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The Price of Beauty-Apollonia x Major Esat[Smut] Part 3

Synopsis: After the Major finds Apollonia, Esat rapes her and then both characters begin to think about the relationship between them. Esat wants to win her love after the things he has done and confesses his love to her every day, but Apolonia wonders whether she can erase the bad memories they have so quickly.

When he came into the room and said he was going to rape me, I froze. I didn't want to comprehend what he was trying to say. Then I looked at him and noticed that he had a baton in his hand. He approached me, tapping it lightly on his hand. I was still sitting in my seat and watching him with fearful eyes.

He brought the baton to my neck and pulled it up and said "Get up!" with his eyes that seemed dull but were on fire.

Before I could shake my head in the negative, he grabbed my arm hard and threw it on the table with a swift motion. I squirmed in his arms to keep him away from me, but his strong arms were like iron and would not let me move. He put his hands in mine and put them on the table.

''No. Let me go. I'm sorry. Please let me go...''

"You should have thought of that before you ran away. You were talking so much about how I raped you, but now I'm going to show you how to rape for real.''

''Please!''

I cried out in pain as he pressed my head down on the table with his hand and pulled my dress up, stroking and spanking my ass, then he ran his hands over my panties, over my vagina and pulled them off.

"I will leave no hole un-fucked, my beauty. I started with your vagina, then your mouth and now your ass.''

I was crying and begging him not to do this and he was busy stroking my ass and unbuckling his belt.

"It's a sin in both religions. It's forbidden intercourse.''

Esat laughed and gave me another smack on my ass and said, " Do you think I care, God is dead, I am here, I am God and the prophet, and believe me, religion has always forbidden the most pleasurable things, and you will love it, just like your eyes glaze over with pleasure every time I fuck you.''

He touched my ass hole with his hand and looked at me thoughtfully.

"You're not wet yet, but I don't have time to waste, so I need to help you.''

He pulled a bottle towards him with his foot and after pouring some in his hand, he rubbed it on my butt, it had a pungent smell.

"I put motor oil on your ass. It's more erotic, believe me.''

I was disgusted. He grabbed my head and opened my legs and fingered my vagina while he rubbed his penis. Then I felt his thick cock in my butt hole. The more Esat put it inside me, the more it hurt.

"Your asshole is tiny and tight, my beautiful little whore, just what a man would want.

I was screaming in pain as he entered my asshole and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes.This was more painful than him entering my vagina.My body contracted as he put his cock all the way inside.He was moaning loudly as I screamed in pain.

As he went faster and faster, my pain increased, but it gave me a different pleasure than vaginal sex. As I moaned from pain and pleasure, he ejaculated in my butt hole. I was tired and I breathed deeply as he poured his seed into me.

"What happened, are you tired?''

I turned my head and looked at him with weak eyes, as if to say that enough was enough. Although it was cold in the prison room, we were both sweating profusely.

Esat looked at me with that sly look in his eyes and started to run the baton over my thigh.

"But our night is just beginning. There are things you haven't tried yet.

I looked at him with curious eyes.

''What we have between us is for two, but I don't mind including a few items, like my beloved whip... Now meet my baton.''

As much as I tried to move, I couldn't get up because my thighs ached and he pinned me to the table again and held my head with one hand and with the other hand he inserted his baton into my butt hole.It was thinner than Esat's cock so I didn't have any trouble getting it inside me.Even though I moaned as Esat moved it in and out of me, it didn't give me the same pain and pleasure as his cock.When he realized this, his eyes sparkled with mischief.

"So it's only my cock that drives you crazy with pleasure, then let's try it with him.

The police baton in my butt hole and his big cock in my vagina were going in and out of me at the same time and it was driving me crazy. I couldn't suppress myself anymore, I was just focused on the moment and finally we both orgasmed and came at the same time.

He pulled his cock out of my vagina and put his cock in my mouth and made me swallow the sperm that was left there while the baton was still inside me.He also took the baton out and opened my mouth and made me lick the sperm that was smeared on it.Then he grabbed my chin with his hand and threw me to the floor after we kissed passionately.I moaned in pain when my butt hit the floor and I glared at him.

"Don't look like that," he said as he fastened the waistband of his pants, "You're the one who moaned with pleasure even when I raped you, and even though you pissed me off today, now you've entertained me well, but if you run away again, the punishment won't be sex, but death.''

Just as I was about to go out the door, he stopped and turned back to me, looked me up and down with hard eyes and closed the door hard.

I hated myself, I hated myself for giving him my body and my emotions without question and letting him take hold of me like I was sinking helplessly in a swamp.

I couldn't sit down because everything was hurt in my body so much, especially my thighs, and I was getting into different positions.A few days later, Mevlüt Sergeant Major came with some soldiers and took me up to Esat's room again.This time the sunlight caught my eyes and I was startled when they closed the door hard behind me.

I was alone in the room. Until Esat arrived, I wandered around and looked at the maps on which the operational plans were drawn, but what was really on my mind was how I would react when I saw him.

Esat entered the room close to sunset and I immediately reflexively took a few steps back. He started to approach me silently.

He came to me and wiped the tears from my cheek.

"Come on, stop crying. I feel sad when you cry.''

I groaned in pain as he took me by the arm and tried to sit me on the end of the bed.

''What's happening?''

''My hip...my hip hurts a lot since that day...''

He smiled mischievously and sat me on his lap with my thighs slightly out, playing with the curls of my hair and kissing my neck.

"You're pretty dirty. You need a good bath.''

It was normal for me to be dirty because I had washed two days before I ran away, and I knew I needed to get clean, so I put cream on my thighs.

"I'll give you a bath.''

He took off my dress. As I looked at him, naked and full of fear, he went into the bathroom and turned on the water in the tub and waited for it to fill and heat up. I stood there, trying to guess what was going through his mind.

"Come.''

He took me by the hand and led me into the tub, then he undressed himself and sat down across from me. He took the washcloth in his hand and gestured for me to turn around.

I turned around and he wrapped his strong arms around me and began to wash my back, kissing me lightly, as if our bodies had become one.

''Oh Apollonia, if you only knew how much I love you...''

I didn't want to listen to these words, I just looked back slightly.

"But I know that one day you will love me too. It won't be right away but it will definitely happen.''

What he said got on my nerves. I was going to answer him no matter what punishment I got in return.

''How do you know? What's the reason for such fantasies?''

"Apollonia, don't do that," he said in a cracked voice.

"Don't do what?''

He turned me towards him and began to caress my face.

'' Torture me with one hand, yes, but caress me with the other! Have pity, have mercy! Can't you see I'm hopelessly in love with you?''

"It's not love, we're just fulfilling your sexual needs through me. You proved it a few days ago.''

''I was angry. Besides, you love having sex with me, even though you try not to admit it. Even that day you enjoyed it, didn't you? I know, Apollonia, I know even if you don't say it.''

I didn't answer because I didn't want to admit to him the physical pleasure I was getting from him. He kissed me on the lips and turned me around again and we both washed.

A few hours later, I was curling my hair while Esat was reading a book. After I was done, he put the book down and brought a bag and put it in front of me.

"What's in this?''

'' "I brought books for you from Nicosia. Open them and see if you like them.

I opened the bag and inside were books by George Orwell and Agatha Christie in the original language.A smile inevitably spread across my face.Esat always made surprises that suited my interests as well as expensive gifts.In fact, he loved to read books too and in the evenings we would talk about the books we had read.

"These are very good. I have read these books before, but they will be very useful to improve my English.''

I looked up at Esat and his eyes sparkled as if he had witnessed something incredibly happy.

"What a beautiful smile you have. I wish you could smile like that all the time.''

The smile on my face disappeared and I lowered my head to the ground without saying anything. He squatted on the ground and held my hand with one hand and lifted my chin with the other.

"Just smile at me once like you're in love. You'll make me so happy that I'll be the best person in the world.''

I asked sarcastically, "Are you going to be the best person in the world, Major?" but then I got curious and studied his face.

''Why do you want to get a fake show of affection even if I look at you like that, which is impossible, but after I know it's fake...''

"I don't care if it's fake or real, I just want to see you smile at me, even if it feels like it.''

I got angry and stood up and he got up at the same time. I went to the head of the bed and pointed to the bed and said. ''Do you want to live in a lie like we're doing right now, like we're happy, like I'm staying with you willingly and I'm making love with you willingly and you're a man in love?''

"You don't stay with me willingly, but you try so hard not to have sex with me willingly. I know you understand what that means and you can't ignore the fact that I'm in love with you.''

"Damn it, I'm disgusted to hear you about that pleasure thing.''

"From me or from yourself?''

I wanted to hurt him with my words. If he hurt me physically and mentally, then I had the right to hurt him.

"If you were a man who knew what real love is, you'd let me go. Because love is wanting the one you love to be truly happy.''

''How do you define true love? My love is both very immense and very burning. This is where my military service is evident...My love is harsh, strict, rule-oriented, but I am eternally devoted like a soldier's devotion, I love you sacredly like patriotism. Even if I destroy myself and you, I will never let you leave my side.''

''Why do you put us both through this torment when you know I don't want you? Why?''

''Because I can't live without seeing you. I can't live without smelling your scent, without looking into your dark brown eyes, without playing with the curls of your beautiful blonde curly hair with my hand.''

After Esat's passionate confessions to me, we both fell silent. Tears fell slightly from my eyes and I said, "If you loved me so much, why didn't you tell me these things in the first place and put me through this?''

"Because you were the enemy of my people.I was head over heels in love with you from the first moment I saw you.But I couldn't accept my love for you.I thought it was lust.I thought that if I made love with you, if I possessed your body, the fire in me would go out and I would get what I wanted.But it didn't.The more I was with you, the more I became attached to you.When I found out that you and I liked the same things and didn't like the same things, I knew I had found my soul mate.Your every move became a representation of eternal beauty for me.''

He came closer to me and took me in his arms and started to kiss my face with fiery kisses and I was crying.

"If you had approached me like that when we first met, things could have been so different.''

Esat's eyes lit up, "Would you have accepted me? Would you have loved me?''

I thought that if I gave the real answer to this question, he would never break away from me, so I said the opposite.

"No. No matter what happens, I will never love you. I will NEVER love you. Even if I live with you for the rest of my life, you will never hear that word out of my mouth, Esat.''

I called him by his name for the first time. He took his hands off me. He looked at me unresponsive and went out to the balcony and lit his cigarette. While I was looking at him in the room, I sat on the edge of the bed, anxiously waiting for what he would do to me, he put out his cigarette, came to me and stroked my head.

''I realized today that you will never love me, my darling, but remember that my love is enough for both of us. I will love you so much that even if you don't love me, you will know that there is an Esat in this world who loves you more than anything.''

We lay on the bed while I tried to digest what he said but I knew that neither of us would sleep. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead and said "Good night".

After that day I tried more and more to interpret what Esat had said to me from his side.Our life was stable and I was no longer trying to escape.I had accepted the idea of living with Esat and he was being kind, thoughtful and understanding to me more and more every day.

I didn't look at him with disgust anymore because part of me felt pity for him.No matter how much of a monster he was, such a powerful and lawless man only wanted one thing and that was my love.He could do anything in the world whenever he wanted, but he only wanted one thing.

When we made love he felt like he had it, but when he got off me he felt like he had lost me again.He wanted not only my body but my soul too, but the thought that he would never get it was eating him up.

So a month passed. The more I spent time with him, the stronger our bond became, and gradually I developed a closeness with him that even I didn't realize until much later.We talked about everything: philosophy, politics, history, life, books, movies, music, our memories.Sometimes we argued a lot on certain topics, but in general we understood each other's language.

Esat was from Balıkesir, a city with a large surface area but a small population between the Marmara Sea and the Aegean Sea in western Turkey.He had been born and raised in Istanbul and had studied at Kuleli, the historical military high school that had trained soldiers since the Ottoman Empire. After Kuleli, he had gone to Ankara, the city he had always wanted to live in, and had studied at the Military Academy. Afterwards, he had stayed in Ankara.Esat loved Ankara, he saw it as a militaristic and orderly city.Whereas he saw Istanbul as the capital of an obsolete sultanate worn out by Byzantium and the Ottoman Empire, Ankara was for him the symbol of innovation and revolution.He said we would live there after his mission in Cyprus.

Sometimes we would sit on the balcony and he would play Enrico Macias' record on the gramophone.We both loved listening to him.We knew this but we didn't say it.We would just sit on the balcony and listen to him in the evenings while looking at the sky.Every time he would listen to him, he would light a cigarette and we would look at each other and gaze into the distance.

One day, while we were listening to Zingarella on vinyl, he asked, "What's your favorite book?''

Without thinking, I said, "The Hunchback of Notre-Dame.

"It's my favorite book. Why did you pick it?''

It slipped out because I answered quickly or I wouldn't have said that, but I kept talking, thinking that he wouldn't read it with the same thought as me anyway.

''Is that so? I can't remember... Anyway... I was fascinated by Archdeacon Frollo's thoughts in the book.''

He looked at me with a raised eyebrow and said, "In what ways?

''Despite the circumstances of the time and his own identity as a priest, he loved a girl, but he wanted to hide this love even from himself, but he was not successful. He loved Esmeralda so much that he threw his own self away. Of course the priest was furious when she fell for a man like Phoebus, who boasted of being a proud soldier but thought of nothing but sex.Frollo's love was burning, destructive, but real.He was very much in love, but he showed it in such a wrong way that Esmeralda, who was already naive, grew cold to him. She was not capable of understanding the poetic tirades of love that Frollo made to her in the dungeon.Yes, Frollo was a bad character, but who wouldn't want to be loved like that, especially the scene where he goes to the gallows and asks Frollo to choose...''

"What about Quasimodo's love for Esmeralda?''

''That's the love that the author has shown to be the right choice because he loves Esmeralda in a platonic way and protects her and even tries to get her to meet Phoebus, but for me it doesn't qualify as a passionate love, on the contrary, it's like a friendship story of a platonic lover.Anyway, which character's motivation do you find more suitable for you? Let me guess... Phoebus, right?''

Esat laughed and patted my head.

''Because he's a soldier, of course not. But you seem to associate me with him. You're good at interpreting books, but you're terrible at interpreting real life. Think about it, which character will you associate me with?''

I thought about it and I remembered what he had said while I was bathing in the bathroom. I looked at him in amazement. He was smiling bitterly. I repeated the sentences that came to my mind.

'' Torture me with one hand, yes, but caress me with the other! Have pity on me, have mercy!''

He shook his head and looked deeply at me, and when you think about it, his actions were more like Claude Frollo than Phoebus.

I stood up and said, "I'm so sleepy I'm going to bed.''

"Of course you can go to bed, beautiful.''

I was struggling with thoughts in my head.The longer I was with Esat, the more I loved him.No matter how much I hid this fact from myself, that day I accepted it, even if it was in my own heart.Despite everything, I loved his obsession and passion for me.I started to hate him less and less every day.I couldn't keep this hatred alive because we were living like lovers.

I knew that when he wasn't angry he was very thoughtful, understanding and loving towards me, but that didn't excuse the things he had done to me.That's why I was so confused.I decided to wait and watch how he behaved towards me.

After the day I escaped from the camp, I didn't try to escape again and as long as I followed his rules, he treated me better and better and every day he kissed me, smelled me and complimented me.If we hadn't met under these circumstances, I would definitely have fallen in love with him at first sight.His appearance was nothing to fall in love with.He had blue eyes with a frankly domineering but sly look, dark auburn hair and he was tall. He was a charismatic and handsome man.

Even though I told myself that I should love him and that it was crazy, I thought that if it wasn't for the war I would definitely want him because the skin to skin chemistry between us was incredible.

A few more weeks passed in this indecision, and I felt the walls I had built against him crumbling one by one, but I had surrendered to the current, and I did my best not to tell him about my feelings until the last week of August...

When Esat came into the room in the afternoon, the passion and longing in his eyes was evident as he quickly grabbed my body, threw me on the bed and began to possess me and I gave myself over to him as usual.

As he moved back and forth on top of me, I moaned beneath him, delirious with pleasure, and finally, as I neared orgasm, only three words came out of my mouth as I moaned.

"I love you.''

Esat suddenly stopped and looked at me, his face was drenched with sweat and he was looking at me in a confused way.

''What did you say?''

At that moment I was thinking about what to lie and close this incident but I looked into his eyes and got lost in his blue eyes and it was too late. He and I both wanted to hear it now.

''I love you, Esat.''

''What do you mean? Do you really love me? Are you in love with me?''

''Yes, damn it, you made me fall in love with you. I couldn't stop it. I tried so hard but I couldn't.''

Esat's eyes sparkled with pure happiness like a little child's.

''Apollonia, I had given up hope, I never thought you would say that. You made me so happy.''

Suddenly she hugged me tightly and we started rolling around in the bed, her tight arms left me breathless, she pulled her arms away and started kissing my face, arms and neck.

"My God, Apollonia darling, I'm going to love you so much, I'm going to be so good to you that from now on you won't cry anything but tears of happiness. I still can't believe I'm hearing this from your mouth. Apollonia loves me. She really loves me.''

"I didn't think I'd be able to say it either, but I've confessed. Whatever happens, for better or worse, I'm with you.''

"There will be no bad from now on. I'll take good care of you. We'll get married. I'll make you my wife and we'll have lots of children.''

I was stunned that he got straight to the point, but now I was with him forever, I had decided to leave everything behind and start a clean slate with him.

Then his face took on an arrogant expression, no matter how good he tried to be, Esat was still the same Esat.''I won. There is never no more, there is always.'' He said and climbed on top of me again and we continued our lovemaking where we left off.

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The Price of Beauty-Apollonia x Major Esat[Smut] Part 2

Synopsis: After Apollonia's first night with the Major, He releases her family.Apollonia has to fight with the effects that Major Esat has on her. Esat, on the other hand, is trying to win Apollonia's heart. While their relationship is so complicated, Apollonia tries to find ways out.

I woke up early on the morning of my first night with Esat.When I opened my eyes, he wasn't there.I took a deep breath and started to cry.The events of last night came painfully to my mind.I had lost my innocence and had become his woman.Worse, I had enjoyed what he had done to me last night when I should have been disgusted.I couldn't let him take over my mind the way he had taken over my body.I should never have revealed these feelings.That way, Esat wouldn't feel powerful around me.

I got dressed and started to walk around the room absentmindedly.I looked at the books in the box for a while.I was trying to keep my mind busy so I wouldn't think about what had happened.Then I started to look out the window of the room.

The day was just dawning. There was a peaceful silence all around. I could hear the sound of soldiers training in the distance. A lot of soldiers were running and Esat was walking slowly but surely, walking his German Shepherd dog on a leash.Then he saw me.I looked at him hard.He smiled slightly and blew his whistle and stopped the soldiers.

Sergeant Major Mevlüt went to Esat and as far as I could tell from his movements, Esat gave him orders.Mevlüt send a few soldiers the prison camp .Esat was still staring at me and grinning slightly.

When the soldiers lined up, I saw other soldiers dragging my mother and father.I started to cry.I couldn't even imagine what he was going to do to them.The soldiers stopped my mother and father in front of Esat.

Esat was telling them something very calmly.When he finished talking, my mother and father protested vehemently.I couldn't hear them clearly because they were far away, I could only hear them shouting.Then Esat continued talking with that irritating smile of his and pointed with his hand to the window where I was standing.

My parents saw me and they both tried to run inside but the soldiers were holding them back.I started banging on the window, calling out my parents' names.I ran towards the door, maybe I could reach them but the door was locked.

In desperation I went to the window again. Esat snapped his hand three times.Than they took my parents away in a military pick up. All I could do was cry until I was hoarse and scatter everything in the room.

Around noon the door to the room opened and I was sitting on the floor with my legs crossed over my chest, thinking because I was so exhausted from crying.Esat came in, locked the door and put it in his pocket. I turned my eyes to him with hatred.

"You don't have to look at me with so much hatred, beautiful. After all, I saved your family's life. You should even thank me for that. I always keep my promises.''

''What did you tell them!''

He looked around the room and saw that I had made a mess. He lit his cigarette and sat in his chair with a sigh.

''I'll tell you from the beginning then, honey. I had your mother and father brought in and I told them that they were free and that my soldiers would take them to the southern border in peace and they said they would not leave without you, even if staying here meant death.’’

His words were interrupted by my violent crying. I put my hands over my face and moaned.

"Mommy! My father! What am I going to do without them!''

"Shut up and listen to me!''

He warned me in a calm but loud voice. He came to me, bent down, wiped the tears from my eyes and gently helped me stand up. He brought me closer to him and began to explain again.

"I told them that it was your choice to stay here. They looked at each other confused. I approached them and told them that the only reason they were alive now was because of the high level of service I received last night and would receive from their daughters in the nights to come. I also told them that you were now my women and that you willingly slept under me.''

After I said that I started punching him, screaming and crying. He held me tight and looked into my eyes. He ran his hands over my face and started kissing me passionately with his lips.

"Now you are mine forever. You are my woman, I own you," he said in a low, hoarse voice.

"You can never own my soul, use my body as you wish, it is worthless to me.''

This time he was angry. The red lines under his eyes became even more pronounced. He squeezed my arm tighter and pushed me against the wall.

"Someday I will be. Someday you'll want me as much as I want you. After last night, I have no doubt I'll succeed." He whispered in my ear.

Then he slammed the door hard and left. I watched the room with empty eyes for a few minutes.I had made a mess everywhere.When Esat came in the evening, I knew that if he saw the room in this state, he would cause trouble for me, so I tidied up the room.I was tired both physically and mentally, so when I lay down on his small armchair, my eyes closed involuntarily.

After an hour or two, I woke up when the door opened again. The daylight was about to disappear from the sky. Esat entered the room with an affectionate expression and cheerfully sat down next to the armchair where I was lying and lifted me up by patting my head.

"Get up sleepyhead, I've asked for dinner to be served in our room. I've had something nice prepared for you.''

He took me by the hand and led me to the large dining table and pulled the chair towards me to sit down. I was still looking at him with curiosity when I sat down. I couldn't understand why he was being so kind to me.

Two well-dressed waiters came into the room to serve the food. They followed the service rules as if they were serving food in a luxury restaurant. Esat's room was already as large as an flat and filled with luxury items, although they were not yet fully installed.

The steak was served with many appetizers and a glass of red wine.Esat raised his wine glass as the waiters left.

"Cheers.''

I was still looking at him, not knowing what to do.

"Come on, raise your glass. Let's have a nice night with you.''

''Why am I raising this glass? First of all, I won't drink with you and secondly, should I raise this glass because Turkish soldiers invaded Cyprus or because I was torn away from my family and I want you to...''

His face turned back to the frightening expression he had on that first day in the ward with a speed I couldn't understand.

"Because that's the way I want it. If you follow the rules, you'll be comfortable. If you don't follow the rules, you won't be comfortable.''

I didn't want him to do worse things to me or even find my family where he had taken them and hurt them, so I was going to do what he said. He raised his glass again and I clinked my glass against his in fear.

He smiled again and looked at me with sparkling eyes. The fact that he was a man who could change so much in an instant made him that much more dangerous and interesting to me.

We both started to eat our food, I was very hungry, the steak tasted very good so I ate it quickly, and while we were eating Esat told me about how he and the soldiers had brought the Turks from the southern border to the north, and then he stopped talking and looked at me with a passionate gaze.

"You see, Apollonia, if you continue to follow my rules, I will give you everything, I will shower you with love and care beyond your imagination, I will give you the affection and love that no man can give you, I will make you the happiest woman in the world.’’

I was stunned. Esat was talking to me about love. So what, did he love me? Was he in love with me? No, it couldn't be. A man like him who did this to me couldn't be in love with me. I didn't answer him, I just bowed my head because I was ashamed.

Esat blew out the candles on the table. He approached me, knelt down and lifted my head. He placed kisses on my neck and then his lips moved to my chin and then to my lips, leaving kisses.

Moaning with anticipation, "I want you, Apollonia, I want you, my darling. I need you to make my night.’’

As his hands roamed all over my body, he knelt down again, sucking and kissing my legs and rubbing the inside of my thighs with his hands, he pulled my dress up, and when he saw my panties, he pulled them down too, and after giving me little kisses on my vagina, as soon as he had thrown me on the bed, he climbed on top of me and fucked me like last night.

He fucked me like that every day for a week, and although I tried to stop myself during our first coupling, I could no longer suppress my moans of pleasure, and when his seed flowed into me, I felt a sense of pleasure and ownership that I could not understand.

When he made love to me, I felt as if he was the sole owner of my body, as if my body was completely at his service, and he was doing his best to give me pleasure. He made love so well that it was impossible not to enjoy it with him. It was my first time with a man and these feelings were new to me. But I didn't want to give in to my hormonal feelings.

After he deflowered me, he fucked my vagina with his fingers as well as his cock, and as I writhed desperately under him, I always hid how much I wanted him to fuck me, but at the time I couldn't even admit these feelings to myself.

Esat became more and more obsessed with me day by day.When I pretended to be asleep, he was always watching me, playing with the curls of my hair and looking at me like I was a precious treasure.When I woke up, he would wrap me in his arms and kiss my neck, then my face and lips.

I was in a whirlwind of emotions and I tried not to think about what had happened, good or bad, so I asked Esat if I could read his books and he was very happy that I asked because he liked to read books and I liked to read books too. Even though I was Greek, since Turks and Greeks lived together in Cyprus, everyone considered Greek and Turkish as the two main languages, so my Turkish was enough for me to understand the books easily.When Esat asked me what I would read, I told him that there were some books I had not read, for example, I did not know much about Turkish literature.He suggested books that I should read.As I read the books, I realized that Esat had a good taste in reading.

One night he came into the room with boxes in his hand. I was reading when he entered the room. When he came in, I put my bookmark where I left off in my book and closed the cover. He sat on the sofa and looked at me with a smile.

"So you're reading Çalıkuşu. It's a good book to learn Turkish Literature. Where did you stay in the book?''

"The part where Feride goes to Kuşadası.''

"Good. I got you presents. Open the big package first.''

I was surprised.Esat handed me the big package and I opened it.Inside was a satin red nightgown.It was as if telling me that I was a woman now and I should dress accordingly.The nightgown was dazzling, but it was obvious that it was made only to seduce a man and that it was not appropriate for a girl to wear.

''It's obvious that red is the color that suits you best, and the dress you're wearing now is red, but I bought other dresses, so you can wear the nightgown later.''

He made me open the other packages. There were three beautiful blue, white and pink dresses. I didn't say anything. She took me by the chin and looked at me affectionately.

"I don't want you to wear only one dress. I bought these because I thought they would look good on you. Now look at the last present.''

This time it was a small blue velvet box. He opened it herself. Inside was a large diamond necklace, obviously very expensive.

"Go to the bathroom and put on your nightgown. I'll put this necklace on you. I wonder how you'll look.

I went to the bathroom and put on the nightgown. The nightgown was very beautiful and sexy, a look that would blow Esat's mind.

When I came out of the bathroom, I realized I wasn't wrong. Esat was speechless. His eyes were admiring me.

"Stand in front of the mirror.''

I looked in the mirror across the bed.Esat went behind me and kissed my neck.Then he put the diamond necklace around my neck.The two of us watched the necklace in the mirror.Then Esat started sucking on my neck.His hands roamed over my chest and thighs.

"I love you, Apollonia. I never thought a man like me could love a woman so much, but I do. I love you with passion, with desire, with everything you are. I adore you from your eyes to your hair to every part of your body.''

At that moment, his sincere confession reminded me of what we had been through. I asked myself if a loving person would do that. Esat saw my thoughtful look and turned my face towards him and grabbed my chin.

''What is the reason for your sad look?''

I laughed sarcastically and walked away from him.

''What? What do you think it could be? Do you think by buying me all these things you'll make me forget what you did with gifts? Do you think I've forgotten how you fucked me like an animal on the first night? Are you going to trick me with gifts? You're right, how can a man like you love me? You don't know what love is. It's just a sick obsession. You're sick. You're a psychopath.''

Esat's eyes flared with anger and he grabbed my arm and twisted it. While ı cried out in pain, he grabbed my neck with his other hand and pulled me closer to him.

''Yes, you're right. I'm obsessed with you, I'm sick, and more than that I'm a psychopath, I admit it. I'm a man like that. I was already a maniac, after you I've gone even crazier, I don't know what I'm doing. I just want you. I want you to love me too, I want you to stroke my head and see how much you can change me with at least a small gesture.''

"You raped me.''

"Look, you're wrong there. We made a deal. This happened at your request.''

''It wouldn't have been any different if I hadn't made a deal.''

"It's a long story, honey. Isn't darling my darling?''

"It's all a pipe dream. I'll NEVER be yours. NEVER. I hate you. I hate you...''

He threw me down on the bed and shouted, "I guess it's time to prove to you that you'll be mine forever.''

He unbuckled his belt and pulled his cock out, and while I stood motionless on the bed, he pulled me by the shoulders and made me sit on the bed. I didn't understand what he was trying to do. He rubbed his genitals and pulled my hair closer to him.

"Open your mouth! If you don't, I'll beat you till you can't walk. Now you're going to suck my cock. Open!''

I knew what he was trying to do. I was disgusted. He forced his penis into my mouth, even though I closed my mouth tightly.

"Suck my dick, you bitch.''

His cock was so big I couldn't get it all in my mouth.He was pushing my head against his cock, forcing it down my throat.I was choking and giggling.He was pulling my hair and making me give him a blow job.He was grunting loudly.The more he enjoyed it, the closer my head got.He was deep throating me.His sperms was coming into my mouth.It tasted sour and dripped on the floor because there was so much of it.

"You're a good cocksucker.''

He slapped me and said, "You'll either love my cock or you'll learn to love the hard way.''

Then he took his cock out of my mouth and bent my head down and started licking his balls, moaning loudly and rolling his eyes with pleasure.''Keep going, keep going,'' he grunted hoarsely.

He put his penis in my mouth again and said, "I'm fucking your mouth and I'm going to cum in there and you're going to swallow my seed.''

I felt his penis twitching in my mouth and as soon as I felt it, his warm seeds filled my mouth.He pulled his penis out of my mouth and pushed his sperm into my mouth with his thumb and swallowed it.My mouth and chin were full of sperm.I wiped my mouth with a napkin while Esat took off his top and put on his pajamas.

After wiping my mouth, I went to the bed next to Esat. He hugged me and kissed me on the lips.

"Good night, darling. You're very tired today.''

"Good night.''

I sighed deeply and wondered if there was even a small way out of this situation I was in.

When I got up in the morning, I realized that Esat had left early, but I saw that he had forgotten something on the table, he had forgotten the key to the door, I couldn't believe my eyes, but even if I walked out the door, there were soldiers everywhere, and I was a sight for sore eyes.

I got dressed and sat down at the table. "Could I do it?" he thought. "Could I escape?" It was close to impossible, but not impossible if I hid well. I didn't even want to think what Esat would do to me if they caught me, but it was worth a try. It was worth the risk for my freedom.

I took the key. I felt sick inside. I tried to suppress my excitement. I opened the door and went down the fire escape in silence. There were no soldiers waiting at the back door. I went out the back door. My heart was pounding.

I had to keep my cool. As I walked around the back of the camp, I could see the soldiers in the front marching and beating the prisoners. Everyone was taking their share of the beatings, and although I kept an eye on them for a while, I had to get out of here quickly.

But how was I going to find the exit? Soldiers were guarding every exit.As I was desperately wandering around the back, I saw the slightly raised barbed wire.Honestly, the appearance of this wire in front of me showed me how something that seemed impossible to me could change with a factor called luck.Such a chance would never come again.I touched the raised barbed wire, even if it cut my hand slightly, I raised it higher and crawled under it.

Then I turned around and ran as fast as I could towards the wooded area on the slope of the Beşparmak Mountains.When I reached the wooded area, I slowed down my walk.What I had to do now was to walk to the back of the mountain and walk towards the south side.

I was walking slowly and I still couldn't believe what I had just accomplished.There was no Esat, it sounded unbelievable.I couldn't even comprehend what I had just done.I walked until sunset.I had made it to the other side of the mountain but I was exhausted.I decided to take a nap and lay my head on the hard earth and fell into an uncomfortable sleep.

When it got dark I woke up to the sound of rustling.There was no one in sight but the sound alone was enough to scare me.I stood up and started walking faster.After a few minutes I heard a few more rustling sounds and I picked up my pace even faster.I didn't even want to think about the possibility of Turkish soldiers being here.The faster I walked, the louder the rustling sounds got.Finally I started running and picked out a few shadows of men in the darkness.

As I wondered who they were, I heard a voice saying, "Run to the right." I realized that it was Sergeant Major Mevlüt's voice. I tried my best to lose track of them, but a few soldiers caught me at last.I tried to run away screaming, but I knew it was a futile effort.

While the soldiers were holding me hard, a light came on and a soldier called Laz Sergeant, holding a kerosene lamp, approached me.Esat walked out of the darkness towards the light with his German Shepherd Dog on a leash.

He grinned wickedly and said "Nice but stupid Apollonia, did you really think I left the key in the room because I forgot it? I'm offended, do you think an officer like me would make such simple mistakes, especially with the half-lifted wire, it must be the work of God.''

I bowed my head in disappointment and tears fell from my eyes.

"I've told you many times that there's no way out of here. You can't escape me, just like people can't escape their destiny. I am your destiny. I made this little game to remind you of your limits and to get rid of the romantic idea of escaping. My men were waiting for you today in Kyrenia and on the southern slope of the mountain. I just gave you time to think you were free to roam, that's all.''

He gestured to his soldiers.

"Start the vehicle and bring it here. Where was I? Yes, even if you really escaped, which is impossible. Let's say that happened and you dare to do it again. I'll find you even if you're 20 meters under the Mediterranean Sea, let alone on the south side of the island.''

Then he turned his head towards the vehicle and snapped his fingers. The soldiers picked me up and put me in the pick-up. Esat got into the back of the office car that was standing on the path, with Sergeant Major Mevlüt opening the door for him.

After driving through the darkness, the lights of the prison camp came into view and soon we were inside the camp.The pick-up arrived before the others.They took me out of the vehicle and took me inside the building where the prisoners were and threw me into the cell where I was first held.

I hit the floor quickly, and as I struggled to get up, the door opened, Esat closed the door and came in, and we locked eyes.

"Now I'm going to show you how to rape a woman.''

[bansheeluxaeterna]

The Price of Beauty-Apollonia x Major Esat[Smut] Part 1

Synopsis:Beautiful Greek Apollonia, who was taken to the Prisoner Camp with her family, becomes an object of desire that the Cruel Turkish Major Esat cannot resist. This lust turns into an attraction that Apollonia cannot resist too.

On July 20, 1974, my life changed completely. Turkish soldiers landed in Cyprus, where the sun was never missing, always cheerful and comfortable. Nothing was the same after that day. The lives of both Greeks and Turks living in Cyprus were divided into two parts. Although political tension was high in Cyprus and there were conflicts between Greeks and Turks, people left their cheerful mood on July 20.It was the day I left both my youth and my girlhood as a young girl like me.

My name was Apollonia Vassiliou.I was the only daughter of a Greek Cypriot family living in Kyrenia, a lovely touristic port city. On July 20, Turkish soldiers landed in Cyprus off the coast of Kyrenia and after a few days they took us from our homes and took us to a Greek Cypriot prison camp in a forested area close to the Beşparmak Mountains beyond Kyrenia.

The Turkish soldiers told us that they had brought us here to avoid a clash until things calmed down, but when we entered the camp it became clear that everything was very different. Some people were mourning in low voices, some were hiding in a corner, everyone looked very sad and grieving, the camp was almost deathly silent.

It was almost because the sound of dozens of boots suddenly echoed through the corridors of the prison camp.The boots the soldiers wore echoed in my ears and every step they took frightened me.Dozens of soldiers were lined up in rows.Newcomers like us were waiting to see what would happen while others were trembling with fear.

While this tense waiting was going on, there was the sound of boots with heavy footsteps.There was only one person coming.He was walking slowly but confidently.This was the first time I saw him.I remember being very scared.He was a tall and agile man and his appearance alone gave me chills. He stood in the middle of the soldiers. He was wearing an impeccable military uniform. He stopped and looked around and smiled in a way that was disgusting. He rubbed his hands and made a speech I'll never forget.

"Now listen to me well! Do you know why you came here? If you are newcomers, I will tell you. You came here to die, we will kill you all. If my soldiers don't kill you, I will kill you myself. I will clean Cyprus of you. Who am I? I am Major Esat, the head of the Greek Cypriot Prison Camp. Know my name well because there will be no god or prophet here to come to your rescue. I am the god and the prophet here. I will forgive you and I will punish you.’’

 By now the new arrivals, myself included, were trembling with fear.I thought for sure that I was going to die in a few days.At that moment Major Esat started walking among the prisoners with a snap of his fingers.He was examining everyone with those horrible blue eyes.I was staring at the ground, waiting for him to pass by me and praying to God that he would pass by.But the opposite happened.

Major Esat stood next to me and I could feel him examining me. He said in a very gentle tone, "Raise your head."

I raised my head in fear and looked into his blue eyes with both fear and a hatred that I could not help myself, but his eyes were different, as if they were on fire, I had never seen such a wild look in my life.

He grabbed my chin lightly with his hand. I was about to faint from fear, my body was rigid. He grinned slightly and asked, "What's your name, blonde girl?"

 I replied with a trembling voice. "Apollonia Vassiliou,"

He stroked my face lightly and said in a low voice, "It's a pity that such a lovely and beautiful girl like you is here."

 He was still looking at me with his wild eyes, as if he was looking at me with the fury of a tiger hunting its prey. Then, when our eyes separated, he whispered something to the soldier next to him and went out with them.

I went back to my parents and hugged them. My mother said everything would be okay, while my father looked at the Major, who was walking away in hatred. For a few hours I tried to forget about the Major, I wanted to feel safe with my family, but everything I wanted was the opposite.

The soldier that the major whispered something in his ear came in with a few other soldiers. He was a short brunette man which holds a big wild German Sheperd Dog. He looked towards the crowd and said to the soldiers, "After we are done, let's divide them into groups of men and women and prepare their cells.

Then he shouted loudly, "Apollonia Vassiliou, step forward."

 My parents grabbed my arm. They didn't want me to get hurt. I didn't come forward. He shouted again and looked at the soldiers and smiled, "If you don't come forward, we will."

The soldiers cut through the crowd. My parents stood in front of me, but one of the soldiers saw me and shouted, "That girl with the blonde curly hair, I found her! ''

Than other soldiers  try to take me away from my parents.My parents were holding me so tightly that they only took me away when one of the soldiers hit my father and made him fall.I was desperately shouting as the soldiers took me away.My mother tried to run but the soldiers were in front of her.

The soldiers left me in a prison room. After they locked the door and left, I felt a mixture of fear and curiosity.What were they going to do to me? While I was waiting in the cold room, the door opened.Major Esat walked in, holding something in his hand that I couldn't quite understand.He started walking towards me.I leaned against the wall, startled.He came closer until there were only a few inches between us.I felt very uncomfortable and uneasy.

He said in a polite voice, "I hope Sergeant Major Mevlüt was kind in bringing you here."

 The dark-haired man who gave orders to the soldiers must have been called Mevlüt. I didn't answer his question. He grabbed my chin with a sly smile, "Your comfort is very important to us.''

I looked at him with disgust. He asked, "Do you know why you were brought here?

I replied, "No. "

I reflexively pulled my face back and he grabbed my neck and whispered in my ear, "Because you need to be punished'.

I could barely breathe but I said in a hoarse voice, "Why?"

He whispered in my ear again, "It's your fault you're so beautiful."

He pushed me hard to the floor of the room. I fell to the floor but he grabbed my arm and tied my hands to a rope. I was trying to get away but he was so strong I could hardly move.

After he tied my hands tightly, he stepped back. My back was to him. Tears welled up slightly in my eyes. I looked back out of the corner of my eye and he opened the thing in his hand and it was a whip. He cracked the whip on the floor and I began to cry louder and louder. He unzipped my dress in a huff, my back was exposed, I was screaming at the top of my lungs, trying to get help.

Major Esat laughed sarcastically with his characteristic creepy laugh.''Stupid girl, who are you screaming at? No one here can take you away from me. I am the only one who has authority here. Whatever I want, happens…understand?" and with that he cracked the whip hard on my back.

I felt a burning sensation on my back as if I was on fire. I shouted louder, "Please stop!"

It was hurting. After Esat brought the whip down on my back for the second time, he shouted, "I will teach you who is in charge here, you will learn."

 His strokes were getting tighter and tighter and he was getting angry. I didn't understand why he was doing this to me and begged him to forgive me for whatever my crime was.

''Please forgive me, sir, I apologize if I have disrespected you, I'm in a lot of pain. I'll do whatever you want, please...''

After saying these words, he stopped. I was drenched in sweat. My back was sore and bleeding and I was moaning in pain. He came closer to me and said in a deep, raspy voice, "I told you your crime. Your crime is to be beautiful."

 And he started to kiss my back passionately, ecstatic. The more I moved and tried to break free from his kisses, the more he pulled me to him. He pressed our bodies against each other and continued to kiss my back and neck savagely as he held my waist tightly in his hands.

I could feel him moaning in my ear, moaning with pleasure. As a girl who had never even held a boy's hand before, I was embarrassed to be in such a intimate position with a man. He pulled me harder and I felt something hard against my hip.

"No, let go of me! Let go!" I screamed.

He grabbed my mouth hard and leaned down to my ear and asked, "What do you feel?"

Then he gently pulled his hand back from my mouth. I didn't want to answer such a disgusting thing, so I kept quiet. I was clenching my hands in the handcuffs and crying with anger.

He grinned slightly and said, "What happened? You were screaming at the top of your lungs. Now you're quiet."

 I kept quiet. He got angry and pulled my hair hard. "Say it!" he yelled.

I let go and cried, "I feel something hard on my thigh."

He moved his hands to my legs and pressed his thigh harder against mine as he caressed my legs under my dress.

"So you can feel it even if it's in my uniform."

His cock was hard and rubbing against my hip through his uniform.Both of our thighs were rubbing against each other with our thighs closer together and his hard cock pressing against my thighs.

I could feel him sweating too.The only thing that separated our bodies was our clothes.Esat pulled himself back and breathed in and out quickly.Then he untied my hands.I had no strength left.I couldn't stand up because of the pain in my back and I fell to the floor.I locked eyes with Esat.

"Stay here for a while and come to your senses." And he left the room after fixing his clothes.

I wrapped my arms around myself like a little baby and started to cry.It was disgusting for a man to do this to me.I tried not to think about what I was going through, but I couldn't forget that he had brutally kissed me on my bleeding back and rubbed his cock on my hip.I stayed there for about two days because for two days the soldiers were sending my food in the morning, lunch and dinner through the door.

Two days later the door of the room opened. I pulled myself back with a sudden reflex and Sergeant Mevlüt entered the room.

''Come here!'' he shouted.

I didn't want to come.He quickly approached me, grabbed my arm and started dragging me out.

''Let go of my arm.'' I shouted and freed my arm from him.

Sergeant Major Mevlüt whistled and two more soldiers entered the room and they grabbed me and dragged me out.

Sergeant Major Mevlüt smiled and said, ''There are more of us here than you, so don't scream.Take her to my commander's room.''

Two soldiers held my arm tightly and Sergeant Major Mevlüt was walking ahead of us. After going up a few stairs we stopped in front of a door.Mevlüt knocked on the door.Esat's voice came from inside.

''Come in.''

Mevlüt went in and came out a few minutes later.Then he motioned to the soldiers out of the corner of his eye to come in.I went in with the soldiers.

It was a large airy room.After the dim room, I was dazzled by the sunlight.Esat was doing some paperwork.

When he saw me, he put the paperwork aside and ordered the soldiers, "Get out!"

The soldiers went out.The two of us were alone again.

He got up from his chair and took a cigarette from the pack and walked over to me. This time I recoiled in disgust.

He smiled slightly. ''Is that how we are now?''

Not answering, I looked at him in a way that made it obvious I was disgusted with him. He lit his cigarette and walked to the window. Looking out the window, he smoked his cigarette and exhaled deeply. He faced the window.

He said, "I'm so sick of this.''

 He walked to the front of his desk and gestured to me with his hand holding a cigarette and said,

"I'll make a deal with you.’’

I couldn't hide my confusion and asked, ''What deal?''

Esat laughed and replied, ''A deal that will benefit both of us if you agree to it, and a deal that will benefit only me if you don't agree to it.''

He continued, ''See how much I think about you? Otherwise I could take what I want on my own, but it's important that I have your consent."

 He took another drag on his cigarette and sniffed slightly. "The deal is that I will get your family out of this prison camp, sorry death camp, and I will free them by letting them cross to the Greek part of the south.’’

I couldn't believe my ears, "What? You're really going to do that?"

 "Yes," he replied. "But you didn't listen to your part of the deal."

I looked at him suspiciously and he continued.

"I will release your family on one condition: that you become my woman.''

I froze. I didn't know what to say. My voice trembled and I said,

 "Wh-what are y-you trying to say?"

 He grinned slyly, "You know exactly what I mean. You will be my woman. You will do what I want. You will please me.''

"No. I'll never do that, NEVER!"

I shouted, and he came over and grabbed me by the arm.  I moaned in pain.

 He said, "I didn't ask your permission to be my woman. Don't you think I can't do that? I only offered you the chance to save your family. You're mine anyway. The good way or the hard way.''

I started to cry. He pulled me close to him and whispered in my ear,

"Now you have a decision to make. Save your family or let them die. My methods are effective and work quickly.''

I didn't want my family to die. Instead I threw myself into the fire and shouted, "OK!"

Esat had that annoying smile on his face again and said, "OK for what?"

 I looked at him with hatred. "OK, I'll be yours, as long as you free my family.''

He let go of my arm and puffed on his cigarette again.''First you fulfill your part of the deal. The more you please me, the easier your job will be''.

Tears were flowing involuntarily from my eyes. I could hardly keep quiet as I thought of what he was going to do to me.

"I hate you! I hate you!" I cried, choking on my tears.

 He squinted his eyes, "Maybe you won't hate me after tonight."

He grinned wickedly. "Now the soldiers will take you to your family. It will be your last day with them. It's up to you how you use it."

 He called out to the soldiers, "Come! Take the little lady to her family.'' he ordered.

As the soldiers took me by the arm and led me downstairs, my legs couldn't move.I couldn't see what was in front of me because of my tears.I was still very young.I considered myself a child even though I had just entered adulthood.It disgusted me to talk to a man talk these things, especially a man who was my enemy.But I had to do it.I couldn't watch my family die. When I reached the ward where the prisoners were being held, I wiped away my tears and smiled.

I didn't want my mother to see me like this.I gathered all my courage and turned to the soldiers and said, "Tell your commander that I want to pass by the ward where my father is being held on my way to his room."

 Soldiers looked at me with expressionless eyes.They nodded their heads in the affirmative.

I entered the ward where my mother was. We hugged each other for a few minutes, crying. My mother kept kissing me and asking me if they had done anything bad to me.

''No. They just interrogated everyone. They interrogated me too. They never harmed me.'' I held her hands.

''And they never will...''

I lay on my mother's lap until evening. I knew it was the last time I would see her and the last remnant of my innocence. I knew that soon I would lose both my mother and my innocence when I got out of that cell. I prayed for time to pass slowly and even stop, even though I knew it was effortless.

After the sun cast its last rays over the Beşparmak mountains, I was dozing off with my mother when the soldiers banging on the bars woke us both up.I got up.My mother was looking at me with curious eyes.

"Where are they taking you, Apollonia?" she asked.

I thought a lot about what I could answer her, but I couldn't.I just looked at her with a bitter smile.As I walked with the soldiers, my mother's shouts were making the corridor groan.I was trying hard not to cry. Then we entered the men's ward.Esat had taken my request into consideration.As we passed by my father's ward, my father and I locked eyes.He couldn't understand what was going on, he was shouting my name and I blow him a kiss.

"Dad, I love you so much, I love my mother so much." I shouted.

The soldiers grabbed my arm and started dragging me faster.My father was holding on to the bars and reaching out his hand to reach me.

After passing the men's barracks, we went out into the garden and entered another building and went up to the top floor.The Turks had easily adapted the military garrison that belonged to Cyprus to themselves in a few days.We stopped at the door on the top floor.One of the soldiers unlocked the door and I went inside.They locked the door again behind me.

I turned on the light in the room, it was dimly lit, but it was still a large and spacious room.There were luxurious and tastefully selected furniture, but they were placed irregularly.It was obvious that the furniture had just arrived. It looked like a big luxury hotel room.There was a big wooden bookcase and a desk and many books were in boxes.While I was curiously looking at the books, the door of the room opened.I was startled and I dropped the book from my hand.

Esat had entered the room. As I tried to pick it up, he grabbed my arm and looked at it.

''The Hunchback of Notre-Dame. It's my favorite book. Have you read it?'' he asked.

I nodded my head yes. He put the book in the box and our eyes met. He came closer to me and started to play with the curls of my hair.

''You have such beautiful hair. It's so blonde and curly...''

I was so embarrassed to be so close to him and for him to talk to me like that.I blushed and looked away.He grabbed my chin and lifted my head.

''No, don't take your beautiful dark brown eyes away from me.''

He was stroking my face with one hand and twirling my curls with the other.Then he let go of my hair and grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him. I reflexively tried to pull back but he pulled me back towards him.

''Remember our agreement, the better you are, the more I can help you.''

 A few tears fell from my eyes. He wiped them away.

''The only thing you need to concentrate on right now is me.''

 And he grabbed my lips in a desirefully manner. I tried to scream in disgust, but it was just enough to get his tongue inside my mouth.

I had never kissed a man before and now Esat was devouring my lips and yet I tried to resist him and run away from him but the more I tried to run away the more he pressed me to him and held me tight and kissed my lips harder and harder.He was making moans of pleasure as he kissed and I could taste the cigarette smell on his breath.I couldn't run away from him and my lips were completely at his mercy.His tongue was going deep into my mouth and his kiss was like a wild animal tearing its prey apart. I was numb, feeling only Esat's rapid heartbeat, his intermittent breaths and his longing tongue that desperately wanted to go further and further inside me.

He started to run his hands around my hips and my breasts, squeezing them hard. He moved his lips from my mouth to my cheek and down to my neck. He started sucking on my neck. I couldn't move. I had surrendered myself to his tight arms. He pulled his lips away from my neck and threw me on his bed. As soon as I was on the bed, he got on top of me and took my dress off my legs. My breasts were exposed and I tried to cover them to protect myself, even though I knew it wouldn't do any good. He opened my hands to the side hard.

"Did you think you could hide yourself from me?" and he started to squeeze and suck my nipples.

I tried to push his head off my breast and he slapped me hard and I started crying from the pain and he grabbed my chin hard with his hand.

"If you ever try to stop me or cry again, I will kill your family and then you, do you understand?" he yelled.

I nodded my head yes as I closed my eyes so that no more tears would fall.

''Fine then.''

Then he resumed what he was doing, sucking my tits with grunts, and I closed my eyes and turned my head to the side because I didn't want to see what he was doing to me.

"Open your eyes! I want you to see what I'm doing to you. I want to look into your eyes while I fuck you.’’

I opened my eyes in disgust. He was kissing and sucking all over my body, starting with my lips.

"Your lips are so beautiful, your neck, your breasts, your legs...’’

I only had my panties on. He put his hands on her and started to peel them off slowly.

"But there's the most beautiful place of all.’’

He took off my panties and spread my legs wide. I'm ashamed of myself for having to watch this. His gaze became even more lustful. Even his breathing quickened.

"Are you a virgin?

I answered in a low voice, "Yes.’’

He began to caress the top of my vagina, his cold hands running over my vagina with increasing passion.

"So you're a virgin. It's more beautiful than I could ever imagine. A flower that's never been smelled. It belongs only to me. A virgin pussy. Or am I the man who kissed you and touched you for the first time?

I didn't want to answer these dirty questions. He was staring at me with her burning eyes, demanding me to answer.

"Answer me!" he shouted.

I couldn't stop another tear from falling from my eye.''Yes.'' I answered.

His face lit up with happiness. I didn't expect him to do something like that. He was passionately swirling his tongue and sucking my clit.

As he continued to suck, the control between my body and my brain was getting weaker and weaker, my body wanting to surrender to the wave of pleasure, my brain wanting to stop feeling pleasure.

He licked the inside of my thighs, first to the right, then to the left, then to the same spots. I tried to push him away but froze and whimpered when his teeth brushed against one of my sensitive spots he had found. A slow bite followed and I gripped his hair with my hand as my whole body trembled. I was trying so hard not to feel pleasure, but I couldn't.

As I ran my fingers through his hair, I was torn between pushing him away and pulling him close.That's when I started to feel disgusted, not at him but at myself.How could I enjoy such a thing.As I questioned myself, a soft moan escaped my mouth.

Esat had heard this moan. He looked at me with passionate eyes.

"You pretend you don't enjoy it, but your body says the opposite.’’

''You are a despicable man. Just get it over with and be done with it.''

"I will, but giving you pleasure is my first priority.’’

He started licking faster and harder. I had never felt such feelings before.My body was defenseless and every move he made gave me more and more pleasure.I involuntarily moaned more and more.I pulled his head hard towards me and then my whole body began to tremble and I couldn't control myself anymore and I came.He licked my creampie under me while breathing deeply.

Then suddenly he sat up and started to take off his clothes quickly. He threw his shirt and tie aside. He had a slightly hairy broad chest. It was obvious from every curve of his body that he was strong. He was tall and a fit soldier.

He unbuckled his belt. I didn't want to see more, but I forced myself to look because I knew what would happen if I looked away. He pulled his pants down and I could see the huge bulge in his boxer.

He took off his boxer and I saw his enormous, veiny cock and I started screaming because I thought that thing was going to go not only into my vagina but into my intestines.

"No, it's too big. I don't want to do this. What do you think you're going to do to me with it? How am I going to... how are you going to put it inside me?

Esat started laughing and came back to the bed and took my hands and slid them over my head.

"Thanks for the compliments, but don't worry, it might only hurt a little at first.’’

''I don't think it will hurt a little with what's underneath.''

He spread my legs and started rubbing his cock, smiling at me mischievously.I was getting short of breath.I was afraid of pain and heartbroken that I was going to lose my virginity.He started rubbing his cock against my vagina.I could feel his hardness on me.

He came close to me and sucked my ear for a few seconds and then whispered in my ear, "Say goodbye to your virginity.''

As soon as he said that, he pushed himself into me with all his strength and I suddenly felt a sharp pain and started to scream. It hurt so much that I was screaming and crying at the top of my lungs.I felt his hard and big cock inside me in the most intense way. It was like every part of my body was hurting and being pierced.

''Please stop! It hurts so much please!'' I was crying and begging.

He was moaning loudly, ecstatic with pleasure. He was penetrating me faster and harder, causing me to writhe under him, increasing my pain even more.

I kept saying, "Please, it hurts so much." Finally, he covered my mouth with his hand and went deeper inside me.

He had been fucking me like this for minutes and now I started to feel pleasure as well as pain. As much as his big penis hurt when he first entered me, it was now giving me as much pleasure as it did when he first entered me, and as he moved recklessly on me, I was both hurting and enjoying this pain.

Esat understood that I was enjoying it, he opened my mouth, which he held tightly with his hand, and took my legs with his hands and put them on his back.

The wave of pleasure was hitting me so hard that I was moaning loudly with pleasure. As my body trembled with pleasure, I was clamping my legs harder to Esat and sinking my hands into his shoulder.

I was completely surrendering myself to his arms, sucking on my neck and not stopping for a moment from moving in and out of me quickly.

Then he grabbed me around the waist and lifted me up and we were face to face.

I felt his thrusts deeper into me, throwing my head back with a groan every time his thick cock filled me, both of us drenched in sweat.

His masculine grunts mingled with my moans of pleasure.Then he laid himself on his back on the bed.I was standing over him, waiting.

Esat moaned, "Jump on my cock. I want to feel you like this.

He started bobbing his hips up and down and I was doing as he said, hopping on top of him and taking his whole cock inside me.

We were hitting each other hard and the sound of his balls echoed around the room.I put my hands on his strong, broad chest for support.Each time he entered me, I held his chest tightly in my hands and stroked his chest hair.I had my second orgasm on top of him.

Before I knew it, we were back in the first position. He had me on my back and he was on top of me again. I wrapped my legs around him again and pulled him into me.

I was having my third orgasm as my screams made the room groan. I came. I saw Esat trembling right after me. His muffled moans continued and his penis began to twitch inside me.

At the same time, I felt a warm liquid filling me. His cock was shooting the seeds inside my pussy. We started breathing deeply and Esat got off me. I felt lighter. My face was burning like fire and his face was red.

I looked down into my body. There was some blood in my vagina. Esat stood up and brought a napkin and a pack of cigarettes. He wiped his penis and then cleaned my vagina.

Grinning, he said, "Maybe you want to keep it as a souvenir. First night souvenir.''

"Human waste.’’

"The way you moaned beneath me just now is more real than those words.''

I didn't want to accept what he said, so I looked at him with an expression that said I was disgusted by him.

He lit a cigarette and handed me the pack. I made a no sign with my hand. He put the pack back and took a drag and puffed on the cigarette.

After Esat finished his cigarette, he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my head tenderly. It was surprising that someone like him would give me such a kiss, but I was still disgusted by it.

"That was the best sex I've ever had in my life.''

He lifted my head. He wanted to look me in the eye. His blue eyes were full of both passion and pleasure. As he held me, his eyes closed and he fell asleep. The magnitude of the pleasure was like a sweet lullaby to him at bedtime.

I wanted to leave her arms, but there was no way his stiff arms around me wouldn't even let me move and then I fell asleep from exhaustion. That was my first night with him.