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[azzumei]

the fault of love | orter madl

— synopsis. orter doesn’t make mistakes, but what does that make you?

— pairing. revolution leader!orter x gov. spy!reader (gn)

— genre. angst

— warnings. major character death, description of death using a gun, mention of specific crimes (kidnapping, robbery, blackmail, etc.) none are explicitly described, lmk if i miss any

— word count. ~1.7k

— notes. i stayed up until 5am to finish this i’m so dead; i tried lowercase.. let’s see how i like it. this was fun to write ngl. i hope you enjoy <3

orter madl is a bad person. he was born to be. his entire life was a cycle of left hooks, knife throwing, and gunshots. from an early age he was bound by orders and loyalty. he was raised to lead, raised to be the top in the game. show no mercy to your enemies. be the best.

everything orter does is for the suffering innocents, his family, the organization. he has to do it, even if it goes against all morals. he can’t afford to make mistakes. they’ll hinder him and ruin everything he’s worked hard for. that’s why he shouldn’t get close to anyone. attachments and emotions weaken. they mess with logical judgment, and orter would rather die before letting his emotions make decisions.

yet orter couldn’t stop himself when he got to know you, the clumsy person who spilled coffee all over his suit. he hadn’t meant to, but it was like being a moth to a flame. he sought for you, and you invaded his thoughts at every waking moment. orter wanted nothing more than to see your face, to grasp your hand into his, and to press his adoration for you onto your lips.

and that in itself–that love–would be his downfall. your entrance into orter’s life sparked a long chain of events that brought complications onto the organization that never existed before. he should’ve seen it sooner. he could’ve ended it sooner. but that’s what emotions do. they blind. they’ve blinded him for far too long, and tonight, he’ll finally put an end to it.

hours into the night, orter arrives at the empty warehouse where you’re being kept. he wears a mask over his feelings as he passes by underlings who offer their respects to him. he’s ushered inside. orter spots your figure seated in the center of the wide space. a flurry of emotions surges through him, causing him to order everyone out despite their protests.

orter sighs, taking steps closer to you, becoming more aware of your current state. your hands and legs are tied down to the chair. bruises dot along your skin, and cuts bleed from your lips and forehead. the light in your eyes has gone dead. you stare into nothing.

it pains orter more than any beating he’s ever received. he wants nothing more than to untie you, find a med kit, and clean your wounds just as you always did for him. but he knows he can’t, so he has to tighten his fists, make his knuckles turn a blinding white to hold himself back from caring for you.

he takes the seat across from you, saying nothing despite the mess of sentences bouncing across his mind. you finally pick up your gaze, keeping quiet. no words are exchanged for what feels like hours.

orter’s mask is slipping, cracking ever so slightly as you catch glimpses of confusion, anger, sadness, and nothing all at once. you manage to not betray a single emotion.

orter caves, breaking the silence with a simple question. “why?”

you bite the tip of your tongue, deciding on an answer before you speak incorrectly. “because I had to.”

“had to-” orter cuts himself off with an inhale, rubbing a hand over his face as he abruptly stands. frustration sprouts across every vein in his body. he scoffs. “do you even know what you’ve done? do you know what you’ve cost me?!”

you glare, nose flaring, finally conceding an ounce of emotion. “people are dying because of you! it is my job to stop you.”

“you just don’t understand.”

“understand? understand what?!” you cry, voice ringing through the empty room. “what else is there to understand, orter?!”

orter flinches, unsettled by the abhorrent you carry towards him. it’s unlike you. no. that was never you. it was yet another lie you had fabricated. there’s no point in making you try to see his point of view. there was no way for you two to see eye to eye. it just couldn’t happen with your backgrounds. that doesn’t stop him from trying anyway.

“do they brainwash you over there?”

“don’t be ridiculous.” you scoff.

“the people i’ve killed,” he begins. “do you even know what they did?”

your teeth clench.

“kidnapping, blackmailing, murder, robbery, trafficking, and the list goes on and on and on. they are making people suffer, and it is my job to stop them.” orter echoes your words as a spit to your face. “i know you know it too. deep down you’ve always known.”

“you’re lying.” you deny ferociously.

“the government is enabling them by turning a blind eye. you’re enabling them.” orter declares, pointing a finger at you.

“stop fucking talking!” you scream, voice cracking. you let your head fall, chest rising and falling.

orter doesn’t know what to do. it’s eating him alive, tearing his heart layer by layer. is it possible to get you on his side? but who would trust you? can he still trust you after everything?

“just what are you waiting for?” you eye him, speaking in a quiet voice that’s laced in defeat after minutes of tense silence.

“what?”

“you know why you’re here, orter. finish the job. stop wasting time.” you tilt your head back, daring him.

“y/n-”

“finish the fucking job.” you repeat, seething through pauses, enunciating each word so orter can comprehend the message.

the provocation causes orter to pull his gun on you before his brain can think otherwise. it’s aimed square at your face, yet you remain unafraid, having already accepted your doom.

orter hesitates to pull the trigger. the weapon shakes in his hand no matter how much he tries to steady himself. he has to end this. he has to. orter needs to let your relationship end like this—in rage and hate. but he can’t bring himself too, because there’s a part of him that hopes.

“was any of it real?” he asks, gripping tightly on his gun.

you know exactly what he’s referring to. maybe that’s why you answer quickly with a confident “no.”

that should’ve been enough to make orter finally squeeze the trigger, to finally put a finish to your life, but he stalls longer, taking you in, memorizing each and every line on your face. he sees your beauty even in moments before demise. he takes a step forward, pressing the tip of his firearm to your head, using it as a chance to be near you.

the trigger tightens and tightens to the point where orter thinks he’ll follow through, but the sound of your voice makes it loosen. he drops his aim to his side.

“i can’t tell you that it was real,” you state, and orter begins to see your eyes glaze. each syllable of your following words break. “because if i did, then that would mean you would be right.”

you finally break down, your facade shatters. fat streaks of tears stream down the skin on your cheeks, and you lower your head, letting them fall onto the floor.

“if i told you it was real, then i would have to admit that my year with you has been the happiest i have ever been.” you continue between chokes. “and i can’t let it be real because that would mean that i hurt you again and again and again for no reason at all.”

orter hates your anguished cries. he would give everything to the heavens to make them stop. he can only tighten his strength onto his gun.

“i have to tell myself that it isn’t real… because doing so makes it easier to deny the fact that i love you. and i love you so much, orter.”

orter reacts in what seems to be record time, pressing his lips onto yours with a passion that could set the world on fire. every unspoken word of his is poured into your mind as you move in sync with him. for this one moment, you both forget who you are. the government’s top agent. the leader of a revolution. those are mere titles squashed beneath your foot as you kiss orter with all the love you have yet to return to him.

orter’s hand finds the familiar skin of your face, stained with blood. he commits that warmth into memory, and when you finally pull away to breathe, he loses himself in your irises, examining the details that he grew fond of.

neither of you dare to go for seconds because you knew that if you did, then you would both abandon everything, your responsibilities.

so orter straightens himself up, bringing his trembling hand to hover his weapon centimeters from your forehead.

“do you have any final words?” orter forces out, bringing himself back into the cold, ruthless leader he’s supposed to be.

you grin softly. tears still soak your cheeks. “i’m so sorry. i wish things didn’t have to be this way. maybe, just maybe if we get another chance, we can live the way we wanted, and i could keep bringing you those stupid cream puffs from that bakery we love.

you inhale. “thank you for bringing my heart joy, orter madl.”

a single wet tear drops from his eyes as a familiar string of words escape his throat. “i adore you infinitely, my love.”

orter can feel the next words that bubble on your tongue, and you break out into an even brighter, toothy smile. “is that so?”

he seals his eyes shut. the trigger pulls. a shot echoes through the warehouse. the chair falls back with a clatter. orter doesn’t dare to look. if he did, then there would be nothing stopping him from letting your blood soak the threads of his clothes, screaming your name so loudly that it could reach the heavens.

orter storms out of the warehouse, allowing his subordinates to take care of the rest. and when he's finally alone, orter breaks down. his cries ring through the night. his hands bleed from countless punches he slams onto the floor.

orter madl doesn’t make mistakes, but he made the mistake of loving you.

yet he would do it again.

every single time.

[azzumei]

BAGEL CMON BAGEL I NEED MY EX BACK

[azzumei]

OMGG HII I SAW YOUR MASHLE HCS I REALLY LOVED THEM IS IT POSSIBLE TO REQUEST FOR RYOH GRANTZ HCS??

unfortunately, i dont know what his character is yet:( ill try researching!

[azzumei]

Hey 👋, I'm not sure if your requests are open, if not you can ignore this, but ANYWAY. I seen your Mash hcs and I fell even more IN LOVE with him, so I was wondering if you could do some night routine/cuddling before bed with Mash (fem preferred but can be any gender if you want) thx and LOVE YOU LOTS ❤️❤️❤️

A/N: AHHH IM SO SORRY I DIDNT NOTICE THIS!!!! hs caught up to me oh my god!! anyways, sorry if this is such a short ramble:(

++ warnings: none, (physical touch maybe?)

++ genre: fluff, obviously

he munched on his creampuff that probably sat in his jacket for these 7, long hours in the academy. he sighed, wondering what else he could do. you, popped up in his mind. you were just reading away in your dorm, as your roommate was nowhere to be seen for the past week. mash, decides to barge into your room- you yelped, scolding him for startling you and breaking the door yet again. he apologized with that soft, yet steep voice. he yawned, placing back the probably about to fall apart door- and walking over to you, slumping on top of you. ''what are you doing?'' you murmured, your gaze wandering around his face. he mumbled something incoherent, wrapping his well-trained arms around your waist, closing his eyes. the sunset seeping out from the window. you took off his cloak, placing it beside the two of you. before adjusting your position to both of you being parallel or facing eachother. he hummed, his honey gaze looking over to your features, wondering how he could understand you more, how to be a better partner. how to keep you without any arguments. he truly loved you, so so much. and as the hours passed, the two of you slept in the warm room. soft snores filling it. his hold tight, but not enough to make you uncomfortable. his head buried into the crook of your neck, breathing in your scent.. this may happen again.

[azzumei]

CRIESSHBDAOQIBWBNSOBBING

RRAGHSFG VIVI HI!! CONGRATS ON THE MILESTONE <3

Can i req "Kisses that make them melt" w kazu and xiao and albedo please thank you

Congrats once again hehe

MELT MY WORLD AWAY !!

albedo, kazuha, xiao x gn! reader (separately) fluff, established relationship with reader, a bit suggestive (?)

word count: 685 <3 (220 words per character)

author’s note: i had insane kazuha brainrot… alyssa you need to pay for this ! but thank you mwah mwah kisses !!!

— ALBEDO

albedo wasn’t the one to feel the need of your lips on his everytime he wanted to, but the more he kissed you, the more he wanted to feel you again. you surely have a way to warm his cold synthetic body. he melts into euphoria everytime he feels you against his own, cold lips. the contrast in temperatures seemingly making it only better.

“i want more.” he uttered defiantly, as your lips pulled away. he immediately brought it back again by making his hand’s way into caressing your back gently and comfortingly.

the whole time albedo kisses you, it’s like every part of him was in blazing and scorching heat. although he tried to remain soft and gentle with you, his hands started to act otherwise, as it left a mark on how tight he held your waist.

he continued kissing you, not minding if he’d turn into a melted popsicle by the way you’re holding on so tightly, he loved it so. his hands were all around your body, it was on your hair, your waist, or your back. yours were situated on his long, blonde locks.

“sorry for the mark.”

his tone wasn’t the least bit guilty or apologetic, because he was not. in fact, he was pleased, he hummed a happy tune at how evident it was. that way, people would know you’re only his.

— KAZUHA

kazuha is a man who has his way with words, his tongue seemingly honey-like, articulating perfectly curated responses that make you weak on your knees. unintentionally or not. his cheerful and innocent façade is completely the opposite when you two are alone together.

as he needily attacked your lips as he enveloped it on a passionate kiss, you couldn't help but to feel weak at his advances, your shaking hands made their way into his nape, as you pulled him into a tight embrace. you felt his smile when you did so.

“everything about you makes me want you more. how do you do this to me?” he looked at you with hazy eyes, as he smiled lightly to you.

when kazuha pressed his lips on yours again, he felt his worries and problems melt away with your softness. his heart beating out of his chest as he seemingly couldn't get enough at how a small and simple action could get him so needy for you, and you only.

after he’s content with the amount of kisses he received from you. his heart started to melt like an ice cream on a hot summer day when you asked him for more. and the gentleman kazuha is, why should he deprive you of your needs?

— XIAO

xiao was an adeptus of great renown and honor, his mind is as strong as his physical attributes, and he doesn't give in to worldly desires that easily. except when he met you.

the longer the two of you started to date, the more xiao melted like chocolate into the world of your kisses. he was sure his past self would be cursing and yelling at how soft and comfortable he was now with someone like you, yet he couldn't care less. he was willing to give up anything if it means getting to touch your lips with his everyday.

it was the first time in his lifetime he felt like this. he didn’t know you would be so addicting to be with and his heart would be filled with so much joy and happiness each moment he spends time with you.

“xiao, not too hard.” you whispered as he accidentally bit your lip. he whispered back an apology and started to kiss you again, this time, it was softer than before, like you were this delicate feather that needed to be taken care of at all costs.

xiao peppered you with kisses until his lips could melt onto yours, he relished your sweet taste and how much warmth you emit right now. these moments are the ones he liked to indulge in from time to time. as your face being the only thing running on his mind all day long. 

[azzumei]

GIGGLES I LVOE HIM SO MUCHHAVWNQN cries

Hi there!! I saw you write for saiki k so I was wondering if you could write a Kusuo Saiki x reader oneshot where the reader designs some sort of mechanism? Equipment? (Idk what word to use) that helps him with his X-ray vision, and he can finally get a good look at the reader and thinks they're prettier than Teruhashi??

Sure anonymous! Thanks for requesting<33

"You got some soft lips and some pearly whites.I wanna touch them in the dead of night.Your smile ignites just like a candlelight.Then somehow, I know everything's alright"

•It was Saiki's birthday and you wanted to give him a present !! You spended DAYS thinking of what to give him until you finally thought of the perfect present.

•A mechanism to help him with his X-ray vision! Perfect. You started working on it immediately and it turned out pretty good.Finally it was Saiki's birthday and it was time to give it to him.

"Happy birthday Saiki !! Here is my present for you!!"

"You didn't really have to."

"But I wanted to give you something!"

"Alright alright."

"What is this?"

"Its a mechanism to help you with your x-ray vision ! I know that you only see through an object or living organism's skin and see their flesh.This mechanism can help you to take a good look of something."

"Oh wow.Let me try it."

"...."

"Saiki...?"

"....."

•HE WAS SO SHOCKED LIKE IS THAT REALLY HOW YOU LOOKED LIKE?? YOU MADE HIM SPEECHLESS..." "Saiki why are you red? Are you sick?"

•He straight up blurted out "Your so pretty." "EHHH?"

•He thanks you for making this for him ! It means alot.Now he can take a good look at you.It calms him down whenever he looks at your face but he doesn't know why.

•Your features are very beautiful.No wonder your one of the popular girls.And even if you have such a angelic face your kind inside out without pretending.Still if someone harasses you,you dont let that past and teach them a lesson.Saiki likes that about you,he admires how you can be nice but whenever someone messes with you,you wouldn't hesitate to teach them a lesson.

•Dont get me wrong, Teruhashi is beautiful too.But there is something about you that draws him in.He thinks that your more beautiful than Teruhashi and boy...Your so fluttered that he thinks your more beautiful than the most beautiful girl in the planet! "That means alot,thankyou Saiki"

"Im just telling the truth :)."

Author's note:Im not sure if this is really what your looking for but I did try my best.and I hope you enjoy it<33.

[azzumei]

ღ loving you more.

req: i just read your mash hcs and my honest reaction was IWJCIWNJENTICNE OH MY GOD IT'S SO ADORABLE I LOVE IT SO MUCH. can i request fluff HCs with Abyss or Abel please? IM READING THE MANGA AND THEYRE MY FAV DUO ATM!! ALSO THANKS SO MUCHHHH !!!

ღ a/n: AWWW thank youu! here you go, i did both cause i love them sm im gonna sob ღ characters: abyss and abel from mashle: magic and musclesღ warnings: none ღ genre: fluff content under the cut!

at first he tried to push you away cuz of his eye and all, but you stayed and that made him literally cry

WILL AND ALWAYS do whatever you want. wanna cuddle? sure, wanna eat something? okay, you want sweets? hes baking already.

because of his past, he desires to always be useful and hes pessimistic. but always do assure the baby that its okay if he doesnt do everything you want him to do and that he can do it if hes comfortable w it

loyal AS FUCLK DUDE HES SO CUTE IM GONAN CRY

so so loyal to the fact that he may not even compliment or stare into other people's eyes anymore

VERY shy bb

the first time you both met and you talked to him he literally starting stuttering and his face got a little red like ogmkfskjfghdsj

pls hug and assure him every chance you get

abt ur first kiss he prob almost banged his head into a wall, thinking how could he ever pull a wonderful person like you?

oh boy

at first he thought of you as a low life (i'm so sorry) but after the fight with mash, he started opening up to you more

acts of service is his love language argue with the wall

his nicknames for you are either ''doll'' or ''love'' on special occasions maybe he'll call you darling once or twice

make him salads with mini tomatoes

he isn't into that much pda but will walk very close to you

possessive and glares at anyone who tries to look at you in the wrong way or anything at all!!!!!!!!!

wants to keep you safe at all costs

you probably remind him of his mother

so so kind to you

the first time you both kissed his mind went blank but after a few minutes he looked at you with soft, endearing eyes

kiss him on the forehead n cheeks

play w his hair and he WILL doze off on you in seconds

overall, soft and possessive bb

[azzumei]

OKAY IDK IF YOUR REQUESTS ARE OPEN BUT CAN I ASK FOR SOME MORE MASH HCS PLS??

ღ cream puffs and the one you love.

ღ a/n: AAAAAAA im so sorry it took me so long to notice this req, i mightve took a secret hiatus shdhahd ANYWAY here u go and i did fluff, sorry if you wanted nsfw</3 ღ characters: mash from mashle: magic and muscles ღ warnings: none ღ genre: fluff content under the cut!

whenever you both have free time, mash would def ask to bake creampuffs and such with you.

loves napping and cuddling w u

now and then, whenever mash is doing push-ups he would ask you to sit on his back, this is now a must whenever he excercises

even though he cant use magic to impress you or whatever, he gives you tons of creampuffs and handmade gifts.

pls teach him how to open doors

lemon def gets jealous whenever the two of you hangout

whenever he's excited, proud or just won a battle with some rando- he would lift you up in his arms and spin you around.

his father was bawling his eyes out once mash introduced you to him

PLEASE lay on top of him, he falls asleep almost immediately

pda is okay but dont just suddenly kiss him in public

in the future, if you two are still together of course he would ask you to spend a simple life with him. tho he might be a divine visionary- an easy and comfortable life with you and his dad is more than enough to make him happy.

[azzumei]

giggling

say gm to the prettiest boy ! ✦

୨ ୧ pairings. dan heng, blade, jing yuan, luocha, welt yang, luka, caelus, gepard landau, arlan, sampo x gn!reader

୨ ୧ synopsis. waking up beside him and small hcs/scenarios because i got distracted?!?!

୨ ୧ warnings. none, but disclaimer for luka; i wrote this before i rly knew alot alot ab him or how he isn't in the game yet, pls no bully or question my luka writing, thank you a/n: i was supposed to post this on fathers day but happy (belated) fathers day :3

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）dan heng

oh so like, he sometimes just doesn't sleep.

just no sleep at all, and could wake up just fine, but that was before you came along

sometimes just stays up looking at your cute sleeping expression.

and if you ever smile while sleeping, ohh you bet he's gonna be giggling and blushing

always wakes up before you if he ends up sleeping (he does end up sleeping, just as long as you sleep on his chest)

loves, and i mean LOVES to be the big spoon, but doesn't mind being in your embrace instead

but when he does wake up before you, just waits for like 20, maybe 30 minutes more just to see your pretty eyes open to his face

all he could do was watch your chest heave, your eyes still closed, still, your head was on his chest, dozing off. and all his thoughts could say was how lucky he was, to be so close to someone, as close as this, so close, they trust him while they're vulnerable, but being able to be vulnerable around someone is a way to open up your heart, and he's so glad he did for you.

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）blade

always just ends up finding you stranded on the couch of your shared room, wearing one of his clothes, or atleast a blanket over you

but, he doesn't mind carrying you to your guys' bedroom, might slip a bit cuz he admires you while going there, just gets a tinsy bit distracted

just so lowkey in love with your warm embrace, hands wrapped around his middle, while he just watches you, watches you doze, and all he can do is fall in love a little more

when its time for him to go in the morning, his heart breaks a little, cuz ik he wants to stay with you for a bit longer, just to feel your head next to his neck

kinda scared you'll hear his loud heartbeat, and it goes slightly faster each minute, just knowing his beloved is asleep on him

just seeing your resting face, while your legs entangle with each other. just watching you cuddle closer to him. and he just wants to let this last forever, but he knows he has to go sooner or later. just brushing the hair off your face, just cupping your face so he can kiss both your cheeks, then your nose, all the way back to the clichè peck on the lips.

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）jing yuan

sometimes, he isn't early when he comes back home from work, sometimes he isn't even there, but when he is, he feels insanely bad, for always leaving you just waiting for him

but on the days he can come home to see your beautiful face, it's always in the nights, not always but, when he's that busy, it's usually him coming back home in night time.

yes. yes. big thumbs up. he missed you so much. especially misses your arms wrapped around him, and his head on yours, just the both of you

RAAA THIS MAN CANNOT COOK FOR HIS LIFE. so please, cook for him instead, he will buy you one of those 'kiss the chef' aprons.

i just know you, yanqing, and him, are so family like when together, but yanqing isn't there and stuff, or when he's in his own room sleeping after you've tucked him into bed, jing yuan likes to take you into his arms, without your little thirdwheel

but even if yanqing often thirdwheeled on you guys, it becomes more like a family spending time together, and it isn't like his presence is disliked, but he does and will say ew when you and jing yuan kiss

he never minded carrying you up to your shared master bedroom in his mansion, he never minded cuddling with you either. having himself in your embrace for even just a night is more than a blessing to him, and he can't help but turn a little red, "one day, i'll marry you, just have to find the perfect ring." holding you a bit closer than before. and maybe closer than he should be. but, he's sure you won't mind.

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）luocha

OOO he's such a romantic sweetheart with it.. smooth as hell. like i know bro tries his best to come home to you every night. and makes sure when he does come home from those long ahh expeditions, he comes home with souvenirs, and arms wide open ready to be welcomed by your usual hug and ready to embrace your warmth.

but you weren't.. there? oh! there you are! asleep on the couch, and asleep on usually what would be him, but now replaced by a pillow, and covered by a fluffy blanket he brought home from the xianzhou luofu.

yes yes yes. please. hug this man like he's gonna go away again tomorrow, his love language is physical touch, and maybe quality time. loves it when you're the one tying the tie on his suit before he goes out on those long expeditions again.

he probably breaks down sometimes mid-hug cuz thats just how much he missed you, and missed that warmth that always comforted him.

his eyes open up, open up to see the pretty face that always made him feel at home, the pretty face that always made sure he was okay after adventures, expeditions, his job, the pretty face that always asked if he needed anything, if he needed help, if he ever wanted you to tag along those deathly expeditions. the pretty face that he always ended up kissing at the end of the day, the pretty face he's learned to love so dearly.

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）welt yang

wow so, i think personally he'd be on the express almost 24/7 with you, and if not on the express, it's out on a trailblazing mission together with him, and the little devil trio (march 7th, dan heng, and trailblazer), just a family going out doing family things!

will always be by your side 24/7, not as busy as the others, and would take you out shopping too!

oh but he's just like dan heng, can go many nights without rest, its what he's been accustomed to for so long, for so long on those trailblazing mission that required him to be awake all night and day.

whenever you guys kiss, he sometimes smiles while you do. like you can feel it too, and it's just something he does.

probably holds both of your hands when you both smooch, cuz he just is a sweetheart like that.

just like luocha, a romantic sweetheart, if he isn't holding your hands, his hands are around your waist, probably 1 arm around your waist, and 1 cupping your cheek

while finding out what planet is next to set you and your trailblazing adventures on with him and the little devil trio, he likes to let you rest, head on his lap, while his jacket covers you from the chilly atmosphere, himeko watching from afar, just laughing at how corny you both are. but she's glad she was the one to help you both together.

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）luka

now i know we don't know much about him at the moment, but i like a challenge!!

he probably likes it way better if you cuddle him, probably loves physical touch a lot too.

but when it isn't you cuddling him, he'll definitely would be so willing to just take you in his arms, and playing with your hair till you fall asleep, probably falls asleep too

good, great, another great man with great hand placement, if that's a thing, cuz he knows where to put his arms, where to put his hand, where you're comfortable with him touching, and he remembers to just sooooothe you with words

i just know this man is good with words, especially when it comes to praise

just praise and praise and praise, no end, because that's how much he really loves you

he may not always be home, but he wants to take you out as much as he can, and as long as that's what you want too!

probably bumped into you so hard the first time you both met you fell into his arms

having someone as amazing as you in his arms, he felt like it wasn't even real. sometimes all he could think about was what if he never bumped into you? oh but.. who cares anymore, you both are together now. he can't help but say so unconciously out loud, 'i can't believe, how just a few months ago, i struggled to find the words to talk to you, and now you're in my arms, willingly this time.' slowly he fell asleep too, but he didn't know you were still half awake, but more than ready to sleep after what he just said <3

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）caelus

emotionally intelligent sweetheart, tries his best to make you as comfortable as possible, even in bed, even just while you both are cuddling and such

good hand placement, but is a bit shy when he does have his arms around your middle

prefers that you kind of face him, the feeling that you're in his arms, and your breath near his neck, makes him feel safe, and happy, that you're still there, in his arms.

whenever he was with you, when you were in his arms, it felt like his body could really just breathe

kinda just likes to nuzzle his head next to that little space near your neck

his hair is real fluffy, believe me that little raccoon doesn't take care of his hair as often, its just genetics

he always liked it like this, ever since he fell for you, he kind of dreamed about this, and now it's really a dream come true, just him in your arms, where no hell can disturb what heaven he's in right now. just you and him, no one else, and that's why he feels so comforted with you. it feels like.. he finally has a home.

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）gepard landau

another shy, yet romantic sweetheart, but he'd totally be new to all things romantic, so, guide him yk?

would also prefer if he cuddled you more than you cuddling him, probably cups your cheek while he does too, atleast while you sleep

kind of talks to you while you sleep, he knows that you could and could also not be sleeping, but in the end he never really cared, sometimes he just wanted to tell you things that he couldn't while you were awake

like how much he wishes to say i love you, but doesn't know how to express it, and at night he recalls words that he thinks could describe his love for you

sometimes it's just so indescribable, he just stops in the middle of saying stuff to look at you

really really likes it when you hold him close, or when he can hold you closer

'from just passing by each other in the street, to being in my bed. hah.' he whispered to himself, smiling at your sleeping face, cupping your cheek to kiss your temple. just admiring all your features, everything about you was so perfect, he still wonders how someone like him got to get with someone as amazing as you. the longer he looked, the more his eyes started to slowly close. until finally, he's asleep, while your legs intertwine, he holds your hand too, just so happy to be with you. what a fever dream.

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）arlan

wow, how did he get with you? is his main question, from just being a friend of a friend, to becoming this close, so close that your hands touch, your legs intertwine, that his lips could be on yours? just.. wow.

kind of touch-starved, i know it. got to know him through asta, no other answer. asta would be so supportive of you both too, probably the one who help set the both of you up!!

anyway, he's just so.. starstruck? you really went on dates with him, and held his hand, and kissed his cheek.. hahajsdsamkd

just goes absolutely haywire when he realizes that in the morning that you're right next to him, like oh okay.. WAIT???!?!?!?!

i just know he wakes up early, like almost too early, and just stares at you for an hour, maybe falls asleep again in that hour, but he does just look at how beautiful you look

lowkey overthinks, but he's just happy to be right there, next to you, just blushes at the thought, and blushes when he feels you on his chest

how did it go from not knowing your name, and you being on my chest. always and everyday thanks his friend, asta, for introducing you to him. doesn't know what would've happened to him by now if she didn't.. would he still be wondering what your name was? would he still be alone in bed, with nothing but thoughts he has to respond to otherwise he'd- well.. it's best to just not think about that, and instead enjoy your presence, he has to leave in a bit for work, he just is so much more thankful than he ever was than before.

❀ᴗ͈ ᴗ͈）sampo

big tease, like you can't look me in the eyes and tell me he isn't a tease about it

he'd be so big on physical touch though, like yeah he knows his way with words but c'mon.. he looks like he'd carry you while hugging you, like when people carry the other person when they hug into the air? yeah he'd do that

he has a habit of carrying you around your house, especially at night then plops you down on the bed just to like deep dive hug you, idk how to describe it but he dives into the bed and transitions that into cuddling, somehow

just caresses your hair alot, like while you rest your head on his chest or something, his hand is fidgeting with your hair

even though like uh, he may not show that you know, or atleast in a serious way, he really loves the way you look, the way you act, when he falls for someone, he FALLS, like believe me (pls)

sure he may be a little teasing shit with nicknames and stuff, and constantly making you flustered

like trust me as soon as he saw you bro fell, and fell harder, that's all i'm gonna say

oh and bro can cook, like cook amazingly good, for some reason, could be a bit ooc, for this, but i like to think he can cook really well, and he'd cook millions of kinds of food, just to impress you

just as he looks to his side, to see his little love dove asleep, turning off the tv, so that you could sleep in silence. he tried his best to always word out how much he loved you, but sometimes you just think he was just joking around. he always hopes deep down inside that, you knew he wasn't joking, that he meant every word, even the words that one day he'd put a ring on your finger, and he'd the only man to do so, because you'd be with him forever, he just.. can't help but fall asleep too, and with that last thought, he brushes the stray strands of hair off your face, to kiss both of your cheeks, and finally rest too.

you can tell im tired writing this

[azzumei]

STARTS FUCKING SOBBING HES SO CUTE AND BABYGIRL AND AND ANDWHQUEOFLWNW S SHEHEJAHAKAHAHAHHA WE NEED MORE SENKU CONTENT HERE.

WE NEED MORE OF SENKU TEXTS

U GOT IT

what it'd be like to text senku pt.2

support me? :)

[azzumei]

GYAAATTTTTT

Oh god.

[azzumei]

﹒♡﹒🍥﹢𝘤𝘶𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘥𝘰﹒✩﹒

char. Isagi Yoichi, Bachira Meguru, Nagi Seishiro, Sae Itoshi, Chigiri Hyoma, Rin Itoshi

genre. fluff

ISAGI YOICHI

ᰔ :: Their hand behind their nap when they get nervous/embarrassed

I would see Isagi doing this whenever you do something that flusters him. His ears and cheeks would get all red and he wouldn't know what to say, rubbing his neck, trying to look in your eyes. Fearing that it would make him more nervous.

ᰔ :: When they're so patient, and understanding with you

He waits until you're done with everything you need to do until he can spend time with you. He sits down next or near to you while he scrolls on his phone until you finish up any remaining work you have so you aren't stressed about it later.

BACHIRA MEGURU

ᰔ :: Holding hands

Bachira loves to hold hands with you whenever you both do anything together. He holds your hand with so much excitement that sometimes he holds it a bit too tight. It's one of his favorite things about your relationship together.

ᰔ :: Cheek kisses

Bachira gives you lots of kisses, but his favorite place to kiss is your cheek. He loves how they go red whenever he kisses them, making him giggle a little bit before he kisses them again.

NAGI SEISHIRO

ᰔ :: When he lies his head on your lap

He loves to do this, especially after a long tiring day. He doesn't care when he does it, as long as it doesn't bother you of course. His favorite part is when you play with his hair as you softly talk to him. Making him super sleepy.

ᰔ :: The way his hair looks in the morning

It doesn't really matter if it's the morning or after he just woke up from a long nap he took, but his hair is somehow always out of place after he wakes up. It's messy and sticking out of lots of different places, making you laugh when you look at it.

SAE ITOSHI

ᰔ :: Back hugs

This man loves to give you back hugs while he watches whatever you're doing at the moment. He'll sneak his arms around your figure and put his face into your neck which makes you a bit flustered, but you enjoy it regardless.

ᰔ :: Giving you head or shoulder massages

He would give you the best massages, he'll do it anytime, and the best he can. He hates seeing you in pain and will help you with anything you need. He doesn't mind giving you massages, he enjoys it as much as you do.

CHIGIRI HYOMA

ᰔ :: When he plays with your hair

He loves playing with your hair, he'll brush out all the tangles and will even put it in as many hairstyles as it can be put into. He loves playing with your hair when the both of you are waking up together and falling asleep in each other's arms.

ᰔ :: The way his eyes crinkle when he smiles

You find it the cutest thing ever. Whenever the both of you are playing around with each other, you get a chance to look up at him and see his beautiful smile and crinkled eyes. Making you feel in a daze.

RIN ITOSHI

ᰔ :: Feeding you his cooking and hoping that you'll like it

While you watch him cook, he'll pick up whatever he's making a put it into your mouth. He takes any opinion you say if it's too salty or too sweet. He loves to do this with you because of the faces you make when you finally taste it in the end.

ᰔ :: Random "I love you"s during the day

It doesn't matter what you were or are doing, he'll walk up to you and say that you were the best thing that happened to him, saying I love you, at the end of it. It always catches you off guard that sometimes you can't even respond, which makes him smile.

©2023 myihae do not repost, copy, translate, modify

[azzumei]

OH MY GOD????1?1?

| Bachira Meguru × [GN!Reader]

| Can you keep me close? Can you love me most?

| Angst, comfort, hurt/comfort, short, not proofread

| Summary: He drowns in his own thoughts, so you pull him out.

Hear the fallen and lonely, cry out

"Ne, [Name]-chan, have you ever thought about what would've happened if you never came to that abandoned field?"

You stopped mixing the batter and blinked at him. "No, not really. There's just no reason to, why?" You stared at him.

He was sitting on the couch, his arms resting on his knees, head down, and eyes blank.

"[Name]-chan, you were the only one who truly accepted me despite my weird antics. Despite me, being me." Oh how much it hurts you that he talks about himself in such a way.

"Meguru, you say that as if there's something wrong with you being you." You frowned and washed your hands, removing your apron.

"[Name]-chan, people don't like me. I'm not popular nor normal. Ofcourse you'd say I'm perfectly fine the way I am but it's really fine, [Name]-chan, I know I'm weird--" You hugged him.

You put his head on your chest and he is confused. "[Name]-chan?"

Will you fix me up?

"You idiot. You absolute idiot. Ofcourse I'd say you're perfectly fine the way you are, because you are!"

His eyes widened at your outburst.

"I don't want those other popular, normal, muscular guys, Meguru, I want you. I want you because you're you."

He peeks from your chest and tried to look at your face, but he can only see your neck, your head is hovering his as you hug him tight.

"Who cares if you're weird? I like you weird! I mean, not bad weird but good weird! Who cares if I get spooked sometimes when you say your monster is sitting next to me or smiling at me? Who cares if I get surprised when I wake up and I see your smiling face staring at me? Who cares if you're overly clingy? Who cares if you're overly lively? Who cares if you're always happy and relaxed? I love those about you! I love you because you're Bachira Meguru!"

A tear falls from his eye.

Will you show me hope?

You feel it and immediately panic, letting him go and thinking you've suffocated him or something. "Meguru! I'm so sor--"

You get cut off as he suddenly hugs you and you get pushed, laying on the couch with him hugging you, hiding his face on your neck so you don't see him crying.

You don't see it, but you feel it. His eyes cascading down from his eyes to your neck.

"What if you never went to that park? What if you never saw me? What if you never talked to me first? What if you never came back the next day? What if we don't meet? Then I'd be lonely all over again. I'd be the boy who gave up making friends and accepted his fate of being alone. Those thoughts always ring in my head. I can still hear the voices of the people talking shit about me, [Name]-chan, and I don't know what to do anymore." He cries on your neck.

You tear up and caress his hair, kissing his head.

"The faces of the people who look at me with those judging looks, their critism whenever I pass to my monster, the hatred in their eyes when I celebrate my victory, the 'whispering' voices of people calling me names, they all still live in my head. I can't get them out. So what if you never came to light me up again, [Name]?"

At the end of the day, we're helpless

"There will be no what ifs, Meguru, because I will always come. No matter what life we live in, no matter how far we are from each other, no matter what storn comes, no matter what comes between us, I will always be there. So just always wait for me at that park, okay? I'll come, no matter what. I will always come to light you up."

He raises himself up with both hands on the side of your head and leans down to kiss you.

The kiss is salty, but warm. It's messy, but careful. It's sloppy, but comforting. It's sticky because of the tears, but loving.

"[Name]-chan, please, help me. I don't want them in my head, anymore." He cries out to you again.

You push his bangs away from his eyes and kiss his forehead, cupping his cheeks. "There is no need to think about them anymore, because what matter is you're here, with me. Let's fill that head of your happy memories, alright?"

He nods, rubbing his eyes, and for a moment, you see him back in the day, when you were both children, crying because of his stupid teammates and ranting to you.

You smile and kiss him again, cherising this side of him, where he opens up and lets you help him.

"There is no reason to think I'll be lonely anymore, is there? Because you're here with me, [Name]-chan."

Can you keep me close? Can you love me most?

[azzumei]

ayo dan heng is canonically infertile btw

let's js pretend he isn't for the delusional people 🙏

[azzumei]

hihi!! since ur accepting requests, i was wondering if u could do a make-out session/ about to have sex with blade, except the reader’s part of the cloud knights and they are actually in a secret relationship 🤭🤭

sorry if this doesn’t make sense,,, u can ignore this if u want 🙏🙏 have a great day ahead!

please… i dont wanna get caught!

blade x gn! reader

hope u like it anon<3

cw nsfwish? suggestive but no sex. hot makeout session. masturbation mentioned. public making out but literally no one is around.

you were on night duty as a cloud knight on xianzhou luofu. you usually would meet up with your lover, blade at this time to avoid anyone questioning about your behavior and to avoid being spotted. you both have known each other since you were both in your younger years.

a sudden ding went out and it was your boyfriend texting you saying he is on his way to see you and how much he misses you and how his mission took so long.

after minutes of waiting, you saw a similar tall shadow that resembled your lover. you were about to greet him until he suddenly picked you up and pulled you into a kiss. how could you protest? its been 3 weeks since you both saw each other. oh how much you miss his touch and his scent. it drives you so crazy. it was terrible when you had to masturbate and he wasnt there to take care of you.

blade held you tightly on your waist ass as you were both kissing deeply. exploring the depths of his tongue while he nibbled on your lips. he then bit your plump cute lips hard enough to make you quietly moan. your lover smirks as he finds himself letting your body go and touch the ground and letting his hands explore all over you. brushing against your erogenous areas as he lightly grinds his body onto you, making you whimper a little louder. soon enough, you both pulled away, strings of saliva still on your mouth and you were trying to catch your breath. red eyes travelling all over your body as he undresses you in his eyes. imagining how you would feel underneath him and how loud you will be for him. his imagination was interrupted when you scolded him.

“b-blade! im on duty right now we can do this later in the morning. i dont wanna get caught.”

“come on… nobody is out here. why not have a little fun while on your duty my love? i know you miss my touch.”

he pulled you close to him, waiting for your answer as he was staring into your eyes and taking in your hot, flustered mess. how adorable are you.

“fine… but make it quick please. i just dont wanna get caught but… i need you right now. i promise ill be quiet.”

“and i promise ill make it harder for you to be quiet.”

“blade!”

[azzumei]

this shjould have atleast 1000 likes holy mother 💯

kiss the girl

summary ⎯ five times dan heng has thought about kissing you, and the one time he actually does.

tana's words ⎯ i've been recently listening to kiss the girl (ashley tisdale version) and its cute and made me think of dan heng. and idk if this follows canon story or not bc im not at xianzhou yet lolz.

also ik the title says 'kiss the girl' but that's only bc i was listening to the song. reader is gender neutral.

tags ⎯ friends to lovers. pining i think. hurt and comfort (at the end). flustered dan heng. fluff i think.

THE FIRST TIME dan heng thinks about kissing you, he immediately pushes away the thought. it was out of character; it was outrageous for him to think of a friend that way. it made him feel perverted for even thinking of the action.

it was a sunny day. you two (plus march and stelle) were in belobog at the time and you guys were witnessing bronya's speech. all of you agreed the speech was marvelous, and you all felt a sense of pride for bronya.

your eyes were sparkling in the sun as you watched bronya speak, and dan heng couldn't help but become enamoured by your face. he looked away from his paper to peek at your awed expression.

at that moment, dan heng thought you were the most beautiful girl he's ever seen. but he can't think that. he cannot. not only were you a fellow trailblazer, but you were also his friend. he couldn't risk one of his greatest friendships over something as minimal as this.

so, he pushed the thought out of his brain. he thought that it would be gone forever, but he was deeply wrong.

THE SECOND TIME dan heng wanted to kiss you occured while you two were gazing in the astral express. by this time, you two have left belobog, and are awaiting your next journey.

you chose to pass the time by 'star-watching,' a new term you created as a substitute to cloud watching. the activity is similar to cloud watching as you point out shapes that make beings.

dan heng told you that you were just pointing out constellations, you said that you wanted to pass on the technicalities.

so now, you two were star-watching. you kept pointing out absurd patterns, such as, "this one looks like svarog," (it did not) and, "this one looks like balls." of course, none of the constellations looked like either of the comparisons (dan heng was thinking about taking you to the eye doctor), but dan heng played along anyway. anything to make you smile.

at one point, the absurdities stopped, and you began pointing out real constellations. so many beautiful creations in the sky, yet the real beautiful thing was right next to him, continuously pointing out constellations.

you rested your head on your hand, mindlessly gazing out at the empty field of stars in front of you, "it's beautiful."

"yeah," dan heng mindlessly replies, not even realizing what he's just said, "it is," he finally says, looking at you.

maybe it's the light from the stars hitting your face, or maybe it was just your radiant beauty, but the urge to kiss you came up once again. subconsciously, dan heng knew the feeling would arise sooner or later. but that didn't mean he liked the feeling.

he wants to preserve your friendship so bad; but sometimes, the line drawn alongside friendship and love begins to thin. sometimes, the line gets so thin that dan heng fears that he'll trip and fall into you.

THE THIRD TIME dan heng wanted to kiss you was when you two were hanging out in his room. over the span of months, dan heng has learned to appreciate your being, and sometimes (he will never admit this) he feels calmer around you.

usually, dan heng didn't let other people be in his room, but it was different with you. for some reason, he liked it when you were in his room. sometimes, he finds himself wanting you to be in his room.

he was quietly sorting through his data bank while you were reading. it was such a calm and quiet moment; dan heng felt peace for once. there was music playing softly in the back, the room was silent, and the air was just right. it felt nice.

dan heng was too tuned into his data bank that he didn't hear footsteps coming up closer to him. it was only when he turned his head to check on you, that dan heng noticed you were right next to him.

you were right next to him, head nearly leaning on his shoulder, and you were so close to him. dan heng's heart was about to beat out of his chest, and he began to worry about the warmth that was rapidly spreading to his neck.

when you noticed dan heng's reaction, you thought you'd surprised him. you moved a little bit back, "sorry, did i scare you?"

"no, not at all. i was just a little startled," dan heng replied while rubbing the back of his (reddening) neck.

"that's like, the same thing as scared," you gave a low chuckle and moved closer to him once again, "you would know this."

"dunno," dan heng paused, "maybe i was too frightened to remember." when you laughed at that, dan heng swore he blushed all the way up to his ears.

"you are not funny," you gave him a slight shove that didn't really affect him. you leaned closer into the database, "what are you doing?"

you didn't realize how close you were to dan heng, your faces nearly touching. you were scrolling around his data bank while dan heng was trying to hide his rampant blush from your eyes.

dan heng stared at you while you browsed, taking in your close presence. you didn't seem nearly as tense as he did. you were relaxed, comfortable, you leaned into him. dan heng found himself staring longer than normal.

then, the thought, came in. the same recurring thought he'd been having for a long time: the thought to kiss you. he wanted to take you by the hands and pull you closer to him. he wanted to feel your palms and he wanted to feel you closer to him.

and this is the moment were dan heng realizes that he wants to be more than friends. dan heng realizes that he likes you; he wants you to be with him, he wants to feel you by his side. he wants endless star-watching nights; he wants to see you constantly.

and that is dangerous. not only would that ruin your friendship, but it would also endanger you. there's so much that would put you at risk.

"you should go back to your room," dan heng puts a gentle hand on your shoulder, causing you to look back up at him. your confused expression almost shatters dan heng's resilience, but he goes on, "it's late. go get some rest."

you keep the hand on your shoulder, "you too. don't stay up too late, okay?" the soft tone of your voice makes dan heng melt, and he almost wants to pull you back and ask you to stay. almost.

dan heng nods and you leave. he leans back on his desk and puts his head in his hands. what is he going to do?

THE FOURTH TIME dan heng wanted to kiss you was the night you arrived in the xianzhou. you (and march and stelle) were exploring the city and it's wonders while dan heng was treading carefully behind you.

you haven't had a full conversation with dan heng for days. you assume it was probably because you were snooping around his data bank, but he has never minded that before. you haven't got an actual chance to apologize either, because for some reason, dan heng is now constantly busy.

the four of you decided that you would split up to look around. march immediately went to stelle, so that left you with dan heng.

dan heng knew this would happen. he couldn't avoid you for too long anyway, even if he tried. he would always end up gravitating back towards you.

it pained him to not talk to you. he missed your voice, your jokes, your little touches. he missed your book talks, he missed the way you'd always be in his room, he even missed your nosiness.

you and dan heng were aimlessly strolling around the streets until you found a lively street parlor. they were selling food, and the aroma was absolutely divine. dan heng knew you immediately caught your mind on something when he saw your beaming face.

you still haven't found a correct time to apologize to dan heng, but that can wait for later. you just wanted to talk to him. "dan heng! we should try some," you beamed.

"okay. i'll wait over here," dan heng monotonously replied. your smile slightly faltered, dan heng thought the sight to be excruciating.

he couldn't still be mad at you, right? you had to apologize soon, because this silent is agonizing. you couldn't help the fact that you missed dan heng. you missed late nights and his warm touch. you missed his sarcasm and his gentle nature.

when you returned, you brought back one giant kebab that dan heng knew you couldn't finish. you'd probably have enough to share with the entire express.

when you took a bite of the kebab, you moaned with delight, and dan heng forgot how much he missed your smile. it all came rushing back to him, all the things he missed about you. you are right here, in his grasp, yet he still cannot have you.

after your first bite, you offered a second bite to dan heng. etiquette was all out of the picture when you were there.

originally, dan heng wasn't planning to eat. there were lots of problems at hand, and dan heng could not relax now. but you were an obstacle in his equation. how could he refuse you when you were practically bouncing on your toes, smiling, and looking at him with such mirthful eyes. saying no to you was like refusing a blessing from the aeons.

he took a bite out of the kebab, to which he nodded in delight. dan heng finished chewing with a delighted expression on his face, and your smile appeared once again. dan heng felt his lips creep up, and sooner or later, he was smiling as well.

he looked down at your happy expression, and he noticed that you had food on the corner of your mouth. dan heng usually scolded you for being slightly messy, but in this tender moment, there was no need.

dan hen grabbed a napkin from a nearby table and wiped the corner off your mouth off. he wiped the food off so tenderly that you would think he was tending to something delicate and fragile. and the gaze he gave you after. you nearly passed out. dan heng looked at you with such fondness and love that you gripped the kebab harder.

his mind hadn't registered what he just did before you quietly said, "thank you."

dan heng nearly malfunctioned. what he just did was criminal. it was a simple thing, however it was most criminal to dan heng. during that moment, all he could think of was your lips on his. the tenderness of his touch was his mind projecting how he would cup your face when you two kissed. all of it felt so wrong, but so right.

"no problem," dan heng blushed and avoided your eyes. "do you... do you think we should meet back up with march and stelle?"

"yeah," you looked down at the ground, slightly flustered, "yeah. let's go."

things were awkward. but at least things were okay. and that was all that mattered to you.

MARCH 7TH HAD speculations. you and dan heng were like a pair. you two were a dynamic duo, second to march and stelle, of course. you would always be seen with each other. when march "accidentally" stumbles into dan heng's room, you'd be somewhere in there as well.

so, why is it that whenever march barges into dan heng's room, you aren't there? why are you not with him? why is he "constantly busy" when he there is nothing to store in the data bank? something was up, and march was determined to find out what was happening.

"don't you think it's weird that we never see dan heng and yn together anymore?" march asked stelle while sipping on juice.

stelle huffed, "i mean, it's a little weird. but maybe they're both exhausted. we just got out of belobog and now we're facing more conflict in another world."

"yeah, but," march paused for dramatic effect, "i saw them together in dan heng's room a few days ago."

stelle furrowed her eyebrows, "are you stalking them or something?"

"what?!" march exclaimed, nearly jumping out of her seat. the scene caused stelle to laugh, "no. of course not, i can't believe you accused me of that!"

"so... you don't think it's weird that we never see them together anymore?" march continued.

"okay. i'll answer. it's a little weird. but whatever it is i'm sure they have a reasonable explanation for it," stelle said. "why are you asking about them anyway?"

"because," march drew out the syllables, "they're cute. i've been shipping them. and plus, dan heng hasn't really been acting like himself recently."

"yeah, but what are we gonna do about it? he hasn't really opened up to us about his problems... like... ever..." stelle trailed off, as if she tried to remember how many times dan heng has ever spoken about himself.

"don't worry stelle," march grinned, "i have a plan."

"i can't believe we fell for this," you grimaced in the closet you were stuck in.

march and stelle split up and told both of you that there was a group meeting in march's room. obviously, because the both of you thought there was something urgent, you rushed in there. you were prepared, only to be ambushed and pushed in a closet by march and stelle as a ploy to "make up."

alas, you knew you needed to talk things out sooner or later.

dan heng, on the other hand, was freaking out. you're close. you're so close that he can feel every time you exhale out of your nose. this closet had no space, so you were practically pressed up on dan heng.

the one thing he couldn't see though, was your face. dan heng wanted to see your face. he wanted to study you up close: he wanted to your skin with his hands, wanted to pull you closer so he can observe the way your mouth lifts when you smile. he wants so much, but he can have none of it.

"i think i can break us out," dan heng offered.

"do you think they're guarding the doors?" you chuckled. dan heng gave a small smile after hearing your laugh. it's ironic that you're laughing in this situation while dan heng's heart is about to burst.

"i think the both of us can take them," dan heng answered.

this is the most you two have ever spoken to each other in days. you missed his voice and you missed being so close to him. unconsciously, you leaned closer to dan heng. you would know his warmth from anywhere.

as you two try to find a good point to hit, your hands brush against dan heng's. the way his hand feels on top of yours just feels right. the way his touch is still so gentle; oh how badly you missed his touch against yours.

"i'm sorry!" dan heng quickly removed his hands from yours. he moved away from you as well. you wanted so badly to chase him: you wanted to come closer, to place your hands with his one more time.

but you didn't. you doubted the fact that dan heng wanted to be near you. with his recent actions, you were wondering if the two of you were still on good terms or not. you could mess everything up with one action; dan heng was the very last thing you wanted to lose.

when you two finally found a good breaking point, you both put all your body strength into prying the doors open. it took a few tries, but the doors finally opened. however, there were consequences. the closet fell down with the combined force of both your bodies shaking it.

before you two fell to the floor, dan heng grabbed your arm and pulled you underneath him in a quick motion. your heart raced against your chest; you were so close that you could feel dan heng's heartbeat as well. and to your surprise, his heart was beating just as fast as yours.

the closet fell on top of you, and dan heng shoved it off of the two of you in one motion. seeing him do that just made your heart beat faster, and you were sure that you were breathing faster as well.

dan heng looked down to check on you, but doing so brought him much closer to you. closer than he had ever been. if dan heng moved down a little bit more, he would be able to close the distance between your lips. the urge was tempting: he was on top of you, your faces were both so close to each other, and your breathing was rampant and quick.

"are you alright?" dan heng asked. his breath fanned your face and you stared right into his eyes.

"i should be asking you that," you breathlessly whispered. he was so close and you were about to burst.

"i'm alright," he leaned down closer, "don't worry about me."

you two were both in a daze when you found yourselves leaning closer to each other. dan heng cupped your face; he couldn't wait any longer. all resilience went out the window, because right here, right now, you were here. you were in front of him, looking as radiant as ever, and dan heng could close the distance right now.

his hands treaded carefully across your face, as if you were one-of-a-kind. finally, his hands rested against your cheeks, and he leaned closer. dan heng was so close to kissing you before a commotion entered the room.

"OH MY GOD!" march exclaimed before running out of the room.

you startled, and accidentally pushed dan heng off of you. you frantically apologized while dan heng brushed himself off and helped you up. you were shaking at what almost just happened. you almost kissed your best friend.

the distance between you and dan heng was wide. he made sure to stand exactly five feet away from you. his hands were crossed and he refused to look at you. dan heng was worried that if he got even the slightest glance at you, he wouldn't be able to stop himself from what would happen next.

you both quickly left the room with racing hearts, confused thoughts, and a realization that whatever just happened was a mistake.

WHENEVER DAN HENG NEEDS SOMEONE to help him with his wounds, you are always that person.

at first, it was for team bonding. before stelle came, you all would take turns patching wounds to build team trust. however, with dan heng, the only person that he'd let patch up his wounds was you. you used to tease him and tell him that he was like a dog in that way, but he always brushed it off.

you were always gentle with him; carefully touching up on cuts and bruises with bandages or rubbing alcohol. by no means were you any doctor, but you were tender and calm.

dan heng was wounded again. there was no reason for him to be wounded. the fight was tame; the enemies weren't extremely powerful or anything. but for some reason, dan heng surpassed the rest of the team with more cuts.

now, you two were in a small room together. luckily, it's more spacious than the closet, but it wasn't as big as dan heng's room. you and dan heng were both sitting on a table; you sitting criss-cross-applesauce while dan heng was sitting properly.

the both of you haven't talked ever since the closet incident. instead, you two have been sharing gazes, brushing past each other in halls, and staying five feet away from each other.

this was the closest you have been in a while.

you are focused on banadaging dan heng's cuts. your eyes are glued to his arms and torso; you refused to look up at dan heng. you couldn't look at him for two reasons: you were slightly mad at him for obtaining so many injuries and you still couldn't look him in the eye after the past situation.

dan heng sat in silence as you tended to him. he knew you were mad at him, and he felt awful. dan heng knew that he didn't need to sustain as many injuries has he had. the only reason why he had so many injuries was that he was trying to distract himself from his feelings. the closet situation had him questioning himself. given the chance, would he hold himself back or would he let his urges win?

"i'm done," you let go of his arms and started putting bandages away. dan heng didn't know you'd be done so quickly. he wanted to bask in your grace for a little longer. dan heng thought about pulling a stitch in order to get you to stay longer, but that just seemed weird.

dan heng knew he couldn't let you leave like this. there was too many unspoken words between you two; most of them, partially his.

during this, dan heng realized something. he realized that, even though you are still mad at him, you stayed with him. you didn't ask for march or stelle to help him, but you did it yourself. dan heng could be reading too much into it, but dan heng is tired. he's tired of longing for you.

and maybe, just maybe, if you'll stay when it gets difficult (like right now), maybe you'll stay when it gets hard as well.

dan heng decides to leave all resilience behind. for once, he doesn't calculate the consequences nor does he hold himself back.

you're about to slide off the table until dan heng pleads, "wait." he grabs your arm and holds you there with a gentle grip. you could slip out of it if you wanted to, but this may be the first actual conversation the two of you will have in a while.

dan heng takes your silence as an answer. "thank you," he says. he curses at himself at the simple response. it was anti-climatic. "i appreciate you," he adds on.

the compliment made you blush, even though it was very simplistic. you avoid looking at him and rather focus on tapping your fingers on the table. "no problem. it was nothing anyway."

you two remain silent for a few moments; you didn't want to leave in fear that this may be one of your few conversations. dan heng was trying to find the right words to say.

"i really do appreciate you. for being here. for always being here," he continues. dan heng realizes he sounds redundant, and he wants to slap his palm across his face. with you, he couldn't find the right words to convey his actions. saying, "i'm sorry," wasn't enough and saying, "i miss you," was too little.

"i told you. it's nothing. i'd do the same for everyone else," and you wanted to chide yourself for saying the last sentence. not true, because the only person who'd you really do all of this for was only dan heng.

"i think this is the longest conversation we've had in a while," you murmur to yourself.

"i know," dan heng replies. you jump back on the table, almost falling off. if it wasn't for dan heng catching you (yet again), you would've fell off. his touch sends electricity through your veins; his touch brings warmth to your body.

"hey! you need to watch your stitches," you automatically scolded him. your nagging was a normal occurrence, but this time, it felt rare. dan heng hasn't heard you nag at him for years (days), and he feels as though he can breath normally now.

"sorry," he pulls back. you're left shuffling closer to dan heng, not that you notice, due to your almost fall. you two were facing each other now; the distance was a lot closer than before.

you let out a small laugh at the situation. practically falling of a table was not a laughing matter, but you always found joy in those situations. sometimes, dan heng thought it was a bit strange, but he always valued your optimism.

"i'm sorry dan heng," you look back down on the table, "i didn't know going through your data bank would make you ignore me for days," you let out dry chuckle.

dan heng furrows his eyebrows in shock, "don't apologize. i don't mind you looking through the data bank."

you looked up after his reply, expression shadowed with confusion, "wait? really? so... why the radio silence? did i have something to do with it?"

"no! no, it wasn't you," dan heng quickly reassured. "it was me. i was the problem."

"don't have to tell me that," you smiled and bit the inside of your cheek to keep yourself from laughing.

"i'm gonna let that slide," dan heng smirked. it was nice, the way you two fell back into your normal routines once again. it was like all the tension that was previously there, simply dissipated.

"i missed you," you crossed your legs on the table, moving back to the criss-cross applesauce position.

"me too," dan heng replied. "i missed you a lot." he looked straight into your eyes.

you flustered underneath his gaze, "i probably missed you more. sometimes i dunno if i can survive without you," you joked. it was a joke, but occasionally, you find it to be true.

"for me, it's the other way around," dan heng mumbled beneath his breath. "i really missed you. and our late nights. and star-watching."

"you missed star-watching?" you astonishly asked. dan heng wished he could take a picture of your grin when he told you that he missed star-watching.

"i missed a lot of things," dan heng paused, "but i missed you the most."

"i'm sorry for pushing you away yn. i was just⎯ scared," time to rip off the band-aid, "when i'm around you, i just get so messed up. you're the only thing on my mind sometimes. everything about you just makes me⎯ breathless? speechless? you amaze me to the point where i can't even think of a word to describe you."

dan heng pauses and his heart is racing. you're looking at him as if you want him to continue, as if you want him to finally say what he wants. dan heng doesn't know that you want it too.

"yn," dan heng looks straight at you, "i have feelings for you. feelings that i think will overwhelm me at one point if i keep it all together. i never stop thinking about you, longing for you. i want you and i think i really want to kiss you," dan heng finishes. he fumbled on his words back there, because he doesn't think he wants to kiss you, he wants to.

"dan heng..." your face is hot. your body is hot. your breathing is fast-paced and you feel like you are about to be on fire. adrenaline rushes through your veins and you are sure you are not thinking straight.

you pull him in for a kiss, tugging him closer by his chin and kissing him passionately. you take that fire from your body and you pour it all into this kiss. dan heng is surprised at first, but then reciprocates your actions. while your hand is on his face, his hands slide to your hips, tugging you closer and holding you tighter.

you two kiss until you have to stop for air. when you breathe, the whole world feels like it's on fire as well.

"i feel the same. i can't stop thinking about you," you lean in for another kiss, "i miss you," another kiss, "i missed being with you," another, "i missed being close to you," another, this time a little longer, "but i really hope i don't miss this."

"don't worry," dan heng pauses, "you won't. i promise."

and after all of that, dan heng finally got to kiss the girl.

[azzumei]

now, this.. is what i call a jing yuan thirst !?1?1?1?1?

i swear bruh this man is so fine i want him so bad i can’t stop thinkin’ abt him wanting to put another youngling inside u like uhmmm look at me straight in the eyes n tell me he doesn’t have a breeding kink cuz uhm! i think he does!!

∗  ˖࣪ ໒꒱  ˚₊· let’s see here emm jing yuan x fem!reader JING YUAN HAS A BREEDING KINK! U CANT CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE mentions of pregnancy tooHuhu nsfw content ahead minors dni

note: a short thirst cuz this man has me in a chokehold fr i need him

“there you go, baby. yeah, that’s right you’re doing great..” jing yuan rammed his hips against yours, you have no idea how feral he was right now. but he held himself back, it would make him the happiest man alive for you to carry another baby, symbolizing your love for each other. could you even handle another? you didn’t know. the general was getting more and more desperate as the minutes passed, he wanted to grab your hips tighter and breed you until he was sure he did get you pregnant.. he wanted to breed you and fill you up with his load until he was absolutely sure you would carry another child.

“j—jing yuan..” your eyes rolled back to the back of your head, feeling his large hands on your wrists as he pinned them above your head, making it harder for you to move around. you squirmed under his touch, eyes weakly wandering around his muscular physique as you nearly foamed at the mouth seeing his hair untied, hair sticking to his face as he was sweating like crazy, jesus christ he was sexy.

“fuck this shit.. i want to see you carrying another heir, baby. watching your stomach grow bigger and bigger each day.. gets me all riled up. i wanna see it again. one more time f’me.”

your entire body throbbed with the immense heat present between you and your beloved general, jing yuan really couldn’t get enough of you. when you had your first child, he couldn’t stop his eyes from wandering down to your swollen stomach, and your soft breasts that carried milk for your baby, feeling his pants tighten as he stared. you drove him absolutely insane.

jing yuan sighed lowly into your ear, sending electricity down your spine as his lips now on yours kissing you ever so gently, his kisses filled with lust and heat you hadn’t felt in so long. you inhaled sharply, running your fingers through his light locks, tugging at it gently pulling him and his body closer to yours. he caressed your belly with his palm, a string of saliva following his lips, pulling away from your lips. “i want to put another baby inside you. let me fuck you and give you another one, dove. please.. please”

your stomach tensed at his words, body jolting at the feeling of his large hands on your sensitive breasts, rubbing them with the tip of his fingers. “give it another try, love. you can take my cock, can you? cmon pretty girl.. one more for me.”