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Me, when someone asks me if I’m sad:

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me: *starts dissociating*

me @ me: why are we dissociating nothing bad even happened yet

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when u feel urself dissociating but u don’t even give a shit anymore

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Guys I’m so funny

pls laugh

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Therapist: “Are you experiencing any suicidal thoughts?”

Me:

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me 30 mins ago: a crying mess on the bathroom floor while eating cherries 

me now: lmao that was so wild 

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deleting your vent post 3 minutes after compulsively writing it

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depression: who would ever love you?

me: 

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Things that don’t make a person any less beautiful for having:

- stretch marks - acne - skin conditions - overbites - scars - body fat - eye bags/dark circles - mental illnesses - disabilities - low self esteem - speech impediments - trauma - a different gender than the one they were assigned - sex - to take medication - eating disorders

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Me: I’m going to be SO productive today

Also me: *dissociates for five hours*

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BPD be like

3 straight days of no positive thoughts about myself and crying myself to sleep.

1 positive thought enters my brain about myself: I’m a fucking goddess, mkay 💅💅💅

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if you have ever suffered from…

• depression

• anxiety

• eating disorder

• self-harm

• ocd

• bipolar

• feelings of guilt and hopelessness

• suicidal thoughts

can you please reblog to show support for people who also suffer.

you are not alone.

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A lesson on dissociation/dissassociation:

Dissociation can be difficult to understand, especially if you haven’t had much experience in knowledge of it. Dissociation in basics represents a disconnect among one’s thoughts, emotions, behaviors, memories, and identity. Below is a list of classic signs that you are dissociating.

Depersonalization: Depersonalization is the experience of feeling separation from yourself and your body. People who experience such a feeling usually observe that they feel like they are watching their own body from the outside, or from another perspective.

Derealization: Derealization is vaguely similar to depersonalization, but it is a feeling of detachment from the external world, such as other people or objects. Derealization may cause familiar things to become unfamiliar.

Amnesia: Some people who experience dissociation have fluent periods of amnesia, of which they are feeling as if they don’t know who or where they are. There can be any amount of time in which they are awake and alert but cannot remember what they were doing.

Identity Confusion: Probably the most common experience, this occurs when a sufferer experiences an inner struggle about who they really are, their identity, what their personality is, why they are alive etc.

Identity Alteration: This is an experience of a person who senses that they act like a different person some of the time, creating a personality tailored to take place around each specific person in one’s life. Things like voices, clothing and interests differ amongst each loved one.

A common occurance of dissociation in everyday life is zoning out. You might be walking along the street, listening to music and you become so unfocused on reality and so focused on a thought or image that you miss a section of conscious walking. And to your surprise, you’re still upright and walking.

All of this is very common in bpd, and it can be quite frightening if it’s never happened to you before. The first step is accepting that you do dissociate. We have experienced a series of traumatic events and our minds try to block it out in an attempt of protection. You will have to accept that in a stressful environment, memories of the trauma will try to come back, but it is only a natural way of your brain reminding you of the danger and as a result we dissociate to stay safe. Many will not have the ability to face those traumas right then, however that does not mean you never will. But, a dissociative episode can be dangerous depending on where you are, so it’s definitley best to try your hardest to refocus and rettach if you can. Stay safe out there.