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Why didn't they say it was gonna suck so bad?

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wow

Wowowowowow

Im doing better lol

Sorry I was so dramatic

Life's been hard and I've lost a lot but I've gained a lot too.

Love love

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Momma

Momma, where did you go?

10 years old I was at the gate

Frantic, enraged as you

Jumped in the back of that Impala

To run from the life you couldn’t stand

And chase the life you swore away

10 years old and I saw you looking like

An ad in a magazine

As you replaced your blood with

Methamphetamine

Momma, where did you go?

Chasing your shadow was the only thing

You ever taught me to do

Racing

Pacing along the lines that you snorted

You never seemed to have the time

And your crimes were tantamount to treason

All I ever wanted was a normal life

With a normal family, but for you

There was no rhyme or reason

Your life was seasoned

With doubt, guilt, and remorse

Trying to reach out to you was like trying

To speak in Morse

My voice turned hoarse

As I screamed into the void you left

Inside my heart

I’m here now, Momma.

In a sealed room I hear the IV go

Drip, drip

All the while the time goes by it’s like

Tick, tick

Nurses and doctors come and go

They put on a show, a performance

To try to convince us that these moments

These minutes

These seconds

These words we say to each other for comfort

Are not the last we’ll have together

As you lay there, gulping for air

Like a fish out of water

This is goodbye, Momma.

Now you sit pretty

Your carbon collected in a jar to make us feel you’re still with us

Is it wrong that I feel validation?

Is it wrong that I feel the need for sedation?

Have patience, the man in the chair is saying

How could I be patient when all there is inside is

Exasperation and desperation for my life’s current station?

Momma, you made this!

And now the fallout has come

And I can feel the iron curtains unfurl around my heart

All I got left is this art

Back to start

Momma

Wherever you are

I’ll meet you in the next life, try the whole thing again

Maybe you’ll find something worth living for

Maybe, just maybe

It’ll be different in the end.

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Back on my sadboi™️ bullshit

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What Do You Do

What do you do

When someone comes in your life?

Everything is fast and furious

Every molecule in your being

Vibrating

Pulsating

Illuminating

Anticipating what feels like a feeling

That you haven’t felt in years

But you aren’t entirely sure

The sagas of relationships come and gone

Leave thick scar tissue all over your

Heart

Heart

What do you do when you feel yourself

Losing heart?

When what felt so refreshing

And exciting

And new

Is suddenly ripped away?

Just when you thought a new chapter was to begin in your life

You’re back at square one, every molecule in your body

Aching

Grieving

Breaking apart

Your heart feeling like it’s on a one way trip to

Oblivion

Oblivion

What do you do when you feel your mind

Descend into the dark dankness of Hell itself?

When you feel like your mind produces venom

That your mind itself is weak to

The poison that tells you you’re not worth

Love

Compassion

Kindness

The voice, that toxic voice that tells you

Nothing will ever change

That life is forever going to be static

And you’ll die alone, in a quiet corner

Somewhere desolate and deserted.

What do you do?

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I'm really sad and scared today.

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Hehe tru.

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Fifty years from now, if you knocked on my door and told me that you needed me, I would still drop everything I had to help you. Fifty years from now, if you knocked on my door and told me you were ready to try again, I would be ready to try again. Fifty years from now, if you knocked on my door and told me that you loved me, I would love you back. I know that I will want you for the rest of my life, so I’m hoping that in fifty years from now when you knock on my door, it will only be because you misplaced the key.

I’ll want you forever. (via @sinfulessentials)

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HORIZON ZERO DAWN IS IN MY MACHINE RIGHT NOW AND I AM TOO PUMPED

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REBLOG IF YOU WANT ANONS.

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My grandma got this for me haha shes the only valentine i'll have for the rest of my life haha kill me please haha

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FUCK VALENTINE'S DAY.

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Ohhhh you got lit the fuck up.

Repeat after me: - Veganism is not affordable - Veganism is not cruelty free - Veganism is not the best choice for everyone

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hahaha same

pls doe

anyone wanna date me pls

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reblog if you need a hug right now

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rip vine pt. 2