not worth doing. Reduce. Slow down. Keep everything as simple as fucking possible and streamlined. Fewer words. Slower speech. People will assume you’re a dumb bro and then they won’t give you a bunch of Bullshit responsibilities. Happier life guaranteed.

Take 3 hours in the gym cause you spend time between sets chatting with bros. 

Finish whatever shit you gotta do for school, but hand it in on the last possible day with the minimum required work.

Spend all day tanning and vibing at the beach.

Edge yourself stupid with slow strokes from sunrise to sunset.

Extend every sentence with “Uh…erm…hmm…”

Because as the number and speed at which you do things goes down, the quality and bliss increases tenfold.

Model used is Giancarlo Baglioni

For more works to fuel your Bro new year, Explore all the lovely facets of the abyss.

[avissapiens]

Alpha New Year

In the depths of darkness we still can learn lessons to empower us for a stronger year ahead. Now that the weak have faltered and fallen through January with new years resolution folly; lets get serious and start with some real plans for change.

Your goal for the year is...

Be hardline in your opinions

The world demands you to compromise and be nuanced. Fuck that shit. Commit to the extreme in your rhetoric and stand by it. It doesn’t matter what you actually think. What matters is that you are always correct and they should be ashamed for questioning you.

Speak from your fucking balls. Be unafraid. You’re man enough to deal with the consequences. And no consequence is so severe that it should prevent a god like you from speaking his mind. There is no one right or wrong answer. The only objective truth is the one you hold close to your heart.

You can change them. You can flit and flicker and be fickle just to fuck with some weak cunts head and get a rise out of them. But always stand by the fruit of your lips. Firm eyes, smirking lips, imposing and intimidating enough to demonstrate that your might makes you right. Your supremacy grants you free reign to say what you mean and mean what you say. And sometimes your thoughts will align with the consensus. With science or with societal norms. But those are things that should bind the weak and keep them in servitude to men like you. You are free to stray or even to be directly contrary to them.

“That was the worst fucking movie of all time.” “Muscle makes people superior. Its just the truth” “All men are actually bisexual deep down.” “You look like a Slut”

When you speak your words become truth. They become reality.

Model used is Mohammadali Saffari. For more works to fuel your Alpha new year, Explore all the lovely facets of the abyss.

[avissapiens]

JBS retrospective.

Jockbull summer was definitely something where I shot for the stars. 15 tasks where everyone else had only 5. Fairly stringent time limited goals that got more intense and all consuming with each set that was developed. I knew I wasn't going to be perfect at it or even approach 50% completion. And yet i still feel fucking amazing to have done it! In an 8 week span i jockified certain segments of my life in ways that really did feel like they resonated through my whole being. It sounds a bit hyperbolic, I know. But I do think that undergoing such a structured battery of tasks, having it constantly in my mind every single day, even to the point that for 8 weeks straight my phone background was some of the images I generated for each set of post diaries did something to me. Thinking about these Jockbull tasks definitely left a mark on my mindset. And the tasks themselves left a mark on my life because I think some of them are simply going to stick with me. 

But they were starting to drag and i noticed myself getting more and more exhausted with..well..everything as the cut came to its end. So it had to come to a close as all good things must

Set A

 Of the tasks that are gonna stick with me here I definitely think elements of the competition task are gonna have a big impact. It was perhaps overenthusiastic to demand weekly competition from other people. But I have noticed my approach to things the longer I've held this task in my mind is a lot more geared towards winning and just enjoying competition in general. It’s still not fully realized yet though. There is more I can do to embody that jock mentality of victory at any cost. Maybe i should delve into some specific self programming so that i take it beyond just video games

The other task I think is going to stick is Baki. I just didn’t anticipate how fucking fun it would be and how much it aligns so well with my particular kink ecosystem. But moreover, I think deliberately pursuing baki rather than just mindlessly consuming it has opened me up for more media exploration, and exploration of the sort that will help me see the archetypes in more forms of art. That definitely had an impact on my vibes sets too. And in the time since then I've opened up to exploring shows like Letterkenny which has a whiff of jockbroness to it.

Set B

I feel like Set B was mostly more geared towards accomplishing a specific goal for the cut. And now that it’s accomplished and thensome I can thank it and file most of it away. Maybe bring some of it back around when I do a cut in future. One thing that will definitely be sticking is the Personal Training element. Keeping this task in my mind has really opened up the possibilities. Especially as I’ve talked it through with Abg and others more thoroughly. I want to keep synthesizing my loves and my passions. I moved here to NZ specifically because I wanted to combine my interests into something niche and eclectic but that could still serve me. And the same goes for Personal training. At first I thought I'd be stuck just working in a gym and I was fine with that. But I want more. I want to be able to take this knowledge, this business, and combine it with the different brilliant works I've already put so much work into. The abyss, the archetypes. I wanna do online training and help you all actually physically attain these goals and help you make a transformation Even more astonishing than my own. Combining Personal training and the hypnotic structures I've created. And I'd love to be able to make something steady and sustainable out of it so I can get my own space and grow even more while finishing my degree here. I know it’s lofty. But I've always put in the work and this is no exception. We’ll see how things go once I've got the quals.

Set C

I truly wish that the meditation task was the one I was gonna keep around. Set C however really illustrated how precarious setting too many things in stone can be. Daily routines, a biweekly creative work schedule, weekly fast days. It was a lot. Things eventually had to give and meditation was one of them. Now that I'm trying to gain some muscle mass, fasting days are actively counter productive. And being on commission mode means that a lot of my creative bandwidth is taken up by those. I will however be maintaining the daily routine. It’s not perfect. It never will be. And it sure as hell isn’t for everyone. But I am very much an abyssal creature of habit and structured chaos. And the creation of a daily routine for skincare, supplements, Breakfast. It all makes me feel a lot better and has 100% elevated my aesthetics. Not to mention really entwining himbo as something I relate with and aspire to more and more. For most of JBS i was also using a pretty strict time table for a bunch of summer related things.

But I've decided to retire it because the longer it went on, the more tired and numb I grew and the lower my success rate with any given day’s tasks were. But it was incredibly successful at the start of summer and allowed me to get a lot done and set a great momentum for the rest of it. My libido never really “went away” during the cut like sometimes happens to bodybuilders, but it defo got attenuated or at least shifted. But holy fuck now that i’m back on carbs you can bet that i’ll be doing task 3 almost unthinkingly

All in all, I really enjoyed this experiment and I’d love to try it again in a different form. Maybe with a wider sample of bros who might also benefit from the structure and accountability. In a way the dudes I generated these with stopped being the main form of accountability for me, and you all reading the blogposts and listening to the Voice logs kept me going instead. So thanks so much. Back to regularly scheduled programming

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Final Week Set C (1/1/24-7/1/24)

Model used is Onome Egger

1.

Part of the reason I am discontinuing this project is because a lot of the tasks just aren’t relevant to me anymore. This is one of them.  Overall I feel more balanced without fast days. With them and while i was cutting more generally it was a wider swathe of feelings. Higher highs but also lower more exhausted states where I was running on fumes. Dieting and restricted eating is something a lot of people struggle with. There’s a cultural emphasis on it. Lots of people hawk it as a cureall and grift tons of fucking money from it. I don’t think this is that. I had a plan. I stuck to it. I achieved the goal. I ended it. When i need it again i will pick it up and maintain it in as healthy a way as possible.

2. 

I could have really used this this week. But one thing about meditative practice that folks don’t really tell you is that it is a Prophylactic. It is not a cure and a balm. It builds your defenses and strengthens your mindset for hardship and stress. But when that stress manages to penetrate you aren’t always capable of mustering up the headspace for meditation. Meditation is prevention so you don’t get to that point. And sometimes that point comes before your immunity is built. So you’ve gotta start building again.

3.

Generally unhorny week. New years malaise and all. Half considered redownloading Grindr but good god, i’m not that desperate. 

4.

Does it occur to me that I could have probably put out a lot more creative works if i didn’t lower my writing battery with all these diary entries? Of course not why would you ever suggest such a silly thing…

5.

I think the skincare routine is 100% showing changes in my face and I’m loving it I’ll go more in depth about this in next weeks retrospective.

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Final Week Set B (1/1/24-7/1/24)

Model Used is Oliver Forslin

The bulk of this set was a total wash ngl

1.

Started on a totally new training regiment. A modified Prebuilt PPL from Jeff Nippard (registered Shortstack big titty science bro). So im usually more honed in on that and I want to give myself as good a chance as possible with the new movements. That unfortunately doesn’t mean freeballing it.

2.

Ideally i’d like to work at my own gym once this is all over. Maybe get some of the richer high schoolers with Mommy’s money to hire me out so they stop training like morons. But it came to my attention that they already hired on 2 new trainers out of nowhere that i’d never seen before. So who knows. The alternative course would be applying at my University rec center now that it’s finally reopened. It would mean a massive readjustment of my schedule and soo much stress having to come in on days i don’t even have school. But it would mean a bit of extra security in income since the school would pay out of the Student’s rec center registrations. Plus, there are a fair few studs on campus. Not many since it's a research university in the middle of a city, but there are some. I suppose the final option that might end up blowing up in my face is leveraging the 4 years of hard community building work i've done and going into Online coaching. Combine the hypno spin with an actual plan to help dudes transform. I think that's pretty reasonable.

3.

Got a single one of these in on probably the worst day to get it in on. No sleep. Minor fever. House bullshit and an infinite amount of fucking stress leading on to the rest of the week. And then the next day realizing that 25 mins straight of decently high resistance cycling isn’t great for my fucking knees. Sighhhh. The relationship with cardio is so precarious.

4.

Same justification as number 1. This Nippard programme has Dropsets integrated intp some of the exercises and I want to stick to it fairly closely. It’s not bad, but the stimulus to fatigue feels so weird. I don’t get crazy pumps from it which is a bummer cause i’m FINALLY back on carbs and could swell tf up. But this workout tuckers me out and leaves me sore the next few days. Which doesn’t normally happen unless its for novel movements. Interesting state of things Mr Nippard. I shall keep at it for now but i feel like i got a better stimulus with my own designed workout.

5.

Speaking of being back on carbs. The first couple weeks of shifting from a heavy cut to maintainence again (roughly. I imagine i’m still in a slight deficit), is that your body retains more water again because of the new replenished thirsty carb stores. This means I look fairly soft, fairly round. Especially in my cheeks. SOooooo fewer pics taken because i would like to not take psychic damage.

[avissapiens]

Some Himbo goodness from Jockout, my beloved. Throw him some money for commissions if you don't feel like waiting an indeterminate period of time for mine to reopen.

Himbo Muscle Freak - New File and New Soundcloud Account!

Hey all! First file back in a while.

This is the first commission I've ever done, and honestly the clue to what it's about is in the name… this is a file meant to make the listener more of a muscle-obsessed, show-off, s3xua11y driven himbo. It leans more into the actual muscle side than other himbo fare because the commissioner was prepping for a bodybuilding competition, but it should be enjoyable for any fellow himbo/hypnosis fetishists out there.

The audio of this one is a little scuffed because I recorded it on a temporary setup, so apologies for that in advance.

(Also, should note that this file is INCREDIBLY influenced by my own, many hundreds of times, listening to Avis Sapiens' muscle and himbo hypnosis. You can find him on Youtube and Tumblr at Avis Sapiens, and I recommend him if you enjoy this kinda content. 🙇)

If you're interested in a commission of your own, you can reach out to me on Tumblr here or on Discord at the username "Jockout". (Formerly Jockout#0819.)

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Final Week Set A (1/1/24-7/1/24)

Model Used is Tsonghan Wu

Here we are bros. I decided to end it early since I accidentally started the Jockbull summer in like the last month of Spring. So we’ll call this a season. 8 weeks and then onto the next. Additionally, interest largely seem’s to have waned and I wanna focus on giving some more stuff that’ll keep your attention rather than flooding your dashboards lol. These will be my last set of diary write ups. And then next week I'll have a retrospective detailing how things went and what I'm likely to keep

1.

I’ll be straight and real with yall. This was probably the worst week yet lol. Mentally i just wasn’t here. Lots of stress and strain. I do have a new workout structure, that includes AMRAP pushups near the end. Diamond push ups that really tire you out by the time you finish all your other training, but its not quite the same or for the same purpose. I tried to sort my time table so that Pushups were combined with the times i wanted to work on my PT cert early in the day. But that has yet to really work out.

2.

Keeping with the smite idea from previous weeks I managed to go on a 3 game win-streak. Total ez streak, possibly because my Elo was reset from not playing in such a long time. But dunking is still dunking and you still get the mental endorphin rush from winning. Only thing that broke the streak is that my Duos partner (yet another Muscle brained Gym bro that i’ve known for years) had to dip mid game. Tragic.

3.

Since this is the last week and its even I didn’t throw anything out. But I am going to have one final push to get some of the last chunks of shitty oversized clothing out of my life. Gonna make an attempt to throw out 4 more pieces of clothing and then the lot will be going to the charity/thrift shop.

4.

I’m good enough at this. I’ll use it more often. And I am 100% going to do that Bro voice file at some point in the future.

5.

There is an episode of Baki where the main character is lying in bed with his girlfriend horny as hell, and they are about to fuck when Baki’s father, Strongest man in the world Yujiro, appears out of the darkness to cheerlead them fucking. And more than cheerlead. This man encourages the most relentless rauchy unending stream of fucking bitches from his 18 year old son. Literally morning noon and night boning down. It sounded like a passage from Alpha breeder. Unbelievable. Why doesn’t this show have more fanart?

6.

A kind of gymbro failure story which makes me sound like a bit of a douche but i also don’t care.

I’m pretty regularly one of the bigger guys in the gym at any given time. Not always. And that’s not really a compliment to me and more of a dunk on the kind of establishment that my gym is. So this one dude has kinda latched onto me as his story for hope cause of all the weight i lost and how much i’ve grown. I think he’s convinced i’m going to give him the secret formula and not just tell him “Just keep training and eat properly.” He came up to me this week and asked if he could come and workout with me another day. Gave some spiel about needing someone to motivate him and keep him going. He’s another immigrant too. So I commiserate with that and I told him sure, even tho i don’t particularly like training push with other people. But then on the day he was supposed to come at the time we had set up he just…didn’t show. Which makes sense. I tried telling him, motivation should be internal. Consistency comes from discipline. But he didn’t want to hear it. And so the outcome made sense. I wasn’t super broken up about it, Just meant i got to train push on my own in peace and quiet.

[avissapiens]

Jockbull Summer Week 7 Set C(25/12/23 -31/12/23)

Model used is Onome Egger

1.

This one’s going to have to change because we’re switching from the cut diet to a Maintenance phase. I’m not super inclined to have super excessive days where i eat a bunch of food. So we’ll have to find something different to pursue.

2.

No meditation unfortunately. Just wasn’t the right kind of week for it. The week after christmas always feels like a strange malaise. One long sunday. So nothing gets done and you can’t focus. Its like looking at the world through smudged glass.

3.

Done and Done. 

4.

The next creative work will either be an abstraction or a series of non-fiction creative pieces for the archetypes. It's just a little rough juggling as many creative projects as I am at the moment.

5.

I’ve totally revamped my time table of things for january. I was starting to feel a little numb to them so things needed some rearrangement. Added some interesting little spaces for exploration and development