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god my brain is so hardwired to feel ashamed after any social interaction that even after there's objectively nothing to feel ashamed over i still feel terrible

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I wanna talk to you but there’s a knife in my throat.

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the avoidants™ literally OWNED the concept of ghosting before the fuckbois gentrified it

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avpd culture is

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how to tell if this is avpd, quiet bpd, or me being dramatic and lonely and embarrassing and

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saw a reply on a post by an avpd blog that said something like “those people aren’t real good friends!! you should find people who-“ and i was like i’m gonna cut you off right there, not being able to do that is like my central character aspect… that’s the name of the disorder

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avpd imposter syndrome where i have more than one or two friends so i must be faking!!! … but every friend i’ve had i’ve known for years because i struggle with making new friends. and most of my friendships formed because someone decided to befriend me and then were there when i came back from disappearing. each time.

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Here’s some positivity for systems with AvPD!

AvPD (avoidant personality disorder) is a serious mental illness that can have negative affects on many systems. However, the plural folks living with this disorder still deserve to live happy, healthy lives to the best of their ability! This post is for the systems out there with AvPD!

🐠 Shoutout to systems whose severe social anxiety led them to develop AvPD!

🌊 Shoutout to systems who struggle to maintain relationships or form bonds and positive connections with people in their lives!

🦀 Shoutout to systems whose trauma history led them to form both a dissociative disorder and AvPD!

🐬 Shoutout to systems who don’t want many friends, and who feel the most safe, happy, and comfortable when they are by themselves!

🏝 Shoutout to systems who have been diagnosed with AvPD professionally, to those who have self-diagnosed, and to those who are questioning if they have this disorder!

🐟 Shoutout to systems who are in treatment for their AvPD, and are trying to learn how to cope with their symptoms in positive ways!

🐚 Shoutout to systems who do want friends, who feel lonely all the time, and whose AvPD causes them lots of pain and distress!

🐡 Shoutout to systems whose AvPD has caused them to feel hopeless, listless, sullen, and dismayed! We promise there’s still hope for you yet!

🐳 Shoutout to individual headmates who are AvPD symptom holders, or who struggle with their disorder more than the rest of their system!

🏝 Shoutout to systems with dissociative disorders whose AvPD has caused them to split new alters!

🦈 Shoutout to nontraumagenic systems who consciously created their system as a way to cope with their disorder!

It can be so hard existing in society with a disorder that makes it difficult to form interpersonal relationships or have positive interactions with other people. However, for folks with AvPD out there, we want you to know that there’s hope in your future, and potential for peace, joy, and happiness!

Please treat yourself and your system with kindness, and try to not judge yourself too hard by societal standards! Having a disorder that affects how you form and maintain relationships does not make you unwanted, unloveable, or unaccepted by the people in your life or the plural community. Whether or not you’re too scared, nervous, or shy to interact, please know we care about you, we’re rooting for you, and we wish you the very best in all that you do!

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reaching peak avoidant by avoiding the account i made to vent about my avoidant personality disorder because i think other avoidant people looking in the avoidant personality disorder tag will think that i’m weird. this is great. i’m going to get a good grade in avpd, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve

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how empathy is described and framed is so biased as well lol. like. i have avpd, and part of the long version of the avpd diagnostic criteria is "highly empathetic, BUT with perception of others' emotions skewed towards the negative" - so, you know, arguably pretty shit at empathy, actually, if we don't understand what other people are feeling.

but from personal experience and what i've heard from other people with the disorder, this isn't even necessarily... true? like, people with AvPD have this reputation as ~quiet, sympathetic, non-problem patients~ so of course we ~must~ have high empathy... but our whole fucking thing is avoidance and detachment.

lots of pwAvPD emotionally withdraw and feel they *cannot* connect to others. lots of pwAvPD find they can't make sense of others' emotions among all the anxious *noise* in their head, so they give up even trying. lots of pwAvPD feel like they're a prey animal and every other person in the world is a predator. lots of pwAvPD like... get paranoid, get jealous, hold grudges, and stereotype people to determine who's "safe", and so on. we're not just helpless martyrs. we have "ugly" symptoms sometimes too.

i think, most of the time, what gets called "high empathy" in pwAvPD is just high sensitivity - to guilt, to shame, to fear, to despair. but because we're apparently "the good ones", it's "empathy" when we feel it, and "highly strung", "fragile ego", "mood swings", and so on when people with "problem disorders" experience the exact same thing.

and tbqh, what this probably comes down to is that our symptoms generally suppress our ability to express rage, while these so-called problem patients' symptoms enable them to. so psychiatry takes it upon itself to suppress it for them.

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*fucking towel burritos you*

get socialized idiot

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ⓘ This user needs a long break from everything.