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clingy.exe

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shout out to anyone who’s struggling with their mental health and doesn’t think they can live like this for much longer; if you’re reading this, please stay alive, you’re still here and you’re so strong and i’m proud of you.

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My ex bf: I cheated, made her feel worthless, rated her performance after any social outing, and overall manipulated her pretty well

His best friend who sided with me at first but after a year long fling turned out to be worlds more manipulative: hold my drink

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Me: It’s really hard for me to trust anyone; I’m afraid of being abandoned. But it’s different with you. I feel like I can be myself without worrying that you’ll leave me. I’m glad I met you. Them:

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So I was pregnant for about 3 months (had 0 idea) and had a miscarriage in like July w this guy I was in love with (not dating lol) He was upset but watching him drift away from me is sending me in a fucking spiral. I just really don’t understand how you can’t be there for someone. I truly can’t. Yeah bpd sucks but I literally cannot detach myself from any romantic partner I have.

He also made it sound like I would’ve kept it. He said it would’ve ruined our lives which just... why am I still thinking about that? Why is the thought of him having to stay w me something that would be life ruining... am I that horrible?

Also he’s started ghosting me, which in my opinion is one of the worst things you can do to someone w bpd. Like scream at me. Fight with me. Tell me how horrible I am so I have the right to tell you about every fucked up feeling you’ve put me through. But ghosting leaves me with nothing but myself and my anger and it’s killing me from the inside out.

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full offence but you deserve to be at peace with being alive

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MIA

Sorry I don’t respond to messages anymore, I feel so so guilty about it. I just hardly am on this blog anymore :( I made it around 2016 and was rlly active with it till like 2018 and now I feel like I’ve completely abandoned it. But I’m gonna try posting more often!! So sorry again loves 💖💖💖

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why am i like this

why do i always start fights

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Why do I have to mess up anything that’s good for me

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I Died In 2010 and Was Replaced By Someone With Absolutely No Motivation and Complete Emotional Unavailability, a conspiracy thread

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me:

brain: dIsSoCiAtE???

me: NO

brain: *dissociates*

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tfw you don’t know if you’re overly sensitive because of your disorder or because you’re about to start your period.

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“I love you but you hurt me a lot”

— cess (via eatingisfab)

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i hate that fucking disorder, i don’t want it, it ruins everything