bearjuice

[bearjuice]

I’d give anything to be 13 again and do it right. But I know I’d do the same bitter things with that thirteen year old mind.

[bearjuice]

I wanna be a celebrity so bad. I don’t even know what for. I just want people to ask me questions and care about my opinions. or maybe I want my dad to love me idk

[bearjuice]

I dream about things I'll never have. I dream about things you will never say and comfort you will never give me. I wish you could give me a reason to miss you more than I miss being happy.

[bearjuice]

I like to cry like this. I like to be in so much pain that I become a middle schooler poet. At least I am somebody.

[bearjuice]

friendship break ups are so hard. what do you mean I told you everything about me and you liked me anyway and now you don't? what do you mean we haven't talked in two months? that doesn't sound like us at all.

[bearjuice]

in a dream I have every night, I relive the way I held your hair in my hands when you let me cut it. i didn't do a great job, but you liked it anyway. you like being able to tell people I cut your hair. i like watching you tell them.

[bearjuice]

these days i am not hurt by the cruelty of it all. when the biggest stars die, they trigger the birth of more. life does not feel quite so angry anymore. those baby stars will grow up and be beautiful for just as long as they were meant to be. i am not afraid i will run out of time. i think i will have as much as i need.

[bearjuice]

i love to live!!! today a leaf floated down from a tree and landed on my head! the universe is patting my head ever so lovingly, telling me to keep going!!! and i will!

[bearjuice]

if i was bald do you think i'd finally have 20/20 vision

[bearjuice]

yeah i dont know who i am! isnt finding out the best part???? im lucky!!! im lucky i get to do it!!!!!!

[bearjuice]

the thing about me is that i quit. forever. no more anything. i will tend to my garden and bake strawberry muffins forever.