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Hi there! My name is Hayden Stern and I'm a multidisciplinary artist working on an installation project about institutionalization, "therapy group" within the institution, and the inner worlds we create to survive loss of autonomy. I am looking for survivors of institutionalization and presently institutionalized people (preferably long term institutionalization/residential care, but if you've been a frequent psych ward visitor feel free to fill out this form as well) to respond to a specific prompt either via voice recording or in writing. This form is a way for me to collect contact info of interested participants so that I can 1) gauge interest in project participation and 2) reach out with next steps if you are a good fit for this project.

You will not be asked to share traumatic memories of your experiences - as a survivor of institutionalization myself, I am sensitive to how painful it can be to dwell on these memories.  However, you will be asked to answer a question you were likely asked while in an institution of some kind, specifically around visualizing a safe space/inner world.

Please share if you're up for it - I'd love to find a wide range of people to participate in this project.

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I've sent out reply emails to almost everyone who responded to the survey so far - check your spam folders if you don't see it. Thank you so much for your interest so far, can't wait to hear from you!

Hi there! My name is Hayden Stern and I'm a multidisciplinary artist working on an installation project about institutionalization, "therapy group" within the institution, and the inner worlds we create to survive loss of autonomy. I am looking for survivors of institutionalization and presently institutionalized people (preferably long term institutionalization/residential care, but if you've been a frequent psych ward visitor feel free to fill out this form as well) to respond to a specific prompt either via voice recording or in writing. This form is a way for me to collect contact info of interested participants so that I can 1) gauge interest in project participation and 2) reach out with next steps if you are a good fit for this project.

You will not be asked to share traumatic memories of your experiences - as a survivor of institutionalization myself, I am sensitive to how painful it can be to dwell on these memories.  However, you will be asked to answer a question you were likely asked while in an institution of some kind, specifically around visualizing a safe space/inner world.

Please share if you're up for it - I'd love to find a wide range of people to participate in this project.

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figure study in watercolor pencil, 2023

[id: a fat man sketched in a warped, wide angle perspective reclines in bed in boxers and a tank top. the piece is drawn in messy watercolor pencil /end id]

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oh and because I got this question - troubled teen programs and wilderness programs absolutely count for this!

Hi there! My name is Hayden Stern and I'm a multidisciplinary artist working on an installation project about institutionalization, "therapy group" within the institution, and the inner worlds we create to survive loss of autonomy. I am looking for survivors of institutionalization and presently institutionalized people (preferably long term institutionalization/residential care, but if you've been a frequent psych ward visitor feel free to fill out this form as well) to respond to a specific prompt either via voice recording or in writing. This form is a way for me to collect contact info of interested participants so that I can 1) gauge interest in project participation and 2) reach out with next steps if you are a good fit for this project.

You will not be asked to share traumatic memories of your experiences - as a survivor of institutionalization myself, I am sensitive to how painful it can be to dwell on these memories.  However, you will be asked to answer a question you were likely asked while in an institution of some kind, specifically around visualizing a safe space/inner world.

Please share if you're up for it - I'd love to find a wide range of people to participate in this project.

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Hi there! My name is Hayden Stern and I'm a multidisciplinary artist working on an installation project about institutionalization, "therapy group" within the institution, and the inner worlds we create to survive loss of autonomy. I am looking for survivors of institutionalization and presently institutionalized people (preferably long term institutionalization/residential care, but if you've been a frequent psych ward visitor feel free to fill out this form as well) to respond to a specific prompt either via voice recording or in writing. This form is a way for me to collect contact info of interested participants so that I can 1) gauge interest in project participation and 2) reach out with next steps if you are a good fit for this project.

You will not be asked to share traumatic memories of your experiences - as a survivor of institutionalization myself, I am sensitive to how painful it can be to dwell on these memories.  However, you will be asked to answer a question you were likely asked while in an institution of some kind, specifically around visualizing a safe space/inner world.

Please share if you're up for it - I'd love to find a wide range of people to participate in this project.

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Hi there! My name is Hayden Stern and I'm a multidisciplinary artist working on an installation project about institutionalization, "therapy group" within the institution, and the inner worlds we create to survive loss of autonomy. I am looking for survivors of institutionalization and presently institutionalized people (preferably long term institutionalization/residential care, but if you've been a frequent psych ward visitor feel free to fill out this form as well) to respond to a specific prompt either via voice recording or in writing. This form is a way for me to collect contact info of interested participants so that I can 1) gauge interest in project participation and 2) reach out with next steps if you are a good fit for this project.

You will not be asked to share traumatic memories of your experiences - as a survivor of institutionalization myself, I am sensitive to how painful it can be to dwell on these memories.  However, you will be asked to answer a question you were likely asked while in an institution of some kind, specifically around visualizing a safe space/inner world.

Please share if you're up for it - I'd love to find a wide range of people to participate in this project.

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spent today hand stamping my 90 (!) prints

[id a somewhat messy pile of three prints. the first is a branch with leaves where the stem has been glitched to curve rapidly. the second is a collaged print with many layers of glitched doily. the third is a collage of rolled up millipedes. each is embellished with color]

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your art is gorgeous and makes me want to paint again!!!!

thank you so much! i hope you start painting again!

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Untitled Study, 2021, acrylic on canvas panel

a quick (1-2 hour) figure study of a friend

[id: a painting of a fat woman sitting at a stool in an office, reclined back with hands in her hair, covering her face. her feet are kicked up on top of her desk]

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Madonna and Child in the Fluorescent Kitchen, acrylic on paper, 2021

[id: a fat, transmasculine person holds a fluffy orange cat in a beige kitchen under bright, fluorescent lighting]

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a cover painting I was commissioned to make for the anthology Fashion Education: The Systemic Revolution, edited by Dr. Ben Barry and Dr. Deborah Christel. oil on paper, 2022.

[id: three figures stand against a stark yellow background. the left one is a fat man wearing a navy lace shirt with a low cut v-neck and navy trousers with a pleated half skirt. the middle figure is a SWANA woman with spinal muscular atrophy in a navy blue powerchair. she is wearing a purple hijab and bright pink clothes and smirking at the viewer. the right most figure is a Black nonbinary person wearing a blue, pink, and yellow dress with a tutu style skirt, along with matching boots.]

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Are you selling the "taking a break" piece? I had such a deep salient transformative sensation when I saw it

Unfortunately, the original for that one is sold! I’m stocking postcard size prints in my shop at the end of the month-ish (whenever they arrive from the printer - I’ll make a post when they’re listed in my shop), but if you’re looking for a larger print I can sell one off high quality giclee fine art prints - feel free to DM me if that’s something you’re interested in!

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i’ve ordered postcard prints - they’ll arrive late Jan/early Feb so I’ll list them as soon as they’re here and i can take cute product photos!

i’m planning to update my shop today and make a pinned post with info about buying prints, patreon etc, since people have been asking in their extremely kind tags, but i wanted to ask if y’all had preferences around print size? like would you want something cheaper and more postcard size, standard 8”x10”, or are poster options more exciting?

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going thru and blocking all the t*erfs who have reblogged this, so just to make it clear: my art blog is fundamentally about the goodness and holiness of being a transsexual, thanks. and for the rest of you who don’t suck, free blocklist in these notes i guess :/

Taking A Moment, oil on canvas, 2021

[id: a fat woman sits in the shower, partially obscured, smoking a joint. behind her, hanging on the grab bar, are two sex toys]

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Tending, oil on canvas, 2021

[id: a nude, fat woman stands in her bedroom, facing toward a shelf covered in house plants. she reaches her arm up towards one of the plants, taking in the morning light]

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artist info!

my name is Hayden Stern, and I’m a trans, disabled artist based in the PNW. i make work about fatness, disability, trans embodiment, and the magic to be found in surviving the unsurvivable. I work in whatever medium feels right in the moment - often that is pastel, acrylic, oil, and textile, but I’ve been known to surprise people.

web store: haydenstern.com/shop - there are a few offerings currently available, postcard prints drop February 1st 2023

patreon: patreon.com/bioluminator - i occasionally post updates here, but it’s primary function is as a recurring tip jar to help keep me making stuff and posting it online!

ko-fi: ko-fi.com/bioluminator

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i’m planning to update my shop today and make a pinned post with info about buying prints, patreon etc, since people have been asking in their extremely kind tags, but i wanted to ask if y’all had preferences around print size? like would you want something cheaper and more postcard size, standard 8”x10”, or are poster options more exciting?