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I hate so much my legs I want to cry.. 

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I will reach your weight hopefully soon

Height 5'7

SW 57,7kg

CW 55,2kg

I don't know why I look tan. I haven't seen the sun in a whole year. 2,5kg lost so far

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ED

I tend to lose 1,3 lbs each day by exercising / working out 1 hour and half at the gym (and I never forget to stretch for 15 minutes) .

I always start with a 30 min, rapid walk (I dont run as it damages my knee) on a tapis roulant ( with a 2 percent inclination).

Then I work on abs, inner thighs, outer thighs, arms , leg muscles and I make sure I take my vitamins and eat plenty of fruit as fuel before and after workout.

Remember to take pauses when you feel dizzy, dont force yourself or you’ll pass out. Listen to your body, be kind to your body. 

Fruits contain great glucose for your organism and it is healthy. It s not processed . You can have plenty.

I drink hot tea for breakfast and drink water all day long especially once I wake up and while working out , and less during the evening.

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I found a doctor like this… and I almost cried… my “bad” cholesterol was 2 points above “perfect”, otherwise 100% healthy on the tests, and she said “body size doesn’t indicate health. There are large people that are unhealthy, there are large people who are perfectly healthy. There are small people that are unhealthy, and there are small people who are perfectly healthy. Healthy isn’t a specific body size.” I love her. 

For a moment I felt like I was in the Twilight Zone.

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Do you think this is a pretty sight? This is the reality of having anorexia for 12+ years. The reality of what eating disorders can do to your body.

When I was in high school and then in college getting my bachelors degree, I spent more time in hospitals and treatment centers than I did out of them.

And then I found out

My organs failed. Permanently.

Last year, I needed major surgery that took about 4 HOURS, and after that I was admitted to the hospital for a week on heavy pain medications, being wheeled around because I couldn’t walk.

I had tubes everywhere.

I had to medically withdraw from graduate school because I had to spend that time in doctors offices, infusion centers for IVs, in the ER, or admitted into the hospital.

Now I have a 6 inch scar across my abdomen and will be on medications for the rest of my life to help my heart and stomach function enough to keep me alive.

I’ve nearly died multiple times from the ED, but I had never believed that my organs could shut down and leave me to deal with that reality for the rest of my life.

That is not a way anyone should have to live life.

This is what an eating disorder looks like. Not the “thinspo” everyone sees on the Internet. This is what you don’t see behind those pictures and it’s not pretty.

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i refuse to waste another year in a body i hate

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ribs starting to show.

Work in progress.

Post 1h and half of workout

#thispo #ed #anorexia #weightloss #gw #tw #legspo #ana #anamia #skinny #thin #thinspiration #bodycheck #mia #mental help #society #weight #bonespo #caloric restriction

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#thispo#ed#anorexia#weightloss#gw#tw#legspo#ana#anamia#skinny#thin#thinspiration#bodycheck#mia#mental help#society#weight#bonespo#caloric restriction

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i don’t have anywhere else to say this so i’m saying it here so scroll if you want i just,,, my sister used to have an ed in high school and then she made mad progress in college and has recovered and i’m so proud of her but she’s started intermittent fasting and i’m a little concerned tbh. i don’t think her mental state is ed but intermittent fasting is literally just ed behavior by a different name? given, the mentality of control and such is 99% of an ed and not the actual eating itself but i just really don’t want her to relapse and it would be too easy to shave off an hour here or an hour there and end up with a 30 minute eating window or smthn… idk man diet culture just fucking sucks and i want the best for her and i think intuitive eating would be better than starving for a set amount of time even if she’s hungry then eating only during certain hours. i don’t fucking know though she seems happy but i just know how easy it is to say i want to do this the healthy way and end up back in the same place

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dont repost 

Body Check. Dont be afraid to tell me what you think 

67.5 kg / 148.8 lbs

 #thispo #ed #anorexia #weightloss #gw #tw #legspo #ana #anamia #skinny #thin# thinspiration #bodycheck #mia #mental help #society #weight #bonespo #caloric restriction 

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26 yo female         5′7  /  171 cm 

SW. 154.3     lbs    (71 KG)

CW1. 145.5     lbs    (66 KG)

CW2. 12/28/21     142.1. lbs.    (64.5 KG)

CW3.   01/01/22.   139.9 lbs.    (63.5 KG)

GW1. 138.8  lbs    (63 KG)

GW2. 132.2  lbs   (60 KG)                     

GW2. 125.6 lbs    (57 KG)

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So, this is my story.

Ten/Nine years ago I was around 16/17 years old and my parents put me in a private catholic school full of “model”girls. I started a crazy homemade diet , I remember counting every single calories intake, walk half an hour each day to go to school and gym evevryday for 1 hour and half. I dropped 10/12 kg in two months and a half. Started from 61 kg ( 169 cm) ended 49 kg/50 kg. Now I am 26 years old , 171 cm height and I weight 67 kg. I hate my body, my legs especially, I eat very healthy, plenty of veg , water, tea and proteins , gyms are closed due to covid I dont know what to do I wish I was at least 57 kg..

HELP

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moon landscapes

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Felice te che spargi sementi ovunque e sei dedito al tuo sogno di corallo.

Come l’uomo che grida nelle risacche 

e lancia le sue reti di addii 

partendo per infiniti orizzonti.

Superba è la notte 

Superbo è il mare

che fanno cadere i nostri ultimi spaventi gettando l'anima nostra all'avventura.

Lasciala andare nelle sue reti tu che vuoi farla morta con la vita. Non morirà perché la tua donna è eterna perché ti ha guardato negli occhi.

Dentro la grande luce, la tua notte.

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nowhere near

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In fondo, la spiegazione della fascinazione che la vela esercita su alcune persone, sta proprio nelle circostanze che la rendono poco appetibile agli occhi della folla: l'estrema solitudine nel confrontarsi con un elemento temibile, la volontaria rinuncia a ogni aiuto umano, sia morale che fisico, e il fatto di sottoporre deliberatamente e consapevolmente la propria abilità a una prova impietosa. Nessuno vi osserva; nessuno riderà dei vostri errori, ma non ci sarà nessuno nemmeno ad applaudire ai vostri trionfi. Senza rivali da sconfiggere né giudici da compiacere, a parte la propria coscienza, la competitività e gli elementi spettacolari tipici della maggior parte degli sport sono totalmente assenti. Mi piacerebbe che il mare fosse una fonte di ispirazione in materia di etica e che navigare fosse un modo di trovare un significato all'esistenza a terra. Ci sono molte cose utili e preziose, a mio giudizio ,da imparare dal mare, a bordo di una piccola barca a vela. L'umiltà, la tenacia, la pazienza, la cooperazione. Ma sopratutto la libertà. E' un paradosso, naturalmente. In una barca in mezzo al mare si è prigionieri come in nessun altro luogo. Non si può scendere, non si può fare altro che continuare a navigare,se si vuole sopravvivere. Ma al tempo stesso si è più liberi che mai. Più liberi di sognare, davanti a quell'orizzonte ininterrotto, tutte le vite possibili e impossibili, più liberi perfino di sognare che la vita a terra, per se stessi e per tutti gli altri,possa essere appagante quanto a bordo di una barca ben equipaggiata, senza una destinazione precisa, con tutto il tempo che si vuole davanti a sé.