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[battlesinmybrain]

“wine drunk”

I lay alone,

late at night,

sweet wine lazing through my body.

depressant.

how can something that coats my tongue like honey?

and warms my belly like a sunny embrace?

make my world so dark, and me so lost.

my brain and my body are in disagreement.

my body loves the golden elixir,

my brain knows that it will not love me back.

perhaps…

just like you

oh warm, sweet, sunny, embracer of me

[battlesinmybrain]

-almost 22-

who am i?

i ask myself,

looking in the mirror,

after a shower.

my hair is longer,

and darker

my skin is aged

I don’t recognize myself.

i wonder how it came to be,

that I look and don’t know me

the loves of my past

have all failed…

the people

the passions

the hobbies

i wonder if as i gave up on them,

i gave up on myself as well.

how do you find yourself

after so long?

how do i see the little girl I once was

in my face again?

[battlesinmybrain]

drawing

(paired with)

my relationship to sleep is the worst

i don’t understand dating culture

all the people i have ever loved were first my friends

how do so many things go wrong at once?

does the universe keep score?

will i ever be able to feel normal?

or

will i always be feel on the edge of unexplainable sorrow and madness?