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whoever is watching this, i hope watching liam sing still the one and zouis dancing to annoy him makes you smile ♡

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I love these stupid man children that can’t even fucking dance so much it’s ridiculous. Looking back at these videos are just so bittersweet because as much as they bring back amazing memories of times when I was initially falling in love with them, it also saddens me knowing that I will never have this again and somewhere down the line I’ll stop running fan accounts for them and I’ll stop looking for news about them daily. But if there’s one thing I know for sure, it’s that the love I have for them will never fade, maybe it will be less powerful and overwhelming, but it will still be there when I’m old and am listening to Moments or I Wish or A.M.

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since one direction came into my life, every version of me that has existed has loved them.

at 12, i only knew the words to one thing. at 15, i got to introduce the same song to my 6 year old brother at the time who loved it so much that he would constantly make me play it on my tablet and we would jam out together. it is a core memory of mine.

and not long after, i was watching “one direction funny moments” compilations till early hours of the morning, i was so hooked.

at 14, “1D” was spray painted in massive font on my bedroom door. how i got away with putting straight up black paint on a wooden door is beyond me, but remnants of that sign exist to this day in my childhood bedroom. the same bedroom where, for 4 beautiful years, i got to build a sense of self, and get into a lot of fights on the internet, thanks to these five men.

anyone who knows me irl will tell you that to this day, even as a 25 year old college graduate, i credit my understanding of the english language to the fact that i read a lot (and i truly mean a LOT) of one direction fanfiction on wattpad. before watching your favourite concerts on a grainy livestream was a thing, teenage me was getting up at unholy hours to go on youtube and watch every single concert video from the night before. and not only did i follow OTRA from the other side of the world, i stayed in bed for 7 hours straight on 1D day.

i sobbed for hours upon hours in March of 2015, and then again for their last tour stop at Sheffield, and one more time after their performance of History on X-factor. sadness came to me easily- it was the only plausible way to feel in times like these.

i can’t say the same for myself today. i was at my desk at work, doing something on excel for a project, when i got a text from my friend, yelling at me in all caps that a member of one direction- the band that i love so dearly that even at my grown age i refuse to discuss in front of people who know me in real life because they simply won’t get it- has died. my heart sank to the floor, and i couldn’t believe that i’m meant to go about my work day as if everything is normal.

liam’s death made me dissociate from real life from the minute i heard to about ten minutes ago when i started typing this out. knowing and understanding the one direction fandom means that i knew instantly that the public noise surrounding this news will be vapid and abhorrent- especially for his victims who have been courageous enough to speak out about the abuse they have been put through by this man. the exhaustion i felt when i logged onto twitter on the 16th, from the god awful things people were putting out into the world with no regard for the very real people who are being affected by his death, is unfortunately as eerily close to 2013-2015 as i have ever felt.

much like 2013-2015, though, i couldn’t do anything but keep going on twitter. seeing posts from long dead 1D stan accounts who were the only people who could understand the deep confusion and sadness that i was feeling. my timeline hasn’t been this inundated with pure one direction content in many many years, and these were the only people who made me feel less alone. og directions, who have for a while now stopped being a supporter of liam payne for the terrible things he has done since the band’s dissolution, are the only ones who know how confusing this grief has felt.

and then came the joint statement, signed in order of oldest to youngest, from louis, zayn, niall, and harry, and their tributes to one of the 5 (now 4) people in the world who lived through the phenomenon that changed the course of music history for the rest of time. the versions of liam that each of them chose to share with the rest of the world, their love for him, and even the regrets that came from the distance that grew between them- that hurt me more than my own sorrow. at the end of the day, you can’t really take the parasocial obsession out of the teenage girl who lives in me.

i’m sad that in the wake of his death, those he has harmed are going to be unfairly and unjustifiably blamed by the insufferable people who refuse to accept that death does not absolve someone of their wrongdoings.

i’m sad over the loss of a human life, and the loss of the version of one direction- the ot5 version- that is now gone forever. the same one direction that gave me so much joy, helped me through unspeakable pain, and will mean so much to me for as long as i am alive.

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battery acid flavoured nut

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i once dreamt that i was on this school trip to a mountain or something and i got left behind so i ran all the way to this house because i knew everyone would be there. i was really sweaty when i finally got there so i decided to take a shower in this stranger’s bathrooom. turns out it was kris jenner’s house and she freaked the fuck out when she saw me because i had used this really fancy body wash of hers. she was pissed. she called everyone over into the bathroom to watch her scold me and kendall jenner slapped me.

so that is the closest i’ve gotten to meeting a celebrity hbu

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Love you all, Nialler xx

Niall ruining all other men for me. (via heauxforhoran)

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First, with all of this, you have to realize something that music snobs fucking hate: One Direction and the Beatles are very similar. They both got their fame because of a massive, obsessive teenage girl fanbase. The One Direction following is just like Beatlemania. Both One Direction and The Beatles wrote their own music. (Yes, you read that right! Contrary to popular belief, One Direction wrote 52 of the songs on their 5 studio albums). One Direction also are musically gifted, with albums ranging from bubblegum pop, dance, pop-rock, with many rock and indie influences. If you actually sat and listened to an album all the way through (instead of thinking you’re better than them, like most people) you might come to find the massive range of music they have. Speaking of range, One Direction have incredible vocal ranges. (Key Word: Talent). Louis Tomlinson, who is frequently argued as the worst singer of One Direction has a vocal range of A2 -D5. Zayn Malik (having been on 4/5 One Direction’s studio albums) has a vocal range of 3 octaves. Liam Payne has a range of 3 octaves, 4 notes and a semi-tone. The vocal range of John Lennon and Paul McCartney have vocal ranges of C2-D5 and A1-C6, respectively. One Direction have broken several records that were previously held by The Beatles, the most recent being “Perfect” as 1D’s fifth top 10 debut on the Hot 100 beating the Beatles’ four. They were also the first group to ever have each of its first three albums debut at the top spot. (All five of there albums debuted #1 just an fyi). While One Direction may have not preformed over the span of a decade, they managed 4 world-wide tours, 3 being stadium tours and 5 studio albums in only 5 years. You can think about what you want about better music; that aspect is up to the listener. One cannot argue some music is better than others because all music is inherently different. There is music for all walks of life, for any mood and for any time. Music can cross time periods, borders and bring millions of people together. What you cannot argue is that One Direction have not worked hard for what they have, that they are untalented and that they do not deserve what they have rightfully earned. If you do think this you’re the one that is delusional. Plus, no member of 1D has ever beat a woman, so no matter how good their music is, it’s never going to make the members good people.

@fondinglovers destroying a Beatles fan over Facebook (via adaemdevine)

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If the 2012 fandom saw pictures of 1D now

seeing louis: punk edit

seeing zayn: holy mother of punk edits

seeing liam: punk/David Beckham edit

seeing harry: punk/hipster edit

seeing niall: oh look it's niall

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OT4 making their solo US debut

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no words

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beautiful

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hello!  if youre a one direction/aesthetic blog reblog this so i can check you out i need good people to follow, pls be drama free my heart is weak!  🌸

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Chin up, gorgeous. Look at them, look at all of these people who are here to see you. Give them a show, don't hold back because let's be honest, that's all they want from you. It's all a spectacle, my love. Their opinions of you shape you. You are who you are on their accord. You dance to their tunes while they celebrate your authenticity and individuality. No one gives a fuck about who you are. They are just here for the entertainment like blood thirsty hounds who will perish without blood. Without your blood. So, buckle the fuck up and let them have you. The version of you they want.

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fucking love this song

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2111. A metamorphmagus muggleborn having a conversation with a misogynist fuckboy and when he says girls shouldn’t have any body hair, she grows hair on her legs, arms, and face.

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I have always imagined that Paradise will be a kind of library.

Jorge Luis Borges (via quotelife)

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Harry: I’ll only let you talk about my album if you work in something about baking.

Doug Morris: what? No.

Harry: something about a cake maybe…

Doug: the fuck?

Harry: reference baking or I walk.

Doug: *through gritted teeth* this cake is baked…

Harry: now add something about how it just needing some icing.

Doug: no. Absolutely not.

Harry:

Doug:

Harry: I used to be a baker.