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So the Eris angsty fic is still in progress because I decided to write the backstory too so it’s taking a bit longer🥺

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Schedule

My next post is going to come in the next 2 days. If I have the time to write today then it’s coming out tomorrow if not then I will work on it tomorrow and post it the day after.

What is it?

A very angsty fic about Eris. Grab your tissues and follow me to hell. ❤️‍🔥

Princess series: I will finish it at some point but for now I’m not able to continue it. I kinda lost my interest and I know that after writing some fics I will be able to continue the series!

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if you’re ever up for it, would you ever write part 2 for Game Night Disaster? would love to see Rhys put Feyre in her place hahshefnznd

Game Night Disaster (part 2)

Rhysand x f!Reader

Part 1

Masterlist

Warnings; none

It’s been two days since the disastrous game night and even though Lucien left Velaris to attend some urgent matters the tension was still thick in the air. You noticed how your mate kept his distance from Feyre and how she would stare at him longingly whenever they were in the same room. You couldn’t help but feel bad for her, Rhysand is a sight for sore eyes and his protective personality could bring comfort even to the coldest person in the world. Losing him even as a friend is a tremendous loss for anyone, especially someone who went through everything that Feyre did. You couldn’t imagine how she must have felt when she was thrown into the world of magic and then when she was used by everyone to save them. Thick ropes of guilt captured your heart and tightened around it making it hard to breathe. Were you an awful being for keeping her closest friend away from her? Should you accept the piercing jealousy every time you see them together just so Feyre can have a support system? Confused and annoyed you didn’t pay attention to where you were going until your face smacked into a wall -not a wall- a hard muscled back and not just any back but your mate’s.

“Sorry” you said when you managed to steady yourself and glanced at Rhysand’s worried eyes.

“Are you okay love?” He asked and in an instant his hands captured your face, and his undivided attention was on you.

“Yeah, I’m fine well at least I think so… I’m just a bit confused” you admitted and offered him a small smile.

Rhys nodded and grabbed your hand leading you into the room you shared whenever you stayed at the house of wind.

“Tell me what bothers you” he said softly.

“Feyre…” you replied and avoided his eyes.

“What did she do?” He growled clearly annoyed.

“Nothing I just feel like shit for keeping you away from her. After everything she’s been through it’s not fair to lose a friend like that” you admitted.

Rhysand cursed under his breath “I can’t believe how thoughtful you are after everything you went through”

“What I went through?” You scoffed and continued “Do you forget what you and Feyre went through under the mountain?”

“I would never forget but watching Feyre sitting on your mate and spending most of her time with him isn’t easy. We all know how strong the bond is and how much it can torture us. Cauldron you can die if your mate rejects you that’s how awful this bond can be” your mate explained, and you chewed on your lip.

You placed your hand on his upper arm and nodded. “The feelings I get when I watch you with Feyre can be unbearable indeed but that doesn’t mean you have to stop acknowledging her. Maybe if she keeps her hands to herself I will be okay”

Rhys sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. “I’ll see what I can do” he said and hugged you.

“If you talk to her please do it privately there’s no need to humiliate her in front of everyone” you said softly.

 “We don’t deserve you” he muttered and placed a soft kiss on your head.

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The day went by pretty fast and as you were all hanging out in the living room Rhys asked Feyre to follow him into his office earning a confused yet hopeful look from her before she eagerly followed him. You noticed Mor glancing worriedly at you and gesturing with a tilt of her head to follow them. You nodded and both of you got up.

“We’ll be back” she informed everyone and grabbed your hand pulling you hurriedly.

“It’s okay, it was my idea to clear things out” you whispered but Mor was determined to find out what happens behind the closed door of your mate’s study.

You both stood outside the wooden door being as quiet as you can; not wanting to be caught. You noticed Azriel’s shadows creeping up on you before engulfing you hiding you in their darkness as a protective shield. You couldn’t help but smile sweetly at the way your friend showed you his support even though one of his shadows slipped into the room no doubt ready to report back to the busybody about the conversation it heard.

“Feyre, I need to make some things clear” Rhysand’s voice filled the silence and pulled you out of your thoughts. Mor eyes filled with amusement and satisfaction.

So much for not humiliating her in front of everyone you thought and wondered how many times your friends made it their mission to find out what you and your mate discussed privately. 

“What do you mean?” Feyre replied, her voice filled with anxiety.

“You know that I consider you one of us, one of my most trusted friends…” Rhys continued “but things are a bit different in our world. You know about our mating bonds, but I don’t think you understand what they really mean to us. Mating bonds are primal instincts, we feel possessive over our mates. We would give our lives for them without a second thought. Our mates become the most important beings in our lives.”

Silence.

“What I’m trying to say is that no matter how innocent your intentions are, you can’t hug me and touch me like that. Never. And especially in front of my mate. I won’t hurt her like that, not after disappearing for so many years under the mountain and trapping her here.”

“Isn’t it unfair though? You don’t get to choose your partner. Maybe someone else is better for you” Feyre said, and you felt your blood boiling.

“I don’t know” Rhysand replied and your eyes watered. “I suppose you are right. But this isn’t the case for me and y/n. She is everything I wanted, and I really can’t imagine my life without her. I would choose her even if she wasn’t my mate… Cauldron I would even leave my mate for her”

Happy tears streamed down your face, your heart was beating so fast. Mor was wiping her own tears while she smiled at you.

“I see…” Feyre replied “I will keep my distance then. I’m sorry I didn’t want to cause any trouble I just misunderstood some things.”

“Thank you” Rhys responded.

“Oof I really hope y/n doesn’t hate me. I never intended to hurt her” Feyre said, and you smiled.

Rhys chuckled “trust me when I say that she doesn’t hate you on the contrary I think you two would be great friends if you got to know each other better”

“Well then I won’t waste any time I think I’m going to ask her if she wants to join me for a stroll in the city tomorrow” Feyre chirped, and you heard their footsteps approaching the door.

You and Mor looked at each other, your eyes wide and sprinted off while Azriel’s shadows shot in every direction hiding. When you reached the living room Azriel winked at you and Mor giggled.

“What’s going on?” Cassian asked

“Nothing” you, Mor and Azriel said simultaneously.

“OH COME ON NO ONE TELLS ME ANYTHING IN THIS HOUSE” Cassian shouted and crossed his arms dramatically.

“What happened?” Your mate’s dark voice came from behind you.

Mor snorted “Cassian is acting like a baby again”

Feyre stared at you her eyes filled with guilt; she started fidgeting clearly uncomfortable so you offered her a kind smile.

“Can I speak with you privately?” She asked you the uncertainty colouring her voice.

“Yes of course” you replied and followed her out of the room, squeezing Rhysand’s hand as you passed him.

“I’m really sorry” she begun when you were sure that no one can hear you anymore.

“It’s okay…” you replied and smiled at her once again.

“No it’s not. To be honest yes I didn’t understand the mating bond that well but it’s still not an excuse for the way I acted. I was selfish, not realizing the pain I was causing you”

“Now you know” you said and continued “how you act from now on is the only thing that matters. Let’s have a fresh start with no hard feelings”

“I would love that” now it was her turn to smile.

When you returned you sat on your mate’s lap and hugged him.

“Thank you” you whispered and kissed his neck.

“Anything for you love” he breathed and tightened his arms around you.

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Can someone recommend some really angsty fics about Eris x reader?

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Hi!!! Could you possibly do a fluffy Rhys x reader where reader isn’t really into pda but the second her and Rhys are behind closed doors she becomes physically affectionate with him? She will show affection publicly every now and then but likes to keep it private for the most part.

Touch starved

Rhysand x f!Reader

Masterlist

Warnings; none, maybe a bit suggestive?

Hello I hope you enjoy the way i wrote your request

Rhysand always enjoyed showing off, it didn’t matter where he was, he didn’t care about the occasion meaning that he would steal the spotlight even at someone’s wedding. So, when he found his mate, he wanted to show her off to the entire world. He also wanted to show everyone that she belonged to him. Imagine the shock when he realized that you don’t like to show your affection in public. He was devastated at first but after the first time you spent time in public for more than a few hours he realized how good it felt when you were alone, how more affectionate you became because you were touch starved. Like today… Nesta decided to celebrate her birthday at a tavern which was kind of odd, but everyone agreed since you wanted to make the day about her and only her. You were sitting next to Rhysand as you talked with Cassian and Mor. Your knee touching your mate’s under the table being the only action of love for the time being. Rhysand felt irritated and he could feel your desperation to touch him through the bond but being the stubborn female you were he knew that you wouldn’t budge. It had been more than 15 hours since the last time you two were alone and your body was literally shaking with need, your shy nature though dreaded the idea of touching your dashing mate.

“Y/n are you listening?” Cassian asked with a worried look.

Your eyes focused back on him, and you shook your head trying to put your thoughts in order. “Yeah… no… sorry I’m just tired” you sighed.

“Honey, you don’t look good maybe you should head home” Mor suggested softly and caressed your upper arm.

Rhys immediately turned to you with furrowed eyebrows “Are you okay love?”

“I think we should go home” you replied and glanced at Nesta who was having the time of her life with her sisters. “I think she will be okay”.

Rhys smiled and being the amazing mate that he is he stood up and grabbed your hand leading you outside while also saying quick goodbyes to his friends.

The moment you stepped into your shared house you sighed in delight and ran to your room to get changed.

“So are you really tired or you couldn’t resist me anymore?” Rhys smirked when he walked into the room making you wonder if he somehow planted the need in your head.

You changed into your nightgown and glanced at him. “Just tired” you shrugged and slipped in your bed.

Rhys stopped undressing and looked at you with a cocked eyebrow making you giggle.

“You’re such a bad liar” he gave you his feline smile and crawled on the bed.

“Come here” you opened your arms and legs for him to lie on top of you. When he made himself comfortable between your legs with his head resting on your chest you smiled and started caressing his hair with one hand and his bare back with the other.

He hummed and relaxed on top of you carefully though so he wouldn’t crush you.

After a while you lowered yourself and planted kisses on top of his head making him moan and tighten his arms around your middle. His scent clouded your senses, the scent of smoke and whiskey with just a small hint of something sweet made you inhale sharply while your hand trembled on top of his velvety skin.

“Feels so nice” he murmured, and you smiled.

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Morning came and you woke up alone stretching over his side of the bed trying to find some of his familiar warmth. After a few minutes you huffed because it wasn’t enough and left the room in search for your mate. You tiptoed into his office where he was seated on his big chair, legs spread wide as he read a book.

“There you are” you said softly and approached him. He gave you a sweet smile and you took a seat on his lap.

“Hi” you murmured and rubbed your cheek on the base of his neck touching your cold nose on his warm and soft skin earning a chuckle from him.

“Missed me?” He asked and started caressing your hair with one hand while the other held the book.

“You know I can’t stay away from you” you smiled and wrapped your hands around his torso. “Wish I could stay here all day”

You felt his chest moving sharply as he let out a small laugh “then that’s what we’ll do” he replied and got comfortable.

That’s how you spent your day, on his lap prepping small kisses on his neck and chest while he read his book with a sweet smile on his face

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By the mother. Now I need a part 2 of scattered vows where Azriel finds her alive while spying on autumn ugh my poor heart

Part 2 is out now! You were right about the spying thing

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You NEED to write part 2 of Scattered vows. I gobbled it up and cried uncontrollably. Your writing is unmatched in provoking such emotions through each story. You’re a talented writer so take your time…just not too long 😅💙

Part two is out! Thank you so much 🥹❤️

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Heyy ,

I absolutely love your writing and I want to ask when part 2 of Scattered Vows will come out? Part 1 made me cry so muchh

It’s out!

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Hey! Can I ask a few questions? Imma ask my every fav author these.

1. How long have you been Writing?

2. Are you planning to make a profession out of this or just doing it for fun?

3. Who or which character do you prefer to write more for?

4. What do you do when you're out of ideas?

5. Lastly, Will plz give an advice for the young writers out that.

I don’t even know when I received this. Uhm hi I disappeared for a while I hope you still want to know these things so.

1. I started writing when I was 11 years old, if you read any of these stories you will die of laughter and I will die of embarrassment. Then I started doing imagines verbally with my best friend and at some point I started writing so it’s been a while but I can’t pinpoint exactly when it happened.

2. I would love to publish a book but I don’t think I can create a world on my own.

3. Azriel, I would also like to write about Xaden (Fourth wing) and Kai (powerless)

4. I read my requests hoping I can find something

5. Read as many books as you can so you can create a writing style that suits you. Keep trying even if you think you failed.

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Hiya there, love your writing! I was wondering if you did taglists for your one-shot posts, like your series

I can do that now that I’m back here. I will make a post about the taglist

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heyy, how are you?? i just wanted to say, i love you and your writing. you are one of the best people i have come across and i love you. if you ever feel bad about your writing, just know that only you can put that story out there so NEVER GIVE UP!! hehe okay bye ily 🤭😘

Thank you so much! Your words mean the world to me! Ilysm🥹❤️❤️

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Scattered Vows (part 2)

Azriel x f!Reader

Warnings; angst, torture, death Part 1

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“Are you sure he is ready to start going on missions again?” Feyre asked Rhys her brows furrowed in worry.

“I don’t know… it’s been a year and he is way better than I thought he would be. I didn’t think he would survive it.” Rhys responded and rubbed his jaw.

Feyre sighed and nodded  “I hope we aren’t wrong”

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“Wow she did an excellent job” Eris gaped at your new face.

“I know” you exclaimed and stared at the foreign face who stared back at you in the mirror.

Eris straightened “Are you sure you want to do this? If you don’t want to its okay I can send someone else”

Were you sure? When Eris asked you to become a spy in the night court you thought that it was the most absurd request but after some more thought it made sense. You knew Velaris like the back of your hand, you grew up there. The guilt you felt when you accepted the offered mission was soon replaced with hatred. They betrayed you; they thought that Elain should replace you. Their tearful eyes when you and Azriel exchanged vows felt like snakes slithering your way now. How could they claim that they loved you when they were preparing your betrayal? How could they smile at you when they were covering your mate’s affair? I’m alone now. I always knew that Eris needed something from me when he so eagerly accepted me in his court and its only fair to give it to him now.

“I will do it. I have nothing to lose anymore” you stated, the words leaving a bitter taste in your mouth. Could you really do this? Look at the eyes of your family and then dig a knife in their backs? Look at the eyes of your mate while reporting back to the enemy? Could you watch him with Elain without breaking down?

The new appearance the witch of the Autumn court gave you brought you some comfort, they wouldn’t know that it is you the one who spies on them if they caught you.

When the sun set and the stars claimed the sky you gathered your things and left your new home.  

Velaris…. A sight for sore eyes. Your heart almost jumped out of your chest as you watched the busy streets of the city you once called your home.

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Azriel laid the flowers over the beautiful stone he had made when he was able to think clearly again. Every morning he visited his mate’s grave. Every morning he brought her flowers. Every night he came back with more flowers. It gave him comfort; it felt like he said good morning and goodnight every day like he used to do when she was alive. No matter how far away he was, every morning he would tag the golden thread of the bond and he would smile when he would feel her tagging it back more fiercely. Every night he would do it again and the smile would come back when she would respond.

He grabbed his hair and pulled, his shadows rushing to calm him down. He wanted to scream, to tear himself apart. “Stop” he shouted to his shadows when they tried to slither between his scarred hands and his hair. How odd, a few months ago his shadows would only hiss at him and try to strangle him for what he did to their favorite creature and now they are trying to stop him from hurting himself.

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You tried to keep your breathing as quiet as you could when you reached the small cottage you and your mate created. The sight in front of you making your heart skip a beat. There he was, kneeling in front of a grave, your grave. His hands pulling his hair and his shoulders shaking with every sob. You couldn’t move. No if you moved his shadows would sense it and there goes your mission. You closed your eyes wanting to erase the heart wrecking scene in front of you. Why? Why is he mourning you?

After a few hours of crying he flew away. He is probably going back to the house of wind. Back in his bed with her…  You thought and entered the small cottage. Everything was exactly how you left it. Broken dishes and glasses from the days you spent breaking down on the kitchen floor. He obviously came here since the few things he left the day he broke your heart were gone now. Only your things were around except the dress you wore the day you exchanged your vows. That and your favorite sweatshirt well his sweatshirt that you stole and wore whenever he was away on a mission. Maybe he gave it to Elain. You thought and shook your head. You didn’t want to imagine anything else, like him keeping it because it smelled like you now, because that thought would make you fail your mission. You knew that the guilt would eat you up if you allowed yourself to forgive them. So you left the cottage and found shelter in an abandoned house you used to play hide and seek when you were younger with your friends.

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The next few days were pretty easy, Azriel was gone on missions so you could spy easily. Every morning you would winnow to the roof of the house of wind and afterwards you would hide in the shadows of the house. You watched everyone living their life without a mention of your name. You wanted to scoff every time they talked about Azriel like he was the one betrayed. You could barely control yourself every time you heard Elain worrying about him and cursing your name for leaving him. Like it was you fault that he chose her over you. You imagined how many times he held her while you waited back home with two dishes in front of you, picking up the pieces of your heart and trying to glue them back together.

You watched as the dining table filled with food and everyone took a seat. You stayed hidden and planned to leave when they finished their dinner so you could write back to Eris about the plans to enhance the security of Velaris. Familiar sound of beating wings filled the house and you felt your blood freezing. He is back.

Your eyes scanned the corridor trying to find a way to leave unnoticed before the shadows who hid you betrayed you to their master. Your hands started shaking and breathing became a struggle as he landed inside. A small shadow crawled up his body and when it reached his ear his eyes scanned the room quickly before landing on the darkness engulfing you. A bile rose to your throat, and you swallowed the acid down. In a blink his hand was around your neck, your feet leaving the ground as he carried you in the room by the neck like a filthy ragdoll.

“What is that?” Rhys growled and rose from his seat.

“I don’t know but I will find out soon enough” Azriel said, and you shivered, how you missed his voice.

In an instant the world became black.

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You blinked and suddenly you were in a cell. Rhys probably put you to sleep before they carried you here. You knew that cell very well, the cell used by the infamous shadowsinger of the night court. The cell where he broke every enemy and stripped them of their dignity. You heard his heavy footsteps and wondered for a moment if the disguise was a wise decision. He appeared in front of you, his eyes examining every detail of your face like it was familiar. Its me my love. You thought but Elain’s image in your mind made you clench your fists and scrunch your nose in disgust. The chains that kept you on the chair rattled with your heavy breathing and Azriel studied your whole body before he shook his head and grabbed truth teller. He came over you and your screams filled the silence as he begun working.

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Drip, drip, drip

You stared as your blood made a puddle under your chair. One eye gone, broken ribs, broken fingers, broken hands and knees. A filthy, used, broken ragdoll but you never said a word, the ward around you never failed and Azriel was furious he couldn’t break you. You knew his patience was running thin, you knew what was coming, you knew him better than yourself. So when the door of the cell opened and he walked back inside with a feral look you smiled. It will be over soon.

“One last chance, tell me who sent you and I will let you go” he said through gritted teeth.

You kept your smile as you shook your head.

“Okay then” he said and punched you.

Broken nose you added to your mental list. He stared deep in your eyes as he grabbed a sword hanging from the wall next to him. A tear slipped from your eye as the sword entered your chest and exited through your back. You felt the wards failing and your face transforming back to your own. Azriel’s eyes widened, and he took a step back. More tears spilled and with a shaky breath you said “That’s a more fitting way to die than an arrow.”

Azriel’s body started shaking as your eye stared aimlessly at him and your chest stopped moving with your breathing.

“No this can’t be…. No no no” he screamed and grabbed your shoulders shaking you.  He ran outside and flew to the small cottage where he started digging. Nothing. Not even an empty coffin, nothing.

“No no no no” he kept repeating while hitting his head.

He flew back to the cell and was met with a tense Rhysand.

“Tell me this is some sick joke” Azriel whispered and the high lord shook his head as tears started streaming down his face.

“She was at the Autumn court. She asked Feyre to hide her and tell you she died.” Rhys admitted through a sob.

Azriel’s eyes narrowed.

“Leave” he shouted

“Az…”

“I said fucking leave” he screamed as his shadows rose like a wave and poured all over Velaris making the citizens stare at the sky in confusion.

He spent hours cuddling your cold broken body. Thinking every torture he made you endure, beating himself for not realizing it was you even though he felt something familiar when he touched you or studied your face.

Hatred. Anger. Rage. Betrayal.

That’s what he felt as he held you close and cried out loud. He knew that his cries could be heard all over Velaris. They betrayed him. They let him hurt you and then helped you run away. They lied to him. Feyre lied to him. If she hadn’t brought her sisters here you would be alive by his side. That’s what he had to do before he joined you. He had to burn their world.

He held you in his arms as he flew back to the cottage. He placed you on your bed and with a kiss on your forehead as a silent promise he left in a hurry. His eyes red and filled with tears, his hair disheveled and covered in your blood. Revenge written all over his face as he watched them all hanging out in Elain’s garden. Rhysand looking horrified as he watched Azriel descend from the sky. In an instant the shadowsinger was in the middle of them.

“Look what you made me become” he screamed “Its your fault” he pointed at Feyre.

The high lord stepped in front of her. Azriel shook his head. “This time none of you will be able to hurt me and my mate” he declared and shot to the sky while the house behind them burst into flames.

Azriel entered the cottage feeling a wave of relief and calmness. He lied next to you and closed his eyes before dropping a small candle he held in his hands on the ends of the curtains and as the flames licked the walls he kissed your cold and dry lips and smiled.

I'm back but after this I feel like you won't be happy with my return :') Credits to my best friend who helped me write it! She doesn't have a tumblr account to tag her though.

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Something is coming…

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Just stay safe and take care of yourself 💞

I will! Thank you so much for being so understanding ❤️

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I could never hate youu 💖💖 funnily enough, just reread princess last night while missing you 🥺

Omg thank you so much!!! I love you! To be honest I missed your comments so much. They always made me laugh and gave me the push to continue. While I wasn’t here I kept thinking about you! ❤️

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Hello everyone,

I know that it’s been a very long time since I posted. A lot of you might hate me for this and I’m so sorry.

I’ve always been a person who makes up stories in their head, I would zone out even if I was at a public place with friends and family and I would just make up stories with fictional characters etc. So I decided to start writing those stories, I thought this was a way for me to stop zoning out. I really tried my best, and when I had some serious family problems I stopped as most of you know. Then when everything got better I decided to pick up from where I left off. But as I wrote those stories I started zoning out way more often than before, I almost crashed my car twice before I deleted tumblr from my laptop and phone. I focused on my university, job, family and friends.

At this point I want to apologise for not letting you know before deleting the app. It was a horrible thing to do. I love all of you, your support made me feel good about myself again and I feel like I betrayed you.

Today I saw all the messages of love and worry and I started crying because I don’t deserve it after what I did.

I will start writing again, I promise I will finish the princess series even if no one is here to read it. It might take some time until I start writing again because I want to be okay mentally, but I promise to be more active starting next month.

Also I was planning to start writing fiction about characters of other series like Rina Kent’s legacy of gods etc so please let me know what you think.

If most of you hate me now and don’t want to see my work anymore I understand and I deserve it.

Love you all anyway ❤️