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It's me lounging on the sofa one afternoon trying to find something to preoccupy myself after vlogging. I just felt like photographing myself without being excessive about it.

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Wed. Sept, 28, 2022

I've spent my day online posting new developments in my life to update them on my pages on here w/tumblr and to instagram too. I watched CTN with my mother for a little bit because we're Christian and live under the same roof. But I can't help but wonder about cable t.v. as I watch broadcast t.v. digitally on our flat-screen. It's been a steady while since we've had cable in our home. But because we do our upmost to stay within our home budget, since it is her 🏠 and I live there with her -- weve kept our resolve well. As my mother is strict about overspending and going over budget and with what she is able to afford I can't help but hope secretly that she lightens up some and with a sort of helpfully welcoming fluke, we opt for cable again. I don't enjoy being lonely and besides myself at the house without a solution to help my loneliness. No, I search for things to do for myself and update my pages. It helps the time and let's people I know be comforted that I am still there amongst them. So I keep ☺ hopeful. It's no use letting myself grieve about it if it's what makes me forget to get up,stand up and do something for myself to help the day along. I'm pleased to be part of the age of social-networking. I just need better connections to be able to group with friends I'm able to meet and really know them in order to let them into my community to know me. 😌 I need the contact. It would help my situation. If God or the powers that be can hear me I say this, let me have a group so that I can accompany a circle and clique with them. It would move my situation along. And expectantly I can godwillingly move ahead with the people who want to know me instead of just being null about it and wasting my time. I don't want to do that anymore. So I'm going to go out of my way for it so that it happens.... I will come back with more...

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IfSo I head on now to complete the rest of my post about my time at a mental facility. I enjoyed Reefscapes: Nature's aquarium for the two days I enjoyed it for recreational therapy at Gracepoint - Wellness center. While staying there I nearly got into it with a few of the patients there. One instant when I was outside watching the patients play in the basketball 🏀 court and another in the dayroom - sitting area. But I resolved to myself that I was being too mean. I had been able to think this to myself while I had been outside. I got mad at one of the guy patients for getting so emotionally grand that he started slamming the basketball too hard on the cement. And the other instance was with a young lady in the sitting area with another guy patient there while. We were watching t.v. I made a few several remarks for their under-radar-quipped remarks making fun of me and was honestly ignored by them when I commented back some disguised remarks toward them.. but the real dewzy was when we had our 'daily affirmations' recreational therapy... she wrote an affirmation (well, modeling an honest critique) down on my sheet in marker to me about how I was being to judgemental and too hard with my attitude... I honestly wrote back on her sheet that judges are normally judgemental and hardly silent about it... she seemed a bit offended by my scrawled remark and made a face at me whilst looking over her shoulder to me. I calm but shakily ignored her and moved on with the t.v. and reefscapes. And the rest of the day had been them and a few other young patients with them making more disguised remarks while laughing about it as I sat there... I just basically ignored them some more turning my attention and watching the movie that presently played... i was so greatful when lunch and dinner came around. It had been the much needed break I just had to have just to be able to get over it. The other young chick I met there who told me she's a stripper became a close little friend of mine and we would give each other a place in the cafeteriah line so that we wouldn't be behind on our time in the lunchroom because the line was long... before I left she had an emotional breakdown because the doctor told her she would get to go home early but her father suddenly changed his mind when she called him to talk about it... i felt really bad for her seeing her be like that.. she was so loud and her cry had been reduced to the sound of a big crying baby... i don't qrite that intending hosptile and mean or write irresponsibly about her, but she had gotten really emotional in front of everybody and everyone looked at each other as if they were stumped about what they could do about it the other white nineteen year old girl that had been there seriously tried to calm her down but ... (lets say her name is Jherrie I faintly disguise it for privacy) wouldn't have it because he had been that emotional. Suddenly the therapist came to my hall and informed that my stay at the mental hospital would soon be over and that my uncle would be taking me home.So the next some several days had been me trying to call my mother and uncle just to get in touch with them. The following day I spent watching Spiderman 3 and Harry Potter and Big Hero Six and I made it in time for to have breakfast and eat lunch. Soon afterward in the noontime my uncle showed up to give me a ride home. I said goodbye to the nurses and techs there and was escourted by a tech assistant there to one of the facilitiy's few to many lobbies until I got to the glass double doors where I found my uncle waiting for me outside. I got to my tumblr as soon as I made it to the house here and got to having a talk with my mother before I got around to watching my favorite vloggers on yt. Today is Wednesday and my mother just got back from nursing school I have so much to plan and so much to get around to with my work schedule 📅. I have to settle myself down and use it to think out what I need to for myself to keep me going....I'll return in next post.

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So I am back. I am back from my brief stint at the mental hospital. Don't go thinking I've gone all crazy and now I'm not worth the time, now... I got into it with my mother which is why the poice were called. And because they were called, I couldn't stay the night for fear of another incident/situation... So I was placed in the mental hospital for a brief stay. Following my stay there I was questioned by the doctor who works there. He asked me if I have a past mental history with mental hospitals, I admitted 'yes'. 😑 He asked me a series of questions which included what sorts of activities I do at home 🏡 and what things I do on my spare time. I admitted that I youtube frequently. He complimented me and went on to ask me about my past history with meds (ical) I discussed the facts of my situation with that and told him what he needed to hear.. . After the discussion he told me what he'll prescribe for me and my new placement in an available room.. . I respectively obliged and was escourted to their availed room.. . During my stay it was a matter of keeping to myself and out of their patients way.. the people that I recalled there was a handsomely. fit young gentleman with curly red hair. I kept out of his way.. his serial attitude was what Kept me away from him.. there was a nineteen year old girl who's name I'm not able to recall, a lanky young gentleman named Leonard IL, I remember, an eighteen year old girl of color who told me she's a stripper and a sturdily built young gentleman who had to have been six foot one and weighed at least 290 to suit his height. What we did while we were there was watch 🎬 movies, and patcticipated activities with the recreational therapist who works there.. . We used markers to color our papered sheets of printed images of various sayings, things and objects. As I am writing this I've received a phone call from a guy friend of mine who inquires how I'm doing.. I don't know what to tell him since it is my mother who's discussed my complicated situation to him.. So back to my story, I spend my first night there and sleep somewhat heavy for it. When I awake I am alerted by the voice of the nurse there walking a ways down the hall for everyone to wake up. I rise out of bed reluctantly and were off to breakfast, my first there. 😋 it consists of a bowl of oatmeal an 🍊 juice cup, an egg and cheese biscuit sandwich, with a small container and papered lid of cereal. Everyone enjoys their breakfast and then get back in line for seconds.. I however,, keep to my seat and finish mine which is my first serving.. after disposing the refuse I line up and am taken back to the hall with the other patients.. upon my return I find all the 🚪s to our rooms locked up. They do that to encourage our activity on the hall... this frustrates me because all I am wanting to do after eating breakfast is go back to bed and sleep... but the nurses and technicians keep their hall's neat... so I make myself sit in the open den-sitting area to watch what's on 📺 but it isn't aything to get all perked up over. We get back to watching movies again once one of the patients pop one in to watch. It is the kids movie 'Mathida' I didn't want to hate on the movie but couldn't help wanting to watch something that was more worthwhile. So I entertained the movie despite its obvious goofs and plot contaditctions. It's an overall good kids movie to boot. We continue watching movies well into lunch ⏲ and after returning from the cafeteria to the hall we watch movies for the rest of the day we'll into the evening. It was a series of waking up for meds, early morning and breakfast and then returning to the hall finding our doors locked. I don't think I ever got used to it. But one of the best and most outstanding part of my stay there were the recreational activities with the therapist. We wrote down aspirations we thought up while listening to Reefscapes: Nature's Aquarium on the DVD player on t.v. by afternoon. ItS Very beautiful to hear and a visually picturesque spectacle to watch. But I'll share more with you on my next post.