bambiyu

[bambiyu]

bed.

you've been here all my life never failing to hold me gently in my sleep you're the safest place i never wanna leave so for the last time please accompany me

you've been here all my life watching me silently as i tossed and turned wiping my tears as you took me under to the fantasy of death and other worlds

my very dear precious loyal friend thank you for everything we'll never see each other again do the honors and be the place of my end

hold me like you always did be there for me and grant my wish i'll never ask anything more than this so be my loyal friend one more time

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error.

an echo in a room is all i'll ever be. always feels like something's wrong with me, so i criticize every nook and every cranny, each word laced with misery insecurity.

a wavering thought in my candlelight extinguishes with every breath of the night, but as the one i love holds me tight, i finally realize that all along i was right.

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that little girl.

i feel her eyes watching my every move, how they widen when things get scary, how they twinkle when we're under the moon, how they close when she can trust me.

one day i'll beckon her from the shadows; i'll offer her my hand and squeeze tight, i'll show her a world of light and love, because finally it'll be our happy life.

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nothing.

there's nothing left for me to say anymore the emptiness burns me to my core and there's nothing left for me to give you.

you can keep those pieces of me and more because there'll be nothing left but smoke when everything's said and done and through.

to you i'll fade out over the years at the shore of beautiful memories and meaningless lore, but to me i'll be the embodiment of my truth.

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i am.

think a thought a thousand times so maybe it'll go away. try not to think of it at all, it makes a home to stay.

what's left for me to think about but the same old things? i want to think my truth again and blossom it in spring.

i pray and wish upon silence and every grain in the sand. i leave that be and finally see that pain is not what i am.

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still heart.

i stayed longer than i ever should have, because i wanted to stay with you. you were the only one i had, but life shouldn't be just you.

i was able to bear with it all just for one more moment with you, but i was too greedy for more and now i'm left without you.

i wish i could tell all my reasons why, like why i ran away from you, but as my heart grows still, know it always truly loves you.

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hands.

put my hands where i can see them before they do that crime; bound my wrists by cuffs and then make me serve my time.

put my hands in yours and feel them before they grow cold; hold them tight and maybe then i won't be able to let go.

put my hands 'round you and heal them before they're beyond repair; let my arms squeeze you close, then this'll finally feel fair.

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sneakers.

no pair of sneakers would last long in my dream to run away far and gone. the poor soles would wear away because on this earth there's no place that could truly make me feel safe.

i promise i won't run away this time. i'll tie my shoelaces on the phone lines and see you in the next life.

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because i would stop for death.

because i would stop for death, death too would stop for me. i was welcomed in his carriage and granted immortality.

there was no longer a rush to the end, no longer a desperation in my eyes. instead i could peacefully rest and lay my head on his chest.

there was nothing but his heartbeat, thoughts no longer plaguing my mind, and i was finally put at ease because i’d already crossed the line.

his hand slipped in mine and he smiled, squeezing it ever so gently. he promised me, "this is your time. dear, everything is perfectly fine."

and as we rode into the forever sunset, it was eternally blissful, eternally hopeful, eternally peaceful, and eternally beautiful in death.

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