bipanicdisco

[bipanicdisco]

Hey, you. If you’re reading this, first of all- thank you. Second of all, I hope you’ll call me Raz, Razzy, Razzlin, Razzle Dazzle, or Razzamatazz and all that Jazz. Yes, it’s a pseudonym. It’ll have to do, I’m afraid. At least for now.

I had originally planned to begin this blog on Substack, but I quickly realized a few things.

1) Lack of privacy: My friends and family members were finding my account despite turning off various friend-finding features. Seeing as I’m not “out” to everyone in my life and I’m not ready to be, this is a problem.

2) I realized my “community” is here. On tumblr. I don’t plan to charge for my writings- it’s not why I write, and it put a lot of pressure on me to make things perfect….

3) But when it comes down to it, what I’m seeking from this blog is to create connections with other like-minded people. People who will read what I have to say and say, “Wow. I have a lot in common with this person. I’d like to get to know them better / be friends / be more.”

Dating sites in 2025 are dreadfully lacking. As a writer, I find them depressing. 500 characters is not enough space for me to tell you who I am as a person. The things that excite me, the things that bring me to my knees. It encourages small talk, when I hate small talk. I would much rather know and understand your philosophy, the way you tick, the reasons you do things the way you do— and in return, feel understood myself.

I’m tired of getting firehosed by people who never actually read my profile, starting conversations with “Hey.” Hey nothing. You fool no one when you open like that. It comes across as a person who is just messaging en masse, and I’m over here seeking real connections.

I’m not saying that Tumblr is a suitable replacement, but I’ve made connections in the unlikeliest of places. Discord servers. Through friends of friends on msn messenger (Yes, I’m aging myself now- I’m 36 at the writing of this post.) And what I guess I *am* saying is this: I don’t want my next relationship to be anything less than amazing, and I know that in order for that to work for me, I need to be friends with the person for a long time before trying to date.

I’m casting a wide net, in search of friends only, and perhaps if I’m lucky, some day I’ll meet someone who doesn’t get filtered out and shows potential beyond friendship. Maybe something happens. Maybe it doesn’t.

In the meantime, I’ll be writing and posting things that are close to my heart. My experiences. And maybe, hopefully, I’ll make some connections with people who can relate. Some best friends. Some interesting people.

So, what makes me worth talking to?

I am a deep thinker. Writing is my hobby. Whether writing blog posts on Tumblr, writing smut, or erotic roleplay with D&D characters. My writing ranges from journal entries to high fantasy to erotic fiction. I’d love to make friends with more writers.

I’m a sensitive, hypervigilant, sweet person who likes to take care of her friends, and is also ungovernable, a flirt, and naughty when feeling my most comfortable around others. It takes a while for me to open up in this way, but it’s a part of my personality my closest friends must be okay with embracing.

I’m a gamer. Video games and D&D, and board games to a lesser degree. I love games that let us tell a story and create something together.

I’m an artist and graphic designer. I’ve illustrated books, designed and photographed products, designed catalogs, emails, social graphics, print work and more. I love watercolor painting and ink, have painted some oil pieces, and often draw digital works of art. I recently began leatherworking and love it.

I love travel. I’d love having a friend to travel with. I am not, but easily could be, a digital nomad. I work from a laptop and don’t need to be in a fixed location. I stayed nearly two months in total over two trips to Brazil. I’d love to travel Europe. I want to see the world. I’d love to have someone to do that with, and to be able to stay long enough in a single location to be able to explore slowly and not rush.

As an extension, I know some Portuguese. I was conversational at the end of last summer, but some things happened that caused me to put aside my tutoring.

I’m a democrat who is highly anxious and has a hard time talking about politics. I’ve had 3 panic attacks since the inauguration, and I need people in my life who believe similarly without insisting on talking about it constantly. It’s very bad for my mental health. I’m probably not as liberal as you want me to be. I don’t like applying stereotypes to any group of people, including problematic ones.

I’m a cis woman who is bi, who has a dating preference towards other bi people, cis or not. It’s just a hard world out there, and it’s really nice to feel understood.

I’m a kinkster, into BDSM. I’m a subby switch and am interested in other switches, preferably dommy switches. I like the *idea* of leather culture but honestly don’t know how to get into it.

I love passionate people. Tell me about what you love.

I want to know about your favorite D&D character. Heck, I would love to roleplay-platonically or erotically-with them if they’re a good match with one of my characters and fit within my range of interests.

I think I’m going to leave it at this for now. I have many a post I’ll be able to write later about myself, life, and everything in it. But I hope, for now, this has been a decent intro.

Love,

Razzy