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fuck this account

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these photos sent me into psychosis

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i want him to like me so bad

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im too addicted to chewing and spitting

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it's been so long since i thought i was pretty except now i think everyone else is rlly gross looking

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literally just been binging this past month and it SHOWS jesus why can't my coping mechanism be STARVING, it would b so productive 😐

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girl don't try me ill MAKE it serious

*trying to open up about my ed*

‘So do you just like not eat’

me: ‘obviously I eat’

‘Oh that’s good then, I’m glad it’s not serious’

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i didn't have a phone for a while, never realized how pathetic it could be to have to count your calories on a laptop. yikes

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why am i getting more and more of an appetite im honestly getting so disgusting and i know im gaining but part of my brain doesnt even care anymore but god i need it to i really need it to

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i ate three fucking pancakes today!!! fuck me!!!

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bodycheck! I've been on a 20hr fast, but my dad just made me eat two blueberry pancakes. i feel, fucking awful. goddamnit!

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i know who you want to be, and i know you won't get there unless you gain some fucking self control.

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me, randomly; "omg I'm so hot i don't even NEED to starve myself"

my side profile: hey where's ur jaw again?

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IVE NEVER THOUGHT ID COME TO A POINT IN MY LIFE WHERE INSTEAD OF LOOKING ON THE PRICES ON THE MENU I LOOK AT THE CALORIES

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i've been off and on. i wish I had self control and more commitment. I'd be happier if I wasn't too lazy to get there.

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4-19-21. 120 lbs ish. shame for motivation would be cool.