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Defeat 🐺

i cant be bothered to finish rendering :/

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Hidden but Safe

Summary: Santino attended to a meeting in his usual outfit, but the only difference now was that beneath the waistcoat he managed to put on there was a hidden little secret that was still a bit too difficult for Santino to accept. However, in the car, John helped him accept this new part of himself in a very hot and beautiful way.

Rating: Explicit, A/B/O dynamics

Relationship: Santino D'Antonio/John Wick

Note: I was thinking about mpreg Santino again and how I think he would be a little embarrassed because of his bump. Like, he'd wanna wear his suits and vests no matter the pregnancy lmao but, yeah sorry Santino it's not easy for you. I'll be very busy this month with exams, so I'm not sure how much time I'll have for writing (I'm very sad about that), but I really wanted to write this one and post it even if I wasn't feeling too well, I was really working hard on it.

Hopefully, it was good enough! Please enjoy these two having a moment in a car ;]

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A couple of High Table members required a meeting about territories and overall their terms. The meeting was important and the called members had to show up, they had no other choice but to follow the rule. One of those members was Santino D'Antonio. Usually, he wouldn't really complain about the meetings, especially if it was about something he was interested in.

However, considering his current condition, it became a little bit of a problem. His little secret, hidden under his suit that was uncomfortably cradled by his waistcoat. The bump grew to a noticeable size, but was still manageable to hide with clothes to which Santino insisted on, ignoring his partner John’s advice.

Today, Santino partly regretted his own decision. The room felt so suffocating, everyone and everything sounded too loud, there was a weird scent that kept annoying him, no sitting position helped no matter how many times he shifted in his seat, his clothes felt uncomfortable. He was exhausted from everything, the meeting was so boring, nothing that he would like to be a part of.

They really picked a fucking time to get on my nerves. There weren't any meetings for two months, while I still could wear my clothes comfortably. Well… I didn't expect it to grow that fast. I should've known… after all, it's John's child, too.

Santino was lost in a daydream while the two elders talked for a bit longer for his liking. It just made him even more disoriented and annoyed.

Not too far away from him stood John, who was carefully observing him. As his bodyguard, it was his duty to protect him. But also as his partner, to keep him safe in a loving way, not just because of their contract. He was worried, he could sense the discomfort from his lover.

“Mr. D'Antonio, what do you think of that idea?” One of them spoke, snapping the Camorra prince out of his daydream.

Santino blinked, straightening himself and regretted it since that position with a deep inhale made his shirt and belt squeeze harder against his bump.

“I…” He paused to clear his throat. Damn, he could use some water, his throat felt so dry. “I'd like to consult with my bodyguard first.” He gave a quick glance and a nod at John, who was already walking towards him.

The bodyguard leaned over, blocking the curious looks of the other members. They continued murmuring among themselves while John observed his partner.

“You okay?” He asked quietly, fighting all of his instincts to place his hand on his back in a comforting way.

Before answering, D'Antonio reached for the glass of water that was prepared for each member. “Yes, just… what were they even talking about?” He asked quietly, his pride offended by letting himself get lost in his thoughts in a meeting.

“They're trying to make a deal about territories and sharing their goods,” John explained quietly.

Santino let out a long, dramatic sigh before answering, “What does that have to do with me?” He pinched his eyes shut in frustration.

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Love Louder Than Wounds

Summary: Love, patience and understanding can heal a person, but it stays a slow process. John and Santino experience this truth after Santino goes through a traumatic incident and the resulting nightmares. John stays his biggest support, despite Santino trying to push him away time and time again.

Rating: Mature, graphic description of violence, TW - self-harm, blood, panic attack, emetophobia warning, intense nightmare, character having spiraling thoughts! Please read the tags on Ao3, I put trigger warning also here since this is a heavy fic!

Relationship: Santino D'Antonio/John Wick

Note: This fic wasn't planned, it just happened when I was in a really bad mental place and I needed to project. Some parts became harder for me to write due to a stressful situation I had not so long ago (emetophobia related), and I was worried this fic wouldn't be done how I wanted it to be. It's been really difficult for me lately, everything was too much... I needed to write it into a fic. I was self projecting into Santino, so if he feels OOC, I'm sorry, but it was how I wanted to write him for this specific fic. It's hard to deal with spiraling thoughts on a daily basis, especially when they convince you that your worst fears and insecurities are real, and you have to try and snap yourself out of it. It's not that easy, at least it isn't for me. I wanted to show in this fic how difficult that can be, and how with patience, love, no pressure and time, it can be slowly healed.

This fic means a lot to me personally and I really tried my best to write it and push through everything that was happening. Thank you anyone who reads it, it means a lot to me! <3

Not everything is so dark in this fic tho!! There are sweet moments with Santino and John being sweet fiancés and Dog is here too! :]

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The room was dark, there was no sound except for the occasional sound of the wind, the floor felt cold under Santino's feet, as if he was walking on tiles. There was a foul smell of blood, cigarettes and dust in the air, making him feel dizzy and nauseous.

He couldn't move further away, there were chains on his heels, wrists… and on his neck. Cold and suffocating, aching with every swallow. It triggered his anxiety that quickly turned into panic. His throat was burning, his heartbeat speeding up, his body shaking and feeling tingly, like it wasn't his body anymore.

Santino knew where he was and he knew what was coming. He couldn't scream, he couldn't move, he could only freeze in a sudden horrible sensation.

It was warm, burning his skin. The blood. It was dripping down his back and chest, hitting the floor with a wet heavy splat. His stomach twisted to the feeling and noise, he felt acid sizzling along his throat.

It was disgusting, gruesome, painful and shameful. To be seen like this, to be in this position in the first place.

There was a punch into his ribs, then a knife into his back, then into his thigh, then hands suffocating his throat. It was too much, he could hear them yelling, he could hear them cursing at him.

I don't want this. Stop. Make it stop. Please, stop, stop, stop!

Santino woke up with a choked sob, gasping as his body jolted against the mattress, completely disoriented.

“Hey, hey, you're okay. You're safe, it's okay.” Came from a familiar gentle voice.

It took Santino a few seconds to blink away tears and focus on his surroundings and his fiancé, John, who was next to him, brushing a wet curl off his forehead, trying to ground him.

“Shh, you're here with me. Breathe, love. You're at home with me,” John murmured, gently taking a hold of his fiancé's hand, giving a light squeeze on it.

The other man made an attempt to speak, but all that came out was a whimper and the embarrassment overflowed him so he turned his head away from his partner, squeezing his eyes shut hard, enough to feel them pinch.

“It's okay. Try to take some deep breaths for me. I'll help you, okay?” John waited for his companion to show him any sign that he was going to cooperate, he knew he had to be patient and gentle. Santino in this state was the most sensitive.

With another sharp inhale, D'Antonio nodded, and that was his partner's cue.

John helped him sit up, adjusting the pillows so he could lean against them, moving the sheets off his chest so he could breathe better. He noticed how sweaty he was, his shirt soaked over his chest and his skin glistening from the sweat as if he was hit with a fever.

He kissed his temple, murmuring to start breathing like they practiced before. Santino followed after a failed first attempt, he closed his eyes, inhaling, holding his breath for a couple of seconds and exhaling deeply.

“Good, keep going,” John praised, inhaling with him, holding his hand while with the other one he rubbed his thigh. Although breathing deeply worked most of the time, Santino often needed John's touch to work better through it.

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I hope I'll be able to draw Santino one day (as a human bc i can only somewhat draw antrho animals💔)

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W Magazine March 2009 - Madonna & Jesus Luz by Steven Klein

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L'Uomo perfetto

Riccardo Scamarcio

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hiiiiii ^_^ do you like fandom whump or OC whump more? and in either case what characters/tropes/tags will make you most likely to click on a fic?

Hiii! :D

I used to only read fandom whump from anything I was interested in, and I still read that. I wasn't really active here, hadn't known anyone who was writing OCs, but ever since I became active here, I met more people with OCs and I'm really enjoying their stories too! So, it's still hard for me to choose which I like more, and I wanna read more oc stories, wanna meet more ocs! I really like both ^^

I'm still very much into Santino D'Antonio x John Wick HEHE so ofc I'll click on that immediately, and I'm writing them (they're so good with whump tropes!) :). I like other characters from other movies/games/shows too, and if there are characters I like with tropes I like, I'll click on it!

I like lots of whump tropes hehe, especially hurt/comfort, anything with a character being hurt and they get comfort from someone. Or they don't, so they deal with it on their own >:]. Exhaustion, headaches, treating wounds, recovery, living weapon, non human whump, emotional hurt/comfort, overworking, passing out and MANY MORE tags and tropes that I really love reading about! I also love alternative universe, like kingdom/royalty, medieval au, werewolf and vampire au, a/b/o dynamics and others! :)

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Helloo! :3

What is one of your favorite whump tropes? Do you have any that you like that are underrated?

yay hi :3

favorite of all time is definitely dehumanization and it’s what i have been going crazy over lately. whether it is institutionalized abuse where everyone is fine with witnessing whumpee being mistreated or a situation where the people around them are horrified but whumper does it anyway. theyre both so good. whumpee being treated like they arent even sentient and talked about like theyre not even in the room ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

for underrated / things i wish i saw more of i would like there to be more rocky recovery stories and more that focus in on whumpee’s self destructive behavior and what they might take to gain back control. more exploration of maladaptive coping mechanisms.

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John moping around the house Wick is Pain (2025)

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@important-dog-pics

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skyrim scenery - part 18

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Last chance before this print leaves my store!

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Whumpee: *finally falls asleep on Caretaker's lap*

Teammate: *walks in* Hey, Caretaker, do you kno-

Caretaker: ....*the most terryfying threatening glare seen by humanking*

Teammmate: Okay, okay I'm going

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Which do you prefer: whumpee getting beat up, or whumpee suffering because of their own emotional state/thoughts?

I like both this was so hard to choose 😭

I'll pick whumpee suffering because of their own emotional state/thoughts! I really like that for many reasons. Whumpee can suffer in silence. They might appear okay on the outside, but they are really suffering on the inside. Or they show some signs on the outside like they look exhausted, zone out/stare into the same spot for a few seconds, might not eat enough, etc.

Ooo, also doing unhealthy coping mechanisms! Like smoking too much, drinking more alcohol, engaging in some risky things because they just want to escape from their thoughts that are eating them on the inside, consuming them, making their daily life difficult.

And of course, spiraling! Overthinking a lot just makes them feel worse. Maybe they just wanna be left alone then, or if they have their Caretaker, they can help them the best they can.

There's more I like for this trope, and I enjoy reading and writing it! More whumpees suffering mentally please! :]

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What is an underrated whump trope that you really like? :3

In-depth discussions of feelings!! I like to see one character demand of another, "Why are you acting this way?" Or, "What are you feeling?" and get a real answer. I also LOVE to see a character say in advance that a situation is going to be upsetting for them and that they'll need extra support, or tell a Caretaker what to do with them when they're triggered.

I know a lot of people think it's unrealistic to have characters like mafia members or bandits talking about their motivations in detail, but I think it can be handled well. They don't need to have gone to therapy to be capable of this. Most of us do think about our desires and try to figure out questions like, "what do I really want out of a relationship," or "why do bad things keep happening to me," or "why do I keep lashing out when I don't mean to?" They may not arrive at healthy answers, but people do have complicated ideas about who they are and what they want, and often have a lot of self-awareness and guilt about what they're doing to others. They might talk about the way they were raised or their faith or the things they worry about in the future. Of course that's on their mind - it really shows that a character is thinking about this and living with it every day.

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whumpee exhausted and on pain meds after a terrible experience, mumbling things that only halfway make sense to caretaker. caretaker smiles tiredly and strokes their forehead, and just tells them they can go to sleep.

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I have been reading egg laying stories because I find the thought of arousal and orgasm during birth super hot. But I feel guilty when it's a baby. Like you are literally getting off to the feel of your child's body in your sexual orifice...it just feels more than a little suss yk??? So I have been trying to stick to eggs. But I am more and more tempted to read stories where it is a baby pup(s) etc. Not an egg. Would this be wrong and should I try harder to stick to just eggs? Or just read whatever I want since it's all fiction and even if I ever have a baby I doubt I would feel that way in reality? Thxxx

Hello! This is a good question and a feeling that happens often to others too!

So, there is a difference between fiction and reality. I'll explain for fiction, but yeah, some ppl are into this irl, too. Everyone is different. Also, these are my opinions! Anyways, finding these things hot while reading a fanfic is, in my opinion, normal, and you DON'T have to be into that irl. You can only find it hot in fanfics, and that's okay! Egg laying might feel "safer" to enjoy since, like you said, when it's birth with a child, to some, it could feel a bit weird. However, it's all fiction! In my opinion, there's nothing wrong with reading that as long as you're comfortable with it. In fanfics, we know it's all fiction, not reality, so enjoying it that was can feel better and different than in real life.

I can understand your worries, that's all normal, too. I'm personally not into pregnancy or anything with it irl, I find it scary and uncomfortable, and there are many other reasons why I don't like it. But I like reading fanfics with mpreg and eggpreg, and I think there's nothing wrong with that! Like I said, it's all fiction!

To answer your questions! No, it wouldn't be wrong to read about pregnancy or birth that's not eggs. You don't have to try harder to stick to eggs. Yes, read whatever you want since it's all fiction! Like you said, you doubt you'll feel like that irl, so really you don't have to worry about it! You can find it hot only in fanfics and not irl, that's okay!

I hope I was helpful! :]