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he wouldnt hold my hair up if i vomited but he would if i wanted to suck his dick.

[bbybunni3]

My eyes hang lower than my head, im sad. Im mourning the loss of someone alive I know im in the wrong but you wont tell me how i can turn it into a right. You wont let me help myself. "figure it out on your own" you say as i look at you while tears are in my eyes, how can i understand how your feeling if you dont talk to me? How can you be so emotional but not express them so clearly? How could you leave me hanging.

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Sleeping on the floor wondering how to wake up from this emotional coma i am in. Wondering how truly big this event is or if im just overreacting, overreacting because im inlove. Im hurt this person would intentionally do something to put me in harms way emotionally, is it truly overreacting if i am hurt either way? Is it really overreacting if it was someone who i loved who used something against me? I loved you and you hurt me intentionally so are my feelings too small to you? Why are you saying im overreacting.

[bbybunni3]

Grieving, what truly is it? Some people mention the 5 stages of grief but in reality its never really those five you truly feel. You dont always feel guilty, angry, or sad. Sometimes you dont even accept theyre gone, you will never truly forgive yourself if you were the one who survived. You wont ever forgive yourself or accept that they're dead especially if its suicide, you dont always circle the 5 stages of grief. Some people dont make it past anger, some people are so angry for surviving longer than the person they love to the fact that they kill so they feel better about themself. Some people arent monsters for doing what they do to cope, some people just need a reminder from right and wrong. Some people maybe just need a hug. Some people survive anothers suicide and realize how truly lucky they are and they dont grieve they only accept, that isnt selfish at all. Grieving and not grieving is okay. Taking your own life because you feel upset that you survived someone else's murder you are not alone. No one will truly ever be alone, no one will truly be hated either, there is more love in this world than hate yet people focus on the hate because its more impacting this world rather than love. It will be okay if you are grieving a loved one that passed, just know that there will always be someone to grieve with, you're not alone.