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[baura-bear]

it's like you're living a fanfic but it's neither fun nor romantic RIP. best of luck with the roommate situation i can tell you from experience that it sucks to have a friend fall in love with you especially when you don't reciprocate

thank you for the kinds words i'm actually attaching a story time because i can but also honestly no one feel obligated to read it because it's just me being anxious and complaining 💀💀 also this is the 4th friend of mine to admit feelings for me that i don't reciprocate and genuinely i'm starting to think either my autism has something to do with this or i'm on the aro/ace spectrum because huh (i hate being a complex ever-changing human being it's so difficult)

around the same time that I started college I started reading And They Were Roommates by WaitingForMy on Ao3 which is a college Javey au (very good fic do reccommend). Jack and Dave are roommates and end up being FWBs then start dating. so of course I would always make little in my head scenarios and I was like wow it would be crazy if that happened to me. Fast forward to this fall my roommate has a gf but im like 99% sure my roommate has a crush on me because any time they're under the influence they stare at me with this really sad look. Eventually they break up with their gf and I ask like "hey you don't like me do you?" and they say no that they've never liked me like that and we're just friends. so obviously I believe them!!! ok now fast forward to this spring we're FWBs everything's platonic we've talked about it whatever. Then this weekened: THEY START FLIRTING WITH ME this is normal we playfully banter but usually they're the one to initiate because they've had relationships and flings with way more people so it just comes naturally to them so naturally i follow their lead flirt back (again we do this as friends all the time and we had established that there were no feelings) they're like playing dress up and talking about how good they look in heels and how much taller they are than me and i'm like haha yeah! :3 and out of no where they stop and like gently push me away from them and are like "I'm sorry I have to be honest I have a crush on you and I don't think we should hook up anymore"

I don't mind that at all and I am so so glad they were honest with me but in the moment I was kind of freaking out because they had been initiating everything all day and it was just a really weird and sudden switch and it kind of spooked me also they were drunk and I was tipsy. at the time I was really freaking because of how random it was but i'm feeling better now. It's just confusing for me because me having autism it can be hard for me to tell peoples intentions and at the time I was feeling kind of betrayed that like I had trusted them to tell me the truth and now i'm like "what if they've been lying and they have liked me the whole time and I'm the one that's been leading them on and being an asshole and i didn't even realize" at the center of all of this i am just so terrified of hurting them

anyway no idea why i felt compelled to share all of this but it did make me feel better so if anyone made it this far thanks for humoring me

[baura-bear]

While we're at it: using language that downplays genocide is a form of genocide denial.

Joe Biden isn't doing a bad job, Joe Biden is providing material support for genocide.

Israel isn't handling the situation badly, Israel is committing genocide.

Employing euphemisms minimizes the reality of this genocide. It's disrespectful and dangerous.

If you are more uncomfortable with the word genocide than you are with the reality of genocide, then you are not prepared to be part of any serious discussion. Work on that on your own time.

[baura-bear]

Thank you for the tag :) it’s nice to focus on the good in the world

Had a really sweet strawberry this morning

My roommate shy cat was purring and letting me pet her and rubbing on me like cats tend to

The forecast said it would be cloudy today but the sun came out

Tags: @noxexistant

Tag game time!

Rules: Tell us three things that brought you joy recently (no matter how big or small). Tag as many people as you want!

I'll start

1. I had a DnD session with my friends

2. I talked to a friend again who I haven't seen in three months

3. There is regularly a squirrel just outside the window that I can watch when it visits the birdfeeder

Tags: @witchy-self-shipper @practically-an-x-man @starbirdaltair @rainedroptalks @vitamin-zeeth and whoever else wants to join in!!

[baura-bear]

Reblog to put one of these in your mutuals’ pocket when they’re not looking

[baura-bear]

The Newsies proshot is no longer available on disney+ so I’m trying to cope by repeatedly watching the 1992 movie

[baura-bear]

We literally had to sleep in the same bad last night y’all 🫥

What do you do when your roommate drunkenly admits they have a crush on you and now you’re trying to act normal but your really not normal and you don’t like them back but you just want your friendship to be the same lololololool

[baura-bear]

Tell me why I’m crying

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i’m scampering around and crawling up the walls into the ceiling (i love newsies)

[baura-bear]

Me: freaking out because roommate stuff

My roommates shy cat: comes over and starts cuddling up and purring at me

Everything will be alright

[baura-bear]

What do you do when your roommate drunkenly admits they have a crush on you and now you’re trying to act normal but your really not normal and you don’t like them back but you just want your friendship to be the same lololololool

[baura-bear]

I just think people who clean public spaces should make no less than $100,000 a year

[baura-bear]

a weighted blanket is not enough please compress me into a .zip file

[baura-bear]

copious amounts of kenergy right here

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ok so jack kelly wants to go to santa fe. patrick bateman can only get those certain fancy sheets in santa fe. coincidence? I think not!

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Have a Uksies sprace doodle 👍👍

[baura-bear]

Newsies (1992)

Director: Kenny Ortega

Cinematographer: Andrew Laszlo