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Eat for the body you want. NOT the body you have.

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Does anyone knows if I’m going for 5 days to Denmark army (that’s a thing you have to do before actually being a soldier) and I’m not going to eat at all any commander might do anything? Help

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The best snack for a sweet tooth cravings is lychee

Only 16 calories and it’s sweet but VERY sweet.

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Imagine having a very high SW and loosing weight but still looking like an old whale because of all the loose skin 💀💀💀

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KATE MOSS:

Nothing tastes good as skinny feels

Iconic.

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STATS

BMI// 18.92

Height// 173 cm, 5’67

Weight// 57.2 kg, 126.1 lbs

Age// 17

ANA// 3 years and ~7 months

GW// 38

UGW// ash

Hospitalised:

-4 weeks at weight control

-3 days lax overdose

-3.5 months outpatient

-4 + 3.5 months ed full time treatment (+ is for being kicked out for a month)

Currently in relapsing process

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SW// ~59.8 kg, ~131.864 lbs

S’BMI// 20.6

LW// 48.1 kg, 106 lbs

L’BMI// 13.36

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I chose to relapse, after the torture of recovery I never wanted.

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If you can’t commit suicide because of the peoples around you, let your friend Ana do it. Trust her.

You will dissolve slowly.

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Recovery dieting plan:

Morning- 2 espresso, 3 cigarettes.

Snack- cigarette

Lunch- 2 leafs of kale with salt

Dessert (only for cravings)- cocoa powder with cinnamon, 0 calories sweetener, and a bit of water. Some weird but low cal type of chocolate spread.

Snack- any 0 calories drink

Dinner- cigarette, decaf espresso, 1 grape if you want to be extra.

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Don’t ever recover. You will thank me later .

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ANA HELPS for you to be present and heard.

Without her nobody cares, your only existence is for being blamed anytime because of your “PAST“ mental state, while you hiding it FOR OTHERS and to PLEASE OTHERS.

DONT RECOVER.

I tried it even I didn’t want it, I just did it FOR OTHERS.

All of the peoples around you is egotistic when you are recovering ,so be like them once forever.

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Joining.

Fasting for the first day since 3 months in recovery.

Gave it one last try today, talked to my mental health team about how hopeless and how crippling my depression is. Once again they didn't seem to care and said 'it can't be that serious, you can hold out a few weeks till your next review, but we're meant to be discharging you and you keep having all these new issues.'

Once again pushing my ED under the rug.

So this is it, I'm officially relapsing today.

I want to be so visibly sick from the inside out, thin and fragile, then finally everyone will take me seriously.

I want to be light as a feather as my thoughts drift away into the weightless air.

I wanna to reach the point once more where food disgusts me again and every calorie that touches my lips makes my stomach curdle.

Goodbye recovery, I sincerely tried.

Hello Anorexia, my old friend.

Let's begin this slow dance of self-destruction.

I will be sick enough.

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9 August 23;

SW: 58.3

CW: 57.2

Lost: 1.1 kg

GW: 45

UGW: 38

BMI: 19.2

Goal BMI: ~13.4

Current situation: hiding and pretending

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Somehow I lost 1.1 kg this week aiming for a lot more less